Now back to being a normal human being... (though i'll be missing my life as a celebrity... i hope i can join again next month...)
(November 30, 2005 / 9:42pm)


i didn't made it to the final four... and it's because of being mental blocked by nicole kidman... i should have watched starwars a few days back... nanghinayan talaga ako dun... but that didn't ruin my day... in fact, i had FUN!! it was a good experience joining the game... and if ever given a chance, i'll join again... given a months time.

oh well... here are some pictures that i have taken with some celebs before i left the ABS-CBN compound...

--o0o--

before i left ABS-CBN... i got the chance to have a pic with the cute Nikki Gil... she's somehow has the gf material (i think)... :P

anyways... laterz... im cool about it naman eh. c",)

while this one was with another PBB housemate... Hot-Mama Jenny... she's pretty. :D

here's a pic that was taken a while ago... it's me and PBB's Chx... though i wish its her without the clothes... hehehe :P

picture... PICTURE!!! (my 1st day of taping...)
(November 29, 2005 / 11:29pm)


eto ang malupet!!! me & asia agcaoili... one hot steaming babe!!! and she's very nice and down-to-earth... oh yeah baby!!!

me and this time with mariel rodriguez... too bad that time she has a very red left eye (ewww!)... but she's cool. c",)

me and toni gonzaga... as long as she doesn't talk, pwede na!! :P

...and my TV debut was delayed (but the P500 isn't bad enough)
(November 29, 2005 / 5:08am)


yesterday was something... i was @ ABS-CBN at around 12:30pm (ang aga!!) and then, the briefing and all the necessary thing to be prep-up was around 3pm... talk about more than 3 hours of BLAH!! though the time of not-doing-anything wasn't something bad, in fact i was able to get some pictures with some notable and pretty celebs, with the likes of Toni Gonzaga, Mariel Rodriguez and the sex-goddess Asia Agcaoili... who wouldn't be bored?!

anyways...i'll post the picture once i have emailed it.

unluckily, i wasn't able to be as part of the game, which will shown December 9,10 and 12... that means, i have to be back on wednesday afternoon for the December 13, 14 and 15 episodes. i do hope i could get in this time...and also win.

anyways, i got to meet some people during the breaks.... some of them i've met the day before, during the screening examination, they're really nice and good people... so yeah, may pseudo-barkada na yung new batch of players... and i kinda enjoyed it... though, it's sad that most of them got to play for the December 12 episode, i won't see then anymore on wednesday... pero we'll be txtng just to keep in touch. :P

so far i think that's it for now... and wednesday will be the next taping for me... and i hope this time, i could get in & win. :D


laterz... c",)

May Tama Ka!!! (part 2...)
(November 27, 2005 / 9:08pm)


i got there early and so far it went well.

...cuz i got in for the taping of Game KNB.

it's gonna be 2mrw... at 2pm... so i'll be bring 2 extra polo shirts too (just in case i win the first taping... and i hope i win)

in a way, im quite nervous right now... but quite relaxed na rin.

i really hope i win... one reason is that the pressure the people here at home throws at me... though i'll try not to make this thinking bother me 2mrw.

oh well... just wish me luck for 2mrw...

and i promise i won't go crazy over the game setting and the host... i'll really concentrate on winning and listen to the questions (and giving the right answer.)

Hope for the best for me 2mrw.

nyt & laterz... c",)


*though i took some pictures a while ago, i'll post them once i get to send them...

May Tama ka!!! (KHOOORECT!!)
(November 26, 2005 / 4:47pm)


how can i say this without ruining the suspence... who cares!! (it's my blog... being anti-climactic is part of my life)

anyways, here it goes... i'm gonna try-out to be a studio contestant for a TV game show 2mrw (sunday) @ 1pm. and the said TV game show is Game KNB, which is hosted by the very eccentric Kris Aquino. so 2mrw i hope i cud get in and win (i pary & hope that i get in and win).

there, i guess the suspence is gone... now let's go a few hours ago before the adrenaline rush happened.

at around 9am i turned off my cel-phone to charge it... then 2 hrs later, i tunred it on then i received a message that someone tried to get in... so called the number. it was from the people from the said TVgame show... and to my surprised, i was chosen to try-out if i have the guts to be their studio contestant... but the sad news was i nevered answered the call (cuz it was off then...stupid me!!) so that meant i lost my chances of playing. after i dropped the phone, i felt as if i fell off from a 100th storey building... how can i so stupid to turn off my celphone!?!

