HRO The Office (Season Finale)

So how do i start?

let's go straight first. i will be part of the unemployed market by September 9, 2011.

yes, i just lost my job this morning.

well management tells us that our department, the one that i'm working at for more than 5 years is being retrenched and it's part of the "changes in the wind" situation right now.

it was announced yesterday during our general assembly by our president.

anyway, so there you go. i'll be jobless in a month.

basically i just need to finish my remaining works and turnover it by the end of the month.

and somehow, even we all know that the war is ending, we'll still going to fight for it. no matter what. we leave HRO with our faces looking up and proud.

it just saddens me that more 5 years here. i've grown and learned a lot.

so today. it's not a good day for all of us here at work.

Christ, what an asshole.

How can you enjoy a game (let's say DOTA or L4D) w/ your friends if your friends don't want you to join?

Whatever happened to having fun and supporting one another... you know, friendship?

I guess it says about being into groups or packs... like wolves or something. There will come a time that your so-called "friends" will stab you at the back and just leave you dead.

So far, it's the thing that is running in my head with some or most people here at work.

And somehow it's the reason why I'm planning to leave soon. To avoid any connections with them. They're such assholes. Seriously, even some people whom I trust a lot.

Anyway, I can still stay calm and keep it all to myself, or just releasing it through this blog.

And if ever I join them they'll mock me on why I "walked-out" before... sighs! how shallow can they get? Assholes!

Oh well, somehow, I still really feeling bad about it. But somehow, still can be subtle about it.... for now.

Now I really feel angry to all of them! Fuck them all!! I hope they all die!! (I know I sound like brat, but I'm starting to get angry while typing this blog... grrrr... I just really that angry towards them... all focused, enjoying and laughing there in the other room. sighs!)

Sometimes I just want to report them so that they deserve it, but I can't.

They're still my friends. Friends to tend to be assholes.

Anyway, I'm still angry at them and the one whom I considered close mocks me more... gaaaah!!

I'm still pissed!

grrrr...

It's the climb.... oh yeah.

I feel like each day that comes, i want to just break the window in front of my table at work and just jump do a free fall.

... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.

Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.

I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.

... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.

Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.

... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.

... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.

Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.

Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.

Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.

Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.

Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.

Wish me luck this week.


Laterz.

sniffles @ work

i hate when i get the sniffles at work... specially when it's the allergic-type of sniffles.

makes me really uncomfy, snobbish and unapproachable... plus sneezing too much, it make my heart weak, literally.

haaay...

i miss someone here at work... my buddy. i hope he's doing fine, recovering from his operation... and also i'll be missing someone here too... she's leaving work.

I hope we (the 3 of us) can still hang-out.

anyway... have to push myself to work for the day... even with this condition that I'm in.


laterz

loosing it again...

i guess it's another re-run of a quite depressing episode for me.

right now i can't think straight.

like i know what i will do and somehow it's organized but i just don't have the drive right now to work... like all my strength to go and work just wore off out of a sudden.

well not really out of a sudden... i was just demotivated by a lot of stuff lately.

w/c is making me hard to cope up.

to be honest, i know (really know) what to do... BUT i just don't have the motivation anymore to do it as of the moment.

people may see it that i might be avoiding the work task but it's not that.

just too many things in my head and somehow, i'm just standing there and doing nothing... like a catatonic state... but i'm aware of the things that are happening, i'm just not moving to doing some actions.




...ok, burn-out is at it again.

i give up. i'm tired of this so-called day job. it's not helping me at all to cope up. in fact it's more on pulling me down, morally.


i. give. up.

burning responsibility...

(click photo to enlarge)

ok ok... i can say that i'm a responsible person. but the comic-strip above says about the current project that i'm handling here at work. so for those who are familiar to my line of work and the current project i'm handling... the strip is like what i'm in with HRO-C classes.

i may be acting like i'm used to it or getting the hang of it... but this responsibility BURNS!!!

tuesday blue-starter

it's tuesday morning... i think i'll be late for work again.

i don't have any motivation to work since yesterday...

all i want right now is just sleep here in my room... but i can't.

i just hope i can be home early later.