How can you enjoy a game (let's say DOTA or L4D) w/ your friends if your friends don't want you to join?
Whatever happened to having fun and supporting one another... you know, friendship?
I guess it says about being into groups or packs... like wolves or something. There will come a time that your so-called "friends" will stab you at the back and just leave you dead.
So far, it's the thing that is running in my head with some or most people here at work.
And somehow it's the reason why I'm planning to leave soon. To avoid any connections with them. They're such assholes. Seriously, even some people whom I trust a lot.
Anyway, I can still stay calm and keep it all to myself, or just releasing it through this blog.
And if ever I join them they'll mock me on why I "walked-out" before... sighs! how shallow can they get? Assholes!
Oh well, somehow, I still really feeling bad about it. But somehow, still can be subtle about it.... for now.
Now I really feel angry to all of them! Fuck them all!! I hope they all die!! (I know I sound like brat, but I'm starting to get angry while typing this blog... grrrr... I just really that angry towards them... all focused, enjoying and laughing there in the other room. sighs!)
Sometimes I just want to report them so that they deserve it, but I can't.
They're still my friends. Friends to tend to be assholes.
Anyway, I'm still angry at them and the one whom I considered close mocks me more... gaaaah!!
I'm still pissed!
grrrr...
Showing posts with label hate work. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hate work. Show all posts
Friday, April 23, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
why oh why... tsk tsk
hmm... the students haven't started to text me.
this is bad. really, REALLY BAD.
Bad in a sense that we can't do time-travel and make it all work right. I know there's a solution on this one, get the list of the 10 and call them to remind them. But I have other priorities to do, but I guess I should try to juggle things out and fix it.
Fix it. That's 2 words that somehow I'm not good at all. But let's see if I can fix this... w/o the help or assistance of others. It's my mess after all, right?
But still, after all this is done, I'm still going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. hahaha. No worries Pong, we're still good friends, but I'm really going to kill you for this one. :P
Oh well, it's almost 9pm, I need to heat the water, I'll be leaving at around 10pm.
later.
this is bad. really, REALLY BAD.
Bad in a sense that we can't do time-travel and make it all work right. I know there's a solution on this one, get the list of the 10 and call them to remind them. But I have other priorities to do, but I guess I should try to juggle things out and fix it.
Fix it. That's 2 words that somehow I'm not good at all. But let's see if I can fix this... w/o the help or assistance of others. It's my mess after all, right?
But still, after all this is done, I'm still going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. hahaha. No worries Pong, we're still good friends, but I'm really going to kill you for this one. :P
Oh well, it's almost 9pm, I need to heat the water, I'll be leaving at around 10pm.
later.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
It's the climb.... oh yeah.
I feel like each day that comes, i want to just break the window in front of my table at work and just jump do a free fall.
... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.
Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.
I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.
... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.
Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.
... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.
... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.
Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.
Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.
Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.
Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.
Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.
Wish me luck this week.
Laterz.
... but then again, I hate a goowy-messy death.
Anyway, it's Sunday and somehow I still want another day to just lay down on my bed, try to catch-up on what I 've missed in the tube. Just be a regular home-buddy.
I wish that things at work would fall on the right places. And basing on what I'm seeing it's being chaotic in a sense of order. And it making my 'resignation-bucket' more heavier.
... and there's It's Academic. I have a lot against it and that somehow, I'm still doing the task. Sometimes I hate my attitudes that I tend to say 'yes' even if I explained why I said 'no' on the first place.
Thus I'm going to kill Pong Aguila on this one. Well one thing, our friendship is just based on work-laughs and that I tend to avoid hanging out with him. He's quite close-minded. Even his opinions and perspective of stuff, I don't like it. But hey, everyone has the right to express their thoughts.
... it's that my thoughts/opinions don't mesh-up with his, 'cause his way of thinking is too old and mine is a little bit complicated and updated. Plainly, I just hate-HATE him. Good thing he's a few meters away from my desk this time. I guess that's good for me.
