Saturday, December 24, 2011

Yuletide Blessing (and curse)

Today is the 24th of December 2011... Christmas Eve.

So far I got 2 gifts. A pair of some classic comics that I had when I was a kid. And finally a job.

Since I was "let go" by the company I worked for more than 5 years. I've been to a not-so-fulfilling job for 2 weeks. A part-time job that somehow sustained my literature (comics) and tons of job application.

I got to be more "domesticated".

And now, I'm happy and so-say merry that I got a new job with a good pay.

...and the curse part. Well, I really realized that I had an unappealing boss in a form of my previous company's VP (back then AVP). Anyway, it is somehow irritating that she would make a "retrenchment-reunion party" at the end of this year. Too be honest, IT IS really not appealing. So that's why, I have to bear in mind that the 5 years I've went through them, I'm forced to just walk away and never remember it.

So here's the Top 3 reason why I will cut my connections from that cursed 5-years @ TDS:
(by the way, wasn't aware that there would be a segway to this...)
1.) JBW & JK (or better known as "The Management") ways of improperly investing to something that people like us can actually do. (investing to other stuff that would make them look good and not their people)
2.) Colleagues who I thought are Friends but are really front & back stabbers. Let's give some names... Wynner, JM, Marc, some from Training Dept, ES Dept.
3.) Leaders who you thought will be there to completely defend you, but in the end they didn't have the balls to protect the people they said to protect and guide.

Anyway, I guess I have to just really vent out my feelings after more than 3 months of just not saying anything. I just really feel bad about what happened. I blame the people there. And also I should have said something or acted something. Like a protest or really voice out. I guess I can't do anything but just move forward and never look back.

I know it's the time to be grateful and merry. I am grateful that this thing happened, made me be more tough on facing it. And never give up.

Oh well, since I already vented out (finally). It's time to really move forward and never look back. :)

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

HRO The Office (Season Finale)

So how do i start?

let's go straight first. i will be part of the unemployed market by September 9, 2011.

yes, i just lost my job this morning.

well management tells us that our department, the one that i'm working at for more than 5 years is being retrenched and it's part of the "changes in the wind" situation right now.

it was announced yesterday during our general assembly by our president.

anyway, so there you go. i'll be jobless in a month.

basically i just need to finish my remaining works and turnover it by the end of the month.

and somehow, even we all know that the war is ending, we'll still going to fight for it. no matter what. we leave HRO with our faces looking up and proud.

it just saddens me that more 5 years here. i've grown and learned a lot.

so today. it's not a good day for all of us here at work.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

been a while

yeah, it's been a while since i logged in into this blog. like almost a year.

anyway, i'm still the same sane person. :P

i just can't sleep right now. i guess sleeping from 2pm to 7pm wasn't that fulfilling for a sunday. but somehow, i got to catch-up right? hahaha

anyway, tomorrow i'm planning to catch the public transpo instead of driving to work. since the meeting was moved to tuesday. plus i have to fix things at the office on monday. like we have 2 on-sites for monday, fix up the banners for QCPU, jobs@night textblast, meeting at 6pm with a magazine group. and yeah, there's paying migs 500 for the itouch fixing and paying athan for the bulbs.

haaay... thinking about it, puno na pala monday ko. haaay.... better than that than doing nothing, right?

ayon, di pa rin ako inaantok ah... oh well... i guess i just have to read something, or do something right?

cge... next time uli. :)

Friday, April 23, 2010

Christ, what an asshole.

How can you enjoy a game (let's say DOTA or L4D) w/ your friends if your friends don't want you to join?

Whatever happened to having fun and supporting one another... you know, friendship?

I guess it says about being into groups or packs... like wolves or something. There will come a time that your so-called "friends" will stab you at the back and just leave you dead.

So far, it's the thing that is running in my head with some or most people here at work.

And somehow it's the reason why I'm planning to leave soon. To avoid any connections with them. They're such assholes. Seriously, even some people whom I trust a lot.

Anyway, I can still stay calm and keep it all to myself, or just releasing it through this blog.

And if ever I join them they'll mock me on why I "walked-out" before... sighs! how shallow can they get? Assholes!

Oh well, somehow, I still really feeling bad about it. But somehow, still can be subtle about it.... for now.

Now I really feel angry to all of them! Fuck them all!! I hope they all die!! (I know I sound like brat, but I'm starting to get angry while typing this blog... grrrr... I just really that angry towards them... all focused, enjoying and laughing there in the other room. sighs!)

Sometimes I just want to report them so that they deserve it, but I can't.

They're still my friends. Friends to tend to be assholes.

Anyway, I'm still angry at them and the one whom I considered close mocks me more... gaaaah!!

I'm still pissed!

grrrr...

