...

nuthing much... it was quite boring and quiet during the holy week... just stayed basically here at home and tried to kill boredom by having DVD marathons and lots of sleeping around. though resting is one thing i need, 'cuz two days from now i'll behaving my gall-stone remove, so far i think that's it for the whole week.

well, there's the meeting of the graduates 2mrw afternoon... but before that, i'm planning to hang-out at my best friends house and just chill there for a while, before going to school... i'll bring some dvds for him to watch and i guess pahiramin ko rin ng comics ko...anyways, bahala na..

after 2rmw... it's my confinement na for my opreation on tuesday... wish me luck. though i'm excited that i can eat regular foods a week after the operation... a big-YEY on that.

so ayon... nuhting much talaga...

keep you posted nlng later...


laterz.. c",)

At last... GRADUATION (and it's official)

it's OFFICIAL... i'll be marching for graduation this April 30, 2006 (@ 9am at the Balay Kalinaw in UP Diliman).

A big YEHEY on that!!

when i found out that all my subjects this sem and together with the otehr subjects for completion passed... it made my day really awesome!!! YEHEY!!!

now i'm really happy and excited for me!! :D

and now i have the right to celebrate... but i have to get operated first, so that i could really celebrate... hahaha! :P

oh well, i'm so happy today... and damn... i'm graduating... c",)


laterz... c",)

isang linggo na lang... yey!!

basically, it's exactly a week from my scheduled confinement for my gallstone removal surgery... and i'm so excited!! yippee!! :P

kaya konting tiis na lang... konting tiis na lang... pero kung tutuosin, kaya ko naman i-maintain 'tong way of eating eh... kaso, i can't wait to taste some foods that i'm so missing, like pizza and the variety bucket ng KFC... hay... excited na ako talaga! c",)

i can still stand it... hehehe

o cya.. yon lang... :P

laterz c",)

the heat is on...

summer season basically started around mid-March, which was just last month... but the heat then was quite tolerable, but lately it is really HOT!!! too hot that i can fry an egg on the floor... i can't even go out, so i'm just stuck here at home and spending hours online, thus wasting a lot of hours to my internet card. i'm guessing by this friday (or earlier pa) mauubos na agad eh...

though i know i can't reallly go out, cuz i have no money and i'm avoiding to eat something that can trigger my gallstone attack... it's just really hot outside.

sighs... sometime i wish there are really mutants in this reality... so there's a possibility that Storm is true... so that she can make the weather cool always. :P

anyways, today is Palm Sunday, the start of Holy Week... so basically a lot of people are going to either vacation outside the metro (like my best friend, going to HK... inggit!) or do some religious rituals (like my mom, having a church activity-gig... blah!) or just like me (bumming around at home & having a dvd marathon)...

and by the way, i still have 9 days to go before i get myself operated for the gallstone removal surgery... so i'm getting excited every day it gets nearer... yey!! :P

so ayon na muna... i'll try my best to post frequently...

laterz... c",)

summer plans...(if there's any)

yesterday, friday, i took the very last (and i really hope it's the last one) exam for college... and i hate it.

cuz it's fucking hard...!!!

i just really hope that i'll pass english 3 this time... cuz almost 2 years ago i failed the same subject cuz of my cuts & absences... the only thing i regret about this present subject, is that it's the same prof whom i had then... but i'm hoping that she has changed her heart (even in a little, subtle way). anyways, i jusr hope i pass this one and just graduate already.

but at least... it's officially summer time for me... (yey.)

but... yet still... im not sure what are my plans this summer...

though there are things that i want to do...

-like going to the beach...
-scattering my resumes to every job openings available...
-hanging-out more with my best friend and my barkadas...
-buying the stuffs that i love to have (check my previous blog entry)...
-read good books...
-do some adrenaline rush activities (like riding a rollercoaster or something similar to that)...
-watch movies with friends...

and so much more... though the only solid plan right now is the operation for my gallstone removal after holy week and (yeah) the graduation this end of April (which kinda ticks me off, cuz the office @ kalay made some changes again. we will still graduate @ UP, but it will no longer be at Bahay ng Alumni at 4pm. it will be more smaller than Alumni, it's at Balay Kalinaw @ 9am... oh men!)

so far that's it... i wish at least 2 or 3 things in the list would come true... i really wish & hope.

ayon.. yon na muna...

laterz c",)

wish list...

with my graduation getting nearer and also my bday nxt month... there are things that i really want as a gift/reward... but the problem is that i lack the enough finances to have it... so for those who knew me and got the chance to read this, i hope this would give you guys ideas on what to give me on either my graudation or my bday (or both)... :P

well here's my wish list for my grad & bday:
-Jessica Zafra's Twisted 7
-Jessica Zafra's Chicken Pox for the Soul
-Tuesdays with Morrie
-April issue ng Empire Magazine (X3 yung cover)
-10th Season ng FRIENDS (preferably the original copy)
-5th Season ng CSI (pirated or original copy)
-1st Season ng CSI: NY (pirated or original copy)
-TPB ng X-Men: Blood of Apocalypse
-TPB ng New Avengers (Volumes 2-3)
-HBC ng New X-Men Vol. 3-5 (basta kung san namatay si phoenix)
-TPB or HBC ng Marvels 1602
-at least isa sa mga pull-out list kong TPB na nasa CATS Market-Market (Avengers:Disassembled / X-Men & Black Panther / X-Men Dark Phoenix Saga)
-Marvel Select: Emma Frost
-Marvel Select: Dr. Octopus
-Bandai Marvel Heroes Gashapon series 1 or 4
-Sony Ericsson's K750i cellphone
-Starbucks Mug (yung tall, kulay green or blue)

anyways... am i asking too much? hehehe :P

wish list lang nman ito eh... kaya wish ko lang to have these things from my friends or from my pocket (pag may pera na ako...) :P

oh well, yon na muna...

laterz... c",)

i hope this is final...

well, this is my schedule, so far, for the make-up exam for english 3 and the operation fro my gallstone removal...

...i'll be taking the make-up exam this friday at 10am. after that i have the Holy Week for prepping up and resting for the operation. 'cuz i'll be admitting at the hospital on the 18th and hopefully i'll be operated on the 19th and i'll be confine for 5 to 7 days... so basically, i have two weeks more before i get operated... w/c kinda scares me, cuz who knows what can ahppen in this two weeks span, i hope not...

anyways, i hope for the best and that i also hope that i won't have any attacks too... and to do this, i'll have to be strict to my diet... so that means i have to starve for two weeks... i guess i'm strong enough to handle that... i just really hope that things will be smooth na rin...

wish me luck nlng on these things... cuz after all these... graduation time for me. c",)

laterz... c",)

i was almost there...BUT

yesterday was really quite a stressful day.

one... i had to wait for a long time for any updates on whether i'll be able to take the make-up Finals for English3... i was at kalay at around pass 9am, becuase i was informed (last friday) that i'll be taking the test at 10am... when i arrived at school, the office informed me that they haven't contacted my prof for any info about my test... well, at first it didn't bothered me, cuz i have a meeting for graduation at 1pm... but even after the meeting ended at 3pm, i waited for any news 'til 4pm... and the office said that i was gonna have to take the exam on the 11th (tuesday next week)... i was quite pissed off at the office for being inept...

two... during the graduation meeting, just found out that i have to raise at least 5k to graduate... not that stress, but later i realized that i have to raise 10K to really graduate... 5K for the graduation gigs & another 5K for the remaining tuition fee i haven't paid yet... oh men...

last... due to the re-schedule of my exam, my scheduled operation this week will be moved to next wednesday, after my exam... during the holy week... which kinda disrupted my schedule... cuz i still have to finish my remaining hours of SA after holy week... but then again, yesterday, i was quite tired and stressed that im having a hard time to think straight...

anyways, right now, im still fixing my sched for the whole month... with graduation and the opreation coming up... i need enough strength to do this...

ba't ganito palagi... when im almost there sa finish-line, smooth-sailing na, tapos... BAM!! anothe challenge... well, sa totoo, okay lang... kaso it's getting stressful na rin eh... though i love the challenge... i really need to lighten myself paminsan-minsan nman... can't i have a small amount of peace once in a while...? (sighs!)

anyways... gotta relax na muna...

laterz... c",)

know your friends...

i got this list while reading other peoples blogs (it kills the boredom...honest!)

...anyways, as trained by my prof, i'll put on the link from where i got this, to avoid plagiarizing... well here's the LINK...

and here's the list of the Types of Friends...

