May 31, 2004 / 5:50pm
hmm... im good... so far... taking one day at a time... i can do it!! :P
anyways, i passed psych 135... 2.5.... that's good enough. :) and i also submitted my application for scholarship... i hope ma-approved yan. i really really hope it will. :D
and i found out that iv already had finished 70 units... 101 units nlng... mdyo pressured, but i can do it!! KAYA KO YAN!!!
im good... pretty good (looking)... im good...
anyways, i have to finish this entry...
later!! :D
Monday, May 31, 2004
May 31, 2004 / 10:03am
may bday blow was so astig!!
there were food, drinks and lots of wild smootchies!! from 3 seconds to 10 seconds lip actions... especially the girl on girl lip action... eheheh... nice... very nice...
also, ging, rovik & lloyd slept here... wow!! cool!! kaso, mdyo na-akward lng ako when they decided to stay in my room instead outside, pero it's cool... :D
sabi ko na nga, i doubt my high school friends to come... can't blame jax... he was jus informing me... basta, ganyan naman sila eh... since high school pa silang ganun... anyways, it was good!! got really drunk... pero its ok, bday ko naman... and a good way to release and forget problems... anyways, yon lng for the weekend, sunday, i made bawi on the lack of sleep i had...
now its monday, i have to finish my scholarship letter and do some errand again... back to normal life in the house... sighs!!
and last night, cnt help myself to cry about the lost i have... jax. it's quite hard to accept and believe that i lost my best friend like this... iyak lng ako ng iyak hanggang makatulog ako... i miss him, but i have to move on... di lng pala renovation ang kailangan, pati demolition is needed, fresh new start... and i think it will be harder than before, pero i have to, it's my life that needs to be fixed up first... kaya ko yan! :D
anyways, i have to finish up the requirements for my scholarship application... i want the scholarship!! and ill pray and hope that i got in, kahit 50% man lng... i hope & pray.
sige, errands na muli ako...
later. c",)
may bday blow was so astig!!
there were food, drinks and lots of wild smootchies!! from 3 seconds to 10 seconds lip actions... especially the girl on girl lip action... eheheh... nice... very nice...
also, ging, rovik & lloyd slept here... wow!! cool!! kaso, mdyo na-akward lng ako when they decided to stay in my room instead outside, pero it's cool... :D
sabi ko na nga, i doubt my high school friends to come... can't blame jax... he was jus informing me... basta, ganyan naman sila eh... since high school pa silang ganun... anyways, it was good!! got really drunk... pero its ok, bday ko naman... and a good way to release and forget problems... anyways, yon lng for the weekend, sunday, i made bawi on the lack of sleep i had...
now its monday, i have to finish my scholarship letter and do some errand again... back to normal life in the house... sighs!!
and last night, cnt help myself to cry about the lost i have... jax. it's quite hard to accept and believe that i lost my best friend like this... iyak lng ako ng iyak hanggang makatulog ako... i miss him, but i have to move on... di lng pala renovation ang kailangan, pati demolition is needed, fresh new start... and i think it will be harder than before, pero i have to, it's my life that needs to be fixed up first... kaya ko yan! :D
anyways, i have to finish up the requirements for my scholarship application... i want the scholarship!! and ill pray and hope that i got in, kahit 50% man lng... i hope & pray.
sige, errands na muli ako...
later. c",)
Saturday, May 29, 2004
May 29, 2004 / 3:18pm
in two hours (or less or even more) na yung bday blow out ko... yipee!! ging, rovik & lloyd are coming (and staying for the night... cool!!) and my friends from KC are also coming, and im doubting if my high school friends are coming also (what the heck!). anyways, im so happy, even if some aren't coming...
last nyt, i got to talk to ate kay, i feel sorry for her... to what happened to her and kuya pedro... she doesnt deserve this bad things... but i also know the she is a very strong and intelligent woman can fix things up for herself... idol ko sya, honestly saying... and i got to tell her my problems too... and i get advise from her, and she's very good on giving a good perspective on how to deal with problems... i luv my ate kay. :D
anyway, ill be taking a bath again... for the preperation... :P
later...
in two hours (or less or even more) na yung bday blow out ko... yipee!! ging, rovik & lloyd are coming (and staying for the night... cool!!) and my friends from KC are also coming, and im doubting if my high school friends are coming also (what the heck!). anyways, im so happy, even if some aren't coming...
last nyt, i got to talk to ate kay, i feel sorry for her... to what happened to her and kuya pedro... she doesnt deserve this bad things... but i also know the she is a very strong and intelligent woman can fix things up for herself... idol ko sya, honestly saying... and i got to tell her my problems too... and i get advise from her, and she's very good on giving a good perspective on how to deal with problems... i luv my ate kay. :D
anyway, ill be taking a bath again... for the preperation... :P
later...
Friday, May 28, 2004
May 28, 2004 / 8:42pm
jax greeted me... and wish me happiness and all... and emphasize on moving on... and being happy whatever i wanted to be... it felt weird but also great... but it also saddens me that i have to face the fact that we are no longer friends, just civil strangers... or jus plain old high school classmates... fine with me now, kasi before i cud say that im on denial then... now, im good. hmm... my old friend, talagang di ko sya makakalimutan...
i think that's cool na rin... ika nga ni ging, "hope for the best and expect the worst too"... and i got both... nice... and im, ryt now, somehow smiling... kasi im happy to be like this na... he also mentioned that some people from my high school myt drop by... cool!! i miss them too...
hay what a day... mdyo nanginig ako ng konti... but im good.
happy birthday gimo, gem, gempot!! c",)
later.
jax greeted me... and wish me happiness and all... and emphasize on moving on... and being happy whatever i wanted to be... it felt weird but also great... but it also saddens me that i have to face the fact that we are no longer friends, just civil strangers... or jus plain old high school classmates... fine with me now, kasi before i cud say that im on denial then... now, im good. hmm... my old friend, talagang di ko sya makakalimutan...
i think that's cool na rin... ika nga ni ging, "hope for the best and expect the worst too"... and i got both... nice... and im, ryt now, somehow smiling... kasi im happy to be like this na... he also mentioned that some people from my high school myt drop by... cool!! i miss them too...
hay what a day... mdyo nanginig ako ng konti... but im good.
happy birthday gimo, gem, gempot!! c",)
later.
May 28, 2004 / 6:13pm
it's so nice that people that i haven't talked to sometimes, greeting me on my birthday... galing!! :D
jonathan ang, edgar segovia, kevin chua, jonathan aquino, david sta.maria, and some more people who i haven't heard or seen for a few months or years, just greeting me... galing galing talaga... and im doing more good status than kanina... :D
anyways, i miss them na rin... i hope they would come 2mrw... enjoy 'to!!
anyways, even if i didnt do anything on this day, like malling or buying stuff, it is still a good birthday for me... :D
status ko nga sa YM ko eh... "why worry... it's my BIRTHDAY!"
there's no need to worry anything, i hope. pero everything's cool and good. :D
laterz... :P
it's so nice that people that i haven't talked to sometimes, greeting me on my birthday... galing!! :D
jonathan ang, edgar segovia, kevin chua, jonathan aquino, david sta.maria, and some more people who i haven't heard or seen for a few months or years, just greeting me... galing galing talaga... and im doing more good status than kanina... :D
anyways, i miss them na rin... i hope they would come 2mrw... enjoy 'to!!
anyways, even if i didnt do anything on this day, like malling or buying stuff, it is still a good birthday for me... :D
status ko nga sa YM ko eh... "why worry... it's my BIRTHDAY!"
there's no need to worry anything, i hope. pero everything's cool and good. :D
laterz... :P
Thursday, May 27, 2004
May 27, 2004 / 10:09pm
well, it's actually an hour and 51 minutes before the 28th of May arrives and it's gonna be my bday... yippee.
im hoping for the best, and also expecting the worst... well, on worst thing iv thought before happened na, kaya i think there's no way it can be fixed... how sarcastic am i? anyways, im gonna be ok, kahit konti lng ang mag-greet sa 'kin... and where it be a bad or good day later, ill still have that smile that keeps me goin'... and there's always (ALWAYS) a bright side... and im moving on... taking a good solid step per day... im moving... moving... move on... :D
bente-dos na ako... and still looking great you tiger!! grrr... :P
well, things definitely went awry and kaboomy when i was 21... i hope things would be better than 21 and things would sail smoothly... and also,im never giving up, kahit it's over-OVER things... kasi, i know, and i have faith, na it will be fixed up, or atleast, it would end up good (not like this...) to sum up, im hoping that 22 would be a good age and a good start for me... c",)
hay naku... bday ko na later!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY gempot :P
laterz...
well, it's actually an hour and 51 minutes before the 28th of May arrives and it's gonna be my bday... yippee.
im hoping for the best, and also expecting the worst... well, on worst thing iv thought before happened na, kaya i think there's no way it can be fixed... how sarcastic am i? anyways, im gonna be ok, kahit konti lng ang mag-greet sa 'kin... and where it be a bad or good day later, ill still have that smile that keeps me goin'... and there's always (ALWAYS) a bright side... and im moving on... taking a good solid step per day... im moving... moving... move on... :D
bente-dos na ako... and still looking great you tiger!! grrr... :P
well, things definitely went awry and kaboomy when i was 21... i hope things would be better than 21 and things would sail smoothly... and also,im never giving up, kahit it's over-OVER things... kasi, i know, and i have faith, na it will be fixed up, or atleast, it would end up good (not like this...) to sum up, im hoping that 22 would be a good age and a good start for me... c",)
hay naku... bday ko na later!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY gempot :P
laterz...