... But that It's Academic, it will really cause him his life. I'll really kill him for passing it on to me halfway of his project. DAMMIT.
Oh, well. I guess this week I'll be exercising more brain cells on work. I'll try to make a 'Dark Phoenix' manifestation at work, if I can. Last week with the smiling at the meeting w/ JBW made me feel good.
Hmm... I guess i should try smiling again.
Anyway, got to prep-up for tomorrow. 4 Field works this week. Will be trying to get people to my office for our clients needs.
Oh it's going to be one of those weeks again, and this time I think I'll be having just a one-person support all the way. Thanks to AM & JBW for ruining everything.
Anyway, I'm currently emailing my resume to some notable companies just trying to check if I'm sellable to the HR market.
Wish me luck this week.
Laterz.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
loosing it again...
i guess it's another re-run of a quite depressing episode for me.
right now i can't think straight.
like i know what i will do and somehow it's organized but i just don't have the drive right now to work... like all my strength to go and work just wore off out of a sudden.
well not really out of a sudden... i was just demotivated by a lot of stuff lately.
w/c is making me hard to cope up.
to be honest, i know (really know) what to do... BUT i just don't have the motivation anymore to do it as of the moment.
people may see it that i might be avoiding the work task but it's not that.
just too many things in my head and somehow, i'm just standing there and doing nothing... like a catatonic state... but i'm aware of the things that are happening, i'm just not moving to doing some actions.
...ok, burn-out is at it again.
i give up. i'm tired of this so-called day job. it's not helping me at all to cope up. in fact it's more on pulling me down, morally.
i. give. up.
right now i can't think straight.
like i know what i will do and somehow it's organized but i just don't have the drive right now to work... like all my strength to go and work just wore off out of a sudden.
well not really out of a sudden... i was just demotivated by a lot of stuff lately.
w/c is making me hard to cope up.
to be honest, i know (really know) what to do... BUT i just don't have the motivation anymore to do it as of the moment.
people may see it that i might be avoiding the work task but it's not that.
just too many things in my head and somehow, i'm just standing there and doing nothing... like a catatonic state... but i'm aware of the things that are happening, i'm just not moving to doing some actions.
...ok, burn-out is at it again.
i give up. i'm tired of this so-called day job. it's not helping me at all to cope up. in fact it's more on pulling me down, morally.
i. give. up.
Sunday, August 09, 2009
happy @ work?
...'nuff said. i'm just not motivated to go to work lately. with the things that is happening there, i'm hoping i can still see the brighter side of things.
Monday, May 04, 2009
burning responsibility...
(click photo to enlarge)
ok ok... i can say that i'm a responsible person. but the comic-strip above says about the current project that i'm handling here at work. so for those who are familiar to my line of work and the current project i'm handling... the strip is like what i'm in with HRO-C classes.
i may be acting like i'm used to it or getting the hang of it... but this responsibility BURNS!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
wrongers...
what's wrong with me?
sometimes I'm not sure what the heck I'm doing with stuff around me.
I'm not even sure if what I'm doing is right or am I doing something that hurts others, basically if I'm doing something wrong.
well, i hate it when i'm just being paranoid with the thought. but if it's happening and i'm hearing stuff, it makes me wanna punch that person who said it and ask for some proves if what i'm doing is really wrong. because it's really disappoint that i'll know it after i've done the thing a lot of times in the past.
so, what the heck is wrong with me?
am i doing something wrong? if i am and it's been a while, there should be a negative effect by now right? but i don't see anything wrong or awkward, right?
why would they tend to mess-up with my head right now, i'm not in the right situation to be messed-up by these shits.
i got more things to focus, but this... this stuff i'm getting at work... it's really something.
oh well, i guess i need to "compensate" with some stuff on my day-job and with my eca's...
i guess less income for me this 3 months... sighs.
anyway, have to device another gameplan for the next days to come.
laterz....
sometimes I'm not sure what the heck I'm doing with stuff around me.