1. Sort-of Friend -- A Sort-of Friend is more of an acquaintance. You know that person and he/she knows you. He/She might be someone from work whom you've talked with at a few office events. He/She could be someone from your Psychology class and both of you acknowledge each other's existence.
2. Ordinary Friend -- An ordinary friend is someone whom you spent some time with in the past. He/She could be in the same click group in High School or College. An ordinary friend is different from a sort-of friend, in that there is a little bit of communication between you and your ordinary friend. This communication is not on a consistent basis, but your ordinary friend is definitely in your "FRIENDSTER" list. An ordinary friend is someone you send birthday greetings to once you receive the birthday alert from FRIENDSTER. Occasionally, you say hi, hello and how's it going to your ordinary friend. The frequency of communication is at least once a year.
3. Hang-out Friend -- A hang-out friend is someone whom you spend time with currently. He/She is a member of your current click group whom you go out with on bars and clubs. You talk to your hang-out friend at least once a week, and see each other at least once in two weeks. You occasionally go to movies or go shopping with your hang-out friend. Your friendship with your hang-out friend can potentially lead to Friend with benefit, Best Friend or Best Friend Forever.
4. Friend with benefit -- He/She is your hang out-friend whom you can sleep with, no strings attached.
5. Best Friend -- A best friend is someone whom you are currently hanging out with, or whom you spent some time in the past. The difference between a hang-out friend and a best friend is that you completely trust your best friend with your personal problems. Your best friend is there to help you when you're having car-troubles, but he's definitely there to hang-out with you to have a good time also (e.g. movies, shopping).
6. Best Friend Forever -- A best friend forever (B.F.F.) is a higher lever of best friend, in that your B.F.F practically knows you inside and out. H/She is someone whom you can depend on regardless of any situation. A best friend is someone whom you can depend on, on most situations (not all). To illustrate the difference, a best friend is there to be your crying shoulder if you encounter a bad breakup. Your B.F.F. will confront your ex who dumped you!

almost there...

last night i had another gall-stone attack... and it's getting worst... and it's getting frequent... for just this month, i have 3 attacks already... well, last night was the 3rd attack... and i hate it cause im almost there to finish my finals... thou i think it was also a blessing the disguise cuz right now, i was able to finish the final paper for my Kom 3 and later i'll be able to study furthermore for my englsih3 finals, which i'll be taking it this monday, before the graduation meeting and a day before my hospitalization for my operation...

anyways, right now, im really gonna avoid all oily, fatty & salty foods... kasi even just a small piece can really trigger it and give me a hard time to stand still... this stone has really gotta go.

i'll be dropping this paper later before i fetch my mom...

anyways, wish me luck...

it's just too bad i wasn't able to go with my barkada to tagaytay for girard & mouses wedding... but anyways, there's always next time for some gimiks with them... but first have to finish the things needed to be done... like my finals & my gall-stone removal.

wish me luck...


laterz... c",)

have to force myself... just a little bit.

it's finals season at Kalayaan College.

normally i would just relax and just read-browse the notes or hand-outs i have a day before the exam... but with my status as graudating student, there the added factor of being nervous and somehow scared... though, in my mind i should not be scared, but somehow im having a tingling-feeling. especially when i took a completion exam a while ago...

anyways, i should let myself be stressed out by the pressure of doing right for the exams, just to graduate... i should be more relax and cool... hmmm... i should just chill-down a little, but with a little bit of force on the studying-and-doing-my-best part. :P

anyways, im done with my Broad Comm100 exam, which i took last saturday... i'm also done with completion test for Seminar, which i took last week... i'm also done with my removals in Math 100... and the Hum2 presentation, well, i did my best to perform the best zipping a while ago (i hope i do get credit for just zipping around...hehehe)... so that means three more exams (Speech1, SocSci2 & English3), one more completion exam (STS) and a paper (Kom3: script) to go and hopefully i could graduate this April... whohoo on that!!

oh yeah, i still have to pay the balance of P5,350.00 at school... but i guess, i can pay that during clearance... madali na rin nman i-raise yan eh...i hope.

oh well... i guess, that's it na muna... im quite tired na from the days tests and reviews... i know im not yet done reviewing for STS, but i think i can finish the review 2mrw at kalay... mdyo pagod na rin ako and i dnt want to force myself, mahirap ma-stress rin...

o cya... that's it na muna...

wish me luck this finals week.


laterz...

Lie Low

Lie Low

(by Plumb)

You didn't care about me

So I packed my bags

And left you to wonder

What you could've done better

To make our love stronger

We could have lasted forever and longer

But we'll never know how good it could be

This isn't how it should be

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

Did you ever care about me?

I remember the time

You looked in my eyes and promised

We'd stay together

Our love would grow stronger

The storms we had weathered

Wouldn't last any longer

It could've been so good

But there was something else for me

Marvel Super Heroes Science Exhibition!

The California Science Center will host the world premiere of "Marvel Super Heroes Science Exhibition" on March 26, 2006. "Marvel Super Heroes," which runs through September 4, 2006, will immerse visitors in the electrifying sights, sounds and sensations of the Marvel Universe while they explore how some of the most loved comic book heroes and villains bring science into their world.

Engaging and interactive experiences will encourage visitors to learn about real life science and technology through the mythic powers of Super Heroes. Is there a biological basis to Hulk's transformation? How can knowledge of simple mechanics help us command the strength of Iron Man? Visitors of all ages will enjoy finding the answers to these questions and more as they learn about science and technology while living the fantasy of their favorite Marvel Super Hero.

'Marvel Super Heroes' is a wonderful avenue to introduce visitors to the remarkable achievements of current science and technology—achievements that in many ways give us special powers we dream of through the comics, such as Doc Ock's dexterity with prosthetics, Iron Man's physical strength, and Daredevil's sight in the face of blindness," said Jeffrey N. Rudolph, President of the California Science Center.

In this exhibition, visitors can explore the science and power within Marvel's Super Heroes. Visitors can:

• See if their senses are as sharp as Daredevil's when they navigate through an alleyway using their sense of touch and hearing clues ("psst over here")
  
• Investigate the Incredible Hulk's brain and learn which areas are responsible for generating human emotions such as rage—the key to Hulk's super abilities
  
• Discover what it's like to have a helping hand or three with Doctor Octopus through the engineering technology of prosthetic limbs
  
• Examine how lightning is created and calculate the distance of a thunderstorm that destroys a villain in the Storm exhibit.
  
• See how an optical illusion known as motion-induced blindness can make the Invisible Woman disappear

In one of the highlights of the exhibit, visitors can become a real life Iron Man by stepping into an exo-suit to lift a Scion xB, a vehicle weighing nearly 2500 lbs. By experimenting with simple levers and pulleys to lift weights, they will learn what the future holds for increasing human strength.

In another area, visitors will explore the wonders of Spider-Man when they learn about the elasticity and strength of spider webs. Here they will be able to test the strength of a synthetic fiber, similar to spider silk, called Technora™.

Visitors entering the Xavier Institute for Higher Learning will interact with the X-Men and discover how genetic mutation can evolve into super abilities. They can see how matter changes from one state to another when Iceman transforms himself into ice or explore the magnetic fields that protect Magneto. Guests can examine Wolverine's skeleton—strengthened by an indestructible metal—and then learn about artificial parts developed by biomedical engineers to enhance patients' lives. In the Danger Room, which focuses on Banshee's sonic superpowers, visitors can discover the physical nature of sound waves and learn about their unique properties. They can create motion with the sound emitted from a tuning fork and explore how sound is used in current technology—from ultrasound to sound guns.

Other experiences in the exhibition:

• Follow a timeline that covers the history of Marvel comics from the Golden Ages, to Comics in Crisis, to Reinvention. Learn how the story lines of Marvel comics are connected to historical social, political and cultural events, as well as society's hopes and fears about the future of science.
  
• Visit the Stan Lee Theater and watch an exclusive interview with the creative mastermind behind some of Marvels most popular characters.
  
• Become a Super Hero and appear on the cover of a Marvel comic. Have your picture taken and then watch as it is superimposed onto the face of a character from a selection of covers.

The "Marvel Super Heroes Science Exhibition" features over 9,000 sq. ft. of interactive experiences developed, designed and fabricated by Yellowbrick•Holman Exhibition Inc. in partnership with the Ontario Science Centre. After its debut in Los Angeles, the Ontario Science Centre will tour "Marvel Super Heroes" to other science centers and museums in North America.

The "Marvel Super Heroes Science Exhibition" is open 7 days a week from 10 am to 5 pm, with last admission at 4 pm. Admission to "Marvel Super Heroes" is $9.75 (Adults), $8.75 (Seniors 60+ & Students 13+ with valid student I.D.) and $7.75 (Children 4-12). Member rates are $7.75 (Adults) and $6.75 (Children). Combination ticket prices for the exhibit and any IMAX film are $16.25 (Adults), $13.00 (Seniors/Students) and $11.00 (Children). Tickets are available online at CaliforniaScienceCenter.org and advanced ticket purchase is encouraged. Due to the possibility of lines, please arrive early. General admission to all other Science Center exhibits is free.