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
May 25, 2004 / 12:53pm
hmm... im good... moving on an having a good start... but i also starting to forget the past and the mistakes iv done... even him. but im good... and it's a lesson iv learned so hard, yet somehow taking it one day at a time... i feel good.
*hitit ng hangin*
*bugtong hininga*
feeling better... and i cnt seem to notice it, but im smiling... kinda a little bit weird, but hey! im feeling good... mainit nga lng, but im not complaining... i wish this weather will be like this until sunday... para enjoy yung blowout ko sa saturday & also my birthday, which is around 3 more days... whoopee!!
anyways, alam ko rin na nabawasan na ng isang taong di pupunta (you know who...) but atlst, my friends who were there to help me move on are coming... im so happy!! :D
o sya... pahinga na muna ako...
laterz...
hmm... im good... moving on an having a good start... but i also starting to forget the past and the mistakes iv done... even him. but im good... and it's a lesson iv learned so hard, yet somehow taking it one day at a time... i feel good.
*hitit ng hangin*
*bugtong hininga*
feeling better... and i cnt seem to notice it, but im smiling... kinda a little bit weird, but hey! im feeling good... mainit nga lng, but im not complaining... i wish this weather will be like this until sunday... para enjoy yung blowout ko sa saturday & also my birthday, which is around 3 more days... whoopee!!
anyways, alam ko rin na nabawasan na ng isang taong di pupunta (you know who...) but atlst, my friends who were there to help me move on are coming... im so happy!! :D
o sya... pahinga na muna ako...
laterz...
Monday, May 24, 2004
May 24, 2004 / 1:43am
jus read the email from jax... tama sya. i really haven't moved on... i didnt realized that it may take a lot of sacrifices to move on... and in this case, loosing a friend... and ending up being civil strangers... it's still true, my best friend died... but i must move one, it's my life that im living, not his.
for that, i'll miss my best friend, Jacky Varias Chang (1999-2004)... age 20, and we were friends since 1999... and it was a good friendship we had. no doubt about it... it was good... i won't forget it at all...
let's have a moment of silence...
forever in my memories, and forever will be good, jax is one of my very closest friends i ever had... and for that i won't forget the good and even the bad times we both shared and experienced...
godspeed jax, enjoy lifes goodness and overcome trials...
amen.
jus read the email from jax... tama sya. i really haven't moved on... i didnt realized that it may take a lot of sacrifices to move on... and in this case, loosing a friend... and ending up being civil strangers... it's still true, my best friend died... but i must move one, it's my life that im living, not his.
for that, i'll miss my best friend, Jacky Varias Chang (1999-2004)... age 20, and we were friends since 1999... and it was a good friendship we had. no doubt about it... it was good... i won't forget it at all...
let's have a moment of silence...
forever in my memories, and forever will be good, jax is one of my very closest friends i ever had... and for that i won't forget the good and even the bad times we both shared and experienced...
godspeed jax, enjoy lifes goodness and overcome trials...
amen.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
May 23, 2004 / 1:27pm
the battle that iv been fighting for is done... and i lost... patay na pala best friend ko... and the person whom is thought is still jax is not the jax that i knew. this "new" jax is not the best friend i had... the jax i know is now DEAD...
nag-away kami sa txt... and whoa!! it's a big one... i hate to say it but, i lost him... and i have to face it. he considered me a stranger now... but the good thing is that we are not enemies... just perfect strangers... and i hate it!!
kahit iv sed it a wyl ago na im giving up, i wont give up... ill just fight it in a silent way...
but still... the "new" jax is an asshole-jackass!!
im soooo angry and at the same time sad... my shaking right now... hay buhay!!
in a sarcastic way... what a good way to jump start my bday week... SIGHSS!!
i dnt know him anymore...
...
the battle that iv been fighting for is done... and i lost... patay na pala best friend ko... and the person whom is thought is still jax is not the jax that i knew. this "new" jax is not the best friend i had... the jax i know is now DEAD...
nag-away kami sa txt... and whoa!! it's a big one... i hate to say it but, i lost him... and i have to face it. he considered me a stranger now... but the good thing is that we are not enemies... just perfect strangers... and i hate it!!
kahit iv sed it a wyl ago na im giving up, i wont give up... ill just fight it in a silent way...
but still... the "new" jax is an asshole-jackass!!
im soooo angry and at the same time sad... my shaking right now... hay buhay!!
in a sarcastic way... what a good way to jump start my bday week... SIGHSS!!
i dnt know him anymore...
...
May 23, 2004 / 7:46am
im still at home... headaches kinda gone (i hope)... fourth day of my not-smoking-day... but im still bored...
i woke up at around 2am kanina, i txtd jax... and whoa!! i cnt bliv i did that... i just txtd him, asking him if we're cool... and something else, like i knw the situation and i understand him... and our friendship is still under renovation and all... that it myt take a while to fix things... sighs! how senti and emotional could i get... i jus hope jax would come on saturday... i really reallly do... kahit sandali lng... i pray he would come.
anyways, i miss him, talking to him well, it was ok... ayaw nya lang samahan akong manuod ng cine this week... i understand that... anyways, its morning... and im bored... plus wala akong pera!! and i want that spider-man cartoon dvd... WAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!
later...
im still at home... headaches kinda gone (i hope)... fourth day of my not-smoking-day... but im still bored...
i woke up at around 2am kanina, i txtd jax... and whoa!! i cnt bliv i did that... i just txtd him, asking him if we're cool... and something else, like i knw the situation and i understand him... and our friendship is still under renovation and all... that it myt take a while to fix things... sighs! how senti and emotional could i get... i jus hope jax would come on saturday... i really reallly do... kahit sandali lng... i pray he would come.
anyways, i miss him, talking to him well, it was ok... ayaw nya lang samahan akong manuod ng cine this week... i understand that... anyways, its morning... and im bored... plus wala akong pera!! and i want that spider-man cartoon dvd... WAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!
later...
Saturday, May 22, 2004
May 22, 2004 / 5:23pm
im having a fucking headache right now... add to that the things that are bugging my head... if this were a buffy episode, the first is attacking me right now... SIGHS!!
nakaka-asar ang tatay ko!! tangina!! lalong akong napi-pissed off sa kanya eh!! tangina!! AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!! PPPPPRRRRREEEEEESSSSSUUUUURRRRREEEEEE!!!
i hate this day... it's so boring!! and my headache... not a good combination... hay buhay!!
i should shave and be vainy before my bday...
and i hope eveything with me and jax will be make-up and peace and everything cool again... i hope for that day to come...
hay naku, my dad is calling me again... ASAR!!
later. :-/
im having a fucking headache right now... add to that the things that are bugging my head... if this were a buffy episode, the first is attacking me right now... SIGHS!!
nakaka-asar ang tatay ko!! tangina!! lalong akong napi-pissed off sa kanya eh!! tangina!! AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!! PPPPPRRRRREEEEEESSSSSUUUUURRRRREEEEEE!!!
i hate this day... it's so boring!! and my headache... not a good combination... hay buhay!!
i should shave and be vainy before my bday...
and i hope eveything with me and jax will be make-up and peace and everything cool again... i hope for that day to come...
hay naku, my dad is calling me again... ASAR!!
later. :-/
May 22, 2004 / 12:30pm
im bored... and quite down... i dnt know why, but i think i know why... labo ko... mixed emotion ako ngayon, pati libog nandito... sighs!! what a life i have right now... sux...
anyways, im trying to be not bored by having an x-men marathon... or dvd marathon... para di mabato... for the weekend...
i txtd jax kanina, just asking him if he want to go out with me this week, either a movie or badminton... i hope he replies, kahit umayaw siya... i know its hard for me... sa totoo, takot na ako talaga sa kanya... im just trying to fight for our friendship, whatever is left to fix... hay buhay...
anyways, i have to log out na rin...
later...
im bored... and quite down... i dnt know why, but i think i know why... labo ko... mixed emotion ako ngayon, pati libog nandito... sighs!! what a life i have right now... sux...
anyways, im trying to be not bored by having an x-men marathon... or dvd marathon... para di mabato... for the weekend...
i txtd jax kanina, just asking him if he want to go out with me this week, either a movie or badminton... i hope he replies, kahit umayaw siya... i know its hard for me... sa totoo, takot na ako talaga sa kanya... im just trying to fight for our friendship, whatever is left to fix... hay buhay...
anyways, i have to log out na rin...
later...
