i don't feel christmas-y this year...

(December 22, 2005 / 8:50pm)

yeah, it's true... the spirit of christmas isn't working its mojos on me this year. though there are some times that i wanna feel the yuletide spirirt, but to no avail, it only last for a very short time. though i loved the gifts, well the gift i got from my best friend, and also the things i bought for myself... it's just different, very different from the past christmas i have before...

let me try and analyze it...

well, there's the not able to attend our ka-psychs x'mas get together... and there's the thing with my FA family (but i guess i really have to get myself out of that picture by now)... oh yeah, most of my friends sees me as a 'disability', due to my current health problem (RE: my gallstone)... and that 'disability' that they see on me makes them to decide not to invite me on their inumans and gimiks...

to be sarcastic... i am enjoying my new point of view about the yuletide season.

and to be frank about it... i sucks... and, yeah, i'm quite disappointed at them...

...good thing there's my best friend and my other close friends... thus to conclude, yeah, in a way there's the tiny bit of christmas spirit still inside me... thanks to them (RE: best friend & closest friends)


anyways, just on the brighter side... loosing weight gave me something to be proud of... got a new pair of pants, shoes... and some other stuff for myself... hehehe :P


i think that's it for the season... HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of ya...


'cuz it may take a while for me to blog something next... cuz have to deal with these feelings i have for a certain individual (RE: previous blog entry) for a while right now... assess myself if i should try it or not... 'cuz supressing it makes me experience more pain and it could lead to being clinically depress... have to fix it at once...

oh well...


laterz!!!