The California Science Center is located in historic Exposition Park at 700 State Drive, Los Angeles. Enter visitor parking at 39th & Figueroa Street. Parking is $6 per car. For general information, call 323.SCIENCE (323.724-3623) or visit the official website at CaliforniaScienceCenter.org. Both the Science Center and IMAX Theater are wheelchair accessible.

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After reading this... im really wishing i can ask this one as part of my graudation gift... to go to this exhibit in the States... though it's until September... i really wish i can go there and see it for myself... or jsut a wishful-thinking, have it here in the philippines... i just really wish.

anyways... yon lng... :P

laterz... c",)

wake up... it's almost a year!!

i think it's time to wake up and really try to think it through... though it is waaay overdue, i have to decide now. well, i have decided a few days ago when i got to talk to some of my psych-friends... and they were right that i should have done it way back then when i was still 'injured' by their stupidity... naunahan kasi ng mga sinabi nila before the incident eh... and somehow, it's hard to get mad to them when days before they said that we are a family...

well, right now (or few days back) i have to cut them off from my life... cuz it's not worth fighting for. so i guess they'll be put in my head as "good-fun memories turned bad".

and so far i can't wait for them na ma-karma sila sa mga ginawa nila sa akin... it would bring a big smile to my face... hehehe!! :P

though, i can't forget the good times we have... but somehow, i was too naive to notice that on the later part they were taking advantage of me... pero, in a way i've learned from it na... it just took almost a year to really notice and take some actions about it.

it boils down on this... that some of the people at FA, whom i considered as friends and later they considered me as part of their family, left me. and somehow after that event, i was quite trying to forget the incident and try to fight for the friendship we have established... but it seem that their true colors have showed up and showed how evil they are and took advantage of my trust towards them... and i was stupid about it and it took a year to really see it clear...

but anyways, i think i have to really wake up and just go... it's not my lost... karma will have to play with them for what they did to me... hahaha :P

ayon... kinda stoop nga lang ako... kasi ang tanga-tanga ko to complete trust them... but hey!! i'll try my best to be not affected by them... i'm strong enough to handle this... plus i have my friends to back me up if ever things go hay-wire... c",)

o cya... ayon... na gising na ako sa katotohanan about them... and it's really time to move on, right? (RIGHT!!!)

though being civil with them is still a respectable act towards them... they're still human beings (na may sablay)...

i just wish i could have some fun ruining their lives by spilling out the 'secrets' of things they shared to me athat are kept confidential...(evil ko!!! bwahahaha!!!)

hehehe!!! anyways... i'm good and cool about my decision...




now i have to go back to work and finish some papers and study for the finals.... i just cnt wait and graduate na!!! c",)


laterz!!!

NADA...

nuthing much to blog about... i think...

well... i think there is... but i dnt know which one to blog about...

uhm... anyways, i'll just blog it...

mostly is, again, based on what happened to me lately... but on the 'random thoughts' thing...

yesterday, i got to try-out for the Zips class... FINALLY!!! it was fun and i kinda dig-it...and i'll be trying it again next weekend... yipee!!

the sad part is... i think i kinda broke my friends digicam... OUCH!!! i juts dnt know how to say it to her 2mrw... though it still works, just with the scratches... mdyo kinakabahan ako... sighs!!

well... i think that's the things to blog na muna...

minsan kasi nakakatamad na rin mag-blog... kasi nuthing new naman to update eh... pero still im cool and good on whatever im doing... still learning though... :P

laterz... c",)

New X3: The Last Stand Trailer... WOW!!

before my yesterday ended, i was able to see and download the newest trailer of X3... amazingly, it was remarkably well-done... i guess the rumors and the critics about the new director can be somehow erase by this new trailer... though, the trailer showed a lot of possibilities on the who's-who on the characters who will die (there's one in particular who will be seen too in the new superman flick... hint-hint!)

Anyways, the trailer is a GOOD one!!! i hope there another one coming up... and i can't wait for the DVD extras when this one comes out... :P

(this pic of Storm, wearing a new uniform is seen in the new trailer...in which the got to find the newly ressurected Jean Grey and the injured-dying body of Cyclops... to get a chance to watch the trailer click this LINK)

For now... i've been watching the trailer just for the excitement and to ease me... cuz today was just something BORING... i just can't believe that this wednesday (today) was the most boring wednesday ever... but somehow, i just needed a rest...

i hope 2mrw would be something interesting... :P

laterz... c",)

back to square one...

i was suppose to blog what happened to me the last weekend, last night... but i got too sleepy to blog... so here, i'll try to put whatever happened to me from Friday to yesterday....

FRIDAY (March 3/06)
-got to talk with my best friend that night... something that was quite nakakakaba when it started but after almost 2hrs of talking and clarifying things out... it went good. though it also helped me a lot to grow, i was amazed at myself that i, somehow, was able to open up somethings that bugs be that concerns to my best friend... (though there are still some things that i want to ask and tell him, but im letting father-time to give me the proper oppurtunity to spill it out and hopefully help me out too...) Well, it was a good friday... :P

SATURDAY (March 4/06)
-after talking to my best friend and ended at around past 12-midnight... i went to sleep, cuz at 530am, i woke up to drive my dad to the wet market (Farmers Market @ Cubao) to buy some remaining stuff for the bday celebration of my mother that afternoon... got home at around 8-ish and preped-up for my 9am class. went to school. then at around 1pm i went home, waited for some of my friends and ate at the celebration... and with Mouse, Girard, Wends & I... we kinda had a small 'inuman session'... though it was cut-off by my dad, becuase of his being compulsive... anyways we're all cool about his (my dad's) situation... hehehe :P Well, it was still a good saturday... :P

SUNDAY (March 5/06)
-well, it was a normal sunday... got to do some chores and some homeworks... but the worst part was when i had another gall-stone attack around early evening (5-ish)... by the powers that be, it was really painful than before... i was rushed to the hospital at around 10-ish... the thing that made this day not-that-bad was the very pretty-sexy nurse who took care of me there... hehehe!!! during that time, my mind was running a lot of kinky-nurse fantasies.... hehehe!! (GRABE, sobrang ganda ni Nurse Chanda!!!)... im hoping that when i'll be operated there, she's the one who would take care of me... hehehe :P i stayed there 'til the next day...

MONDAY (March 6/06)
-i stayed at the hospital until 8-ish in the evening... though the doctor who took care of me was a good one, compared to the other 2... he was very understanding and somehow i can give my trust to him... and the good part in the hospital that i stayed (San Juan Medical Center), we got to pay quite cheaper compared to the confinements before... got home around 10-ish... weak, but somehow ready for school the next day...

NOW...

well, it was a good day though... but i somehow feel paranoid towards one person... i know mdyo na kulitan ko uli sya nung nasa hospital ako... pero i think bad trip sya sa akin... pero, so far, i'll give him some space na rin... i think it's the same procedure with my best friend... pero, still i want to make some damage-control... but i think time will tell when the right oppurtunity will come...

i guess that's for now... have to finish some homeworks for PE1 2mrw... hehehe :P


laterz... c",)

wag pilitin (don't force it)

i just got to talk with 2 of my few closes friends a while ago... and i asked some advices on my current situation... and so far, based on what i told them and how they interpreted it, i'm having another case of Burnout... and i think they're right... it's the reason why i can't fully help my friend lately... im having burnout episodes again...

and i think it's becuase of the pressure the im trying to, forcely, fix it... and what giselle said to me a while ago... "wag mong pilitin... kusa rin yan lalabas, naturally... you just have to be patient and have a clear mind..." (oh those words of enlightenment from Giselle always helps me to get on the go...)

anyways, i guess that's the strategy i'll do, for both cases... i'll just not force it and let it come out naturally... though changes can happen, i hope for the best for all of us.

i think that's a good way to really end my day... and start something good 2mrw... (thanx ging-ging...!!)


g'nyt... & laterz... c",)

a season of sadness... i think for most of us

i really feel sorry for one of my friends right now... though his sad feelings are really shouting from his mind... im not so sure how to help him... all i could right now for was just be there and support him... though i can't be with him right now, physically, i pray that he'll survive the things he'd been through lately... i know he's strong to surpass this... and i hope for the best for him (my friend, MR).

the sadness he is experiencing really gives me some splitting headaches... though im no tele-empath, the sad-aura is really strong... i just hope he would ease-down and relax and get rid of his stresses... i just really hope for the best for him...