May 22, 2004 / 9:41am
what's another day... than a boring saturday? hmm... i miss smoking, it's been 3 days na... good progress, i think... anyways, i have to do some errands for my parents, which sometimes i hate it, kasi i blocks some of my plans, specially some school requirements... hirap kasi maging driver eh... SIGHS!!
i have to go... errands... SIGHS!!
later. :-/
what's another day... than a boring saturday? hmm... i miss smoking, it's been 3 days na... good progress, i think... anyways, i have to do some errands for my parents, which sometimes i hate it, kasi i blocks some of my plans, specially some school requirements... hirap kasi maging driver eh... SIGHS!!
i have to go... errands... SIGHS!!
later. :-/
Friday, May 21, 2004
May 21, 2004 / 9:35pm
hay naku!! what a day!! im done w/ both reports, group & special... kaso i felt kinda guilty sa special paper ko, cut & paste lng kasi ito eh... but i just did it just submit it... sayang rin yung extra points eh...
hay buhay...im pre-writing my journals na from now on... kasi nagkakaroon ng system shut down ang PC lately... may pumapasok atang virus dito eh... better safe & precausious, than sorry...
i miss my best friend sooooo much!! ill never give up fighting for our friendship, kahit i feel sad and this randomly down lately... i wnt give up!! i love my best friend, jax, he's like a brother to me...
hay naku, summer class is done and i have my bday to come... oh wait!! it's exactly one week before my bday... SIGHS!! :P
while im typing this journal, nagsca-scan muna ako ng PC... para i cud just copy & paste this later sa blog ko...
anyways, i truly miss my best friend, i wish we could talk things out and make-up for all.
the thing that i just hate right now, summer season to be exact, is i wasnt able to swin this season again.... SIGHS!! i wanna swin... kasi iv done and still doing badminton to atleast loose some pounds... and i think swimming will do the same to me... loose pounds... hay naku...
why am i so green (L) lately... i should check this monster inside me nga... baka its making some plans to ruin my life again... hmm... baka its just hormones or my id wanting to satisfy itself... hmm... may i kinda need a good satisfaction too... ill jus try to satisfy myself later... pero sana next time, it would be more... hehehehe :P
"this love has taken its toll... she said goodbye, to many times before..." -This Love by Maroon 5
WALA LNG!! gosh! i cnt bliv ill be singing too sa journal ko.... hehehe :P
sige na nga...
laterz c",)
hay naku!! what a day!! im done w/ both reports, group & special... kaso i felt kinda guilty sa special paper ko, cut & paste lng kasi ito eh... but i just did it just submit it... sayang rin yung extra points eh...
hay buhay...im pre-writing my journals na from now on... kasi nagkakaroon ng system shut down ang PC lately... may pumapasok atang virus dito eh... better safe & precausious, than sorry...
i miss my best friend sooooo much!! ill never give up fighting for our friendship, kahit i feel sad and this randomly down lately... i wnt give up!! i love my best friend, jax, he's like a brother to me...
hay naku, summer class is done and i have my bday to come... oh wait!! it's exactly one week before my bday... SIGHS!! :P
while im typing this journal, nagsca-scan muna ako ng PC... para i cud just copy & paste this later sa blog ko...
anyways, i truly miss my best friend, i wish we could talk things out and make-up for all.
the thing that i just hate right now, summer season to be exact, is i wasnt able to swin this season again.... SIGHS!! i wanna swin... kasi iv done and still doing badminton to atleast loose some pounds... and i think swimming will do the same to me... loose pounds... hay naku...
why am i so green (L) lately... i should check this monster inside me nga... baka its making some plans to ruin my life again... hmm... baka its just hormones or my id wanting to satisfy itself... hmm... may i kinda need a good satisfaction too... ill jus try to satisfy myself later... pero sana next time, it would be more... hehehehe :P
"this love has taken its toll... she said goodbye, to many times before..." -This Love by Maroon 5
WALA LNG!! gosh! i cnt bliv ill be singing too sa journal ko.... hehehe :P
sige na nga...
laterz c",)
May 21, 2004 / 7:04am
im done with our groups paper... kaso the special project, hindi pa...
PPPPPREEEEEESSSSUUURRREEE!!! AAARrRRRRGGHHHH!!!
anyways, i feel so mixed up right now, kanina (pati last night) libog na libog ako... now im sad... and i dnt know what feelings ill have later... hay naku!! weird things are happening talaga to me... and i somewhat hate it! i miss my best friend (jax), which i doubt it that he will come to my bday handaan (mang-iindyan yon eh... ganyan naman sya palagi) i feel very concern to both nina & lloyd right now... and im still sad, down... but atleast i got to laugh na...
and plus, i have to fight this addiction over smoking... i hate to quit... kahit im having a really hard time on quiting... hay naku... gem gem gem, 'kaw kasi eh... tsk tsk tsk...
anyway, i have to try and finish my special project, basta may ma-submit ako will do...
later!! c",)
im done with our groups paper... kaso the special project, hindi pa...
PPPPPREEEEEESSSSUUURRREEE!!! AAARrRRRRGGHHHH!!!
anyways, i feel so mixed up right now, kanina (pati last night) libog na libog ako... now im sad... and i dnt know what feelings ill have later... hay naku!! weird things are happening talaga to me... and i somewhat hate it! i miss my best friend (jax), which i doubt it that he will come to my bday handaan (mang-iindyan yon eh... ganyan naman sya palagi) i feel very concern to both nina & lloyd right now... and im still sad, down... but atleast i got to laugh na...
and plus, i have to fight this addiction over smoking... i hate to quit... kahit im having a really hard time on quiting... hay naku... gem gem gem, 'kaw kasi eh... tsk tsk tsk...
anyway, i have to try and finish my special project, basta may ma-submit ako will do...
later!! c",)
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
May 19, 2004 / 7:08am
i wasn't able to review last night... but atleast i got to browse some... pero sobrang konti.... :-(
anyways, im so happy i got season 6 of friends on dvd... YIPEE!! :P
but i have to cram my exam ryt now before mag-1pm... YIKES!!
hay naku... i hate cramming, but being a xaverian, i am able to cram good enough... and i hate it!!
and i have to do some errands pa... HAY BUHAY!!
have to go na... drive my mom and study and all... SIGHS!!
later... :-/
i wasn't able to review last night... but atleast i got to browse some... pero sobrang konti.... :-(
anyways, im so happy i got season 6 of friends on dvd... YIPEE!! :P
but i have to cram my exam ryt now before mag-1pm... YIKES!!
hay naku... i hate cramming, but being a xaverian, i am able to cram good enough... and i hate it!!
and i have to do some errands pa... HAY BUHAY!!
have to go na... drive my mom and study and all... SIGHS!!
later... :-/
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
May 18, 2004 / 11:10am
11:10am... it doesn't look like 11:10am... it's more like 8 or 9am on a rainy day... rainy day, i said... hmmm... i really hope that it will not rain on my bday blow out... i pray that it will not rain on that day!!
anyways, im installing norton anti-virus right now... para maayos na tong pc namin... and doing that, im listening to maroon5 and reading my notes for my last exam 2mrw... wish me luck!! c",)
mga 20 to 30 mins. pa ata matatapos yung updating ng norton... hay... later on, around 2pm ill go to megamall to pick up my sister's padala... baka iikot na rin ako dun or tambay sa powerbooks... bahala na...
hay naku!! 10 days nlng at bente-dos na ako... im getting older... and hopefully wiser (hehehe)...
sige na nga... review nlng uli ako... wish me luck!!
at may tatapusin pa akong papers for my special project... hay buhay!! :-/
laterz... c",)
11:10am... it doesn't look like 11:10am... it's more like 8 or 9am on a rainy day... rainy day, i said... hmmm... i really hope that it will not rain on my bday blow out... i pray that it will not rain on that day!!
anyways, im installing norton anti-virus right now... para maayos na tong pc namin... and doing that, im listening to maroon5 and reading my notes for my last exam 2mrw... wish me luck!! c",)
mga 20 to 30 mins. pa ata matatapos yung updating ng norton... hay... later on, around 2pm ill go to megamall to pick up my sister's padala... baka iikot na rin ako dun or tambay sa powerbooks... bahala na...
hay naku!! 10 days nlng at bente-dos na ako... im getting older... and hopefully wiser (hehehe)...
sige na nga... review nlng uli ako... wish me luck!!
at may tatapusin pa akong papers for my special project... hay buhay!! :-/
laterz... c",)
Monday, May 17, 2004
May 17, 2004 / 7:35pm
what a bitchin' day today!!
my prof, ma'am pj, was quite bitching kanina... kasi it's a female thing... kaya ok lng sa amin... pero nakakatakot pala pag-bitch mode sya... yikes!!
anyways, mdyo asar ako sa kapatid ko kasi nag-short uli yung phone line ng modem... that bitch!! grrr....
hay naku... it raining today... and its quite cold outside.... brrrr... anyways, may bagyo daw eh...
i just hope that it won't rain on my birthday blow next weekend (may 29)... i hope it wont.
laterz...
what a bitchin' day today!!
my prof, ma'am pj, was quite bitching kanina... kasi it's a female thing... kaya ok lng sa amin... pero nakakatakot pala pag-bitch mode sya... yikes!!
anyways, mdyo asar ako sa kapatid ko kasi nag-short uli yung phone line ng modem... that bitch!! grrr....
hay naku... it raining today... and its quite cold outside.... brrrr... anyways, may bagyo daw eh...
i just hope that it won't rain on my birthday blow next weekend (may 29)... i hope it wont.
laterz...
Sunday, May 16, 2004
May 16, 2004 / 7:39pm
hay... what a very hot and boring day... technically all i did was sleep... sighs!! my day sucks... but my life ain't bad at all... anyways, i have a new way to deal with my boredome... bug lyndon... yes, lyndon gregorio of beerkada... i kept on bugging him on why i was banned out from the beerkadets... wala lng. :P
hay naku... atleast i got to talk to teacher ging... 3-way kami with sensei lloyd... miss them, and i miss her so much... even if my strong feelings for her, back then, was still here now... i have much more respect for her... true i still love her, but i love her as a best friend. i think that's enough... kasi sa totoo we can talk anything eh... i could say to her na i got a crush on her and she will just talk to me and later we will just smile and be happy again... hay... pero the funny thing, until now... the song ng stephen speak, "out of my league"... it's my song about her, until now... and i hope it won't change.
