at home... sick again and this time i have no voice...

right now, i'm sick again... and this time i have no voice. well i know i can go to work kanina, pero pag wala akong boses, i can't make calls... so it's better for me to just rest here at home until i get well enough to go back to work, hopefully 2mrw... worst, on monday.

anyways, i'll be going to the doctor for my check-up in a while... i hope it's not that bad... and i'm still planning to not to go to work 2mrw... para maging long weekend rest for me... the good thing naman ay may mga bagong dvds naman ako to watch eh... :P

anyways, have to prep up na for the check up... sasakay lang naman ako eh...

wish me the best!!

laterz...

home sick...

im sick and im at home... stupid colds!!!

plus i think im having a fever right now... this sux!! i blame being stressed lately... grr!!

handling good enough...

hay.. so far tatlo palang ang naiske-schedule for for 2mrw... and it's 11:15am... so by now, dapat may 4 o 5 na akong na-schedule... hay buhay...

so far i'm still quite stressed from last night... later i'll play tekken just to ease me...

sighs... i need a break... like a break-break... like going out to the beach or spa-massage break... and it's better if this break is with someone i need to be with... but anyways, a good break-rest would be fine... now

would be the best time... who ever is up there... now is the best time... pls? :P

anyways... mdyo good na rin ako... just have to stay intact for now...

i think i can manage this...

peace out!

"how do you handle stress?"

naranasan nyo na bang umuwing pagod.... umuwing sabik na sabik humiga sa inyong kama... PERO pag-uwi nyo ay lalo kang mabwibwiset sa makikita nyong kaguluhan sa sariling kwarto...

...at wala kang magawa kundi lalo pang mapagod dahil sa inis at galit na nararamdaman nyo...


yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...


at ngayon at sobrang stressed out na ako at di ko alam kung papaano ko ilalabas itong mga sama ng loobin ko... alam mo ba yung feeling na sobrang puno ka na at u just can't help it na to go somewhere and just let it all out, but you can't... i hate this kind of feeling... kasi lalong napupuno and i am afraid that one day i might explode unintentionally... grrr!!

tanginang stress!!! even now, writing on this blog isn't helping me anymore... DAMN!!! tangina!!!

to be honest... right now, im in a point that i want to punch the walls here in my room... well actually i did it kani-kanina lang... thou i know it's a stupid move, 'cuz my right hand is hurting, it's quite a good release... pero kulang pa. i just wanna hit something (or someone) right now...

if this stress didn't subdue by 2mrw... i'll hang-out at timezone and vent it off at tekken during all of my breaks!!!

tangina talaga... i've never been this stressed... the last time that i could remember was, i think a year ago... nung ayaw pa nila pa-opera ako for my gallstone removal and i have to wait for it to worsen para lang mapaopera ako, which took 7 months of burdens... GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

i hate everything right now!!! it may sound grumpy but it is... 'cuz of these stresses that i'm having... grrrr!!!



PUTANG INA!!!

PPPOOOOTTTAAANNNGIIIINNNNNAAAA!!!!!

SHHHHEEEEETTTTT!!!!!

PPPOOOOOTTTTTAAAAANNNGGGIIIIINNNAAAAAANNNNNNGGGGGGLLLLLLEEEECCCCCHHHHHEEEEEE!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

wheeeee....heheheee... (a window opens... i think?)

i was interviewed kanina for the opening ng sourcing team dito sa company na pinagtratrabahuan ko... yeah, the sourcing team, where most work are done outside the office space... mostly field work... which somehow it's much more fun and challenging than making calls in a cubicle for 9 hours for five days...

thou the hassle part is the head of that team.. he's quite scary... honest.

pero kaninang in-interview ako... mdyo kinabahan ako.. kasi daming sinusulat nya sa paper ko... hay naku... it gave me the eek-factor.

anyways, if ever nakapasok ako, it's a new leaf (sort-of) and a new challenge... haay buhay... at least, kung pasok ako... i won't be bored during or most of my weekends....

anyways... bahala na si batman dyan!

gotta go back to work... make calls again... hay buhay! :P


laterz!!! c",)

so near yet so far...

remember the x'mas list i made last aug 31? (to check it out... click on this link)

well... i have to accept reality... i'm scratching off the TV.

so far all i can have is the X-Men 3 DVD, PS2 (w/c im targetting to have it by November) and the iPod-video (w/c will still be given by my sister)...

the additional thing (or things) that i'm still planning to get for x'mas (for myself) are these one... (though it's still on planning stage on whether or not i'll really get these... but sana lang makuha ko ang kahit ilan sa mga ito... :P)






-Marvel Gashapon series 4... i saw one @ greenhills and it was priced at P1550... i want one for my figure collection...















- The 500 People You Meet in Hell by Jessica Zafra... yes she's back with a kick-ass book. and i want that one too!!! (somehow, badly want one..)



-these next items are the MARVEL SELECT figures that im sooo wanting to have since it was released last year... i still hope some of them are still in stock... (not shown are Spider-woman figure & the Cloak and Dagger figure)



















-lastly... a home gym equipment... it's been a month since i hadn't been going to the gym... and i miss it so badly... and when i got to see this one @ macro, i want one... 2 thing, it's a good investment and it's just 10K6 bucks!! i really want this one too (that's why i scratched off the TV)






















... i think that adds up the stuff i want for x'mas i really hope at least 3-4 stuff in my total list would be attainable by x'mas day... then again, there's always my bday wish list (hehehe!)




laterz c",)

getting what was lost...

circa 1991-1992... my uncle jim gave this to me... it's the first of my X-MEN comics... it's the #1 issues drawn by Jim Lee... and also one of the famous storyline of the X-Men...

then 1996 our house was burnt down... i lost every collection of comics i have since i was 11 years old... even the one i mentioned a while ago...

fast forward to 2006, October 13... Friday the 13th. more than 10 years since the fire and 14 years since i had that specific X-Men issue... i just bought an original print of X-Men #1... the same one by Jim Lee... at the new comic store near my office... and the best thing is i got it in a very affordable price of P180 bucks!! and it's in good condition... (tangina ASTIG!!)

it gave me a fulfillment in me that i can't understand... though i felt like a missing part was attached to me again... or something that was lost for a long time was back in my system and i'm so happy to have it back... knowing the value of that thing to me.

OMG!!!

anyways.. it made my day and made it everything go well... it kinda boost me up...

happy like a person who was given a 2nd chance on a lot of things... just to improve ones life for the better...


haaay... im just lovin' it! c",)

when darkness turns to light...

on the 8th day... there was light.

yes... kaninang hapon lang nagkaroon kami ng kuryente... good thing. when i got home a while ago i felt the coolness of myAC that i soo missed!!! oh whattafeelin'!!

anyways... training was good, but the thing i didn't like was the pseudo-homework... though, it's ok for me, but the essence of homeworks kinda creeps me out... but hey, i miss school work, i guess this is the powers-that-be of giving me one. c",)

then somehow, i went on to help my best friend look for an apartment for his thesis gig... though, again, it was kinda hot weather that afternoon... it was cool... just to, somehow, make myself busy and productive... which was good na rin...

oh yeah... i got a new comic na rin... but somehow i hate it na i get to finish it at ones... blah! :P

so what else is new... hmm... well officially i'll be working @ ortigas starting monday... new start, old job... hehehe :P

o cya... yon na muna...


though... i'm quite good... so far. (i still dnt know how to release these stresses in me)




Laterz... c",)

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blank thoughts...
(due to the boredom of darkness)

the 5th day...