anyways... so far, in my department... im just being a friend... tries to cheer-up things and just be there (kahit di nag-uusap...) i just hope im doing my job right...

one sadness can really affect others... me as well... oh men.

but i think it helps me to be more prep-up for the demons that bugs me... i hope.

on to the lighter side of things... my comic-buddy (Balta) lend me another comic-book... and the one he lend me was the awesome storyline!! (yey!!) makes my day go happy... even with the turmoils that surrounds me lately.

oh well, i guess its an all's well & ends well... so far for me (sorry to be quite selfish, it's my blog anyway...) though i realy hope & pray for MR would be okay, soon...


laterz... c",)

sighs...

it's been a while since nag-blog in ako... and so far it's a up-down-UP (again)-(then)DOWN for me these past few days...

it's the things in my head that makes me quite paranoid and too shallow to think... and so far, im hating myself for letting me get affected by these things... for a person, like i, who have survived a lot (and i mean A LOT) of things for the past 23 years & 9 months... i guess it's time for a new strategy on dealing with these burdens...

but what kind of strat should i do... hmm... it's hard to think lately... anyways, i'll have something (hopefully) something, a well-planned, strat soon... (yes... soon is the best expectation right now)

kahit kanina i wanna try to open up my problem with a friend, whom somehow i started to trust (and i think vice-versa too)... but i just can't let it out, 'cuz i'm not really good on saying my problems... though i tried to say it in a weird way... lalo lang ata lumabo eh... anyways... somehow, i am trusting him na rin...

ayon... so far, im still good... but somehow i wanna face these things that bugs me ASAP...

(sighs)

oh well, we all got problems... but the difference between me and everyone else, is that i can survive it... yeah, i think i'm good... :P

laterz... c",)

erratic thoughts...

well, im been experiencing random thoughts lately... though it's quite normal for me to have those kind of thoughts, but lately, it's weird that i would have the same things that run in my mind...

and these things are quite making me paranoid is some way that i'm hating it. i know before that these thoughts doesn't really affect me before... but now, it does affect me... (oh men!! too many things in my head... have to just focus on the important things before fixing the rest...)

anyways, right now i'm just uploading some more pictures on my Multiply account... just to make me more online and be reachable to my friends... :P

i think i ahve to dealt with the paranoia that i've done yesterday... (you see!! the things that makes me paranoid, makes me do stupid things!!... grrr!) and somehow i kinda hate doing damage-control... kasi sometimes parang i dnt really have to do it, kasi if they're my friends they'll understand... but then again, i guess, having the effort to fix it can see that i'm really fighting for the friendship-bonds... (sighs)

oh well... i guess that's the thing i'll do for now... sort-of damage-control to a friend... a love-struck-sick friend... hay buhay...!

anyhow... gotta check the things that i've been upload for the past half hour...

laterz... c",)

time to go black...

well, the president (GMA) declared a State of Emergency already... just in time for the 20th anniversary of the 1st EDSA revolt... hmm... how very theatrix she is, even for a small woman... that damn small bitch!!! (i hope for the worst for her!!)

anyways, add to the growing depression of our nation... i guess, even spider-man is going black. :P well, to lighten up things... i'm guessing spidey will be going black for the 3rd film next year (May 2007)... and when he goes black... i hope Venom would be the rumored 2nd villian... or i hope black cat would be there... hehehe :P

right now, i have no class 'cuz of what is happening in our country today... sighs!!! i just hope when classes starts monday, things would be nicely-different... not badly-different...

i hope for the best for this country... for everyone else.

laterz...

near the end... (graduation season in the air)

i just got the contact prints for my grad pics this morning...

i look such an honorable person... and somehow there's dignity in this picture... hehehe :P

though, i'll be having the real copies by march... i'm really excited when i got to see and choose the pictures... yey!! :P (i'll post the formal & the creative pix later on...)

yes!!! i'll be graudating this April '06... (and in my mind right now i'm wishing that the graduation march theme would the one where Darth Vader marches... hehehe!!)

anyways, i'm quite happy today... got to hang-out with my friends (the FA pips and my best friend)... c",)

laterz... :P

just hangin' 'round...

well, this day is a good one.

i hanged-out at my best friend's house the whole day... to be honest, i kinda removed the tensions and the pseudo-depressing mode i have been experiencing for the past week... it helped... kasi talagang hang-out with my best friend... c",)

light lang kasi yung load nya kaya he has the time to hang... kaya ayon... sna ganun na palagi... anyways, 2mrw i guess, it's back to reality for the both of us... school, work... and other stuff.

sna naman we can go out and watch a movie, or hang-out uli... especially he's bday coming near na.. hehehe..

anyways, im good na rin... the hangin-out at his place helped me. im cool. :P

o cya... tutulog na ako...

laterz... c",)

half done...

well, im done with 2 out of the four things i should be submitting and prep-up for this week... im done with Hum2 & Speech1...

2nyt i'll do the one for PE1 (which is due on wednesday)... and try (at least TRY) to review more for my removal exam for Math100 this friday...

anyways, i think that's it for today... i'll just catch-up na lang with my some readings for english3 later at school...

hmm... so far i have accomplsihed 50% of my load in just one sitting yesterday... i just love sundays, cuz it's the day i could really focus on my school works... hehehe :P

plus i'm done also for the water meter reading sa pseudo-village namin for the month of January... all's done for now, i think... :P

anyways, i'll have my reward naman 2mrw afternoon eh... yey!!! :P

oh well... i guess that's it for now... have to prep-up for school na rin.


laterz. c",)

dagnamit!!! (pressure time...again?!?)

thou it seems that i'm in a stressful time... deep inside of my thoughts, i kinda like it. i guess it's somehow a temporary replacement of an adrenaline rush. but the thing i hate in this situation right now, some outside factor is pulling me out of work... and somehow i don't know what it is...

oh well, i guess i have no time to know it. just have to focus on what works i should do...

let's see what's on my to-do list for the week:
-outline for my speech1 class (due on tuesday) - typed-written
-alternative paper for hum2 (due 2mrw, monday) - also typed-written
-the safe-sex comics/brouchure for my PE1 (due wednesday) - typed-written
-review for my Math 100 removals (hopefully, friday...and this is serious na!!)

and i think the reward for these... would be something 'yipee'... the Marvel bandai collection... thou i'll getting it 2mrw or on tuesday... it's a good reward for me... yey!! :P

anyways, i have to finish my hum2 paper... then fix the outline for speech1... then i'll do the PE1 2mrw night and continue it tuesday night... hmmm... i think that's a good gameplan... and on the math 100 removals, i'll gamble it na...

anyways, again... wish me the best of luck... thou, yeah, i'll survive it for sure... sometimes having a bit of pride can be good for the spirit.


laterz... c",)

Take A Stand...

this is the new posters for the upcoming 3-part of X-Men... which is entitled X3: The Last Stand. COOL!!!

i can't really wait na for the movie to go out!!

anyways... yeah, my parents knows about my tattoo... and so far, they're giving me a tease... which i think better than scolding me... but the teasing of my mo kinda show how disappointed she is... but somehow, i don't care... maybe because she doesn't know the real reasons of this tattoo... i guess, mom's aren't know the best or know their kids that well... hmm... i guess that's part of growing up. having you own life to control and not be under them always. anyways, i'm cool with it... i'm still growing and learning... day by day. c",)

and i guess... this is my Stand that i'm taking. :P

anyways... have to sleep na rin... it's almost 1am.

g'nyt!


laterz... c",)

and the time has come to... they knew!!!

it's more than a year ago (jan 2005) that i decided to have a tattoo on my back and hid it from my parents ... and now, (Feb 2006) they know.

so far, im not really affected by it, cuz it's old news... but somehow, im quite nervous on what they'll ask me... hmm...

im not paranoid or something but it kinda gives me a wiggy feeling...

oh well, i'll just accept the concequence that will come in my way... with my parents know my tat.

hmm... this is something... :P

by the way, a while ago was the photo shoot for my graduation... im so loving myself in a toga... hehehe!!! i took the liberty to shoot myself with my camera-phone... i'll post them next time.

oh well... i thought this would be a 'so-so' day... but i think the tattoo would be something... hehehe! :P


laterz!! c",)

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i want this one!!

well, im planning to buy this DVD when it comes out... im just thinking on whether or not buy the pirate one... anyways, it's still young to decide... make it next week or so...

anyways, so far, im half-done with my readings for Eng3... but i have to finish it by later so i cud type the critical essay 2mrw... and later on, i'll prep-up for my report for J.S.Mill's 2mrw at Soc.Sci.2...