God, i do really LOVE MY FRIENDS!! (jax, lloyd, giselle, nina, aby, wendi, rheena, fin, feric, kate, and the rest) ill give my life for them talaga (specially the first 4 people)...i do relly love them!! Grant them safety and happiness...
anyways, i enjoyed everyday...hehehe :P
sige, ill bug lyndon pa... hehehe (joke!)
laterz... c",)
hay... what a very hot and boring day... technically all i did was sleep... sighs!! my day sucks... but my life ain't bad at all... anyways, i have a new way to deal with my boredome... bug lyndon... yes, lyndon gregorio of beerkada... i kept on bugging him on why i was banned out from the beerkadets... wala lng. :P
hay naku... atleast i got to talk to teacher ging... 3-way kami with sensei lloyd... miss them, and i miss her so much... even if my strong feelings for her, back then, was still here now... i have much more respect for her... true i still love her, but i love her as a best friend. i think that's enough... kasi sa totoo we can talk anything eh... i could say to her na i got a crush on her and she will just talk to me and later we will just smile and be happy again... hay... pero the funny thing, until now... the song ng stephen speak, "out of my league"... it's my song about her, until now... and i hope it won't change.
God, i do really LOVE MY FRIENDS!! (jax, lloyd, giselle, nina, aby, wendi, rheena, fin, feric, kate, and the rest) ill give my life for them talaga (specially the first 4 people)...i do relly love them!! Grant them safety and happiness...
anyways, i enjoyed everyday...hehehe :P
sige, ill bug lyndon pa... hehehe (joke!)
laterz... c",)
May 16, 2004 / 11:29am
some investor from some bank are going here for lunch today... i think they are gonna make an investment for my dad's fishpond... sana matuloy, and hopefully that they could also help for solving our financial crisis and the foreclosure of our house & lots... i hope it can...
wish us luck!!
and pray for the best!! :D
later... c",)
some investor from some bank are going here for lunch today... i think they are gonna make an investment for my dad's fishpond... sana matuloy, and hopefully that they could also help for solving our financial crisis and the foreclosure of our house & lots... i hope it can...
wish us luck!!
and pray for the best!! :D
later... c",)
May 16, 2004 / 10:11am
putang-ina 'tong kapatid ko... ayaw umails dito...
hay salamat, umalis na rin.
anyways, i was quite sad kahapon... actually kagabi. kasi it bugged me again, the thing that jax-isn't-my-friend-at-all kind of thing... i was gonna talk to ging, kaso i got too tired and slept... kanina naman i got to rant it to nina... ok nman... i should not give up this battle, kasi it's not really a loosing battle at all... kaya i should continue fight for our friendship, no matter what happens... i love my best friend!! :D
im feeling quite better... :P
wala na kasing sagabal dito... hehehe
alam mo, kanina, i so horny pala... hmm... got the best vitamin-j kanina... :P (hehehe... hormones kinda need a good rub now and then)
hehehe... :P
later! c",)
putang-ina 'tong kapatid ko... ayaw umails dito...
hay salamat, umalis na rin.
anyways, i was quite sad kahapon... actually kagabi. kasi it bugged me again, the thing that jax-isn't-my-friend-at-all kind of thing... i was gonna talk to ging, kaso i got too tired and slept... kanina naman i got to rant it to nina... ok nman... i should not give up this battle, kasi it's not really a loosing battle at all... kaya i should continue fight for our friendship, no matter what happens... i love my best friend!! :D
im feeling quite better... :P
wala na kasing sagabal dito... hehehe
alam mo, kanina, i so horny pala... hmm... got the best vitamin-j kanina... :P (hehehe... hormones kinda need a good rub now and then)
hehehe... :P
later! c",)
Saturday, May 15, 2004
May 15, 2004 / 8:17am
still at little bit pissed of... but, hey!! im cool na... :p
anyways, i this thing from researching for my special bonus paper... i just wanna post it, just in case to remind me that life is full of laughs too. :P
--start--
Humor doesn’t typically come to mind in the same breath as depression. But humor can be an important ally in getting beyond the rigidity of thinking that accompanies depression and keeps people locked into a depressed state of mind.
One goal of cognitive therapy is to change your perspective, your point of view. Humor is one way to change your view viscerally—and enjoyably.
Cultivating a humorous mindset helps you see yourself and any situation with a more supple mind so that you are not locked into a negative view. Depression is both caused by and causes the inability to see options and choices we otherwise would.
Take a common situation: someone feels very depressed in the wake of having failed at something. They cancel plans and withdraw from social opportunities. They don’t feel “up to it.” Under the surface, perhaps out of view of the conscious mind, the person might feel that the failure disqualifies him from the human race. However, turning around and asking out loud, "Does that disqualify me from the human race?" is humorous. It highlights the absurdity of the extreme conclusion.
We’re not talking stand-up comedy, but insight-oriented commentary, achieved via anecdote and metaphor. You might feel down from a cutting remark your spouse made. But you could ask yourself: Does that “cutting” remark draw blood? Noting the metaphor puts it in its place—an obnoxious comment, but not a searing one.
Humor fosters acceptance of our humanness and our foibles. It is not sarcasm or put-downs. What we are looking for is gentle, playful perspective that embraces humanness but never at the expense of others—or of ourselves. The goal is not to take life too seriously.
So how to foster good humor?
• Choose to allow yourself to laugh at your own behaviors and beliefs—but not at yourself. Make that distinction clearly.
See your life not as a distraught drama but as a romantic comedy. Recognize the inherent farce-like quality in situations including sex and relationships.
Cultivating humor not only makes life more bearable, it makes you more attractive to others. Study upon study shows that a sense of humor is high up on the list of traits that most people seek in a partner.
• Insert silliness. Fill your life with one goofy thing a day. Make an unusual observation about someone. Or do something you normally wouldn’t do. Wear something silly. You will learn that nothing terrible happens—and you may also discover that something good often happens.
• Puncture a rigid mindset with a mental exercise called “paradoxical intention.”
Suppose you have to give a speech and you are unduly anxious about looking uncomfortable. You can overcome the fear of failure by deliberately focusing on it and humorously exaggerating the very effects you fear.
Say you are worried about having to speak publicly and sweating profusely. Deliberately imagine a humorous situation where you are—literally—sweating like a fountain and spewing enough to drown the first row of the audience. Accept that you sweat like a fountain; imagine it and then think, what is the worst that could happen?
• Exaggeration is funny because it skewers the falsehood. If you fail at a test or perform poorly at an audition, you could erroneously call yourself a failure. That, however, is an overgeneralization. Alternatively, you could see yourself as someone who failed at this particular thing, but in no way does that stamp you forever in this way.
Find the humor by saying, this makes me an utter wretch, a failure now and forever, a doomed and worthless subhuman, because I didn’t get the part that I wanted or my partner isn’t giving me the attention I want. Get into the exaggeration until you see the absurdity of seeing yourself as a “total failure.”
• Walk down the street remembering that people are nude under their clothes. It reduces fear of others. Such thoughts can take people of high status from deity to human. It helps to remember that everyone yells at their kids, spills ketchup, goes to the bathroom.
• Play to an audience. Think of stories and items that would make others laugh.
• Be sensitive to the words you use. They can rigidify or help loosen up your thinking.
• Create cute, funny neologisms with your partner. Call it goofifying. Creating your own funny expressions for your experiences makes you more flexible and allows you to interpret and assess reality better.
• Smile. Here’s a favorite silly joke I cant resist passing along: What does an agnostic, dyslexic insomniac do? Stays up all night and wonders if there is a dog.
--end--
anyways, yon lng... smile ka lang dyan & everything!! :p
later!! c",)
still at little bit pissed of... but, hey!! im cool na... :p
anyways, i this thing from researching for my special bonus paper... i just wanna post it, just in case to remind me that life is full of laughs too. :P
--start--
Humor doesn’t typically come to mind in the same breath as depression. But humor can be an important ally in getting beyond the rigidity of thinking that accompanies depression and keeps people locked into a depressed state of mind.
One goal of cognitive therapy is to change your perspective, your point of view. Humor is one way to change your view viscerally—and enjoyably.
Cultivating a humorous mindset helps you see yourself and any situation with a more supple mind so that you are not locked into a negative view. Depression is both caused by and causes the inability to see options and choices we otherwise would.
Take a common situation: someone feels very depressed in the wake of having failed at something. They cancel plans and withdraw from social opportunities. They don’t feel “up to it.” Under the surface, perhaps out of view of the conscious mind, the person might feel that the failure disqualifies him from the human race. However, turning around and asking out loud, "Does that disqualify me from the human race?" is humorous. It highlights the absurdity of the extreme conclusion.
We’re not talking stand-up comedy, but insight-oriented commentary, achieved via anecdote and metaphor. You might feel down from a cutting remark your spouse made. But you could ask yourself: Does that “cutting” remark draw blood? Noting the metaphor puts it in its place—an obnoxious comment, but not a searing one.
Humor fosters acceptance of our humanness and our foibles. It is not sarcasm or put-downs. What we are looking for is gentle, playful perspective that embraces humanness but never at the expense of others—or of ourselves. The goal is not to take life too seriously.
So how to foster good humor?
• Choose to allow yourself to laugh at your own behaviors and beliefs—but not at yourself. Make that distinction clearly.
See your life not as a distraught drama but as a romantic comedy. Recognize the inherent farce-like quality in situations including sex and relationships.