5 days ago... that was a thursday. a super-typhoon reached the metro... bringin in very strong rains & waaay too strong winds... then at aroudn 1030am, we lost electricity... w/c is acceptable because of the situation...

but it's been FUCKING 5 days at wala pang kuryente dito... well, technically, half of our house has electricity since friday afternoon... but the sad part, walang electricity ang mga air-con... i might sound like a brat... but i can't live with out the coolness of the AC, especially during these hot nights...

since last night, well early morning kanina... i have been calling the damn meralco to follow-up the report i made... and as far as i know... wala pa rin... and somehow even the news at the radio is mocking me about the 95% recovery of meralco... grrr.... nakakabweset talaga!!

i just can't take this situation anymore!! it's too freaking hot!!!

and it's getting into my nerves na... and ayaw ko rin ma-stress just because of this... :S

HEROES

well, a few days back... i got to watch the 1st 30 mins of HEROES... it's the new show at the states that's basically about ordinary people who found themselves that they aren't that ordinary at all... they have powers!!

so here's the clip... well more of a promo of the show... I really hope it gets here at our shores asap... or in bootleg dvds (hehehe!) :P

crazy love (part 2)

hehehe... (i'm laughing because it's real...)

raff... raff!!

You Are: 90% Dog, 10% Cat

You're a dog at heart - and it's not a bad thing at all! You love unconditionally, and you're extremely loyal. And while you may act silly at times, you're really quite smart - and a good learner!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

ABove-NORMAL...

You Are 52% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

...hmm i think it does explains a lot of things that run inside my head... hehehe :P

the downfall of meeting someone... (crazy love)

blah!

why do i get the feeling that this week is not that progressive as the other weeks... one thing, this week runs quite slow... in other words, mabagal 'tong linggong ito... the other thing is that i'm getting weird vibes around my surroundings... weird in a sense that people i know are having the fun of thier lives and i'm just sitting on my cubicle making calls for 8-9hours a day.

...i need to get out and relax!

the problem is.. when is the right time to get out & relax?

anyways... there's nuthing quite to put in my blog right now... kasi mdyo chapsuey yung utak ko ngayon... irratic thougths...

and i'm blaming it for this slow progress of the week... i wish it was friday... so i could sleep thoroughly. :P

oh well... 2mrw is another day at work...



i wish i could be really happy... 'cuz so far im just not that happy...







laterz...

it ends tonight...

"It Ends Tonight"

(All American Rejects)

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all the wants

And all the needs

All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

You're finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Tonight

Insight

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight.

looooong day...

well, by thursday of this week, i'll be signing the new contract with TDS... though i'm still under project-based, which means if the project ends... so do i. and this sux!

another month... but somehow, i'm starting to have doubts with my boss, kurt. kasi i'm having those feelings na i should start looking for a decent job... and kinda makes me paranoid that i myt loss my job before x'mas... ngi!!!

anyways, i just cnt bliv it na it's just tuesday... it's a long day... and a long week so far... i hope things would be a-ok 2mrw... a little bit faster than today.

i guess that's it for now...

but i guess i have to be cool and be more positive than being a negativist about the situation... i must be strong and positive!! (ryt?)

cge... maya nlng uli...


laterz... c",)

make mine MARVEL!!!

now i'm really have to get a PS2 by x'mas... and not just have it on my x'mas wish list (re: my previous blog)

'cuz i just saw the trailer of the upcoming MARVEL ULTIMATE ALLIANCE videogame...

FUCKING AWESOME TRAILER man!!! ASTIG SOBRA!!!

and to know why i'm so crazy about this game... check the videos below...











...i cnt wait to buy this one!!! (buti na rin at malapit na ang pasko!!) c",)

thunder...thundercats...HOOOOO!

this is one of the perks of being an 80's kid... have to go home early to school just to watch thundercats on GMA-7... having to buy a replica of Lion-O's sword and those cool action figures... i remember i had a Lion-O & Mumrra where every time i stick a AAA battery on their backs their eyes glow...

and every time they show mumrra (the ever living) changes into a huge monster always gives me the ick-factor... even until now... gives me the freaks.

oh memories... those were the good cartoons... (tiger shark, he-man, silverhawks, visionaries... and many more)

now i'm the dvd collection of thunderdats to my x'mas wish list...

mamaw...

Waiting...

WAITING (Save your life)
by: Omnisoul

Haven’t you had enough of my brain
It’s on the table I’ve got no more to say
If I bore you get out of my way
This one’s for you
So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

There’s a line formed you can’t see
I’ve been waiting you give nothing for free
But there’s a yearning it’s deep and calm
And time has burnt me

So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today
Yes I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

Don’t you know me
I’m helpless without you
I watched you sleep so I could dream of you

If you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I…
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

the calling...

after work, i was just hanging out with my colleagues... 'cuz one of them treated us to some donuts @ go-nuts...

with my stomach still quite full from the really heavy lunch kanina and the chips that i've been munching while making calls, i just went for the go-lite donut...

then after the donut gig, i went back to our building, 'cuz i'm gonna meet up with my barkada before she goes to work... kasi i'll be getting something from her to help my best friend's thesis.

anyways, while strolling the building (w/c is also a mall), i got to stop by at mini-stop... and somehow, i saw the fridge full of booze & beers... (see attached picture)

and for no apparent reason, i stared at it as if i was looking at a very interesting item... and the way i stare at them is the same way i look during visit at museums... there's the fascination and also the calling to buy them and drink them.

there was an amount of saliva that ran thru my mouth when i was quite staring at them...

then it ran thru my head the memories of me and my friends... the inuman we do during class (when we would cut classe to drink and return to class a little but tipsy) and after class (brickhouse, at jobi's place, at g & mouses house... my house)...

a whole lot of memories ran thru that 3 mins of staring at the fridge of booze...

then i later i got to meet up with my barkada... then went home.

right now, i made a small drink... just a small glass of pepsi & gin...

and i'm drinking this for the memories of my friends... and a realization that things are quite different from what we were during college...


...too bad, at wala akong load kanina... i should have texted them and had an inuman... but i think it isn't time yet. 'cuz one thing, i still have no enough money to buy even just a can of beer...

anyways, there's always a next time...


i think that it for now... i have to finish this drink first...

then sleep.

nyt! c",)

Shifting Sand

Shifting Sand

Sometimes I believe all the lies
So I can do the things I should despise
And every day I am swayed
By whatever is on my mind

I hear it all depends on my faith
So I'm feeling precarious
The only problem I have with these mysteries
Is they're so mysterious

And like a consumer I've been thinking
If I could just get a bit more
More than my 15 minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure

(Chorus)
My faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on grace

I've begged you for some proof
For my Thomas eyes to see
A slithering staff, a leperous hand
And lions resting lazily

A glimpse of your back-side glory
And this soaked altar going ablaze
But you know I've seen so much
I explained it away

Chorus

Waters rose as my doubts reigned
My sand-castle faith, it slipped away
Found myself standing on your grace
It'd been there all the time

(Chorus repeated)
Stand on grace

why worry?

... after reading this, it gave me some perspectives on how i see things... it's kinda funny that the insecurities a person can experience... hahaha!! life and love is a very funny thing. they can make you fill the pain then laugh it out after the turmoil... :P

WHATA!!!

