tag-along... please…

well, it's final (no turning back).... i'll be going to Ayala Museum in Makati this Wednesday, after my class @ kalay at 1130am... but im thinking, should i bring someone? kasi i'll going there alone eh, and parang naghahanap ako ng kasama to go there... i guess, im willing to cover his/her LRT-MRT expenses just for that person na samahan ako (para bang desperadong makahanap ng kasama... hehehe :P)

anyways, im thinking of some people who can tag-along with me...well there's...

- jax (but i think he's busy with a lot of archi stuff, kahit wala syang pasok twing wednesdays...)
- mr (i think may class rin sya pag-wednesday ata... plus baka kasama niya si kini)
- lloyd (sus... mangbababae lang yon... :P )
- nina (may class din ata siya)
- giselle (i doubt it... but im still hopeful na samahan nya ako... pero i have to be careful)
- mga ka-psychs (most of them ay nakapunta na... kaya malabo)
- FA pips (baka wala silang pera & i think may class ata rin sila by that time)

... i guess wala akong mayayaya akong samahan sa ayala museum. i guess it's gonna be another solo-mission for me... (whaaaa!)

pero i know wednesday is still 3 days from now... still raw to decide and to make alok... pero i just hope (not wish!!) that sana may mayaya akong mag-tag-along sa akin going to makati... :P

basta, wish me luck....

nyt-nyt!

laterz... c",)

catching up...

well, i'm one week in-advance done for the report i'll do for my Soc Sci 2 class. just finished doing my research and the hand-out 30 minutes ago... then, i just prepped-up the paper i'll be doing this wednesday night for my Humanidades 2 class, which is about my solo-trip this coming wednesday afternoon at Ayala Museum. i was planning to go there 2mrw, but i just found out that it's close during mondays, and the only free time i can go is on wednesday... so i'll be going there, solo and commuting... this would be fun for me, 'cuz it's gonna be a cheap-but-fun adventure for me... going around the urban jungle by foot... hay... :P

anyways, it's just 12 in the afternoon, and most of my works are done... hmmm... it's weird, but i think satisfying as well... maybe the next thing to do is catching up on the readings i've missed reading for my English 3 class...

oh men... i can't believe im in a good study-mode right now.

though right now, im thinking of giving myself an award for these stuffs i did... hmm... a movie? (well, i think aeon flux would be out this week...) a comic? (nah... im going on a one-time-big-time on that this march) ...what reward should i give to myself... bahala na..!! :P

nways, yesterday was quite a so-so day though, i hanged-out at my best friends house and did some of the readings for my soc sci2 report... while he was doing his archi stuff... basically it's a studious environment there, and it helped me focus on my work. but i hate to notice it, that lately, everyone around me are as busy as the flow of traffic at EDSA... di mo ma-approach. kahit yung bagong friend kong si MR, though i know he's just thinking deep about his problems towards someone he likes... wala lng... parang lahat lang ng tao na nakikita ko o nami-meet ako ay busy... hmmm... maybe it's the '2nd sem syndrome', in which the real start of the 2nd sem is on January and that students are cramming up to do their stuff as well as mix it with their angst and dilemmas in life... anyways, i think i'll just give them their spaces and not to disturb them for a while... ako rin naman, i need some space... :P

oh well... i think that's it na muna. i have to eat lunch na muna then after that catch-up with some of the readings, para 2mrw, focus ako sa Speech1 class requirement about the individual recitation-thing...

hope the best for me... though i know i'm still good. :P


laterz... c",)

it isn't a BIG deal but...

during my Kom 3 class, we shared the poems we wrote as part of our requirement for the subject... basically i just wrote what i'm feeling during the time when they left me last March 21 last year... yeah, the incident where they accidentally left me drunk at katipunan... anyways, some of my classmates in that class were familiar with the story and somehow tried to tease me... but i didn't care that much, somehow i just laughed with them too... after class, i just realized that it will be almost a year since that bad night and somehow i was able to laugh it out now... hmm...

im not really mad at them now... yeah, i still hang-out with most of them and still good friends with some... but i still wanna make them pay for the immaturity and irresponsibility they did... as i said before, i hope for their karma to come and hope that im on the audience seat. for me, it would be some kinda treasure... just like having them as my friends...