Cultivating humor not only makes life more bearable, it makes you more attractive to others. Study upon study shows that a sense of humor is high up on the list of traits that most people seek in a partner.
• Insert silliness. Fill your life with one goofy thing a day. Make an unusual observation about someone. Or do something you normally wouldn’t do. Wear something silly. You will learn that nothing terrible happens—and you may also discover that something good often happens.
• Puncture a rigid mindset with a mental exercise called “paradoxical intention.”
Suppose you have to give a speech and you are unduly anxious about looking uncomfortable. You can overcome the fear of failure by deliberately focusing on it and humorously exaggerating the very effects you fear.
Say you are worried about having to speak publicly and sweating profusely. Deliberately imagine a humorous situation where you are—literally—sweating like a fountain and spewing enough to drown the first row of the audience. Accept that you sweat like a fountain; imagine it and then think, what is the worst that could happen?
• Exaggeration is funny because it skewers the falsehood. If you fail at a test or perform poorly at an audition, you could erroneously call yourself a failure. That, however, is an overgeneralization. Alternatively, you could see yourself as someone who failed at this particular thing, but in no way does that stamp you forever in this way.
Find the humor by saying, this makes me an utter wretch, a failure now and forever, a doomed and worthless subhuman, because I didn’t get the part that I wanted or my partner isn’t giving me the attention I want. Get into the exaggeration until you see the absurdity of seeing yourself as a “total failure.”
• Walk down the street remembering that people are nude under their clothes. It reduces fear of others. Such thoughts can take people of high status from deity to human. It helps to remember that everyone yells at their kids, spills ketchup, goes to the bathroom.
• Play to an audience. Think of stories and items that would make others laugh.
• Be sensitive to the words you use. They can rigidify or help loosen up your thinking.
• Create cute, funny neologisms with your partner. Call it goofifying. Creating your own funny expressions for your experiences makes you more flexible and allows you to interpret and assess reality better.
• Smile. Here’s a favorite silly joke I cant resist passing along: What does an agnostic, dyslexic insomniac do? Stays up all night and wonders if there is a dog.
--end--
anyways, yon lng... smile ka lang dyan & everything!! :p
later!! c",)
May 15, 2004 / 5:29am
DAMMIT!!! nakaka-asar!! walang tubig kami... and i thought that i was having a very good crap kanina... tangina talaga oh!!! and nasira tuloy yung libog ko kanina... i planted to do something pa nman kanina...SIGHS!!! :-/
anyways, bwiset talaga 'to!! i didnt wash my butt completely...because of the shortage of water... hay naku!! ASAR!!
ayan tuloy, i woke very early for a weekend... im sure masarap sana ang tulog ko pa.... GRRRR....
later :-/
DAMMIT!!! nakaka-asar!! walang tubig kami... and i thought that i was having a very good crap kanina... tangina talaga oh!!! and nasira tuloy yung libog ko kanina... i planted to do something pa nman kanina...SIGHS!!! :-/
anyways, bwiset talaga 'to!! i didnt wash my butt completely...because of the shortage of water... hay naku!! ASAR!!
ayan tuloy, i woke very early for a weekend... im sure masarap sana ang tulog ko pa.... GRRRR....
later :-/
Friday, May 14, 2004
May 14, 2004 / 8:50pm
WHAT A DAY!!
first i drove my mo to her office at around past 7am... then i went to school for my class... had a loooong notes to copy... and after the lecture (that was from 10 to 12pm) we went to mang jimmy's at UP... and it was FANTASTIC!!! ang sarap ng kinain namin... BUSOG na BUSOG kami.... and a good yosi made it good... :P then we hang out at UP's sunken garden... played cards and just hang out at the fresh breeze at UP... hay naku... SARAP!! then i fetched my mom at around 5pm... and unexpectedly, i drove her to a bowling area in cubao... had a chance to play bowling... para akong nag-badminton... hay sarap...
WHAT A DAY!!! :P
anyways, i have to atleast start my paper for my group report and the extra bonus points...
WHAT A DAY!!!!
i wish things will be a-ok na... with everything around me.
then, all of a sudden, right now... i feel kinda green... ngek!! baka wala lng 'to... down hormones...DOWN boy!! :P
WHAT A DAY!!!!!
later! :D
WHAT A DAY!!
first i drove my mo to her office at around past 7am... then i went to school for my class... had a loooong notes to copy... and after the lecture (that was from 10 to 12pm) we went to mang jimmy's at UP... and it was FANTASTIC!!! ang sarap ng kinain namin... BUSOG na BUSOG kami.... and a good yosi made it good... :P then we hang out at UP's sunken garden... played cards and just hang out at the fresh breeze at UP... hay naku... SARAP!! then i fetched my mom at around 5pm... and unexpectedly, i drove her to a bowling area in cubao... had a chance to play bowling... para akong nag-badminton... hay sarap...
WHAT A DAY!!! :P
anyways, i have to atleast start my paper for my group report and the extra bonus points...
WHAT A DAY!!!!
i wish things will be a-ok na... with everything around me.
then, all of a sudden, right now... i feel kinda green... ngek!! baka wala lng 'to... down hormones...DOWN boy!! :P
WHAT A DAY!!!!!
later! :D
Thursday, May 13, 2004
May 13, 2004 / 6:38pm
im having the sinus again... ASAR!! grrrr....
anyways, the day went well, so far...
i got to get the journal for our project in psych135... also got to help wendi fix her yahoo account... somehow, all is well... except that i can't go to jax today kasi di ko nakuha yung dvd & cd and this sinus is getting in to me... anyways, ill drop it next week... after my exam is over...
hay naku... bored but i have to jump start my brain again...
later. :D
im having the sinus again... ASAR!! grrrr....
anyways, the day went well, so far...
i got to get the journal for our project in psych135... also got to help wendi fix her yahoo account... somehow, all is well... except that i can't go to jax today kasi di ko nakuha yung dvd & cd and this sinus is getting in to me... anyways, ill drop it next week... after my exam is over...
hay naku... bored but i have to jump start my brain again...
later. :D
May 13, 2004 / 7:57am
hmm... didn't had the good sleep last night... sobrang lamig and i dnt have any blanket on... kaya im had aa very cold and unmovable sleep the whole night... SIGHS!!
now, ang bagal ng mom ko to get ready for office... hay naku, nanay ko talaga, oh... :P anyways, ill be going to school at 11am later to get some online journals for my groups extra-project for psych 135 (the summer major)... i hope we could do it good or better. :D
anyways, i have to scan something... kaya mago-off line na muna ako...
later!! :P
hmm... didn't had the good sleep last night... sobrang lamig and i dnt have any blanket on... kaya im had aa very cold and unmovable sleep the whole night... SIGHS!!
now, ang bagal ng mom ko to get ready for office... hay naku, nanay ko talaga, oh... :P anyways, ill be going to school at 11am later to get some online journals for my groups extra-project for psych 135 (the summer major)... i hope we could do it good or better. :D
anyways, i have to scan something... kaya mago-off line na muna ako...
later!! :P
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
May 12, 2004 / 7:44pm
just got home kanina. ate my dinner na... hay sarap... :D
what a day!! it was a great day for my parents... w/c also means it's also a great day for me. YEHEY!! :P sinamahan ko ang mom ko sa bpi-makati to appeal and talk to their lawyers... but the good thing that happened is they offered to help us... so another window was opened for us...YIPEE!! :j anyways, all things went well for our family... malaki ang kinaltas sa babayaran ng magulang at we can decide on how much and what are the terms we can have on paying our debt... wow!! milagro nga eh!!
to the man above... THANX!! :D
another thing is i got to be, somehow, exactly on time for my exam and got to txt my best friend, jax, about the good news. YIPEE!! :D
and after the exam, i went to rockwell with some of my classmates, fin, rheena, feric & frank... enjoy!! kahit sa fully booked lng kami tumambay... :P
what a day nga!!
YEHEY on us!! and YIPEE for me!! :P
later...
just got home kanina. ate my dinner na... hay sarap... :D
what a day!! it was a great day for my parents... w/c also means it's also a great day for me. YEHEY!! :P sinamahan ko ang mom ko sa bpi-makati to appeal and talk to their lawyers... but the good thing that happened is they offered to help us... so another window was opened for us...YIPEE!! :j anyways, all things went well for our family... malaki ang kinaltas sa babayaran ng magulang at we can decide on how much and what are the terms we can have on paying our debt... wow!! milagro nga eh!!
to the man above... THANX!! :D
another thing is i got to be, somehow, exactly on time for my exam and got to txt my best friend, jax, about the good news. YIPEE!! :D
and after the exam, i went to rockwell with some of my classmates, fin, rheena, feric & frank... enjoy!! kahit sa fully booked lng kami tumambay... :P
what a day nga!!
YEHEY on us!! and YIPEE for me!! :P
later...