anyways i think that's all for now, though slightly stressed out this weekend... but im good... just hope for the best for me...

laterz!!! c",)

wowow...eeek!!

well, this weekend was something. it started friday night with the 3-hr traffic going to quiapo church that night... man, i was sitting on the driver's chair for more than 3-hrs... very-VERY stressful and pissing!! yeah, cuz it's the 1st friday of the month and my parents always go there, so as a good-sports to them i try to drive them there most of the time... but last friday was terrible... anyways, i think it's out of my system na... im good.

then yesterday was quite 'so-good'... cuz i did my SA work for the morning and just drove my dad in the afternoon and went out for a dinner-date with an old friend... though the sad news (click on this LINK for the news report from Inquirer's site) for the metro was the almost hundred people who died at ultra for the 1st anniv of wowowee... tsk-tsk, people who really gamble a lot just to get money... anyways, nakakalungkot nga lang pero sana people would really think before they react...

and today, sunday morning... i'll just do my readings for english 3 and do an essay for it... then i'll try to watch Brokeback Mountain after; yesterday i got to watch Proof, it's quite a good movie... got a 'psych' essence too...

anyways, i think after the english3 and the dvd, i'll prep-up myself for the Soc.sci.2 report 2mrw... anyways i think that's a good plan for a sunday...

wish me luck nlng for 2mrws report...

laterz... c",)

an eye for art...

well, got to Ayala Museum yesterday afternoon... and i went there with some of my classmates from my Hum 2 class... and yeah, i took my car... cuz it's quite a hot-fuzzy weather. the place was good. after at the museum, we took a snack at GB in Libis... then there, went back to kalay... and i hanged-out with jobi, ambok & MR... then decided to hang-out at tepay at Katipunan... then after an hour... went to fecth my mom at RP...

well, iha-highlight ko na lang yung tambay with my friends from FA... wala lng... luv ko naman sila eh... kahit mdyo kups sila... :p

anyways... im cool... nothing to worry about. kahit seeing my name on their vandals... i dnt fucking care... u can't please everyone, right?

im good... anyways, have to go back and finish my paper... cuz by 1030, jax will fetch me here later... i'll hitch with him going to school..

laterz...

tag-along... please…

well, it's final (no turning back).... i'll be going to Ayala Museum in Makati this Wednesday, after my class @ kalay at 1130am... but im thinking, should i bring someone? kasi i'll going there alone eh, and parang naghahanap ako ng kasama to go there... i guess, im willing to cover his/her LRT-MRT expenses just for that person na samahan ako (para bang desperadong makahanap ng kasama... hehehe :P)

anyways, im thinking of some people who can tag-along with me...well there's...

- jax (but i think he's busy with a lot of archi stuff, kahit wala syang pasok twing wednesdays...)
- mr (i think may class rin sya pag-wednesday ata... plus baka kasama niya si kini)
- lloyd (sus... mangbababae lang yon... :P )
- nina (may class din ata siya)
- giselle (i doubt it... but im still hopeful na samahan nya ako... pero i have to be careful)
- mga ka-psychs (most of them ay nakapunta na... kaya malabo)
- FA pips (baka wala silang pera & i think may class ata rin sila by that time)

... i guess wala akong mayayaya akong samahan sa ayala museum. i guess it's gonna be another solo-mission for me... (whaaaa!)

pero i know wednesday is still 3 days from now... still raw to decide and to make alok... pero i just hope (not wish!!) that sana may mayaya akong mag-tag-along sa akin going to makati... :P

basta, wish me luck....

nyt-nyt!

laterz... c",)

catching up...

well, i'm one week in-advance done for the report i'll do for my Soc Sci 2 class. just finished doing my research and the hand-out 30 minutes ago... then, i just prepped-up the paper i'll be doing this wednesday night for my Humanidades 2 class, which is about my solo-trip this coming wednesday afternoon at Ayala Museum. i was planning to go there 2mrw, but i just found out that it's close during mondays, and the only free time i can go is on wednesday... so i'll be going there, solo and commuting... this would be fun for me, 'cuz it's gonna be a cheap-but-fun adventure for me... going around the urban jungle by foot... hay... :P

anyways, it's just 12 in the afternoon, and most of my works are done... hmmm... it's weird, but i think satisfying as well... maybe the next thing to do is catching up on the readings i've missed reading for my English 3 class...

oh men... i can't believe im in a good study-mode right now.

though right now, im thinking of giving myself an award for these stuffs i did... hmm... a movie? (well, i think aeon flux would be out this week...) a comic? (nah... im going on a one-time-big-time on that this march) ...what reward should i give to myself... bahala na..!! :P

nways, yesterday was quite a so-so day though, i hanged-out at my best friends house and did some of the readings for my soc sci2 report... while he was doing his archi stuff... basically it's a studious environment there, and it helped me focus on my work. but i hate to notice it, that lately, everyone around me are as busy as the flow of traffic at EDSA... di mo ma-approach. kahit yung bagong friend kong si MR, though i know he's just thinking deep about his problems towards someone he likes... wala lng... parang lahat lang ng tao na nakikita ko o nami-meet ako ay busy... hmmm... maybe it's the '2nd sem syndrome', in which the real start of the 2nd sem is on January and that students are cramming up to do their stuff as well as mix it with their angst and dilemmas in life... anyways, i think i'll just give them their spaces and not to disturb them for a while... ako rin naman, i need some space... :P

oh well... i think that's it na muna. i have to eat lunch na muna then after that catch-up with some of the readings, para 2mrw, focus ako sa Speech1 class requirement about the individual recitation-thing...

hope the best for me... though i know i'm still good. :P


laterz... c",)

it isn't a BIG deal but...

during my Kom 3 class, we shared the poems we wrote as part of our requirement for the subject... basically i just wrote what i'm feeling during the time when they left me last March 21 last year... yeah, the incident where they accidentally left me drunk at katipunan... anyways, some of my classmates in that class were familiar with the story and somehow tried to tease me... but i didn't care that much, somehow i just laughed with them too... after class, i just realized that it will be almost a year since that bad night and somehow i was able to laugh it out now... hmm...

im not really mad at them now... yeah, i still hang-out with most of them and still good friends with some... but i still wanna make them pay for the immaturity and irresponsibility they did... as i said before, i hope for their karma to come and hope that im on the audience seat. for me, it would be some kinda treasure... just like having them as my friends...

it's kinda weird, but so far that's what my mind is set after the said incident...

well, for the readers, click on this LINK to know what happened to me last March 21, 2005...

anyways, so far im cool with it... im good.


laterz...

weekend ender...

it's been a while since i've blogged... well i think a few days back would be considered as a "been-a-while". anyways, it's a so-so weekend, the usual weekend: class for the saturday morning, drive to accu-pressure therepy in the afternoon and chill after... then sunday would be just chillin out at home and try to finish whatever things to be done for the coming week...

the only thing that somehow made it into a not-that so-so day was watching the boxing fight a while ago on Paquiao vs. Morales, in which the Pac-man won... go manny!! (yey!!) watching the fight a while ago remind me of the time i've watched one of his fights live and for free... and it was really intense that time... cuz im just a few feet away from the ring... fascinating. Also, I got to finish a very good comicbook i borrowed from a friend at kalay… Batman: The Dark Knight Returns… it’s a Batman comics in which Frank Miller (Sin City, Daredevil) wrote it… and it’s where there’s a girl Robin (Carrie… something)… good story!! ANG LUPET!!!

anyhow, 2mrw my class would just be at 230 to 4pm... so i kinda have a lot of spare time, and that spare time i'll be going to DV to buy some stuff... and yeah, get the things my best friend is asking for there... then hopefully i'll be back in school by 1 or 2pm, just before classes starts.

oh well... i guess that's it for now... im still good (though the thing that bugs me is still there, but i think im still finding for the time to fix it... but time will tell when i'll fix it)


okay... laterz!! c",)

romantic-comedy for the morning...

i woke up a while ago, around 5 in the morning... well, my eyes opened at around 4... but i woke up at 5... well, i woke up having quite a kinky dream... anyways... when i woke up at 5, i i tried to go back to sleep... but to no avail. so i decided to watch a movie... though i wanna watch something accelerating, i sat down and watch Must Love Dogs, a romantic-comedy... it was a fun-feel-good movie... but somehow i wasn't expecting it to really watch it.... (though in my head back then im hopiing by watching this flick would make me go back to 'lala' land...) anyways, it somehow made a good jump start for my brain cells to function properly today... it's kinda weird, but it's cool... at least i got to jump start on the right time... 'cuz later i'l be having my mid-term exam for Social Science 2... in which right now i'm trying to make some very last minute reviews (oh cramming... it never left my system... but hey, it helps too though)

anyways, while writing this blog, i trying to get to know martin luther and hopefully niccolo machiavelli... just to have something to answer for the exam later @ 1pm...