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious.That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves.You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.

What's" Your Element?

again... im water?!? i was hoping for air... anyways nuthing to do but to try out the funny test online... hehehe :P

hmm... maybe it's a sign to wash away all things that bug in my head... then coming out clean. (hhmmm... oo nga 'no... pwede!)

again... next time uli.

laterz!!! c",)

i'm cyclops!?!?!

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

i can't believe it!?! i'm cyclops... i was hoping more of a Phoenix or Magneto... not someone wimpy mutant who died at the 2nd part of the movie... anyways, this test isn't psychtest-friend... who am i kidding anyways! hahaha!! :P sometime i'm a wimp too... it's part of human nature (sometimes...)

haha... oh well... wala kasing magawa ngayon eh... :P

nways, yon lng... laterz!! c",)

x'mas wish list 2006...

well in a few months time, christmas season is back... and by 2mrw... it's the 'ber' months already...

so here's my x'mas wish list...!

- an Ipod video (w/c my sister will give it to me just in time for the holiday season... whooppee!!)













- a PS2.... the slim type ('cuz it's been years that i've wanting to have this console... and now, i have the savings, i cud have my own PS2!!!! bwahahaha!!)













- a new TV (not just an ordinary TV.... but a flat screen TV!!! its a sony wega... i just saw the price a few weeks back... and somehow it's calling me... and with the price of 10K, who wouldn't say 'no' to that!!!! hahaha!!!)













- lastly... X-Men: The Last Stand dvd (though, it will be out by October... i'm gonna buy it as part of my x'mas wish list... hehehe!!!)
















...oh yeah... somewhat of a good news, i might be staying @ TDS until the x'mas season... that's why i'm bold enough to plan these kinds of stuff for me this coming yuletide season... hohoho on that!! :P (ititiis ko nlng itong making calls... ok na rin naman eh... the colleagues at works are quite a-ok na rin eh...)

ayon... that's my list so far... sana makuha ko lahat ang mga iyon!! c",)

anyways, just got my salary... mdyo mababa, pero ox lng... i treated my family with pizza nung pag-uwi ko kanina... though, i wanna treat my best friend... kasi parang mataggal na rin kami di nagkita... hehehe... 2mrw, before i got to work, i'll be depositing some to the bank. i'm thinking 30% of it will go there na muna, tapos the next sweldo, 40% naman... (wish ko lng... :P)

ayon... cge, yon na muna...


laterz!!! c",)

thank god for broadband...

it's official... i'm using broadband connection here at home. yehey!! i'm online again here at home... i could start blogging regularly again...


anyways, 2mrw is a new change for me... well more of a 'go-back' thing... 'cuz i'll be starting to drive my mom again before i go to work... w/c is kinda sux, in some other level... kasi gastos sa gas at sa oras ko... but it's too early to tell... i'll know it by 2mrw morning.

hay buhay... gago kasi yung driver namin eh... such an a-hole eh...


nways... so far im doing good... so far... though i'm quite a-ok, i'm still doing the 'one-a-day' gig with what i'm doing...

i think so far... hehehe that's it na muna...

blog ya laterz!!! :P

complicated as it is... difficult pa rin... :P

I am a difficult person… well, I know I’m a complicated person, more on the eccentric side (hehehe), but I just realized that I am a difficult person… and I thank my friends, especially the people who are close to me (if you guys got to read this… well, you know who you are naman eh…), thanks talaga for sticking up on my side and being there when I need you, kahit makulit ako.

Well, recent events got me think through and somehow analyzed myself again… and yeah, when I was listening to the radio a while ago about people being difficult… well, yeah, I guess I’m one of those people who are difficult on certain times (or most of some times… labo ‘no? hehehe) anyways… I really thank my friends for being my anchor and being there when I need them, even when sometimes I can’t directly say what my concerns are… (thanks bro! Thank you mga berks!!)

Nways, I’m quite bored again here at work… well more of sleepy than bored (but then again, sleepiness is the result of being bored…) the pool sucks (again). Though, it’s a Friday today, another weekend of rest for me… though, I’m still thinking if I should go to the gym this weekend…para at least matanggal ‘tong stresses from this week… tska sana ok na rin yung gym buddy ko para sabay uli kami, busy kasi palagi eh… :P

Feeling ko, I’ve been through a lot this past few days… or it is just me being down and stressed out… lots of thing in my mind and most of these things aren’t really suppose I should think about it… oh men… me and my insecurieties… it’s really one of those moments that I really want to get out and just vent off my stresses… buti nga at weekend na uli.


Oh yeah, on the lighter side of things… I’ll be having an iPod Video by x’mas, ‘cuz my sister from the US promised it as a x’mas gift… yehey on that! So that means, I’ll just have to save for a PS2 and a new TV for myself… hay… the perks of being single and earning for myself… hehehe :p

O cya… iyon na po muna… lately, I’m posting very complicated stuff on my blogs… maybe it’s just the season to be difficult… but hey!! Thanks guys for being there!!


Laterz… c",)


*I’m good naman talaga eh… :P

fsdjkhgfyhwahfhcgh!!!@@!!!

this stinks!!!

6 passed applicants for 2mrw... my quota so far is low... man!!! fuck it!!

it's boring talaga at nakaka-asar!!!


putang ina tong mga pool na to... grr!!



paksyet!!! punyemas na pool... tapos mga bad comm at bastos pa yung mga tinatawagan ko... sarap uapakan eh!!! shet sila!!!!


grrr....!!!

WHY WHY… fucking WHY?

This is the question that runs in my head right now. Yeah, It’s juys one word, but is has a lot of impact in my current stat lately… WHY?

Anyways, I’m here right now at work, doing the regular routine I’m doing for the pass 2 months… making calls. So far I have 5 passed applicants sched for 2mrw, 5 more to go…

Anyways, I can’t understand why would people who answers my call thinks I’m calling from Italy… or somewhere far away from this country… kinda makes me laugh for a moment… in some ways, pampatanggal ng stress at boredom dito sa work.

Hay naku… nakakabato na talaga ngayon… so far I’m calling from a grad-list… and so far puro bad comm at wrongs #s ang nangyayari… though, it’s godd for call-outs, pero I wanna accomplish my quota eh… (sarcastic laugh)

So far, I’m planning not to go to gym fo a while… WHY? ‘cuz of some reasons na I don’t wanna spit it out na muna dita sa blog… pero later on I’ll write it (probably pag naka-broadband na yung bahay) …no offense to my best friend, but I have to think some stuff and asses myself again. Tska di naman siya naggi-gym na rin eh…

Sighs… boring talaga ‘tong araw na ‘to… plus the fact na wala akong pera (nxt week pa yung payday) at walang load ang celfone ko… makes it more of a challenge to me to be happy for the whole day.

To be honest I wanna cry out thing right now, but I can’t do that… not yet. I wanna go up to a roof top or somewhere high, bast yung mahangin na lugar para to vent off… just like what I did during my college times…

A lot of WHYs in my head right now… so far, I do wanna answer them, but I can’t right now… why? ‘cuz it will just hurt my head right now and lost my focus for the day…

Too many WHYs… sighs!!

bro...dude... HELP!!!!