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
May 11, 2004 / 2:17pm
im quite bored, but atleast i got to read some of the hand-outs for my exam 2mrw... w/c means, i got to review some of it... YEHEY for me!! :P oo nga 'no... i might not get to take the exam with my ka-psych 2mrw at 10am...NGEK for me!! kaya i have to review really really hard... that's easy to say :P
look at me... why am i so so percky? tapos kahapon at kanina, i was thinking on how a loser i am, kasi i get to paranoid with the friendship jax & i have... napasobrahan ata yung looking at different angles eh... i should stay patient, as always, and have more faith... hirap pala ng ganito 'no?
hay naku... ang init, kaso makulimlim dito... i hate this weather... humid sya!! :-/
i hope magkaayosan na kami ni jax... be good freinds uli... and also have those gimiks again... i miss those times... very much.
reminicsing nanaman ako, oh... bad-bad yan!! :P
i regret that i took a peek sa journal nya... anyways, ill forget about it naman eh... nicotine can erase some memories in our brain, you know that? :P
hay naku... quitting smoking is hard... the addiction and the withdrawal is hard...
anyways, i have to review more and understand more... wish me luck!!
laterz... :D
im quite bored, but atleast i got to read some of the hand-outs for my exam 2mrw... w/c means, i got to review some of it... YEHEY for me!! :P oo nga 'no... i might not get to take the exam with my ka-psych 2mrw at 10am...NGEK for me!! kaya i have to review really really hard... that's easy to say :P
look at me... why am i so so percky? tapos kahapon at kanina, i was thinking on how a loser i am, kasi i get to paranoid with the friendship jax & i have... napasobrahan ata yung looking at different angles eh... i should stay patient, as always, and have more faith... hirap pala ng ganito 'no?
hay naku... ang init, kaso makulimlim dito... i hate this weather... humid sya!! :-/
i hope magkaayosan na kami ni jax... be good freinds uli... and also have those gimiks again... i miss those times... very much.
reminicsing nanaman ako, oh... bad-bad yan!! :P
i regret that i took a peek sa journal nya... anyways, ill forget about it naman eh... nicotine can erase some memories in our brain, you know that? :P
hay naku... quitting smoking is hard... the addiction and the withdrawal is hard...
anyways, i have to review more and understand more... wish me luck!!
laterz... :D
May 11, 2004 / 8:09am
our exam was postponed for 2mrw... same time... TANGINA!! kasi i have to drivemy mom 2mrw morning sa makati and i don't know until what time siya matatapos doon... and i don't want to miss or even ruined my perfect attendance sa class, sayang rin kasi yung +.25 points sa grade ko... hmmm... i have to think of some thing... THINK!!
hay naku... atleast, the bright side of this is that i cud have the xtra time to study, today. so that ill be ready for 2mrw... thank God!! :D
hmm... but i have to think of a way to drive my mom and still able to take the exam... malalimang pag-iisip 'to...
later...
our exam was postponed for 2mrw... same time... TANGINA!! kasi i have to drivemy mom 2mrw morning sa makati and i don't know until what time siya matatapos doon... and i don't want to miss or even ruined my perfect attendance sa class, sayang rin kasi yung +.25 points sa grade ko... hmmm... i have to think of some thing... THINK!!
hay naku... atleast, the bright side of this is that i cud have the xtra time to study, today. so that ill be ready for 2mrw... thank God!! :D
hmm... but i have to think of a way to drive my mom and still able to take the exam... malalimang pag-iisip 'to...
later...
Monday, May 10, 2004
May 10, 2004 / 6:26pm
hmm... election day... and my 1st time to vote... well as people would say, the 1st time is the best and memorable of all... they were right... memorable, kasi and init, nagsisiksikan at ang tagal maka-boto and the best, kasi i got to be part of a nationwide thing and the power to choose is somehow great. :P
anyways, i feel sad and blue right now... kasi i miss my best friend so much... kahit yesterday i went ot him and gave his mom some apples... feeling ko galit pa sya and wants me out... anyways, i know naman na things aren't gonna be a-ok in just one snap of a finger... but i miss the good ol' days na... where we can talk about anything and share thoughs (minus the thing i did to him) and being gem & jax again... i miss it so much, and i would trade/sacrifice EVERYTHING, even my all, just to make things ok again, or even better for our friendship. anyway, ill be going to his place again thursday, jus to drop his cd & dvd... in which i won't make singil to the dvd... consder it as a peace offering. hay naku!! hirap din pala 'tong renovation thing... buyt im patient enough, kasi im fighting for our friendship... i value it so much.
sighs!! i hate 2day, ang sad-sad ko at di pa ako nakaka-review for my exam 2mrw... sige na nga, aral na ako...
btw, i think the stalker is gone.... YEHEY!!! :P
later...
hmm... election day... and my 1st time to vote... well as people would say, the 1st time is the best and memorable of all... they were right... memorable, kasi and init, nagsisiksikan at ang tagal maka-boto and the best, kasi i got to be part of a nationwide thing and the power to choose is somehow great. :P
anyways, i feel sad and blue right now... kasi i miss my best friend so much... kahit yesterday i went ot him and gave his mom some apples... feeling ko galit pa sya and wants me out... anyways, i know naman na things aren't gonna be a-ok in just one snap of a finger... but i miss the good ol' days na... where we can talk about anything and share thoughs (minus the thing i did to him) and being gem & jax again... i miss it so much, and i would trade/sacrifice EVERYTHING, even my all, just to make things ok again, or even better for our friendship. anyway, ill be going to his place again thursday, jus to drop his cd & dvd... in which i won't make singil to the dvd... consder it as a peace offering. hay naku!! hirap din pala 'tong renovation thing... buyt im patient enough, kasi im fighting for our friendship... i value it so much.
sighs!! i hate 2day, ang sad-sad ko at di pa ako nakaka-review for my exam 2mrw... sige na nga, aral na ako...
btw, i think the stalker is gone.... YEHEY!!! :P
later...
Saturday, May 08, 2004
May 8, 2004 / 10:02pm
i have to let this person OUT of my system (carlo)... he's an ass!! and im so stupid that i let him get to know me... anyways, ill talk to him when he calls me and ill str8 up things for him... uupakan ko sya, tang-ina nya!!
anyways, my day was fine... sobrang INIT nga lng!! 2mrw i have to bring the pick-up to get the air-con fixed-up... i hope malamig na sya when she returns... anyways, ill be getting some ZZZZZs na rin... kasi maaga ako 2mrw to makati.
nyt!!
laterz!!! :D
i have to let this person OUT of my system (carlo)... he's an ass!! and im so stupid that i let him get to know me... anyways, ill talk to him when he calls me and ill str8 up things for him... uupakan ko sya, tang-ina nya!!
anyways, my day was fine... sobrang INIT nga lng!! 2mrw i have to bring the pick-up to get the air-con fixed-up... i hope malamig na sya when she returns... anyways, ill be getting some ZZZZZs na rin... kasi maaga ako 2mrw to makati.
nyt!!
laterz!!! :D
Friday, May 07, 2004
May 7, 2004 / 10:19am
when i wrote last night that i had a bad day yesterday... i take it back. i had a good day yesterday... got to talk and kamustahin si jax, my best friend (which means i was only insersecure about myself)... i ditched carlo (which shows i can)... and got to talk to nina & lloyd (my other cloe friends)... all in all, a good day!! :P
anyways... i hope it will be good days from now on... but i can manage to rise up when a bad day comes...
later! :D
when i wrote last night that i had a bad day yesterday... i take it back. i had a good day yesterday... got to talk and kamustahin si jax, my best friend (which means i was only insersecure about myself)... i ditched carlo (which shows i can)... and got to talk to nina & lloyd (my other cloe friends)... all in all, a good day!! :P
anyways... i hope it will be good days from now on... but i can manage to rise up when a bad day comes...
later! :D
Thursday, May 06, 2004
May 6, 2004 / 8:41pm
im bored... stressed out... and quite a little bit sad... kasi di ko nakita si jax. but atleast i got to drop his cd & dvd and went to his house... i feel sorry for his mom, si tita dolor... nagkasakit eh... para i wanna drop by 2mrw sa kanila and give them the manggoes here... anyway, i pray she will be ok na.
and also, sana maging completely ok na rin kami ng best friend ko... should be happy nga on the progress right now eh.. :P
anyway, i have to remove this guy im chatting with (carlo the ngek!) and remove him from my mistake i did before... getting to know him.
wish me luck.
later.
im bored... stressed out... and quite a little bit sad... kasi di ko nakita si jax. but atleast i got to drop his cd & dvd and went to his house... i feel sorry for his mom, si tita dolor... nagkasakit eh... para i wanna drop by 2mrw sa kanila and give them the manggoes here... anyway, i pray she will be ok na.
and also, sana maging completely ok na rin kami ng best friend ko... should be happy nga on the progress right now eh.. :P
anyway, i have to remove this guy im chatting with (carlo the ngek!) and remove him from my mistake i did before... getting to know him.
wish me luck.
later.