it's kinda weird, but so far that's what my mind is set after the said incident...

well, for the readers, click on this LINK to know what happened to me last March 21, 2005...

anyways, so far im cool with it... im good.


laterz...

weekend ender...

it's been a while since i've blogged... well i think a few days back would be considered as a "been-a-while". anyways, it's a so-so weekend, the usual weekend: class for the saturday morning, drive to accu-pressure therepy in the afternoon and chill after... then sunday would be just chillin out at home and try to finish whatever things to be done for the coming week...

the only thing that somehow made it into a not-that so-so day was watching the boxing fight a while ago on Paquiao vs. Morales, in which the Pac-man won... go manny!! (yey!!) watching the fight a while ago remind me of the time i've watched one of his fights live and for free... and it was really intense that time... cuz im just a few feet away from the ring... fascinating. Also, I got to finish a very good comicbook i borrowed from a friend at kalay… Batman: The Dark Knight Returns… it’s a Batman comics in which Frank Miller (Sin City, Daredevil) wrote it… and it’s where there’s a girl Robin (Carrie… something)… good story!! ANG LUPET!!!

anyhow, 2mrw my class would just be at 230 to 4pm... so i kinda have a lot of spare time, and that spare time i'll be going to DV to buy some stuff... and yeah, get the things my best friend is asking for there... then hopefully i'll be back in school by 1 or 2pm, just before classes starts.

oh well... i guess that's it for now... im still good (though the thing that bugs me is still there, but i think im still finding for the time to fix it... but time will tell when i'll fix it)


okay... laterz!! c",)

romantic-comedy for the morning...

i woke up a while ago, around 5 in the morning... well, my eyes opened at around 4... but i woke up at 5... well, i woke up having quite a kinky dream... anyways... when i woke up at 5, i i tried to go back to sleep... but to no avail. so i decided to watch a movie... though i wanna watch something accelerating, i sat down and watch Must Love Dogs, a romantic-comedy... it was a fun-feel-good movie... but somehow i wasn't expecting it to really watch it.... (though in my head back then im hopiing by watching this flick would make me go back to 'lala' land...) anyways, it somehow made a good jump start for my brain cells to function properly today... it's kinda weird, but it's cool... at least i got to jump start on the right time... 'cuz later i'l be having my mid-term exam for Social Science 2... in which right now i'm trying to make some very last minute reviews (oh cramming... it never left my system... but hey, it helps too though)

anyways, while writing this blog, i trying to get to know martin luther and hopefully niccolo machiavelli... just to have something to answer for the exam later @ 1pm...

anyways, wish me luck... i'll be leaving home for school later at around 10-ish, i'll be riding along with my best friend... and hoping that i could catch a ride again in the afternoon... :p

wish me luck & hope for the best for me!!!


laterz!!! c",)

the shrink is IN...

hey hey hey... it's been quite not-that-long since i blogged... to many thing happened in those days... though i was planning to blog them, i just decided that it's time to keep somethings for myself... though, again, there are things thatare really something to share with...

anyways, i was suppose to blog last night... but i got home pass midnight and quite sleepy too... but last night, it was fun... cuz for its been a very long time... almost months that i have not been hanging out with my FA family... and last night, i hanged out with them... and it's the bonding that i missed the most!!! GRABE!!! na-miss to talaga sila... kahit na nakikita ko silasa kalay palagi, i wasn't able to hang-out with them regularly... puro "hi's" and "hello's"... and last night was awesome!!! though israel & seth weren't able to come... but being with ambok, joby, tepay, gato, denise, trisha, & dave (whose bday was the reason of the gathering...) i miss them a lot!!! plus there were new friends that i got to know,... like MR and kini (the jap girl), Ayah, angky... at iba pa...

oh memories!!! i damn!!!

kahit na i never able to drink with them last night... the bonding, the jokes, the talks... grabe!!! i would not trade them for anything!!! mahal na mahal ko sila!!! their my friends!!! c",)

anyways... im so happy right now...