anyways... then a few minutes after (after the whining and being regretful of the acts) i decided to call them back... and acted out as if i didn't made the previous call (in tagalog, nag patay-malisya ako). thank god it's a different person who answered. so anyway i inquired who they are and what's the reason for their call... then my bad luck turned a 180 degree turn and my good luck was back... in a nutshell, i was in for their screening exam 2mrw.

then it followed by an adrenaline rush and later on a terrible headache... which right now is quite gone.

im so excited!!! i really hope i cud get in and hopefully win...

anyways... hope for the best for me 2mrw... (may balato kayo kung nakapasok ako at nanalo!! promise!!!)

oh well... what a good way to start my long weekend... it isn't that bad at all... it's better than going to a beach!!! :P

laterz... c",)

im not thankful that it's friday... worst, it's another long weekend (oh men!!)
(November 25, 2005 / 9:02pm)


it's friday and i'm not in love. well it's the allergy that i have right now. my head kinda aches, my nose is dripping like a broken faucet and i can't trust my decision... just like what happened a while ago.

well, it started when my speech class started... the sniffles have began to give me a hard time on concentrate on copying and participating in class. then after that i went to fully booked to get a book, which will be a gift for one of my friends. but during the trip, i kept on sneezing and sneezing... it's getting quite worst... then after i got the book, i went crazy and decided to go to DV... well even for a few minutes. so i went there, walked around. well the a gridline-vicinity within the LRT station, just to keep me familiar of what the place is like when me and my best friend go there this coming wednesday (and i hope that i'll have the money to buy the bag that im eyeing since my best friend showed it to me then). anyhow, i was just there for around 15-20 minutes... basically i did a recon of the place. then i went back to kalay, just in time for the org meeting.

before going back to school, the sniffles kinda lie-low... maybe becuase of my enthusiasm or excitement of DV (or something)... neways, during the trip back, it started to come back... i kept on sneezing and sneezing again.

then around 20 minutes, i was back at kalay... i was quite surprised that it took minutes and not hours of the travel... it's too ALIAS. anyhow, back in the meeting of our fabulous KPA... well during the meeting i was starting to get drowzy... it's a common effect when i have the sniffles... hay... the meeting went well, i just hope the plans would materialize too.

after the meeting, i hitched with my friend and was dropped at RP... when i was about to go down, my dad called telling me that sta.lucia (one of the malls there) was bombed... as i took off, i saw a lot of people who have a weird look at the said mall... though i was curious to find out what really happened, but the drowzy and sleepiness was making me go home. so i took a jeep home, though the jeep was a crazy ride, it didn't even shaken my drowziness, it made me more sleepy. <oh yeah, later on i found out through the news that it was just a bombscarce... they just found a fake bomb in the mall>

then i got home, fell on my bed and BAM!!! slept... til it was dinner time... that was an hour ago.

sniffles kinda gone, but still there... drowziness is now lighter than before...

so now i think i have finished my blog for the day.

and yeah, got to watch the last episode of Darna (my guilty-pleasure show)... which ended badly... but i'll miss that show though.

so today is a 'so-so' day after all.

i guess that is all for now. oh yeah, it's a start of another long weekend... and as of now, i don't know what's my plan... i guess chillin' out is an option. :P

laterz... c",)

SABBATICAL... i desperately need it!
(November 25, 2005 / 7:33am)


rest...

rest...

rest...


...i wish that four letter word is easy to get.

but noooo!!

<i'm guess it goes the same with the other four letter word... like LOVE>


oh well... REST...



i need to go sabbatical on this...

I just realized... i'm not really alone (but i still HATE them!!)
(November 22, 2005 / 11:02pm)


in my previous blog... i have mentioned that i have no friends.

i made a BIG (and terrible) mistake.

i do have friends...

it's not as much as i wish, but sufficient enough to love them.

they are the friends who also loves me for what i am.

though right now i have realized i really have to cut some people out of lives, because of my naivete... 'cuz they're one of the factors that pulls me down.

anyways... the rest that i have mentioned on my previous blog stays the same...

which means, i still HATE them!!!

oh well, gotta sleep and 2mrws a challenge.

wish me luck.

laterz...


*yeah, im good... no need to worry about me... i'm cool. c",)

what good did i do today? (confessions of an eccentic person)
(November 22, 2005 / 9:02pm)


as i am trying to type this blog, i was trying to remember what happened during this day...

so far it's the regular routine that i do during a school day.

wake up.

prep-up for school.

drive my mom to her office (this includes chatting with my mom during the ride).

go to school (and attend my classes).

hang-out with friends...