May 6, 2004 / 7:56am
four more days 'til the election... hmmm...
i am going to jax's house later... wish me luck... by the way, he texted me last night... it was a good one. im happy!!
also, i got to meet carlo, potential friend... he's nice...
last night, got also to be an outlet for nina, who is now, im hopiing, just had a bad day yesterday... and im praying she's ok na.
anyways, later ill play badminton with my friends before going to jax...
later. c",)
four more days 'til the election... hmmm...
i am going to jax's house later... wish me luck... by the way, he texted me last night... it was a good one. im happy!!
also, i got to meet carlo, potential friend... he's nice...
last night, got also to be an outlet for nina, who is now, im hopiing, just had a bad day yesterday... and im praying she's ok na.
anyways, later ill play badminton with my friends before going to jax...
later. c",)
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
May 5, 2004 / 7:40pm
sighs!! im bored..and quite pissed off... kasi yung pinagawa kong cd for jax ay di pala natapos... and my fucking sister, as always, didn't informed me before... BITCH!! anyways, i got to call jax a while ago, telling him that ill drop his cd & dvd 2mrw. anyways, bakas pa rin sa boses ng best friend ko yung thing... but there's the thing that makes things happy... gets? :P anyway, gaga yung sister ko... she's so stupid! anyways... im just ranting off...
badminton 2mrw... good! and im hoping its a double good-good for me when i visit jax too. :D wish me luck!
laters!! :P
sighs!! im bored..and quite pissed off... kasi yung pinagawa kong cd for jax ay di pala natapos... and my fucking sister, as always, didn't informed me before... BITCH!! anyways, i got to call jax a while ago, telling him that ill drop his cd & dvd 2mrw. anyways, bakas pa rin sa boses ng best friend ko yung thing... but there's the thing that makes things happy... gets? :P anyway, gaga yung sister ko... she's so stupid! anyways... im just ranting off...
badminton 2mrw... good! and im hoping its a double good-good for me when i visit jax too. :D wish me luck!
laters!! :P
May 5, 2004 / 7:31am
well, im planning to watch a movie 2mrw and drop by at jax's place to give his cds & dvds... wish me luck. :D
anyways, i still miss my best friend... kahit mdyo ok-ok na kami... kasi the renovation ain't finish... kasi there things to fix in me... like the monster in me, i have to kill it or vanquish it pa, at mdyo ill have a hard time to do it... and time will tell when everything is ok... kaya patient lng ako... but im happy na with this.
anyways, later... :P
well, im planning to watch a movie 2mrw and drop by at jax's place to give his cds & dvds... wish me luck. :D
anyways, i still miss my best friend... kahit mdyo ok-ok na kami... kasi the renovation ain't finish... kasi there things to fix in me... like the monster in me, i have to kill it or vanquish it pa, at mdyo ill have a hard time to do it... and time will tell when everything is ok... kaya patient lng ako... but im happy na with this.
anyways, later... :P
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
May, 4, 2004 / 7:56pm
we had our psych class here at home... wow!! astig!! hehehe :P
wala lng... sinisipon nanaman ako... sighs!!
im just chatting right now...
my report, pala, kanina sa class, with fin & feric, kinda did well naman... but there's the first blood presence, but i went well. :D
later!! :P
we had our psych class here at home... wow!! astig!! hehehe :P
wala lng... sinisipon nanaman ako... sighs!!
im just chatting right now...
my report, pala, kanina sa class, with fin & feric, kinda did well naman... but there's the first blood presence, but i went well. :D
later!! :P
Sunday, May 02, 2004
May 2, 2004 / 7:52am
it's my sister's birthday today. yon lng! :P
ill be getting the strada later at around 11 or 12pm... and ill go to makati by means of commuting... naks!! :P
and it's just 26 days left before my 22nd birthday... sighs!! :P
anyway, i have to finish my outline by 2nyt!! kasi 2mrw i have no time to do it, even in the morning. hay naku!!
later! :D
it's my sister's birthday today. yon lng! :P
ill be getting the strada later at around 11 or 12pm... and ill go to makati by means of commuting... naks!! :P
and it's just 26 days left before my 22nd birthday... sighs!! :P
anyway, i have to finish my outline by 2nyt!! kasi 2mrw i have no time to do it, even in the morning. hay naku!!
later! :D
Saturday, May 01, 2004
May 1, 2004 / 8:25pm
i have to wake up early 2mrw... kasi i have to go to borther's house in makati, commuting... SIGHS!! ppppprrrreeessssuuuurrreeee!!! but im hoping ill enjoy it, again. :P
what a day!! i got to chat with jax for a time... kasi it's really been a loooonnnng time na di ko sya nakakausap, i think he read my email na... anyways, i happy! happy to see my life again!! :D but i know its not yet over, there are things to say and clarify... anyways, i miss him soo much!
to the man up there... THNX MAN!! :)
anyways, im thristy... ill drink h2O...
later!! :D
i have to wake up early 2mrw... kasi i have to go to borther's house in makati, commuting... SIGHS!! ppppprrrreeessssuuuurrreeee!!! but im hoping ill enjoy it, again. :P
what a day!! i got to chat with jax for a time... kasi it's really been a loooonnnng time na di ko sya nakakausap, i think he read my email na... anyways, i happy! happy to see my life again!! :D but i know its not yet over, there are things to say and clarify... anyways, i miss him soo much!
to the man up there... THNX MAN!! :)
anyways, im thristy... ill drink h2O...
later!! :D
May 1, 2004 / 4:35pm
nag-chat kami ni jax... he's the one who initiated... here's the chat we had kanina...
-START-
jax_chang33 (2:38:05 PM): wazup?
g_bataclan528 (2:39:04 PM): eto... "RENOVATION on going"... ikaw? musta na?
jax_chang33 (2:39:25 PM): huh?
g_bataclan528 (2:40:11 PM): never mind...
g_bataclan528 (2:40:23 PM): musta summer mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:34 PM): anong nirerenovate mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:37 PM): mainit
g_bataclan528 (2:40:45 PM): anong sina-summer mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:58 PM): payatas
g_bataclan528 (2:41:16 PM): seryoso?!? how is/was it nman?
jax_chang33 (2:41:36 PM): mabaho mainit
g_bataclan528 (2:41:53 PM): is that ur cw.... thing?
jax_chang33 (2:42:01 PM): oo
g_bataclan528 (2:42:09 PM): hanggang kailan yan?
jax_chang33 (2:42:15 PM): ewan
g_bataclan528 (2:42:48 PM): alam ko 2 to 3 weeks ata lng yan eh... kasi nag-oofer na sa skul namin ng cwts eh
g_bataclan528 (2:42:56 PM): pero sa amin sa home for the aged
g_bataclan528 (2:43:15 PM): napanood mo n hellboy?
jax_chang33 (2:43:41 PM): first day of showing pangit naman e
g_bataclan528 (2:44:04 PM): napangitan ka? ok naman ah? hehehe
g_bataclan528 (2:44:18 PM): anyway, van helsing will be showing next week na
jax_chang33 (2:44:41 PM): parang corny rin dahil sa frankenstein
g_bataclan528 (2:44:53 PM): talga...
jax_chang33 (2:45:32 PM): kaw
g_bataclan528 (2:45:54 PM): nagbabasa ako ngayon for my report this tuesday... and im thinking how can i make it interesting for a 1 to 4pm class
g_bataclan528 (2:46:51 PM): summer class ako ng major, psych (perception & sensation) 1-4pm everyday!! pero yung lab namin ay badminton after class..
g_bataclan528 (2:47:21 PM): kasi tabi lng namin yung badminton court ng riverbanks... enjoy rin...
jax_chang33 (2:47:58 PM): aok
g_bataclan528 (2:48:01 PM): and next summer uli major uli... kaya until i granduate... i have no summer break.
g_bataclan528 (2:48:44 PM): ei, may handaan dito 2mrw... bday kasi ni camille eh... punta ka.
jax_chang33 (2:49:01 PM): ibati mo na lang ako...o kaya txt ko na lang sha
g_bataclan528 (2:49:21 PM): try calling her cel... sasagot si aubrey miles.
g_bataclan528 (2:49:46 PM): btw, lam mo ba magkano bayad per head sa loreland?
jax_chang33 (2:49:55 PM): npe
g_bataclan528 (2:50:05 PM): pero may bayad dun, ryt?
jax_chang33 (2:50:14 PM): di ko lam e
g_bataclan528 (2:50:24 PM): ic.
g_bataclan528 (2:51:10 PM): btw, may 29, saturday... ako naman maghahanda... punta... it would mean so much for me if you come...
jax_chang33 (2:51:28 PM): ill see
g_bataclan528 (2:51:37 PM): konti lng yun mga pupunta eh.. mga 20 to 30 lng ata eh.
jax_chang33 (2:52:05 PM): kelan punisher, spiderman?
g_bataclan528 (2:52:35 PM): june 30 ang spderman... punisher mid-may dito (ata)
g_bataclan528 (2:53:12 PM): im waiting for kill bill vol 2
g_bataclan528 (2:54:47 PM): try mo pumunta, k?
jax_chang33 (2:55:16 PM): estimate mo kelan ko makukuha cds ko.
g_bataclan528 (2:56:09 PM): estimate... bka monday or the most is thursday this coming week... promise ko talaga!!
jax_chang33 (2:56:18 PM): ayt
g_bataclan528 (2:57:07 PM): btw, pagpunta ko dyan, pwedeng pa-burn ng cd? kasi kinuha na ng kuya ko yung PC nya, kaya di ako makapagburn eh... ok lng ba?
jax_chang33 (2:57:36 PM): panu mo binuburn cds ko?
g_bataclan528 (2:58:38 PM): sa PC ng kuya ko... iniwan nya dito for a while... kaya i burned the half and yung isa pinaburn ko sa friend ko...
jax_chang33 (2:58:59 PM): ahh. wala ako dito e
g_bataclan528 (2:59:08 PM): hirap pala magdownload kung prepaid ang gamit... kailangan midnyt ka magdownload para mdyo mabilis.
g_bataclan528 (2:59:16 PM): huh, nasan ka?
jax_chang33 (2:59:31 PM): i mean sa monday. wkdays.
g_bataclan528 (2:59:47 PM): ah... what time ka ba umuuwi?
jax_chang33 (2:59:59 PM): iba iba
g_bataclan528 (3:01:30 PM): kasi i myt drop the cds around 6 or 7pm eh... after ng badminton. anyway, kung nandun ka, pa-burn... kung wala pa-iwan ko nlng kung sino man dyan at next time na lng ako paburn, k lng?