anyways, wish me luck... i'll be leaving home for school later at around 10-ish, i'll be riding along with my best friend... and hoping that i could catch a ride again in the afternoon... :p

wish me luck & hope for the best for me!!!


laterz!!! c",)

the shrink is IN...

hey hey hey... it's been quite not-that-long since i blogged... to many thing happened in those days... though i was planning to blog them, i just decided that it's time to keep somethings for myself... though, again, there are things thatare really something to share with...

anyways, i was suppose to blog last night... but i got home pass midnight and quite sleepy too... but last night, it was fun... cuz for its been a very long time... almost months that i have not been hanging out with my FA family... and last night, i hanged out with them... and it's the bonding that i missed the most!!! GRABE!!! na-miss to talaga sila... kahit na nakikita ko silasa kalay palagi, i wasn't able to hang-out with them regularly... puro "hi's" and "hello's"... and last night was awesome!!! though israel & seth weren't able to come... but being with ambok, joby, tepay, gato, denise, trisha, & dave (whose bday was the reason of the gathering...) i miss them a lot!!! plus there were new friends that i got to know,... like MR and kini (the jap girl), Ayah, angky... at iba pa...

oh memories!!! i damn!!!

kahit na i never able to drink with them last night... the bonding, the jokes, the talks... grabe!!! i would not trade them for anything!!! mahal na mahal ko sila!!! their my friends!!! c",)

anyways... im so happy right now...

hay naku... enjoy talaga... cant wait for the next... malamang sa bday ni seth sa february... pero mas enjoy 'to sa bday ko sa May 2006... hehehe!!! gang-bang ito!!! :P

(hitit ng hangin)... i guess i have to start na with some of my homeworks na rin... kasi this week, start na rin ng midterms namin... and there's exams, write-ups... and oh, i forgot... the grad plans... oh well, i thought that this sem would be worry-free... i just thought, but in reality it's not that quite free... but, the load is quite right, not that heavy naman...

oh well... anyways... have to start on something na muna... im happy. im good!! yeah!!


oh yeah... i forgot... just something i just wanna post... one of the reason i wasn't able to blog for some time was that of me, being a shrink for some love-sick patients... thought, i would like to blog in just a gist of the stories they shared... i can't, cuz i promised that i won't tell a soul... just to prove that somehow, i can really be trusted. and that 'di ako naglalaglag ng mga kaibigan ko... eh kasi mahal ko sila eh!!! :D (that's the reason fo the title... ehehe!)


o cya... maya na lang uli...

laterz... c",)

so-and-so...

the ever-ending journey of everyday lives is about to make a slight (really, just a slight) turn... uhm... to be honest, that slight turn doesn't make any difference right now... i think.

what an i talking about? well, it's about my upcoming graduation this April... yeah, somehow im feeling the pressure of graduating on time when i came to school a few days back. though there aren't talks or chit-chats about it, i know the air of graduation is upon us. (or am i just being paranoid that im still in that place that i really don't know what will happen to me after college...? oh men...)

anyways, it's been a while since i blog... so far, this is the thing in my mind right now...

oh yeah, right now, my head kinda aches, cuz of waking me up at 4 in the morning just to drive my parents to church... (grrrr!!) but anyways, i'll just try to rest for a few munites after this blog and im off to jax and help me out on my math problem.


...and 2mrw is just another day.



laterz... c",)

wanting some sugar-rushing...

i miss the times when i'm having those sugar-rush... though with being conscious with my diet lately makes me wish i could eat sweets again... cuz a while ago i was somehow craving for a peanut-butter & jelly sandwich... hmm... those were the times... (aahhh memories)... sana maulit muli.

anyways, a few days back, i was under the weather, thus makes me not able to attend school today... but so far, im quite good na rin... sana makapasok na ako 2mrw...

wish me luck!! :P

laterz!!! c",)

so it begins...

well, its the 1st day of 2006, my year.

so im thinking, it's a new year.. so i think it's a good time to list down the things i should have by the end of this year... it's sort of a resolution list in which i list down my goals for my life and also somethings i wanna experience with...

so here goes my desires and plan for this year... and yeah, i'll be as realistic as possible...

- really graduate this March 2006
- be physically fit (go back to boxing or just start running again)
- find a decent but FUN job by May-July 2006 (make it related to my interest or to my psych course)
- if possible, be in a relationship (though rushing it is bad, waiting is still the safest way)
- more new clothes (hey, im getting thinner, so might as well buy suitable clothes)
- try to make it a regular, bi-weekly or monthly, habit to collect comics.
- hang-out with friends more often (from my FA family, my best friend, close friends and to my ka-psychs and other potential friends in the near future)
- after graudation, there will be a lot of time to spend it with family.
- and if there's the suffcient money, try to enroll for a MA in Psych... (but i think this will be more 2007 than this year... neways, bahala na si batman)
- buy good colletion of books, action figures (Marvel Select, Statuettes, etc for displays)
- try to find my artistic side ('cuz i have lost it during the time when i was doin my thesis... have to refresh my sketching skills again)

so i guess that for the realistic plans for this year...

now let's go to my psuedo-possible, but can be attained things / desires i want for 2006...

- be more sexually active (hey!! 3-4 months of not having it kinda sux... have to play more around)
- get a flat screen TV (those 35' - up)
- home theater system
- collect good & original DVDs
- a better hi-end PC
- a new cellular phone
- Toyota Fortuner
- renovate my room (more display shelves & less closet cabinets...)
- keep in contact with my fu-bu now and then (i wish... she has a bf right now and just having SOPs with her isn't consider as fucking ur fu-bu... hehehe)

well, that's all i could think right now... but i guess it's good na rin for this year. hehehe :P


neways... it's the 1st day of 2006. though im in a lazy-mode right now... i wanna go out...but i can't. i have to catch up on my reading and finish some short papers for my class this tuesday... yeah i'll be coming back to school this tuesday... hay naku!

oh well... i think that's it for today...


laterz... c",)

the year that was... WOW!!

yeah, in a few hours from now, i say good-bye to 2005 and say hello to 2006 (which is also the year of the Dog, my YEAR!!!)

anyways, things were really unexpected this 2005... well, unexpected and expected... it's like i know it will happen, but i just don't know when it will happen... gets?

anyways... i wasn't expecting that i'll be having great friends, but the price of having them has an expiration date. though it's sad to know 'bout that, i still try to be close with some of them...

there's also the comeback of my best friend, yeah, it was May 25, 2005 that made me and my best friend (jax) friends again (yehey!!!)... and now, comparing it from the last time, i think our bonds are more stronger than ever... we trust each other and a lot more... (yeah, past is past, but still, in my head i still have some questions that i wanna asked him... but i guess the answers of those questions will come out when the right time comes... i really do not need it to push it... kusa din yang lalabas... right?)

and there's also the victory of my thesis... it was something challenging, yet i still got to kick-ass in my thesis... with the pressures and the gall-stone i have, it was a very tough time for me though... but with friends like jax, nina, my FA-family and mga ka-psychs... i was able to give my best... and thus, i gave my very best. yipee on that!! :P

oh yeah, before the whole me-&-my-best-friends-are-friends-again and the thesis-gig... there was the practicum i did during the summer... yeah it was something fun to experience.. it gave me the realization that i should look for a decent or good-paying job right after graduation... so a few months back, i tried-out for a call center job (but failed) and right now i tried-out also at starbucks (still waiting for the call from the store manager)... i guess, it's the time na rin to be more independent and be more on my own, financially and other aspects of living... to sum it up, nangangati na ako mag-trabaho. :P

... and my TV appearences... being a judge of the Philippine Lottery and a contestant at Pilipinas Game KNB?... it was a big fun to experience these things... :P

well, i guess that's for the positive-happy side of 2005... (oh yeah!! i forgot my Bday get-together... it was the best bday ever!!!)


the sad-negative part of 2005 were the following...