... hanging-out with friends... the questions that is running in my mind right now is... who are my friends?

there's the famous quote saying that... "show me who are your friends, and i can tell you what kind of a person you are." if this were true, then why am i like this?

a push-over. uto-uto. easy to fool (and any words / phrases that can suit me).

am i destined to be just on the agreeing party? even though i want to say my part, kahit walang mag-suporta sa akin? i don't know what's worst, to be a push-over or to be alone with nothing damn to give to people...

so far, since i started college i was blinded by a lot of things. blinded by the fact that people, even the closes ones are, in fact, very deceptive. and this blindness has turned into plain stupidity later on in my college life (RE: March 21, 2005 with israel, seth, eldon, denise, gato, jobi, ambok, tepay and the rest of the FA 'family').

yes, i am so stupid enough to trust people whom i considered as a family. this isn't the 1st time, there was high school, the people from victory, the FA people and it's somehow starting with my ka-psych family. though i learned from my mistakes, i believe in chances (di lang 2nd chances... to the nth chances). but why do i do the same mistake on trusting people, whom i see as friends, over and over again.

on regards of my friends... i want to say i have a lot of friends, but to be honest, i think i have none.

(i think this is one of my depressing blogs i ever typed... but im just being honest on what the facts has given me)

there... i got no friends. and i am depressed too.


well after hanging-out with 'friends'...

fetch my mom.

go home.

do homeworks (if there's any) or...

...sleep all the negative (and even the positive) feelings away.

then dawn will come the next day and the same routine.

...again and again.

this stops after i graduate this March 2006.

...i guess it's about time to throw out what i'm feeling towards them, since March 21, 2005... 'cuz it's been bugging me all the time. though forgiveness has already happened, forgetting their actions (though it's very different from what they said) is something i won't forget and want to get back at them.

i really hate them... HATE THEM!!!

but there's this thing inside me that keeps me telling not to give up on them...

so far, i can't decide what to do.

help me.

help me.

help...

...and it ended with nothing to have. (why i hate mondays without cash...)
(November 21, 2005 / 8:48pm)


i just really hate it when i can't use my own money for my own purposes. though sharing is good, but hey! i need my stuff too!!! why does it always like this in this household... it's one of the main reason why i can't really save up for my wants.

it really pisses me off... i can't wait to get in a job and start spending my money for myself. not the other way around, spending my money of things i don't need (like paying up the debt of my parents... it's suppose to be their problem, not mine)... hay buhay!!

anyways... i just hate it kasi it's the start of the week and wala na akong pera... may lakad pa naman kami ni jax sa wednesday... pero makakagawa pa ako ng paraan... worst case scenario, sasamahan ko na lang best friend ko.

oh well... nangyari na eh... i gave my last money to my dad for his wrong doings.

anyways... yon lang na muna.

laterz.

nothing inside my mind right now... (though there are things that i have to do before i sleep)
(November 20, 2005 / 7:03pm)


just got home from a pseudo-family trip... yeah, i guess going out with the family for something can be considered as bonding time for us... anyways, i still have no money, except for the one i saved for wednesday's pseudo-shopping with my best friend at 168 mall at DV.

oo nga pala, i still have to finish the hand-out for my hum2 report 2mrw... sighs!

so right now... idle lang yung mind ko right now... while typing this blog and sipping some of my tea.

hmm... by the way, lately i'm having this 'wanting for something' gig... and i dnt know what it is... but the only thing i know is that it is something physical... like sex... cuz it's been a while since i had it (three months to be exact... im like ross!!! what a geek am i?!?!)

sighs. am i that pathetic (and desperate)?!

i need someone!?! (though i like someone right now... but it's a very complicated thing to tackle it right now and i don't wanna get depressed again)

oh well, this is the effect of having an 'idle mind' mode... my other system goes off, while others are going wacky... blah!!

i guess, i have to push myself to finish the thing before i go cramming around again...

nyt.

laterz...

Back to my regular routine-2 (and people said having a sequel sucks... try watching X2! :P)
(November 20, 2005 / 9:42am)


anyways, i woke up a while ago, around 5 in the morning. it's quite weird, waking up that early on a sunday morning. in my case, i woke cuz i need to do a #2 at the johns... which i see as a good sign of releasing those negative energies at the start of the day and start with a lot of positive things.

anyhow, im doing my research for my group's report and after doing the research (w/c is cut-paste over the net), i'll start reading for my soc sci2 class about plato & aristotle...

yeah, im really back to my regular school routine... though in the future (5 or more years from now) i'll miss it, but in the distant-future (months from now) i won't...

anyways... im on light load this last sem of mine. kaya kakayanin ko ito. :P

oh well... have to go back to my research...