hay naku... enjoy talaga... cant wait for the next... malamang sa bday ni seth sa february... pero mas enjoy 'to sa bday ko sa May 2006... hehehe!!! gang-bang ito!!! :P

(hitit ng hangin)... i guess i have to start na with some of my homeworks na rin... kasi this week, start na rin ng midterms namin... and there's exams, write-ups... and oh, i forgot... the grad plans... oh well, i thought that this sem would be worry-free... i just thought, but in reality it's not that quite free... but, the load is quite right, not that heavy naman...

oh well... anyways... have to start on something na muna... im happy. im good!! yeah!!


oh yeah... i forgot... just something i just wanna post... one of the reason i wasn't able to blog for some time was that of me, being a shrink for some love-sick patients... thought, i would like to blog in just a gist of the stories they shared... i can't, cuz i promised that i won't tell a soul... just to prove that somehow, i can really be trusted. and that 'di ako naglalaglag ng mga kaibigan ko... eh kasi mahal ko sila eh!!! :D (that's the reason fo the title... ehehe!)


o cya... maya na lang uli...

laterz... c",)

so-and-so...

the ever-ending journey of everyday lives is about to make a slight (really, just a slight) turn... uhm... to be honest, that slight turn doesn't make any difference right now... i think.

what an i talking about? well, it's about my upcoming graduation this April... yeah, somehow im feeling the pressure of graduating on time when i came to school a few days back. though there aren't talks or chit-chats about it, i know the air of graduation is upon us. (or am i just being paranoid that im still in that place that i really don't know what will happen to me after college...? oh men...)

anyways, it's been a while since i blog... so far, this is the thing in my mind right now...

oh yeah, right now, my head kinda aches, cuz of waking me up at 4 in the morning just to drive my parents to church... (grrrr!!) but anyways, i'll just try to rest for a few munites after this blog and im off to jax and help me out on my math problem.


...and 2mrw is just another day.



laterz... c",)

wanting some sugar-rushing...

i miss the times when i'm having those sugar-rush... though with being conscious with my diet lately makes me wish i could eat sweets again... cuz a while ago i was somehow craving for a peanut-butter & jelly sandwich... hmm... those were the times... (aahhh memories)... sana maulit muli.

anyways, a few days back, i was under the weather, thus makes me not able to attend school today... but so far, im quite good na rin... sana makapasok na ako 2mrw...

wish me luck!! :P

laterz!!! c",)

so it begins...

well, its the 1st day of 2006, my year.

so im thinking, it's a new year.. so i think it's a good time to list down the things i should have by the end of this year... it's sort of a resolution list in which i list down my goals for my life and also somethings i wanna experience with...

so here goes my desires and plan for this year... and yeah, i'll be as realistic as possible...

- really graduate this March 2006
- be physically fit (go back to boxing or just start running again)
- find a decent but FUN job by May-July 2006 (make it related to my interest or to my psych course)
- if possible, be in a relationship (though rushing it is bad, waiting is still the safest way)
- more new clothes (hey, im getting thinner, so might as well buy suitable clothes)
- try to make it a regular, bi-weekly or monthly, habit to collect comics.
- hang-out with friends more often (from my FA family, my best friend, close friends and to my ka-psychs and other potential friends in the near future)
- after graudation, there will be a lot of time to spend it with family.
- and if there's the suffcient money, try to enroll for a MA in Psych... (but i think this will be more 2007 than this year... neways, bahala na si batman)
- buy good colletion of books, action figures (Marvel Select, Statuettes, etc for displays)
- try to find my artistic side ('cuz i have lost it during the time when i was doin my thesis... have to refresh my sketching skills again)

so i guess that for the realistic plans for this year...

now let's go to my psuedo-possible, but can be attained things / desires i want for 2006...