“I think so far I got everything that I need. We’ll evaluate you application together with other applicants that we are screening right now. If you qualify, you’ll get a call not later than 12noon tomorrow. So we can give you the details needed. If you didn’t get the call, that means other applicant closely met the requirements and we’ll keep your file in active status for the pooling of other position/vacancies.”


This is what I always say whenever I feel to fail an applicant or if the applicant is really bad in talking english. In some ways, it’s like some sort of my ‘power-tripping’ thing just to blow off some steam… or just plain ‘ol power-tripping… hehehe (with an evil tone)

ANYWAYS, I’m not doing well… to be honest. I’ve been experiencing a lot of panic-anxiety attacks… and this time in other aspect as well (ex. emotional & physical aspects) and it’s making me paranoid, scared, angry, pissed off and down right sad lately…

One thing that runs in my mind is the current job I’m into… yeah, I’m doing good… but somehow I’m not having that much fun-FUN… I hate being stuck in just one place all the time… kaya when the eveluation comes-in… it might give me help to decide on whether or not I should move-on or stay.

The other thing is quite more emotional…yeah, aside from what happened last week with one of my colleagues (RE: saying the B word…) there’s the “thing” that bugs me again… I thought it was dormant (or died a year ago)… I was wrong… and plus that fact that things around me (and myself as well) has changed… it’s kicking back again… and I hate this feeling… I wanna talk it out to my best friend about it, cuz he’s the only one who knows it, I’m quite afraid that he might get mad at me (or something painful for us)…

Oh men, this fuck things up!!! (SIGHS!!)

ANYWAYS, I’m here at working right now, just had my lunch… and yeah, the same old routine for the past 2 months…yeah, I’ve been working here for 2 months… same place, same routine… interviewing potentials applicants for this call-center. Hay buhay…

I miss a lot of my old life… though, I’m really excited about the new things in me… it’s really the adapting & adjusting that makes it hard… oh men… too many complex thoughts in my head…

One thing I wanna do right now… talk to my best friend. Talk about the things that bugs me… because I know it’s him who could help me out. Bro if you are reading this… I need to talk to you… soon… help me out… I’ve given you the letter 3-months ago… I need your help. (there… that’s my SOS)


Hay… I think thats it for now… HELP!!


Laterz…

something new...

Right now every thing’s quite a-ok… I think.

The damage-control I did was quite smooth… I think.

But it’s too early to tell… I think so… right?



Yet still, im somehow adapting to what is to be in a working environment… it’s really a challenge for me… big time. And it’s also something new. I guess this is my new fight.

Student life is over… now is the time to face what reality is… and so far, I suck in it. Hehehe

I have to stumble down hard… again. But hey!! I tend to rise and face my fears away… I’ve always been a survivor… I guess I can withstand this one… and I have to.

Sigh… kaya ko ‘to!!!

Ako pa!! c”,)

Anyways, I think that’s it na muna…

Laterz…. :P

currently working...

yes... right now im working here in my desk... making calls / recruiting people from baguio... anyways, so far, im getting a lot of CCs (can't contacts)... mdyo stressful na hinde... pero ox lang naman...

nways... gulat ko nga na nakakapag-blog ako dito sa office desk ko...

hay naku.... gusto ko na rin minsan umuwi with this crazy-rainy weather... sighs.

back to what's bugging me lately... yeah, my insecurities are somehow knocking again... but hey... im not giving in naman eh... hehehe! :P

nways (uli!)... balik na muna ako on making my calls...

later uli...


LATERz!! c",)


**yeah, im still cool... :P

ang tagal...

it's been a long time since i've blog something here... well, so far, so good... i guess...

i'll be finding some time blog some stuff later... 'cuz there are, lately, thing that bugs me... yeah.. i just have to release it through my blogs...

anyways, im here at the patry of e-tel... having my lunch break...

kaya, once i get online at home... i'll be able to update my blog regularly, i hope on that...

neways... yon n muna...


i miss blogging... to many thing to blog... cge, catch-up na lang muna ako later...


laterz... c",)

doing it right (i guess)....

so far im having quite a hard time to adjust here at work, though i somehow find the job very challenging becuase of the calls i'm doing and the quota to achieve a day... but somehow i'm still trying to achieve to the goal of at least / more than 8 passed applicants. i'm still working on how to reach the 100 call-outs a day, cuz so far, i'm still at the range of 50-65 call-outs a day, w/c can be a big point against me if i'm gonna be evaluated.

and add to the fact that i'm just the only guy in our group... it's quite hard to adapt to what they are talking, plus i feel like somehow alienated and intimitated by them... but though i see that during work they encourage me to strive more, but i somtimes feel a "dead air' around it... but i guess i'm just feeling insecure and somehow still trying to understand them and women in general... (sighs)

and yeah, i was able to go the gym yesterday with my best friend... buti naman at natuloy yung plan and i'm really hoping it will continue and the plan na magtutulungan would really be real... and yeah also, i was able to try-out the free trial work-out at fitness first last thursday, though i somehoe enjoyed the work-out at fitness first, i really felt OP when i was training there... and while training with my best friend, i felt like yung samahan namin is really getting stronger...

though there was a thought to back out a few days ago, because it made me remember the things we planned before or talked about pero di naman na tuloy... kaya i was quite assuming na this plan of going to the gym would be part of those things that wouldn't happen, just gonna be mentioned or talked but never gonna materialized... but i'm really happy that it materialized yesterday and it will be a continuous thing... sa totoo lng, bonus na lang yung pagiging fit eh, it's more of spending more time to hang-out with my best friend, kasi i know he'll be a lot busy this time becuase of his thesis and researches kaya the time spent hanging out would be lesser than nung summer... pero atleast nagawan ng paraan to hang-out by going to the gym during weekends... ayon lng. c",)

i guess i did choose the right way in continuing the gym gig with my best friend...i can't wait for next weekend uli and the next engagements to come...

ayon... i guess thats it for now... im really happy for the gym gig, cuz it really happened yesterday... and the thing with work, im hoping i can adjust fast by this week... so i cud make a few more calls, more than 60+ (or make it a hundred)... heheh :P

so... yon na muna...


laterz...!

here currently at work... and having my stomach rumble...

it's lunch time... so that means i can use the free internet access here at work...

anyways, i was 15 minutes late a while ago... the reason, i can't do #2... though, there was a slight poop that went off... i still feel constipated right now... and add to that my tummy is rumbling too... oh men!!

anyways, i think that's it for now... i wish my parents would fetch me later so i won't be commuting later... nakakapagod rin eh...

oh yeah, ill be starting my gym routine this weekend with my best friend... it's a good start to be fit, lean & healthy!!! c",)

nways... that's it muna...


laterz... :P

so far so good...

i got to start working last tuesday (6/13) at TDS in Ortigas, then i was shipped to E-Telecare in Libis last thursday (6/15)...

somehow, i was having quite a hardtime on the first day in e-tel, becuase the script was quite a tongue-twister at first, but then i got the hang of it later that noon and did my calls as a phone screener for e-tel... then the following day (friday, 6/16) i didn't made any calls, becuase i'm still a newbie and i observed the right way to make calls... so far, i'm getting the flow of the script and how to properly screen applicants. and by 2mrw (monday, 6/19) i'll be starting to really screen applicants and also i'll be observed by the head recruiter officer of e-tel, which i see nothing wrong but anyways makes me kinda nervous too...