Friday, March 19, 2010

hush


okay, I'm back on blogging.

well, i'm not quite sure yet if i'll be regular on blogging stuff again... but hey, there's no harm in taking this avenue again...

so what now?

i guess i just have to put this on this entry since i need to put something... right?


so let's start with Black Bolt...

yes, "Black Bolt".... that's the name that i'll be using to a specific person that I want to ran over with my car back and forth. and later swing a bat at "Black Bolt"'s face until it's like smashed watermelon.

anyway, see how i want to release all the stress at "BB"... hahaha yeah, "Black Bolt" is quite long, than "BB"... hhahaha

if ever someone i know reads this blog (which i doubt), will surely laugh to see this pic... hahaha

hmm... does someone i know (aside from my best friend) got the chance to read my blogs? hmmm.... i'm quite curious about it... but somehow i don't care too... hahaha

anyway, sometimes i would like some of my other friends see this blog too... well just this entry... hahaha






now, i'm quite getting bored to type more stuff... 'cause i think i got nothing to type anymore... hahaha

oh well, i guess i'll still with "BB" for this entry... and later give more details why i hate "BB" more everyday... hehehe

Sunday, February 21, 2010

why oh why... tsk tsk

hmm... the students haven't started to text me.

this is bad. really, REALLY BAD.

Bad in a sense that we can't do time-travel and make it all work right. I know there's a solution on this one, get the list of the 10 and call them to remind them. But I have other priorities to do, but I guess I should try to juggle things out and fix it.

Fix it. That's 2 words that somehow I'm not good at all. But let's see if I can fix this... w/o the help or assistance of others. It's my mess after all, right?

But still, after all this is done, I'm still going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. hahaha. No worries Pong, we're still good friends, but I'm really going to kill you for this one. :P

Oh well, it's almost 9pm, I need to heat the water, I'll be leaving at around 10pm.

later.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

It's the climb.... oh yeah.

I feel like each day that comes, i want to just break the window in front of my table at work and just jump do a free fall.

... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.

Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.

I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.

... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.

Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.

... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.

... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.

Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.

Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.

Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.

Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.

Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.

Wish me luck this week.


Laterz.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

sniffles @ work

i hate when i get the sniffles at work... specially when it's the allergic-type of sniffles.

makes me really uncomfy, snobbish and unapproachable... plus sneezing too much, it make my heart weak, literally.

haaay...

i miss someone here at work... my buddy. i hope he's doing fine, recovering from his operation... and also i'll be missing someone here too... she's leaving work.

I hope we (the 3 of us) can still hang-out.

anyway... have to push myself to work for the day... even with this condition that I'm in.


laterz

Thursday, December 31, 2009

to sum it up...

2009 made me realize that there are things we can't control and should be left by itself.

There are also things that I learned that I should leave it all behind and just move forward.

It was a good year, not a bad one but just a good one... Well compare with the previous years that I have, this one is simply good. simple.

Now I hope 2010 will be better than '09.


HAPPY NEW YEAR and may everyone I know (Close Friends, Friends, Loved Ones, Frienemies and Strangers-By-Name-But-Not-By-Face) have a BLAST this coming 2010!!!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

...

somehow i miss my friends...

and somehow I know he's sad but doesn't want to share stuff... I respect him for that. but I'm just concern... but also careful.

anyway... I'm not that motivated or inspired to blog...

maybe when the year ends I might blog the usual year-ender stuff...


let's see...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

loosing it again...

i guess it's another re-run of a quite depressing episode for me.

right now i can't think straight.

like i know what i will do and somehow it's organized but i just don't have the drive right now to work... like all my strength to go and work just wore off out of a sudden.

well not really out of a sudden... i was just demotivated by a lot of stuff lately.

w/c is making me hard to cope up.

to be honest, i know (really know) what to do... BUT i just don't have the motivation anymore to do it as of the moment.

people may see it that i might be avoiding the work task but it's not that.

just too many things in my head and somehow, i'm just standing there and doing nothing... like a catatonic state... but i'm aware of the things that are happening, i'm just not moving to doing some actions.




...ok, burn-out is at it again.

i give up. i'm tired of this so-called day job. it's not helping me at all to cope up. in fact it's more on pulling me down, morally.


i. give. up.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

i hate work.

ang basehan ng aking kinikita sa opisina... meetings. puro nlng meeting at planning at brainstorming. kumikita ako sa pamamagitan ng pakikinig at pag-upo sa aking lugar.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

dude... ano ba?

what the heck is wrong with you?

will it be like this always?
like we don't always know each other?

and somewhat you will always have that look on that I'm nobody you know... sighs.

this is tiring and bullshit!

i know i that i did something wrong, but i don't know what it is... and somehow you already made that face on me so please tell me.

and let's talk. i know you are also concern to your friends. but you seldom say it and you always (ALWAYS) approach me in an offensive way that i no longer understand.