- be more sexually active (hey!! 3-4 months of not having it kinda sux... have to play more around)
- get a flat screen TV (those 35' - up)
- home theater system
- collect good & original DVDs
- a better hi-end PC
- a new cellular phone
- Toyota Fortuner
- renovate my room (more display shelves & less closet cabinets...)
- keep in contact with my fu-bu now and then (i wish... she has a bf right now and just having SOPs with her isn't consider as fucking ur fu-bu... hehehe)

well, that's all i could think right now... but i guess it's good na rin for this year. hehehe :P


neways... it's the 1st day of 2006. though im in a lazy-mode right now... i wanna go out...but i can't. i have to catch up on my reading and finish some short papers for my class this tuesday... yeah i'll be coming back to school this tuesday... hay naku!

oh well... i think that's it for today...


laterz... c",)

the year that was... WOW!!

yeah, in a few hours from now, i say good-bye to 2005 and say hello to 2006 (which is also the year of the Dog, my YEAR!!!)

anyways, things were really unexpected this 2005... well, unexpected and expected... it's like i know it will happen, but i just don't know when it will happen... gets?

anyways... i wasn't expecting that i'll be having great friends, but the price of having them has an expiration date. though it's sad to know 'bout that, i still try to be close with some of them...

there's also the comeback of my best friend, yeah, it was May 25, 2005 that made me and my best friend (jax) friends again (yehey!!!)... and now, comparing it from the last time, i think our bonds are more stronger than ever... we trust each other and a lot more... (yeah, past is past, but still, in my head i still have some questions that i wanna asked him... but i guess the answers of those questions will come out when the right time comes... i really do not need it to push it... kusa din yang lalabas... right?)

and there's also the victory of my thesis... it was something challenging, yet i still got to kick-ass in my thesis... with the pressures and the gall-stone i have, it was a very tough time for me though... but with friends like jax, nina, my FA-family and mga ka-psychs... i was able to give my best... and thus, i gave my very best. yipee on that!! :P

oh yeah, before the whole me-&-my-best-friends-are-friends-again and the thesis-gig... there was the practicum i did during the summer... yeah it was something fun to experience.. it gave me the realization that i should look for a decent or good-paying job right after graduation... so a few months back, i tried-out for a call center job (but failed) and right now i tried-out also at starbucks (still waiting for the call from the store manager)... i guess, it's the time na rin to be more independent and be more on my own, financially and other aspects of living... to sum it up, nangangati na ako mag-trabaho. :P

... and my TV appearences... being a judge of the Philippine Lottery and a contestant at Pilipinas Game KNB?... it was a big fun to experience these things... :P

well, i guess that's for the positive-happy side of 2005... (oh yeah!! i forgot my Bday get-together... it was the best bday ever!!!)


the sad-negative part of 2005 were the following...

...there's my Ate Kay going to australia for good... though im really happy for her there, i still miss her... she helped me a lot on moving-on in my life...

and there's also the thing that happened last March 21, 2005... in which the FA-family left me drunk at Katipunan... though i have forgiven them, that doesn't mean i have forgotten about their immature acts... but yeah, i still love them and all, but still... masakit yung ginawa nila sa akin eh... and they know me naman eh... but hey, somehow, i should leave all sad-negative things that happened in 2005 on that year, right? it's gonna be a new year hours from now... so it's just water under the bridge...

oh... i forgot, well it's just a petty thing... but i think i should include the battle i loss in winning the heart of Isa Crespo... though we're civil and yeah we would chat sometimes, i still have feelings towards her (but not that much na...) but hey, i'll just let my pride and ego speak and say that it's her loss not mine (hehehe... blog ko nman ito eh, kaya being narcissistic here is normal)



yeah, im cool na rin with all the things that happened to me this 2005... i still learned a lot from it... and still learning from it...

so cheers to 2005... it was fun doing it!!! WOW!!!! :P

and now... welcome 2006... the year of the dog!!! and soon on May 2006 (aside from Da Vinci Code and X3)... i'll be 24 years old and hopefully gradurated from college... :P



HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! c",)

something new this coming 2006...

well, i just opened another blog... and this time, it is more theme-oriented than this blog... but i'll be starting to post on the new blog next year, w/c wud be around 2-3 days from now...

anyways, i'll put the link next time... or just check my profile page to know about it... anyways, i think that's it for now...

btw, im quite cool and good na rin... medyo lie-low lang ako right now... di na muna ako mangkukulit sa best friend ko... kasi baka naasar na siya sa akin eh... ayaw ko naman magalit siya sa akin... mahal ko yon eh... hehehe :P

neways... still... happy holidays!! :D

Dedma... (a.k.a. the song about my feelings)