oh well, so far, im quite enjoying the job i'm doing... though it's quite tiring for my voice and my saliva, plus commuting home is also tiresome... a good nights sleep is always a desire every time i go home form work.

oh yeah, 2 weeks from now, on the the 30th of this month (friday) i'll getting my first salary!!! yehey!! :P

once i got the salary, i'll save the following (for gym, for my comics and a portion for my remaining balance for my tuition) and the rest (or half of what's left) will go to my savings account. and what's left will be our the family and my allowance... i know it's not that much yet, cuz i started almost half of the month... but it's a good start na rin, dba?

hay naku... i think that's it na muna... if i have the time during work (more on my lunch breaks) i'll try to blog what's happening to me...

oh yeah... i forgot... i have my own local number and my own cubicle (with a PC!!!) though i can't save my files, cuz it's used for recruitment purposes, having a PC and my own local # is quite something to brag paminsan-minsan... hehehe :P



aahh... i think that's it for now... :P


laterz... c",)

thus it begins...

tomorrow starts a new chapter in my life...
being a young, early 20's urban professional in the Human Resource industry.

a Yuppie for HR.

though it is connected to the course that i finished, i'm still in search for what my other potential are. yes, there are more potential that can be triggered inside my head. and i'm not being mayabang, i'm just being modest to tell. :D

anyways, the 1st 2 days of my work, starting 2mrw, i'm assigned at TDS at Ortigas then on thursday, the 3rd day of my work, i'll be assigned at E-Telecare in Libis. and i'll be assigned there until my bosses decides to either put me back at TDS or assign me to other call center. and i'm assuming that the relocation would be after i'm eveluated three months from now... so, hopefully, i'll be working in Lbis for three months...

though, i miss being in college and, somehow, leaving some of my friends there... i have to move on and have a place in society, right? and i see that the connections and bonds i have to my friends are still intact... though i cannot check on them always, because i tend to gain new friends in every new situation i am into, i can still contact them in a lot of ways. with technology getting bigger, the world is getting small by the days... though, yeah, i'll really gonna miss them, specially the ones at kalay (some of the psychs-pips & FA pips), i'll do my best to keep in touch with them... :D

hay, this is it... work... so far, clothing-wise, i'm somehow prepped-up na rin... i have 3 slacks already and the polos are sufficient enough to survive a weeks work...

i am ready... to face this new chapter... i can (and proud) to say that i have survived a lot of things... whatever things i face, i'll see it as a challenge... and i can face MY challenges (focus on the MY part... 'cuz it's my life. my problems. my decisions. MY CHALLENGES)

nways, wish me luck on 2mrw's adventure...

laterz... c",)


O yeah... HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY to all FILIPINOS!!! Mabuhay tayong lahat!!! (and i hope & pray for POSITIVE changes for our country and to our fellow men)

a new leaf by tuesday...

i was able to pass the training yesterday... well not to be mayabang or something, i was the 2nd highest in the class, with a 91% overall score... yey on that! :P

anyways, i'll be starting on my first job this tuesday... then on thursday, i'll be assigned in Libis, the E-Telecare call center office, but i'm still an employee of TDS.. i'll just make phone screening interview for E-telecare...

i'm quite excited, cuz i'll be earning money for myself... but quite scared, becuase it's a new environment for me, working environment to be exact. and though i still have an uncertain feeling, i'm seeing it as a new oppurtunity for me to widen my potential...

(sigh) i'm still thinking on what to buy on my 1st salary... though, still, i'm really gonna pay the remaining balance at kalay... i want to reward myself on something... hmm... pero sa 30th pa nman yon eh, mdyo matagal pa... plus i'll be saving some of my salary for gym, cuz i made a commitment with my best friend that we're gonna be gym-buddies (and yeah, fix my gym sched with my work sked)

haay... this is it... something new... and just more than a month after i graduated from college... hahaha! :P

o cya, that is it for now...


laterz... c",)

NEVER EAT at a Mini-Stop shop...

this is the leasson i've learned for today, and hopefully for the rest of my working life...

the food, even if it has a tasty look... it's just the looks. and as the saying goes... looks can kill (literally, with these kinds of food they sell)

anyways, 1st day of training for my improvement of my english skills was quite a-ok... though it was really tiring (add the commuting going there & going home)...

and the pressure of my potential bosses to pass the training was quite noticeable a while ago... and i'm guessing that there's a possibility that i could get assigned at their office at Libis, QC... w/c is also good for me, but im not expecting anything yet. i'm just focused on getting 85% or higher on my english skill by friday...

nways, hope for the best for me on this....

now... i have to rest, cuz im really quite drained out for the day... i'll just eat dinner and sleep early, cuz 2mrw i have to wake up early again... buhay xavier nga uli ako... and this time, i'm getting paid....hehehe :P


laterz!!! c",)

the perks of being a taong-bahay

yeah... my last weekend before i settle down to being a 'yuppie' (bwakang ina to!! i hate that term... i miss college life!)

anyways, my parents and my sister are out... and im just here... chillin' down... i wish i could invite my best friend here right now to hang-out (but he's out of town)... anyways, i'll just clean my room and just try to watch some dvds here...

hay... so far, im excited to go to my first job... it's like going to school for a new school year... and yeah... there's the jitters of meeting new people and having new friends (and new people to abhor)...

so far, so good... i'm quite relax of all things right now... just keep an open and clear mind on things...

i think yon na muna... for now... i'll blog now and then (kung may oras, pero i'll try to make time para just to blog-in what's happening to me...)


laterz... c",)

May trabaho na ako!!!

yehey!!!

i have a job!!!

though, im seeing it as a 'boring' one.. but it will be a challenge for me to perp it up!! :D

and the salary offer thay gave me was quite suitable for me as a start up... 10k a month!!!

anyways, i still have to take the english certification class for five days and prove that i can speak and write english properly... after that i'm officially gonna start working for 3 months (until the evaluation and 'promotion'... whether or not i should continue or not)...

anyways, wish me luck on this... for this week, i'll just gonna finish the requirements the office needs before i officially start working next week (or the week after).

laterz... c",)

it's my birthday... :P

well... well... well...

it's been a while since i blogged... well, so far so good... especially this week, prior to my actual birthday...

got to watch X-Men3 with my best friend, and got a prize too.... i got a good job offer, this time the salary offer is quite higher than what accenture offered me (i'm thinking to get it na, kahit 3 months lang muna... at accessible yung place going there and going home)... :P

and now... birthday ko na... so far, i postponed the kainan-inuman and moved it to the 31st, wednesday... para mas ok eh... c",)

anyways, that's it na muna...

oh yeah... got the guts the to face the things that bugs and... hopefully my best friend will help me out na talaga.

i think that's it na muna... officially, i'm 24. and still single (but who's complaining...) i'll try to be more adventurous on a lot of stuff and have a peacefull attitude towards life (naks... napaka-zenful ah...)


laterz... c",)

Calvin & Hobbes...

check this link to know why im starting to like calvin & hobbes... though, i know the comic a long time ago, it was this series of strips that made try to save up for a compilation of the comic. :D

ang libog ko pala!! ...hehehe :P

Greed:	Very High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	High
Lust:	Very High
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

sartactic eggs for breakfast...