...there's my Ate Kay going to australia for good... though im really happy for her there, i still miss her... she helped me a lot on moving-on in my life...

and there's also the thing that happened last March 21, 2005... in which the FA-family left me drunk at Katipunan... though i have forgiven them, that doesn't mean i have forgotten about their immature acts... but yeah, i still love them and all, but still... masakit yung ginawa nila sa akin eh... and they know me naman eh... but hey, somehow, i should leave all sad-negative things that happened in 2005 on that year, right? it's gonna be a new year hours from now... so it's just water under the bridge...

oh... i forgot, well it's just a petty thing... but i think i should include the battle i loss in winning the heart of Isa Crespo... though we're civil and yeah we would chat sometimes, i still have feelings towards her (but not that much na...) but hey, i'll just let my pride and ego speak and say that it's her loss not mine (hehehe... blog ko nman ito eh, kaya being narcissistic here is normal)



yeah, im cool na rin with all the things that happened to me this 2005... i still learned a lot from it... and still learning from it...

so cheers to 2005... it was fun doing it!!! WOW!!!! :P

and now... welcome 2006... the year of the dog!!! and soon on May 2006 (aside from Da Vinci Code and X3)... i'll be 24 years old and hopefully gradurated from college... :P



HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! c",)

something new this coming 2006...

well, i just opened another blog... and this time, it is more theme-oriented than this blog... but i'll be starting to post on the new blog next year, w/c wud be around 2-3 days from now...

anyways, i'll put the link next time... or just check my profile page to know about it... anyways, i think that's it for now...

btw, im quite cool and good na rin... medyo lie-low lang ako right now... di na muna ako mangkukulit sa best friend ko... kasi baka naasar na siya sa akin eh... ayaw ko naman magalit siya sa akin... mahal ko yon eh... hehehe :P

neways... still... happy holidays!! :D

Dedma... (a.k.a. the song about my feelings)

Lagi Mo Na Lang Akong Dinededma
by:Rocksteddy

Matagal ko nang gustong malaman mo
Matagal ko nangg itinatago-tago 'to
Nahihiyang magsalita
At umuurong aking dila
Pwede bang bukas na
Ipagpaliban muna natin 'to

Dahil kumukuha lang ng tiyempo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Matagal ko ng gustong sabihin 'to
Matagal ko ng gustong aminin sa'yo
Sandali, eto na
At sasabihin ko na
Ngayon na, mamaya
O baka pwedeng bukas na

Dahil kumukuha lang ng buwelo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Ngunit kumukuha lng ng tiyempo
Upang sbihin sa iyo

spoken:
Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita WALA
Pero hindi ako TORPE
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan
Oo o hindi
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

Mahal kita, pero di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit lagi mo na lang akong dinededma

STOP!!!

i guess i have to stop it for good. i think that's the only way to really move on...

though it will be a difficulty to do it, i really have no other choices. i must stop it before it can create more damage to myself and to the people i love... so far, it already has taken some toll from the people i love... and i was just too naive and too scared to face my own monster(/s).

and it's not just stopping it, i have to cut it off so it won't come back again...

shit.

i really love these people, and it's gonna be difficult to loose them and not be in my life anymore... but i have to sacrifice them... for their sake and for mine as well.

ang lungkot nga lang isipin na kung kailan patapos na yung taon, doon din magtatapos yung mga pinagsamahan ng mga mahal ko... masakit talaga sa akin, pero wala akong magagawa, ayaw ko madamay sila...

it's really gonna be a difficult one for me this time... i hope there's an alternative way soon.


...though i really love what this year has brought me... i have outwitted the challenges i have faced, got to reunite friendships and was able to surpass what college has given me... and this March 2006, i'll be graudting na rin... it's just the past that keeps on bugging me and i just can't let it just ruin it again...

oh men... this sucks... really!

anyways, have to think it more deep... i wish there's an alternative soon, cuz i'll be needing it... i just don't wanna loose the people that i love.


hope for the best...

...when i can go and shoot myself?

can't think of a theme/title for this blog... although, there are a lot of thing in my mind right now...

anyways, i'll just blog about what happened to me yesterday... though today is still quite young, and i think things can still happen.

i was suppose to blog last night, but the driving from here at antipolo to tagaytay and vise-versa was really somthing to get treally tire off... plus the supper heavy traffic when we were going home... i cn't bloody believe it that i would run our vehicle on 2nd gear on the south super highway last night... ganun ka-traffic... sighs!!

anyways, yesterday, i though it's just those 'visit-a-relative-and-minggle-with-them' old routine... but yeah, it's the same ol' routine... but luckily, i saw an old classmate from my high school... ayon, kwentuhan and kamustahan with my other ol' high school friends and about thier current status in their own live... (even though my high school life was something not memorable and happy, there are notable-positive things that i do treasure about them...) anyways, got to catch up naman, which is cool... and somehow, yeah, i miss them too... (honest! walang plastic ito!! though sometimes, there's the thought of getting back at them, but hey! i believe in karma... i just hope kung kakarmahin na sila, i'll be on the audience sit to watch... hehehe :P )

ayon... good day na rin naman yesterday, 'cept for the freaking cold weather there... i never imagined that it would be that freaking cold at tagaytay...

anyways... ayon na muna... i have to fix my sked for this week... have to catch up na rin with my readings and homewarks, before classes starts next week tuesday... wish me luck...

laterz... c",)

Kinky Christmas... (down boy!!)

something kinky for the holiday season... hehehe!!!

(watch out for the "fireworks" on the 31st... hehehe) :P

laterz dudes & dudettes!!! Happy Holidays again!! c",)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Just ate a quite early christmas dinner (aka. Noche Buena)... and im quite full, i just hope it won't give me pain... i just really pray that no pain would come to me this season...

anyways, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!!! c",)

Maligayang Pasko!!! Merry Christmas!!! Feliz Navidad!!!

How to survive this weekend (according to Zafra)

(December 24, 2005 /12:29pm)

anyways, it's Christmas eve right now... well, it's the afternoon of the Eve... and so far, i'm just surfing around... and yeah, i wanna put this link of Jessica Zafra's blog about what to do on this yuletide weekend... and i kinda like #3... though it fits my profile, cuz i cnt drink anything alcoholic right now..

3. If you don't feel like drinking, pretend to be drunk anyway. This gives you an excuse to tell people exactly what you think of them. (Unless you're already in the habit of telling people exactly what you think.) Afterwards, you can apologize and blame everything on the nefarious effects of alcohol.

anyways... i can say that christmas this year was a 'so-so' season... cuz there was the bad and the good... and the good over threw the bad... cuz yesterday, i got another cool gift from lloyd & nina... and it's a pinoy comix... it's Zsa-Zsa Zaturnah!!!

so far, i'm happy with the gifts i got from my closest friends (lloyd & nina) and from my best friend (jax)... i think im satisfied na rin with this season... c",)

oh well... MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!!!


laterz... :P

i don't feel christmas-y this year...

(December 22, 2005 / 8:50pm)

yeah, it's true... the spirit of christmas isn't working its mojos on me this year. though there are some times that i wanna feel the yuletide spirirt, but to no avail, it only last for a very short time. though i loved the gifts, well the gift i got from my best friend, and also the things i bought for myself... it's just different, very different from the past christmas i have before...

let me try and analyze it...

well, there's the not able to attend our ka-psychs x'mas get together... and there's the thing with my FA family (but i guess i really have to get myself out of that picture by now)... oh yeah, most of my friends sees me as a 'disability', due to my current health problem (RE: my gallstone)... and that 'disability' that they see on me makes them to decide not to invite me on their inumans and gimiks...

to be sarcastic... i am enjoying my new point of view about the yuletide season.

and to be frank about it... i sucks... and, yeah, i'm quite disappointed at them...

...good thing there's my best friend and my other close friends... thus to conclude, yeah, in a way there's the tiny bit of christmas spirit still inside me... thanks to them (RE: best friend & closest friends)


anyways, just on the brighter side... loosing weight gave me something to be proud of... got a new pair of pants, shoes... and some other stuff for myself... hehehe :P


i think that's it for the season... HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of ya...


'cuz it may take a while for me to blog something next... cuz have to deal with these feelings i have for a certain individual (RE: previous blog entry) for a while right now... assess myself if i should try it or not... 'cuz supressing it makes me experience more pain and it could lead to being clinically depress... have to fix it at once...

oh well...


laterz!!!

I'm so tired... but still the feeling i have is still there...

