STOP!!!

i guess i have to stop it for good. i think that's the only way to really move on...

though it will be a difficulty to do it, i really have no other choices. i must stop it before it can create more damage to myself and to the people i love... so far, it already has taken some toll from the people i love... and i was just too naive and too scared to face my own monster(/s).

and it's not just stopping it, i have to cut it off so it won't come back again...

shit.

i really love these people, and it's gonna be difficult to loose them and not be in my life anymore... but i have to sacrifice them... for their sake and for mine as well.

ang lungkot nga lang isipin na kung kailan patapos na yung taon, doon din magtatapos yung mga pinagsamahan ng mga mahal ko... masakit talaga sa akin, pero wala akong magagawa, ayaw ko madamay sila...

it's really gonna be a difficult one for me this time... i hope there's an alternative way soon.


...though i really love what this year has brought me... i have outwitted the challenges i have faced, got to reunite friendships and was able to surpass what college has given me... and this March 2006, i'll be graudting na rin... it's just the past that keeps on bugging me and i just can't let it just ruin it again...

oh men... this sucks... really!

anyways, have to think it more deep... i wish there's an alternative soon, cuz i'll be needing it... i just don't wanna loose the people that i love.


hope for the best...