... and for a fact that i was eating scrambled eggs a while ago... :P

Motorola SLVR L7

so far, this is the phone i'm planning to get as a grad / bday gift... (plus the PS2)

Its the SLVR L7 of Motorola... so far, i got to read the review, and so far it's a good one to have...

plus the price is quite cheaper than SE K750i or the other nokia phone that i liked before...

though, i'm not familiar with how the settings of Motorola phones are.. but reading the review, i think i can manage it...

plus this phone kinda looks like an X-Men type phone... hehehe :p



Speaking of X-Men... here's another TV Spot of X3... just check it out below. c",)

Nangangati na magtrabaho (itching to get a job)...

yesterday was my 3rd interview with one of the companies that i've applied for a job... the 1st two interviews was through the phone, which was quite interesting... and yesterday was the one-on-one personal interview, wo i have to go to makati and meet my interviewer.

i was early there and somehow, the interview started quite early as well... so far, what i know that they are offering me a job as an HR Community Assistant to ther Human Resouce dept. so far i don't really know what that position does... then when the interviewer told me that i'll be helping out on the events / extra-curricular activities of the company and explained the general concept, i was amazed and really happy to the position they offered to me.

so basically i'll be an events coordinator assistant to their company... cool!!!

i just hope they would get me to their company... i really want that job... i really hope i could get in.

but... if there's another offer from the other companies... i'll have to weight everything and decide it thoroughly...

but so far, this was a good position... kinda fits me. :P

so far that's it... i can't wait getting a job...

oh, did i mention... if i got in to that position... i have a laptop & i work in flexible hour... this is great!!! :D

oh well... i really hope i get in.


laterz...! c",)


(just an add attachment... here's anothe clip from X3... very sexy jean seducing logan... it's more of a SEX-Men than X-men... hehehe :P)

it wasn't that bad after all...

though, natuloy yung lakad at pagsama ko sa best friend ko to buy a new fone and watch a movie... mdyo i feel awkward towards him... sempre, who wouldn't?!? i was quite disappointed at him when he informed me na di na ako makakasama, on a very last minute changes... that really made me pissed off... then changes again, and nakasama uli ako...

pero, mdyo asar pa rin ako, ng konti... kasi paiba-iba yung pangyayari... sana man lang talaga a day before, not the day itself... who wouldn't be pissed off... and it's quite unethical to postpone or cancel on the very same day (sori if im sounding Psych...) ayaw ko lang masanay na pabago-bago ng desisyon on the exact day of meeting or plan... okay lang kung a day before the event, para maka-adjust pa and make some back-ups... anyways, 'yon lng...

yeah, masaya na rin ako kasi natuloy... though, parang odd-man-out lang talaga ako, kahit sa mga kapatid nya...

anyways, im cool na... nasa bahay na rin ako, just gonna chill na muna... mdyo kapagod rin eh... plus em-stress from kaninang umaga still has it residues on my head..

but i'll be able to deal with it... ako pa. :p

o cya... yon lng...

if my best friend got to read this blog... sorry, mdyo ranting lang ako, no hard feelings & peace tayo!!! hope you understand, kasi dito na rin ako mostly nakaka-vent off ng mga things i want to vent-off... though i still have friends to talk with, like you and some people... i prefer to blog some rants here...


anyways, yon na muna...

laterz...

BAD DAY

*this is becuase of one person... check the previous blog entry to know why...


Bad Day (Daniel Powter)

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day

disappointing RANT...

(start of RANT)




yes, I AM DISAPPOINTED right now. i was suppose to hang-out with my best friend today, samahan siya bumili ng bagong mobile phone (which in some way, tradition na rin kasi palagi ako ang kasama twing bibili siya ng phone or something for himself) and hopefully get to watch a movie (which i missed a lot, kasi the last time we watched a movie was June of last year)...

every thing was quite planned and ready since last week... then a while ago, he just texted me na di daw siya makakadaan dahil puno na raw yung sasakyan nila... though i understand na kasama yung mga pinsan niya and i'll be the odd-man-out... pero nakaka-BWISET nga lang ay it was planned before today...

for the fact na i re-sched a job interview today to another day... though, im not expecting them to call again, due to my sched (but if they are ethical, they will re-sched me)... NAKAKA-DISAPPOINT nga lang....

nalulungkot nga lang talaga ako... and i would really appreciate it if my best friend would call me than text me... (sori if im sounding senti-emo... ganito lang talaga ako).... but didn't, he just texted me...

nakaka-asar talaga siya!!!

and i hate to record things up... but this is not the 1st time he did this... there's the one noong he didn't wait for me and left me sa highway, when i was suppose to hitch a ride with him going home. thus making me walk from my school to RP... grrr!!!

NAAASAR talaga ako!!!!

GALIT ako, ASAR ako, NALULUNGKOT rin ako at DISAPPOINTED ako sa kanya...

(and somehow, im so stupid...)



...so stupid. (kasi best friend ko siya at mahal ko ang kaibigan ko... kaya extending a mile is what i've been doing for my friends... STUPID!!!)

anyways, im just RANTING out this just to blow-off some steam...

again... GALIT ako, ASAR ako, NALULUNGKOT rin ako at DISAPPOINTED ako sa kanya...




(end of RANT)

Wolverine VS. Sentinel (X3 movie clip)

well, here's a clip from the upcoming X3 flick... it's a scene in which the X-Men are having a Danger Room session against a Sentinel...

check it out...

it might a take a few minutes, but it's worth it to watch!! c",)

X-Men: The Last Stand (TV Spot)

i was just surfing around when i got to see one of the new TV Spots of X3... if you wanna see the other TV Spots, i have them on my Multiply.Com account... (just click on this LINK to see all three)

but this one... below is the newest one... just watch it... it may atke a few minutes to fully watch it... enjoy!! c",)

and it somehow begins...

officially, i am a BA Psych graduate. 'cuz last sunday was the graduation ceremonies and i was extatic about it... though i wasn't satisfied by the pictures my sister took during my graduation (to be honest, she really takes pictures very badly)... anyways, after the 1 & 1/2 ceremony, me & my family went out for a lunch at Max's @ Tiendesitas and after that i just slept the whole afternoon... then that night i went to kate's and celebrate our graduation.

it was fun... the graduation... though im also quite sad & disappointed 'cuz my best friend wasn't able to attend, even if i understood his situation & his reason why he wasn't able to attend... but to be honest i really needed him there... kasi best friend ko siya, and i put him as my guest on my list... pero anyways, nangyari na eh... ox rin naman sa 'kin... kaso yon lng, mdyo malungkot lang ako... pero alam ko babawi rin siya next time (hopefully sa bday ko).

then the following day... i started to spread my resumes online and got a copy for the civil service exam...

so basically that's it... after the celebration... i have to start looking for a decent & good-paying job... (sigh)

anyways, later at around 11-ish i have another interview, but it's a phone interview. so i'll be just chillin' out here at home... so wish me luck.

i think that's it for now...


laterz... c",)

can't wait for tomorrow...

well, i just got a copy of the Philippine Daily Inquirer a while ago... just to check if it's true, that graduating batch of kalay is printed on the newspaper... and in fact it is. on page A15, upper right corner... and i'm on 1st row, the 4th (from the left) picture... hehehe. :P

im on a newspaper... though it's just a small one, it's still big to me... c",)

anyways, 2mrw is the day... i'll be marching at around 9-ish in the morning and gonna be a graduate by 11-ish... yey!!