by the way, i've already submitted my resume at starbucks... i hope those guys from starbucks would give me a call na for an interview, ASAP sana... para maka-part time work na ako and start earning money for my own. (wish me luck!)

got to go back to research-mode...

laterz... c",)

It wasn't that "BAD" after all... (except for the baho-people who didn't showed up in the first day of that class... yipee for me!!)
(November 19, 2005 / 7:14pm)


yeah, today, saturday... i have class. my very last sem before i graduate (hopefully) i still have saturday morning class. and of all my classes, it's the elective one that goes to a saturday. though at first i didn't really liked the class that my adviser gave me during enrollment, the 1st meeting wasn't that bad (at all!!). the only thing that made that specific class not-so-good to me was some of my classmates there... particularly two of them. thank the higher powers that they didn't came and attended the 1st day... it would really have ruined my weekend. these two people whom im talking about are one of the baho-people whom we really hate. because their attutudes are really have a bad stench...

anyways... nuthin' bad really happened naman this day...

good thing nga eh... i got a new CD for free... got it at a radio station... galing nga yung complilation... im quite listening to it while typing this blog.

oh well... i guess that's my day... good-good.

laterz... c",)

What a day...!! (i wished that i had superpowers a while ago, just to get home)
(November 17, 2005 / 7:56pm)


it's so tiring... it's not the commuting part (well, yeah it can be considered too, but it ain't the issue) but more of having not able to go home properly becuase i didn't have the enough money to go home... yes, im broke in a way.

then while thinking a good strategy on going home, i wished im a mutant with superpowers like my favorite heroes, the X-Men (see picture below)...



then, i was quite lucky to see some coins while i was roaming around the mall (how desperate am i? but hey, im just trying to survive... who cares!!) thus i was able to go to RP to try my luck.

luckily, my best friend was going there and was going to be fetched at RP... well, my bad luck on going home turned out to be lucky at all. so i got to hitch with him going home. what a relief.

then, i guess that's my day for now.

this not include 2mrw's early drive of my parents to quiapo... but that's 2mrw's problem. not today.

anyways, im good and cool...

oh yeah... my blog yesterday... 'bout the dilemma... didn't bother me that much today... i'll just keep a positive perspective and i hope all things around me will fall into the right probable places.

think positive is the key... i think (but who cares!?!) :P

laterz... c",)

the downside of graduation... (and it makes me crazy every time i think of it!!)
(November 16, 2005 / 10:06pm)


this has been my dilemma since i got to spill-out what im feeling when i was given the PTAT projective test last sem... What will i do after i graudate? and Where will i go after i graduate?

yeah, i got good grade in my thesis and an option to continue is still there... and there are also the jobs im trying to get in if ever i want to start saving up for myself... but there's no solid plan yet...

now, it's really different from what i've been through since i was a student.

the routine is very different from before... and it kills me every time i think about it and even if im not thinking about it. 'cuz lately it just pops out unexpectedly on my face.

oh men... this sucks!! (totally!)

i hate this feeling.

and i don't know who to talk to with this... even when i texted my best friend about this a while ago, im not expecting anything from him (even if im wishing that he would give me some advice).

this really sucks... sighs!!

oh well... i guess time is still young (i think?)

bahala na si batman.

i just really HATE this fucking feeling!!!

parang im gonna loose a lot of my life... kasi di ko talaga alam kung ano ang mangyayari sa akin... oh men!!! ahhh!!! this is very stressful to me...

oh men... damn. i just really wish / hope for something good for me.

anyways, have to sleep for the night (this may help me get rid of this dilemma / feelings i have)

g'nyt.

laterz...


*who ever is listening, from above, or reading this... i need ur support. wish me luck.

Another allergy attack... (which is quite equivalent on having a bad day)
(November 16, 2005 / 5:41pm)


damn this allergy attack... my nose is dripping a lot of liquids, plus the sneezing are frequent. good thing i only had one subject a while ago...

then when i went to metrowalk to look for some dvds... though i didn't get any, cuz there aren't new pirated versions of good flicks... malas nga eh... nabahingan ko yung isang tindera dun... kakahiya nga eh.

anyways, when i got home... i slept... then after an hour i went out to fetch my mom... still my allergy is still giving me a tough time...but i got used to it naman... kaya i got home na rin safe and sound.

right now, ill just rest for a while and try to get some steam-inhalation just get this allergy out of my system... so 2mrw it won't be a hassle for me.

...it's really a bad day for when i get an allergy attack... it's hard to concentrate and do the stuff needed... but, oh well, there's always 2mrw.

o cya... pahinga na muna ko.

laterz... c",)