Lagi Mo Na Lang Akong Dinededma
by:Rocksteddy

Matagal ko nang gustong malaman mo
Matagal ko nangg itinatago-tago 'to
Nahihiyang magsalita
At umuurong aking dila
Pwede bang bukas na
Ipagpaliban muna natin 'to

Dahil kumukuha lang ng tiyempo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Matagal ko ng gustong sabihin 'to
Matagal ko ng gustong aminin sa'yo
Sandali, eto na
At sasabihin ko na
Ngayon na, mamaya
O baka pwedeng bukas na

Dahil kumukuha lang ng buwelo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Ngunit kumukuha lng ng tiyempo
Upang sbihin sa iyo

spoken:
Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita WALA
Pero hindi ako TORPE
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan
Oo o hindi
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

Mahal kita, pero di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit lagi mo na lang akong dinededma

STOP!!!

i guess i have to stop it for good. i think that's the only way to really move on...

though it will be a difficulty to do it, i really have no other choices. i must stop it before it can create more damage to myself and to the people i love... so far, it already has taken some toll from the people i love... and i was just too naive and too scared to face my own monster(/s).

and it's not just stopping it, i have to cut it off so it won't come back again...

shit.

i really love these people, and it's gonna be difficult to loose them and not be in my life anymore... but i have to sacrifice them... for their sake and for mine as well.

ang lungkot nga lang isipin na kung kailan patapos na yung taon, doon din magtatapos yung mga pinagsamahan ng mga mahal ko... masakit talaga sa akin, pero wala akong magagawa, ayaw ko madamay sila...

it's really gonna be a difficult one for me this time... i hope there's an alternative way soon.


...though i really love what this year has brought me... i have outwitted the challenges i have faced, got to reunite friendships and was able to surpass what college has given me... and this March 2006, i'll be graudting na rin... it's just the past that keeps on bugging me and i just can't let it just ruin it again...

oh men... this sucks... really!

anyways, have to think it more deep... i wish there's an alternative soon, cuz i'll be needing it... i just don't wanna loose the people that i love.


hope for the best...

...when i can go and shoot myself?

can't think of a theme/title for this blog... although, there are a lot of thing in my mind right now...

anyways, i'll just blog about what happened to me yesterday... though today is still quite young, and i think things can still happen.

i was suppose to blog last night, but the driving from here at antipolo to tagaytay and vise-versa was really somthing to get treally tire off... plus the supper heavy traffic when we were going home... i cn't bloody believe it that i would run our vehicle on 2nd gear on the south super highway last night... ganun ka-traffic... sighs!!

anyways, yesterday, i though it's just those 'visit-a-relative-and-minggle-with-them' old routine... but yeah, it's the same ol' routine... but luckily, i saw an old classmate from my high school... ayon, kwentuhan and kamustahan with my other ol' high school friends and about thier current status in their own live... (even though my high school life was something not memorable and happy, there are notable-positive things that i do treasure about them...) anyways, got to catch up naman, which is cool... and somehow, yeah, i miss them too... (honest! walang plastic ito!! though sometimes, there's the thought of getting back at them, but hey! i believe in karma... i just hope kung kakarmahin na sila, i'll be on the audience sit to watch... hehehe :P )

ayon... good day na rin naman yesterday, 'cept for the freaking cold weather there... i never imagined that it would be that freaking cold at tagaytay...

anyways... ayon na muna... i have to fix my sked for this week... have to catch up na rin with my readings and homewarks, before classes starts next week tuesday... wish me luck...

laterz... c",)

Kinky Christmas... (down boy!!)

something kinky for the holiday season... hehehe!!!

(watch out for the "fireworks" on the 31st... hehehe) :P

laterz dudes & dudettes!!! Happy Holidays again!! c",)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Just ate a quite early christmas dinner (aka. Noche Buena)... and im quite full, i just hope it won't give me pain... i just really pray that no pain would come to me this season...

anyways, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!!! c",)

Maligayang Pasko!!! Merry Christmas!!! Feliz Navidad!!!