jax_chang33 (3:03:06 PM): bhala na
g_bataclan528 (3:03:57 PM): okidokie. tnx
jax_chang33 (3:04:22 PM): online si rex
g_bataclan528 (3:04:41 PM): pati si jon
g_bataclan528 (3:04:47 PM): conference tyo?
g_bataclan528 (3:05:46 PM): uy, i bot pala maroon 5... ganda ng mga songs, worth it yung album... tsaka yung cd ng 88.3fm, jamming with you, ganda then yung mga selection.
jax_chang33 (3:06:07 PM): anu id ni jon?
g_bataclan528 (3:06:20 PM): agent_jonathan_ang
g_bataclan528 (3:09:14 PM): pati sina melvin at syquiatco online
g_bataclan528 (3:11:00 PM): ei, i have to go na rin, nagpapadrive parents ko uli sa lawyer nila... hay, pressure for me... wish us luck!
jax_chang33 (3:11:18 PM): ayt
g_bataclan528 (3:11:27 PM): nice chatting and hearing from you dude... ingatz!!
g_bataclan528 (3:11:32 PM): later! bye!!
g_bataclan528 (3:11:35 PM): and tnx uli!
jax_chang33 (3:11:41 PM): k
g_bataclan528 (3:11:47 PM): ill bring the cds ASAP, promise!!
jax_chang33 (3:11:54 PM): oo na
-END-
ang galing ng araw na ito!! hope is very strong, so is faith!! :D
im happy!! and im not gonna give up... NEVER!!
later!! :D
nag-chat kami ni jax... he's the one who initiated... here's the chat we had kanina...
-START-
jax_chang33 (2:38:05 PM): wazup?
g_bataclan528 (2:39:04 PM): eto... "RENOVATION on going"... ikaw? musta na?
jax_chang33 (2:39:25 PM): huh?
g_bataclan528 (2:40:11 PM): never mind...
g_bataclan528 (2:40:23 PM): musta summer mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:34 PM): anong nirerenovate mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:37 PM): mainit
g_bataclan528 (2:40:45 PM): anong sina-summer mo?
jax_chang33 (2:40:58 PM): payatas
g_bataclan528 (2:41:16 PM): seryoso?!? how is/was it nman?
jax_chang33 (2:41:36 PM): mabaho mainit
g_bataclan528 (2:41:53 PM): is that ur cw.... thing?
jax_chang33 (2:42:01 PM): oo
g_bataclan528 (2:42:09 PM): hanggang kailan yan?
jax_chang33 (2:42:15 PM): ewan
g_bataclan528 (2:42:48 PM): alam ko 2 to 3 weeks ata lng yan eh... kasi nag-oofer na sa skul namin ng cwts eh
g_bataclan528 (2:42:56 PM): pero sa amin sa home for the aged
g_bataclan528 (2:43:15 PM): napanood mo n hellboy?
jax_chang33 (2:43:41 PM): first day of showing pangit naman e
g_bataclan528 (2:44:04 PM): napangitan ka? ok naman ah? hehehe
g_bataclan528 (2:44:18 PM): anyway, van helsing will be showing next week na
jax_chang33 (2:44:41 PM): parang corny rin dahil sa frankenstein
g_bataclan528 (2:44:53 PM): talga...
jax_chang33 (2:45:32 PM): kaw
g_bataclan528 (2:45:54 PM): nagbabasa ako ngayon for my report this tuesday... and im thinking how can i make it interesting for a 1 to 4pm class
g_bataclan528 (2:46:51 PM): summer class ako ng major, psych (perception & sensation) 1-4pm everyday!! pero yung lab namin ay badminton after class..
g_bataclan528 (2:47:21 PM): kasi tabi lng namin yung badminton court ng riverbanks... enjoy rin...
jax_chang33 (2:47:58 PM): aok
g_bataclan528 (2:48:01 PM): and next summer uli major uli... kaya until i granduate... i have no summer break.
g_bataclan528 (2:48:44 PM): ei, may handaan dito 2mrw... bday kasi ni camille eh... punta ka.
jax_chang33 (2:49:01 PM): ibati mo na lang ako...o kaya txt ko na lang sha
g_bataclan528 (2:49:21 PM): try calling her cel... sasagot si aubrey miles.
g_bataclan528 (2:49:46 PM): btw, lam mo ba magkano bayad per head sa loreland?
jax_chang33 (2:49:55 PM): npe
g_bataclan528 (2:50:05 PM): pero may bayad dun, ryt?
jax_chang33 (2:50:14 PM): di ko lam e
g_bataclan528 (2:50:24 PM): ic.
g_bataclan528 (2:51:10 PM): btw, may 29, saturday... ako naman maghahanda... punta... it would mean so much for me if you come...
jax_chang33 (2:51:28 PM): ill see
g_bataclan528 (2:51:37 PM): konti lng yun mga pupunta eh.. mga 20 to 30 lng ata eh.
jax_chang33 (2:52:05 PM): kelan punisher, spiderman?
g_bataclan528 (2:52:35 PM): june 30 ang spderman... punisher mid-may dito (ata)
g_bataclan528 (2:53:12 PM): im waiting for kill bill vol 2
g_bataclan528 (2:54:47 PM): try mo pumunta, k?
jax_chang33 (2:55:16 PM): estimate mo kelan ko makukuha cds ko.
g_bataclan528 (2:56:09 PM): estimate... bka monday or the most is thursday this coming week... promise ko talaga!!
jax_chang33 (2:56:18 PM): ayt
g_bataclan528 (2:57:07 PM): btw, pagpunta ko dyan, pwedeng pa-burn ng cd? kasi kinuha na ng kuya ko yung PC nya, kaya di ako makapagburn eh... ok lng ba?
jax_chang33 (2:57:36 PM): panu mo binuburn cds ko?
g_bataclan528 (2:58:38 PM): sa PC ng kuya ko... iniwan nya dito for a while... kaya i burned the half and yung isa pinaburn ko sa friend ko...
jax_chang33 (2:58:59 PM): ahh. wala ako dito e
g_bataclan528 (2:59:08 PM): hirap pala magdownload kung prepaid ang gamit... kailangan midnyt ka magdownload para mdyo mabilis.
g_bataclan528 (2:59:16 PM): huh, nasan ka?
jax_chang33 (2:59:31 PM): i mean sa monday. wkdays.
g_bataclan528 (2:59:47 PM): ah... what time ka ba umuuwi?
jax_chang33 (2:59:59 PM): iba iba
g_bataclan528 (3:01:30 PM): kasi i myt drop the cds around 6 or 7pm eh... after ng badminton. anyway, kung nandun ka, pa-burn... kung wala pa-iwan ko nlng kung sino man dyan at next time na lng ako paburn, k lng?
jax_chang33 (3:03:06 PM): bhala na
g_bataclan528 (3:03:57 PM): okidokie. tnx
jax_chang33 (3:04:22 PM): online si rex
g_bataclan528 (3:04:41 PM): pati si jon
g_bataclan528 (3:04:47 PM): conference tyo?
g_bataclan528 (3:05:46 PM): uy, i bot pala maroon 5... ganda ng mga songs, worth it yung album... tsaka yung cd ng 88.3fm, jamming with you, ganda then yung mga selection.
jax_chang33 (3:06:07 PM): anu id ni jon?
g_bataclan528 (3:06:20 PM): agent_jonathan_ang
g_bataclan528 (3:09:14 PM): pati sina melvin at syquiatco online
g_bataclan528 (3:11:00 PM): ei, i have to go na rin, nagpapadrive parents ko uli sa lawyer nila... hay, pressure for me... wish us luck!
jax_chang33 (3:11:18 PM): ayt
g_bataclan528 (3:11:27 PM): nice chatting and hearing from you dude... ingatz!!
g_bataclan528 (3:11:32 PM): later! bye!!
g_bataclan528 (3:11:35 PM): and tnx uli!
jax_chang33 (3:11:41 PM): k
g_bataclan528 (3:11:47 PM): ill bring the cds ASAP, promise!!
jax_chang33 (3:11:54 PM): oo na
-END-
ang galing ng araw na ito!! hope is very strong, so is faith!! :D
im happy!! and im not gonna give up... NEVER!!
later!! :D
May 1, 2004 / 11:48am
im quite nervous (or napra-praning) nanaman ako... kasi di pa nagre-reply si jax... but im not expecting for him to reply, just for him to understand that im not giving up our friendship... renovation is going on...
anyway, i've just finished the 1st draft of the revised version ng contract na pinagawa ng tatay ko... anyways, im going to finish to make an outline for my group's report by 2mrw afternoon...
too many problems and emotional burdens to carry... kasama na rin yung financial problem namin... pero i should take it easy (ika nga ni jax)... hay naku... i won't give up... my hope, kahit ganito, is getting stronger...
we can make it... kasi i believe!!
later! :D
im quite nervous (or napra-praning) nanaman ako... kasi di pa nagre-reply si jax... but im not expecting for him to reply, just for him to understand that im not giving up our friendship... renovation is going on...
anyway, i've just finished the 1st draft of the revised version ng contract na pinagawa ng tatay ko... anyways, im going to finish to make an outline for my group's report by 2mrw afternoon...
too many problems and emotional burdens to carry... kasama na rin yung financial problem namin... pero i should take it easy (ika nga ni jax)... hay naku... i won't give up... my hope, kahit ganito, is getting stronger...
we can make it... kasi i believe!!
later! :D