kaya later, i'll be buying some new clothes (just a long sleeve & a tie) for the march 2mrw... plus getting a hair-cut... and yeah, i'll shave in a little while...

hay... im graduating... i cnt believe it... i'm graduating on time!!!

anyways... just have to prep-up for today...

laterz... c",)

arrgggh...!

well, summer is almost half-done... and i haven't accomplished anything on my 'to-do' list, well except graduating and the removal of my gallstone...

even the simple things like hanging-out with my best friend or my friends, di ko pa nagagawa... so far, i'm still adjusting on my diet, cuz of my operation...

but so far i haven't got my comix from my pull-out list... oh men... this quite sux. (grrr....!!) and i haven't have the dvds that i want... (huhuhu....)

anyways, today, well, this afternoon i'll going to my graduation rehearsal and later i'll be going home with my friends because they're going to scan some picutres for our yearbook... plus i'm planning to drop the invitation for my best friend to myy graduation this sunday...

but i wanna hang-out with him and my friends... it's been a while lang... and i miss them.

anyways, i hope by next month, my pick-up would be fix so i could start driving again and hang-out with my friends... plus sana matuloy ako (and makasama) sa planong pagpunta sa sagada sa north next month... i really need/want a summer-grad outing eh...

oh well, i think that's it na muna..

laterz... c",)

it's gone... at last!!

last monday afternoon, i was confined at the AFP Gen. Hospital for my scheduled lap-chole operation (gallstone removal), which is on tuesday morning. that night, i was shaved from my navel down to my private area and somehow given my last meal befroe i sleep... athe following morning, at around 4am i was woke up by the nurse, i took a quick bath and the intern nurse put a dextrox and the swero at my left hand and my parents & my sister came just in time for my scheduled operation.. my mom was quite nervous, she kept that very 'disturbing-worrying' look at me... though in my case, i am ready yet the night before i was texting my friends frequently just to get enough confidence from them, which really helped me face the small fear i have out when i took that quick bath. anyways, i was at the pre-opreation room at around 6am, i was just there... naked and waiting for the time of my operation... though im naked, i have a sheet above me...by 730am, the nurse injected me with some drug that made drozy and in a few more minutes grogy and a few more seconds pass-out... though my mind is still active, i tired to open my eyes, forcefully, just to check where am i... but the only thing i remember was the blue ceiling and the UFO-type lighting above me and the feeling the i'm being tied up on both my arm like christ... then after that i really left my active my and everything went dark & silent...

then i heard voices, my mom's voice... telling to move my legs... i'm still, i think, drugged or under the anesthesia, so i can't really open my eyes and see clearly. but i got to glimpse a clock at says it's 4pm... i know, i should react, becease from what i've reseached, the procedure of my operation would last upto 30-45 minutes only... anyways, i was really drugged down and can't think clearly...i felt that was moving to another room... a much more cooler one... then i really got to open my eyes and quite see clearly, i htink at around 6pm... so basically, that was more than 12 hours of my life not knowing whta happened to me... though i was exprience post-operational difficulties, like dizziness, puking and having a hard time to adjust... the days followed and the meds helped me adjust nicely.


it was only the next day that i got to see officially how big my gallstone was... and it's really big for my age... the doctor said it has to be pass throughout my navel, that big... wow!

right now, almost a week has passed from my operation... i still have my stitches, which will be removed this wednesday... and still taking my antibiotics and other meds, which is until a few days more... then i'll be able to go back to my regular diet, though i'm thinking to stick to this weight, 145lbs... which is healtier and i could get enough of it.

hay... what a relief... my gallstone is gone.

now all i have to do is just graduate, which is just exactly a week from now. c",)

that's it for now... :P


laterz c",)

one more day... mixed emotion arises

just one more day... isang araw na lang... at matatanggal na itong gallstone ko... yey!! :P

though there are really mixed emotions that are quite running around my head as the day comes closer... like the basic 'what-if...' and the 'what will happen after?' questions... but so far, i'll know when i get there...

so far, i did my research and it backed-up my confidence more. though i see it that it's normal to have this kinds of petty anxiety... but i just have to focus more on getting healthy and going back to normal again. c",)

...in another words, POSITIVE THINKING is a must for this...!

i think that's it for now... i might be able to post for the next following days, due to my operation & confinement... so hope the best for me in this one... wish me luck!! c",)


laterz... c",)

...

nuthing much... it was quite boring and quiet during the holy week... just stayed basically here at home and tried to kill boredom by having DVD marathons and lots of sleeping around. though resting is one thing i need, 'cuz two days from now i'll behaving my gall-stone remove, so far i think that's it for the whole week.

well, there's the meeting of the graduates 2mrw afternoon... but before that, i'm planning to hang-out at my best friends house and just chill there for a while, before going to school... i'll bring some dvds for him to watch and i guess pahiramin ko rin ng comics ko...anyways, bahala na..

after 2rmw... it's my confinement na for my opreation on tuesday... wish me luck. though i'm excited that i can eat regular foods a week after the operation... a big-YEY on that.

so ayon... nuhting much talaga...

keep you posted nlng later...


laterz.. c",)

At last... GRADUATION (and it's official)

it's OFFICIAL... i'll be marching for graduation this April 30, 2006 (@ 9am at the Balay Kalinaw in UP Diliman).

A big YEHEY on that!!

when i found out that all my subjects this sem and together with the otehr subjects for completion passed... it made my day really awesome!!! YEHEY!!!

now i'm really happy and excited for me!! :D

and now i have the right to celebrate... but i have to get operated first, so that i could really celebrate... hahaha! :P

oh well, i'm so happy today... and damn... i'm graduating... c",)


laterz... c",)

isang linggo na lang... yey!!

basically, it's exactly a week from my scheduled confinement for my gallstone removal surgery... and i'm so excited!! yippee!! :P

kaya konting tiis na lang... konting tiis na lang... pero kung tutuosin, kaya ko naman i-maintain 'tong way of eating eh... kaso, i can't wait to taste some foods that i'm so missing, like pizza and the variety bucket ng KFC... hay... excited na ako talaga! c",)

i can still stand it... hehehe

o cya.. yon lang... :P

laterz c",)

the heat is on...

summer season basically started around mid-March, which was just last month... but the heat then was quite tolerable, but lately it is really HOT!!! too hot that i can fry an egg on the floor... i can't even go out, so i'm just stuck here at home and spending hours online, thus wasting a lot of hours to my internet card. i'm guessing by this friday (or earlier pa) mauubos na agad eh...

though i know i can't reallly go out, cuz i have no money and i'm avoiding to eat something that can trigger my gallstone attack... it's just really hot outside.

sighs... sometime i wish there are really mutants in this reality... so there's a possibility that Storm is true... so that she can make the weather cool always. :P

anyways, today is Palm Sunday, the start of Holy Week... so basically a lot of people are going to either vacation outside the metro (like my best friend, going to HK... inggit!) or do some religious rituals (like my mom, having a church activity-gig... blah!) or just like me (bumming around at home & having a dvd marathon)...

and by the way, i still have 9 days to go before i get myself operated for the gallstone removal surgery... so i'm getting excited every day it gets nearer... yey!! :P

so ayon na muna... i'll try my best to post frequently...

laterz... c",)

summer plans...(if there's any)

yesterday, friday, i took the very last (and i really hope it's the last one) exam for college... and i hate it.

cuz it's fucking hard...!!!

i just really hope that i'll pass english 3 this time... cuz almost 2 years ago i failed the same subject cuz of my cuts & absences... the only thing i regret about this present subject, is that it's the same prof whom i had then... but i'm hoping that she has changed her heart (even in a little, subtle way). anyways, i jusr hope i pass this one and just graduate already.

but at least... it's officially summer time for me... (yey.)

but... yet still... im not sure what are my plans this summer...

though there are things that i want to do...