so please, i wanna talk things out... I may sound like a girl but hey! I'm your friend too... and I considered you as a very close friend.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

hug-deprived

ok... i'm tired from today's work... and it's just wednesday!


i need a hug... badly.




can someone hug me. i just need that short-term comfort that can last for the rest of the week.


hug me.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

something new from something old

so, one of my teammates is being deployed to Cebu by next week. some of her responsibilities here at the Manila base will be passed on to me.

at first, i think i can take it. cause somehow, i'm quite familiar with the process. local account endorsements, monthly-weekly calendar budget and third party partnership with a job publication... well, hell ya! i can take it.

well right now, thinking with these added responsibilities passed on to me. i guess this is my "2nd chance" in redeeming myself from the fall i experienced from last March-May thing (aka HRO-C)... so somehow, i'm thinking deep again on how will i plan on making this something simple and yet very worth working at.

so there, my new responsibilities... and i'm hoping it will redeem me from my fall. and somehow, it will help build what was loss in me... or better yet, discover something in me.


anyway... i guess that's one thing nice from the weeks of work that i've been doing... and i guess it's time for me to shine again.


so wish me luck. well hope for the best.




laterz.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

happy @ work?



...'nuff said. i'm just not motivated to go to work lately. with the things that is happening there, i'm hoping i can still see the brighter side of things.

Friday, July 03, 2009

feels like...

... i feel like giving up since there's really nothing good going on with everything in and around me.

like all things aren't falling into the right place for me and it sucks.

worst thing is i'm being succumb by it. making me not the "usual-me" but more of a "negative-me". and it's healthy at all.

i know that these things are caused by my past actions and that i'm really facing its consequences.

i'm broke. i'm loveless. i'm fat. i'm unhealthy. i suck in all i do. i such a loser in all aspect right now.

and all of those things mentioned, i do get it and i'm really hating it already.

like if this is all just a punishment and a "epiphany" to the things i did before. i'm sorry and lessoned learned from it.

but please... if somebody there, up there... if you're listening... i'm starting to not like my situation right now. and somehow, i want out of this shit hole. but i don't know how to stand or rise up again...

oh shit. i'm really in deep shit and i need help but don't know how to ask the right person or the proper way of asking help.


ok... im typing jibberish right now... have to contemplate some more things later.

Friday, May 29, 2009

crazy friday...

what's my job description again?

i guess in my line of work right now... the "job description" is just some food color or icing on a very large cake of styro-foam.

oh well... just came from a department meeting, which I can say one of the few boring meetings again. somehow, I try to "include" myself in the meeting, but somehow, i tend to just play some songs in my head.

yes, it's that boring... haha

anyway, i'll be staying here at the office 'til 8pm... 'cause my schedule today was an adjustment, due to the tire fixing this morning.

anyway, I'll just pretend to do something productive in the last few minutes of my work time, and maybe later I'll just play some PC games or just go home and sleep for tomorrow I need to be early to some school at Makati.

oh well, that's the day... Friday for me right now... hahaha something crazy again.

oh I miss doing my other field work... somehow. yeah, somewhat I miss doing the speech and aiming it directly to it or them... hahaha... fun and also worth it, not what I'm doing in my "day job".

anyway... I miss a lot of stuff right now. and now my mind is giving a lot of random thoughts... I guess I better stop it for now...


laterz...

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

pondering on stuff...

well, tomorrow... wait! make it 6 hours from now, I'll be turning 27.

27... three more years I'll be 30... wow. time do really run fast. or it's the other way around, where I'm too busy to notice how time moves. anyway, whatever... right now I'm turning 27 in a few hours.

and somehow, I want to do a short remembering the good ol' days... but I can't seem to to do that right now. I just don't have the time or the effort to do it... hahaha

all I can say that this year, pointing to 2009... it's been a challenging year for me so far. a lot of "tests" in life... and somehow, I'm managing to survive from it, but with a lot of injuries came with the surviving part. compared to the previous years, I'm seem to have a lot of mishaps in these "life tests".

anyway, I just hope things will turn out more good when I reached 27. Thou I know it's always up to myself on how should I take care of my life. but I just hope that things will start to fall for me in the right places.

oh well, I'm all by myself right now in my workstation, and I think I'm deciding to leave early for I need to sleep and somehow catch the 2nd to last episode of Smallville later on TV.

anyway, I guess i better greet myself a Happy and hopefully, a Prosperous Birthday for me.

laterz. c",)

Monday, May 04, 2009

burning responsibility...


(click photo to enlarge)

ok ok... i can say that i'm a responsible person. but the comic-strip above says about the current project that i'm handling here at work. so for those who are familiar to my line of work and the current project i'm handling... the strip is like what i'm in with HRO-C classes.

i may be acting like i'm used to it or getting the hang of it... but this responsibility BURNS!!!