How to survive this weekend (according to Zafra)

(December 24, 2005 /12:29pm)

anyways, it's Christmas eve right now... well, it's the afternoon of the Eve... and so far, i'm just surfing around... and yeah, i wanna put this link of Jessica Zafra's blog about what to do on this yuletide weekend... and i kinda like #3... though it fits my profile, cuz i cnt drink anything alcoholic right now..

3. If you don't feel like drinking, pretend to be drunk anyway. This gives you an excuse to tell people exactly what you think of them. (Unless you're already in the habit of telling people exactly what you think.) Afterwards, you can apologize and blame everything on the nefarious effects of alcohol.

anyways... i can say that christmas this year was a 'so-so' season... cuz there was the bad and the good... and the good over threw the bad... cuz yesterday, i got another cool gift from lloyd & nina... and it's a pinoy comix... it's Zsa-Zsa Zaturnah!!!

so far, i'm happy with the gifts i got from my closest friends (lloyd & nina) and from my best friend (jax)... i think im satisfied na rin with this season... c",)

oh well... MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!!!


laterz... :P

i don't feel christmas-y this year...

(December 22, 2005 / 8:50pm)

yeah, it's true... the spirit of christmas isn't working its mojos on me this year. though there are some times that i wanna feel the yuletide spirirt, but to no avail, it only last for a very short time. though i loved the gifts, well the gift i got from my best friend, and also the things i bought for myself... it's just different, very different from the past christmas i have before...

let me try and analyze it...

well, there's the not able to attend our ka-psychs x'mas get together... and there's the thing with my FA family (but i guess i really have to get myself out of that picture by now)... oh yeah, most of my friends sees me as a 'disability', due to my current health problem (RE: my gallstone)... and that 'disability' that they see on me makes them to decide not to invite me on their inumans and gimiks...

to be sarcastic... i am enjoying my new point of view about the yuletide season.

and to be frank about it... i sucks... and, yeah, i'm quite disappointed at them...

...good thing there's my best friend and my other close friends... thus to conclude, yeah, in a way there's the tiny bit of christmas spirit still inside me... thanks to them (RE: best friend & closest friends)


anyways, just on the brighter side... loosing weight gave me something to be proud of... got a new pair of pants, shoes... and some other stuff for myself... hehehe :P


i think that's it for the season... HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of ya...


'cuz it may take a while for me to blog something next... cuz have to deal with these feelings i have for a certain individual (RE: previous blog entry) for a while right now... assess myself if i should try it or not... 'cuz supressing it makes me experience more pain and it could lead to being clinically depress... have to fix it at once...

oh well...


laterz!!!

I'm so tired... but still the feeling i have is still there...

(December 21, 2005 / 7:58pm)

yes, the feelings i have for this certain individual is still there... though it really kills me to know that i still have that feelings... and i don't know how to deal with it. (help!)

i'm also afraid that if i submit myself to the feelings i have, it's will have a domino effect and surely it can end up into something painful to both parties... but more painful to myself.

anyways, i wish time would some that i can say the feelings i have to this specific individual and somehow we will both understand our sides... and somehow there would have a good and happy resolution after.

anyways, it really bugs me, these feelings i have... it's been for months now... though it wasn't a biggie issue to me a year ago, but now it's somehow what's to get notice and taken seriously... i just pray for the right time and oppurtunity to tell the person my feelings about the individual...

anyways, so far, i'm still good... nuthin to worry about, except that (and life after college...)

i guess time will come... but i hope i can handle it, 'cuz the last time was really painful that almost made me clinically depressed...

oh, i guess that's it so far...


laterz... c",)

Something new for me...
(December 17, 2005 / 9:23pm)


i just got myself my own DVD player!!! (yey!)

though, things still are quite shaky right now... with the sliffles too... i'm cool na rin. just need to stay calm, relax and just have a clear thought.

by the way, christmas na rin ako... so i have two weeks of from school... have to catch up with my readings and really start to prep-up for school... kasama na rin yung other 3 subjects ko na may kulang pa... para by March 2006, i'll be graduating on time.

im good... just really have to have a clear way of thinking way through things.

i guess, that's for now...wish me the best.

laterz...