-like going to the beach...
-scattering my resumes to every job openings available...
-hanging-out more with my best friend and my barkadas...
-buying the stuffs that i love to have (check my previous blog entry)...
-read good books...
-do some adrenaline rush activities (like riding a rollercoaster or something similar to that)...
-watch movies with friends...

and so much more... though the only solid plan right now is the operation for my gallstone removal after holy week and (yeah) the graduation this end of April (which kinda ticks me off, cuz the office @ kalay made some changes again. we will still graduate @ UP, but it will no longer be at Bahay ng Alumni at 4pm. it will be more smaller than Alumni, it's at Balay Kalinaw @ 9am... oh men!)

so far that's it... i wish at least 2 or 3 things in the list would come true... i really wish & hope.

ayon.. yon na muna...

laterz c",)

wish list...

with my graduation getting nearer and also my bday nxt month... there are things that i really want as a gift/reward... but the problem is that i lack the enough finances to have it... so for those who knew me and got the chance to read this, i hope this would give you guys ideas on what to give me on either my graudation or my bday (or both)... :P

well here's my wish list for my grad & bday:
-Jessica Zafra's Twisted 7
-Jessica Zafra's Chicken Pox for the Soul
-Tuesdays with Morrie
-April issue ng Empire Magazine (X3 yung cover)
-10th Season ng FRIENDS (preferably the original copy)
-5th Season ng CSI (pirated or original copy)
-1st Season ng CSI: NY (pirated or original copy)
-TPB ng X-Men: Blood of Apocalypse
-TPB ng New Avengers (Volumes 2-3)
-HBC ng New X-Men Vol. 3-5 (basta kung san namatay si phoenix)
-TPB or HBC ng Marvels 1602
-at least isa sa mga pull-out list kong TPB na nasa CATS Market-Market (Avengers:Disassembled / X-Men & Black Panther / X-Men Dark Phoenix Saga)
-Marvel Select: Emma Frost
-Marvel Select: Dr. Octopus
-Bandai Marvel Heroes Gashapon series 1 or 4
-Sony Ericsson's K750i cellphone
-Starbucks Mug (yung tall, kulay green or blue)

anyways... am i asking too much? hehehe :P

wish list lang nman ito eh... kaya wish ko lang to have these things from my friends or from my pocket (pag may pera na ako...) :P

oh well, yon na muna...

laterz... c",)

i hope this is final...

well, this is my schedule, so far, for the make-up exam for english 3 and the operation fro my gallstone removal...

...i'll be taking the make-up exam this friday at 10am. after that i have the Holy Week for prepping up and resting for the operation. 'cuz i'll be admitting at the hospital on the 18th and hopefully i'll be operated on the 19th and i'll be confine for 5 to 7 days... so basically, i have two weeks more before i get operated... w/c kinda scares me, cuz who knows what can ahppen in this two weeks span, i hope not...

anyways, i hope for the best and that i also hope that i won't have any attacks too... and to do this, i'll have to be strict to my diet... so that means i have to starve for two weeks... i guess i'm strong enough to handle that... i just really hope that things will be smooth na rin...

wish me luck nlng on these things... cuz after all these... graduation time for me. c",)

laterz... c",)

i was almost there...BUT

yesterday was really quite a stressful day.

one... i had to wait for a long time for any updates on whether i'll be able to take the make-up Finals for English3... i was at kalay at around pass 9am, becuase i was informed (last friday) that i'll be taking the test at 10am... when i arrived at school, the office informed me that they haven't contacted my prof for any info about my test... well, at first it didn't bothered me, cuz i have a meeting for graduation at 1pm... but even after the meeting ended at 3pm, i waited for any news 'til 4pm... and the office said that i was gonna have to take the exam on the 11th (tuesday next week)... i was quite pissed off at the office for being inept...

two... during the graduation meeting, just found out that i have to raise at least 5k to graduate... not that stress, but later i realized that i have to raise 10K to really graduate... 5K for the graduation gigs & another 5K for the remaining tuition fee i haven't paid yet... oh men...

last... due to the re-schedule of my exam, my scheduled operation this week will be moved to next wednesday, after my exam... during the holy week... which kinda disrupted my schedule... cuz i still have to finish my remaining hours of SA after holy week... but then again, yesterday, i was quite tired and stressed that im having a hard time to think straight...

anyways, right now, im still fixing my sched for the whole month... with graduation and the opreation coming up... i need enough strength to do this...

ba't ganito palagi... when im almost there sa finish-line, smooth-sailing na, tapos... BAM!! anothe challenge... well, sa totoo, okay lang... kaso it's getting stressful na rin eh... though i love the challenge... i really need to lighten myself paminsan-minsan nman... can't i have a small amount of peace once in a while...? (sighs!)

anyways... gotta relax na muna...

laterz... c",)

know your friends...

i got this list while reading other peoples blogs (it kills the boredom...honest!)

...anyways, as trained by my prof, i'll put on the link from where i got this, to avoid plagiarizing... well here's the LINK...

and here's the list of the Types of Friends...

1. Sort-of Friend -- A Sort-of Friend is more of an acquaintance. You know that person and he/she knows you. He/She might be someone from work whom you've talked with at a few office events. He/She could be someone from your Psychology class and both of you acknowledge each other's existence.
2. Ordinary Friend -- An ordinary friend is someone whom you spent some time with in the past. He/She could be in the same click group in High School or College. An ordinary friend is different from a sort-of friend, in that there is a little bit of communication between you and your ordinary friend. This communication is not on a consistent basis, but your ordinary friend is definitely in your "FRIENDSTER" list. An ordinary friend is someone you send birthday greetings to once you receive the birthday alert from FRIENDSTER. Occasionally, you say hi, hello and how's it going to your ordinary friend. The frequency of communication is at least once a year.
3. Hang-out Friend -- A hang-out friend is someone whom you spend time with currently. He/She is a member of your current click group whom you go out with on bars and clubs. You talk to your hang-out friend at least once a week, and see each other at least once in two weeks. You occasionally go to movies or go shopping with your hang-out friend. Your friendship with your hang-out friend can potentially lead to Friend with benefit, Best Friend or Best Friend Forever.
4. Friend with benefit -- He/She is your hang out-friend whom you can sleep with, no strings attached.
5. Best Friend -- A best friend is someone whom you are currently hanging out with, or whom you spent some time in the past. The difference between a hang-out friend and a best friend is that you completely trust your best friend with your personal problems. Your best friend is there to help you when you're having car-troubles, but he's definitely there to hang-out with you to have a good time also (e.g. movies, shopping).
6. Best Friend Forever -- A best friend forever (B.F.F.) is a higher lever of best friend, in that your B.F.F practically knows you inside and out. H/She is someone whom you can depend on regardless of any situation. A best friend is someone whom you can depend on, on most situations (not all). To illustrate the difference, a best friend is there to be your crying shoulder if you encounter a bad breakup. Your B.F.F. will confront your ex who dumped you!