(December 21, 2005 / 7:58pm)

yes, the feelings i have for this certain individual is still there... though it really kills me to know that i still have that feelings... and i don't know how to deal with it. (help!)

i'm also afraid that if i submit myself to the feelings i have, it's will have a domino effect and surely it can end up into something painful to both parties... but more painful to myself.

anyways, i wish time would some that i can say the feelings i have to this specific individual and somehow we will both understand our sides... and somehow there would have a good and happy resolution after.

anyways, it really bugs me, these feelings i have... it's been for months now... though it wasn't a biggie issue to me a year ago, but now it's somehow what's to get notice and taken seriously... i just pray for the right time and oppurtunity to tell the person my feelings about the individual...

anyways, so far, i'm still good... nuthin to worry about, except that (and life after college...)

i guess time will come... but i hope i can handle it, 'cuz the last time was really painful that almost made me clinically depressed...

oh, i guess that's it so far...


laterz... c",)

Something new for me...
(December 17, 2005 / 9:23pm)


i just got myself my own DVD player!!! (yey!)

though, things still are quite shaky right now... with the sliffles too... i'm cool na rin. just need to stay calm, relax and just have a clear thought.

by the way, christmas na rin ako... so i have two weeks of from school... have to catch up with my readings and really start to prep-up for school... kasama na rin yung other 3 subjects ko na may kulang pa... para by March 2006, i'll be graduating on time.

im good... just really have to have a clear way of thinking way through things.

i guess, that's for now...wish me the best.

laterz...

what a F*%king boring day... (what's worst is today is the last day of school for the year)
(December 16, 2005 / 3:43pm)

im bored right now... cuz of my stupid mom's decision to let me wait...

wait for nothing!!!

and it made me decide not to go to our ka-psychs x'mas party... nakaka-asar talaga nanay ko!!

oh well, 2mrw i'll buy a new dvd player... and this time, it's MY dvd player.

o cya... maya nlng uli.

still bored... hope things will be good 2mrw.

laterz. :P

Clips from X3
(December 12, 2005 / 9:14am)


well, after a few days of being mad... im now cool and so far a-ok. right now i'm still at home, cuz my class is still at 1pm later... and i think my best friend will spend a night here, he'll be using my Pc for his research-thing for school-something... anyways, nuthin' new much... except that if ever things went good 2mrw, i'll be going to Market-Market to get some pending comics there...

anyways, here are some pics from X3...


I think this scene is where they (Storm, Wolverine, Colossus, Rogue, Iceman & Shadowcat) came from a Danger Room session... anyhow, it's good to know that there are new mutants that have joined the group...

here's the Brotherhood of Mutants led by Magneto... and surprisingly, Jean Grey (Dark Phoenix) is one of the new members of the group...

galit (in english, anger)
(December 9, 2005 / 8:49pm)


oo, ako'y galit... umaga pa lang hindi na masaya ang araw ako. ngunit nung pumasok ako sa kalay ay sinubukan kong maging masaya. naging masaya nga ako, pero hindi sapat upang matanggal ang aking galit sa aking isipan.

kung nagtataka kayo kung saan ako galit... hindi saan... kanino. galit ako sa nanay ko. dahil sa kanyang walang kwentang letanya kanina umaga. wala sa lugar ang kanyang mga sinasabi. gusto ko sana siya sagutin, ngunit ayaw ko mabwiset ang araw ko... sa totoo, gustong gusto ko siyang barahin sa mga sinasabi niya kanina... kaso pinilit ko na lang ang sarili ko... tinimpis ko na lang ito... ngunit, parang di ko ito papalampasin... kung humirit muli siya bukas ng umaga, bahala na... ano man ang mangyari, isusulat ko na lang muli sa blog na ito bukas (o sa makalawa).

kahit nung sinundo ko siya kanina sa opisina, di ko pinapansin... lalo pang kanina nung nagdadasal kami... talagang galit ako.

kasi naman talaga, wala siyang karapatan mag-drama sa mga pinagsasabi niya... at sana sinuri niya muna ang sitwasyon kanina... nakakabwiset lang talaga ang nanay ko!!

putang ina niya talaga.



...ayon, naibuhos ko na ata yung nasa loobin ko tungkol sa aking galit sa araw na ito. sarap talagang barahin o sagutin ang mga sinasabi ng nanay ko kanina...

grrr!!!

o, cya... ito na muna sa araw na ito.


(i think this is good enough to vent off my anger... and typing it in my native tongue feels good... i think i should type in filipino more often...)

laterz...

i so happy!!! (cuz i just got to download the X3 trailer!)
(December 8, 2005 / 7:28pm)


i just got a copy of the 1st trailer of X3... now i'll just try to open it with something...

pero im so happy & excited!!

anyways... the day was quite good na rin... kasi i got to woke-up early a while ago for my job interview for starbucks at makati. though it went good, i hope when i call them 2mrw it's a good-good news for me... so that i cud contact one of the co-applicants i met there and buy the toys i want for collection. :P

then after the interview at makati, i commuted towards kalayaan... it was fun... kasi i get to travel fast and light going to school... though i hated the pants im wearing, cuz it's raining and its getting wet... sira tuloy yung pagka-semi formal ko... hehehe :p

then going home, i took a ride with jax then i was dropped off at the front gate of our house... then now... i just got the trailer of X3... whopee!! :P

lupet!! :P

anyways... gotta rest na muna... so far i have just ran out of adrenaline... hehehe :P

laterz... c",)

X3: The Last Stand (opens May 2006)
(December 6, 2005 / 8:20pm)


well... here's the first look of Kelsey Grammer as the Beast for X3:The Last Stand... though the title seems a give way that it's gonna be the last x-men flick ever (but i hope it's not true!!!)


anyways... below naman is a clip from the trailer... and a first glimpse of Angel too... :P

here's a clip from the teaser trailer... it's where angel unfolds his wings... and he's in a sort-of-a laboratory... i think the lady on the right is Dr. Kavita Rao... and i dnt know who is the guy on the left... anyways... i haven't downloaded the trailer, think a lot of people are downloading it... so i guess i'll give a fews days before i can rip it. :P

my war against my gall-stone...(the pain that i can't take it anymore)
(December 5, 2005 / 7:01pm)


well, last night i had another gall-stone attack... and the pain is getting worst than before... it really made me weak... and scared too.

there were times that i would really just want to pass-out just to not feel the pain, but i can't... the pain is really something i can't just ignore it. around 10:30pm last night it started, then i took the medicine to kill the pain, but to no avail... it gets more painful.

then i started to shout, because of the pain... im wishing that it would just be gone... im willing to go under the knife just to remove this stone that has been bothering me since i was finishing my thesis two months ago...

anyways, at around 1:30am, i was sent to the ER... just inject me with good pain-killers... first hospital that i was brought to was Amamng Rodriguez at marikina... it was a not-so-friendly ER... then my mom decided to bring me to Medical City's ER, for sure the doctors there will surely assists me... and it's true, once i was there, this nice doctor assisted me and in a way give me some anti-puking injections and the same painkiller i ingested when the pain started to attack me (but what the doctor gave me was the injectable version, so that it can work faster)...

that was aournd past 2am... 10-15minnutes later the pain went from heavy to light... and i thought i was out of the woods... i was wrong.

then at around 3am, the pain was getting to gets its revenge... and it's worst than before... i was screaming again... then my mom ask the doctor if i could get another and better pain-killer... then they gave me the ultimate pain-killer, demerol... it's the same thing that made me woozy when i was rushed at Capitol two months ago... it's strong enough that it made me sleep soundly. and the pain was gone.

at around 6am.. i woke up and pain was gone... thank god for that!!

right now... im eating no solid food right now... i have to go back to my strict-fruits-only diet for a week... just to avoid the pain again. then im planning to get an ultrasound within a week, just to check on my stone... whether it reduced its size or worst... but i hope it would be good news for me.

and when our family is financially stable... im planning to remove this thing... but things can still change... we might look for another way in removing it.

painful day... but im happy i have survived it. and oh yeah, during those painful ordeal, i miss my friends... though i got my strenght from my mom and sister during those times, i miss my friends too, cuz from them also i get my strenght too...

anyways... im cool na... just hope i can be healed as soon as possible... hope for the best for me.

laterz...

It happened again... and it's painful (though i hope this won't happen again days from now)
(December 2, 2005 / 1:06pm)


yesterday was my parent's anniversary... and there was a small feast, just between the family... then i ate.

then came night time... my abdomen area is starting to feel pain again... thus i drank the medicine that was prescribe to drink if ever i feel pain... and drunk the last camomile teabag... then i went to sleep...

the following day, at around 2:30am... i woke up with the pain reoccuring again... and this time, i know it's the same pain i had 2 months ago, with a little bit more painful by a notch... so i took another prescirbed medicine i took a few hours back... but to no avail, it somehow it didn't work... the pain was really fucking painful... then my parents assisted me to take the natural way of healing... in way, i was relieved by around 5:30am...

then i went to sleep... woke-up at around 10-ish... with some feezing feeling... though the pain is gone, i hope it won't return in a long time... and i hope my gall-stone is back to it's rest-mode... anyways, right now im good.

i just didn't went to school today... and yeah, my best friend is going some bday treat of one of our friends from high school, and he tried to make me tag-along... but i just declined it, without telling the reason why... i think it's better he doesn't know what i went through in the wee hours of the morning... don't want him to be concern of anything...

anyways... that's it for now... have to go back to square one of my diet... soup.

laterz... c",)