How can you enjoy a game (let's say DOTA or L4D) w/ your friends if your friends don't want you to join?
Whatever happened to having fun and supporting one another... you know, friendship?
I guess it says about being into groups or packs... like wolves or something. There will come a time that your so-called "friends" will stab you at the back and just leave you dead.
So far, it's the thing that is running in my head with some or most people here at work.
And somehow it's the reason why I'm planning to leave soon. To avoid any connections with them. They're such assholes. Seriously, even some people whom I trust a lot.
Anyway, I can still stay calm and keep it all to myself, or just releasing it through this blog.
And if ever I join them they'll mock me on why I "walked-out" before... sighs! how shallow can they get? Assholes!
Oh well, somehow, I still really feeling bad about it. But somehow, still can be subtle about it.... for now.
Now I really feel angry to all of them! Fuck them all!! I hope they all die!! (I know I sound like brat, but I'm starting to get angry while typing this blog... grrrr... I just really that angry towards them... all focused, enjoying and laughing there in the other room. sighs!)
Sometimes I just want to report them so that they deserve it, but I can't.
They're still my friends. Friends to tend to be assholes.
Anyway, I'm still angry at them and the one whom I considered close mocks me more... gaaaah!!
I'm still pissed!
grrrr...
Friday, April 23, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
hush
okay, I'm back on blogging.
well, i'm not quite sure yet if i'll be regular on blogging stuff again... but hey, there's no harm in taking this avenue again...
so what now?
i guess i just have to put this on this entry since i need to put something... right?
so let's start with Black Bolt...
yes, "Black Bolt".... that's the name that i'll be using to a specific person that I want to ran over with my car back and forth. and later swing a bat at "Black Bolt"'s face until it's like smashed watermelon.
anyway, see how i want to release all the stress at "BB"... hahaha yeah, "Black Bolt" is quite long, than "BB"... hhahaha
if ever someone i know reads this blog (which i doubt), will surely laugh to see this pic... hahaha
hmm... does someone i know (aside from my best friend) got the chance to read my blogs? hmmm.... i'm quite curious about it... but somehow i don't care too... hahaha
anyway, sometimes i would like some of my other friends see this blog too... well just this entry... hahaha
now, i'm quite getting bored to type more stuff... 'cause i think i got nothing to type anymore... hahaha
oh well, i guess i'll still with "BB" for this entry... and later give more details why i hate "BB" more everyday... hehehe
Sunday, February 21, 2010
why oh why... tsk tsk
hmm... the students haven't started to text me.
this is bad. really, REALLY BAD.
Bad in a sense that we can't do time-travel and make it all work right. I know there's a solution on this one, get the list of the 10 and call them to remind them. But I have other priorities to do, but I guess I should try to juggle things out and fix it.
Fix it. That's 2 words that somehow I'm not good at all. But let's see if I can fix this... w/o the help or assistance of others. It's my mess after all, right?
But still, after all this is done, I'm still going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. hahaha. No worries Pong, we're still good friends, but I'm really going to kill you for this one. :P
Oh well, it's almost 9pm, I need to heat the water, I'll be leaving at around 10pm.
later.
this is bad. really, REALLY BAD.
Bad in a sense that we can't do time-travel and make it all work right. I know there's a solution on this one, get the list of the 10 and call them to remind them. But I have other priorities to do, but I guess I should try to juggle things out and fix it.
Fix it. That's 2 words that somehow I'm not good at all. But let's see if I can fix this... w/o the help or assistance of others. It's my mess after all, right?
But still, after all this is done, I'm still going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. hahaha. No worries Pong, we're still good friends, but I'm really going to kill you for this one. :P
Oh well, it's almost 9pm, I need to heat the water, I'll be leaving at around 10pm.
later.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
It's the climb.... oh yeah.
I feel like each day that comes, i want to just break the window in front of my table at work and just jump do a free fall.
... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.
Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.
I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.
... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.
Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.
... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.
... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.
Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.
Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.
Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.
Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.
Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.
Wish me luck this week.
Laterz.
... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.
Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.
I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.
... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.
Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.
... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.
... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.
Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.
Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.
Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.
Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.
Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.
Wish me luck this week.
Laterz.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
sniffles @ work
i hate when i get the sniffles at work... specially when it's the allergic-type of sniffles.
makes me really uncomfy, snobbish and unapproachable... plus sneezing too much, it make my heart weak, literally.
haaay...
i miss someone here at work... my buddy. i hope he's doing fine, recovering from his operation... and also i'll be missing someone here too... she's leaving work.
I hope we (the 3 of us) can still hang-out.
anyway... have to push myself to work for the day... even with this condition that I'm in.
laterz
makes me really uncomfy, snobbish and unapproachable... plus sneezing too much, it make my heart weak, literally.
haaay...
i miss someone here at work... my buddy. i hope he's doing fine, recovering from his operation... and also i'll be missing someone here too... she's leaving work.
I hope we (the 3 of us) can still hang-out.
anyway... have to push myself to work for the day... even with this condition that I'm in.
laterz