I'm not even sure if what I'm doing is right or am I doing something that hurts others, basically if I'm doing something wrong.
well, i hate it when i'm just being paranoid with the thought. but if it's happening and i'm hearing stuff, it makes me wanna punch that person who said it and ask for some proves if what i'm doing is really wrong. because it's really disappoint that i'll know it after i've done the thing a lot of times in the past.
so, what the heck is wrong with me?
am i doing something wrong? if i am and it's been a while, there should be a negative effect by now right? but i don't see anything wrong or awkward, right?
why would they tend to mess-up with my head right now, i'm not in the right situation to be messed-up by these shits.
i got more things to focus, but this... this stuff i'm getting at work... it's really something.
oh well, i guess i need to "compensate" with some stuff on my day-job and with my eca's...
i guess less income for me this 3 months... sighs.
anyway, have to device another gameplan for the next days to come.
laterz....
Thursday, April 02, 2009
mad again
yes. i'm mad at this friend again for a stupid thing he did. i just can't stand what he did kanina at work and meddling with my personal stuff.
i know i have every right to be mad at him... and it really ruined my day's plan.
sighs!!!
i may join you on some crazy stuff but please, ilagay mo rin minsan sa lugar!! nakaka-bad trip ka talaga!
right now i'm deciding to not to see this friend for now... "see" in a sense never speaking to him, ignore his presence and just try to be civil at him when it's work related. if it's not work related forget it for now. again i'm really mad at him. and it may take more than 5 days to not really "see" him.
i've said my piece awhile ago by texting how i felt on the thing that happened.
i'm really REALLY mad at him!!!
i know i have every right to be mad at him... and it really ruined my day's plan.
sighs!!!
i may join you on some crazy stuff but please, ilagay mo rin minsan sa lugar!! nakaka-bad trip ka talaga!
right now i'm deciding to not to see this friend for now... "see" in a sense never speaking to him, ignore his presence and just try to be civil at him when it's work related. if it's not work related forget it for now. again i'm really mad at him. and it may take more than 5 days to not really "see" him.
i've said my piece awhile ago by texting how i felt on the thing that happened.
i'm really REALLY mad at him!!!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
5 things
got this from Miley Cyrus' song 7 Things...
so, i'm just writing the 5 things i hate about work....
1. Management - yeah, every week our management would have different directions... and this shows that how unstable my boss in making unwanted decisions.
2. Time & Schedule - when i signed up to do field work, i know i'll be juggling my sched on priorities. but with the mismanagement of our malevolent boss, even my time for my own is limited. and i hate it when my boss would always mention that our company is lucky to have "dedicated" staff... sighs!! fuck off!!! dedication is different from enslavement!!
3. Manpower - we're just 6 in a team, and when we would formally ask for extra manpower we are always questioned. thus have a poor quality of work done. we're only human not gods, we get tired and wasted. just the planning and execution is already bloody. and just asking for a small help from the other team, our boss would question it... then when the results was not that good, she would retract everything she said and would say that we can get people to help... c'mon!!! who are you kidding?!
4. Ethics - our boss, doesn't have the proper ethics... in all aspect. bakyang-bakyang kung kumilos at palaging wala sa lugar... 'nuff said and co-workers who doesn't have the ethical consideration to be really professional to their line of work and it's having a negative effect to the team's or even to the department's performance. if you're in a ranking position, please act like one during work, cause always making "personal reasons" as an excuse shows unethical and unprofessional on your side!!
5. Workstation - with constantly not having a permanent workstation... it really makes my work-production really low. a good sample would be this one... i just hate it when someone would borrow the laptop that is assigned to me and doesn't really know anything about laptop / PC maintenance or proper care, and add to it, not returning it on time, when i really need it the most. thus, i tend to rush all things at the wrong time. sighs!!! kung hiniram isoli din on time... at ayaw ko ng may virus ito pagbalik or anything that can cause technical problems!!!!
there, my five reasons why i hate work...
