"how do you handle stress?"

naranasan nyo na bang umuwing pagod.... umuwing sabik na sabik humiga sa inyong kama... PERO pag-uwi nyo ay lalo kang mabwibwiset sa makikita nyong kaguluhan sa sariling kwarto...

...at wala kang magawa kundi lalo pang mapagod dahil sa inis at galit na nararamdaman nyo...


yan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...


at ngayon at sobrang stressed out na ako at di ko alam kung papaano ko ilalabas itong mga sama ng loobin ko... alam mo ba yung feeling na sobrang puno ka na at u just can't help it na to go somewhere and just let it all out, but you can't... i hate this kind of feeling... kasi lalong napupuno and i am afraid that one day i might explode unintentionally... grrr!!

tanginang stress!!! even now, writing on this blog isn't helping me anymore... DAMN!!! tangina!!!

to be honest... right now, im in a point that i want to punch the walls here in my room... well actually i did it kani-kanina lang... thou i know it's a stupid move, 'cuz my right hand is hurting, it's quite a good release... pero kulang pa. i just wanna hit something (or someone) right now...

if this stress didn't subdue by 2mrw... i'll hang-out at timezone and vent it off at tekken during all of my breaks!!!

tangina talaga... i've never been this stressed... the last time that i could remember was, i think a year ago... nung ayaw pa nila pa-opera ako for my gallstone removal and i have to wait for it to worsen para lang mapaopera ako, which took 7 months of burdens... GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

i hate everything right now!!! it may sound grumpy but it is... 'cuz of these stresses that i'm having... grrrr!!!



PUTANG INA!!!

PPPOOOOTTTAAANNNGIIIINNNNNAAAA!!!!!

SHHHHEEEEETTTTT!!!!!

PPPOOOOOTTTTTAAAAANNNGGGIIIIINNNAAAAAANNNNNNGGGGGGLLLLLLEEEECCCCCHHHHHEEEEEE!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

wheeeee....heheheee... (a window opens... i think?)

i was interviewed kanina for the opening ng sourcing team dito sa company na pinagtratrabahuan ko... yeah, the sourcing team, where most work are done outside the office space... mostly field work... which somehow it's much more fun and challenging than making calls in a cubicle for 9 hours for five days...

thou the hassle part is the head of that team.. he's quite scary... honest.

pero kaninang in-interview ako... mdyo kinabahan ako.. kasi daming sinusulat nya sa paper ko... hay naku... it gave me the eek-factor.

anyways, if ever nakapasok ako, it's a new leaf (sort-of) and a new challenge... haay buhay... at least, kung pasok ako... i won't be bored during or most of my weekends....

anyways... bahala na si batman dyan!

gotta go back to work... make calls again... hay buhay! :P


laterz!!! c",)

so near yet so far...

remember the x'mas list i made last aug 31? (to check it out... click on this link)

well... i have to accept reality... i'm scratching off the TV.

so far all i can have is the X-Men 3 DVD, PS2 (w/c im targetting to have it by November) and the iPod-video (w/c will still be given by my sister)...

the additional thing (or things) that i'm still planning to get for x'mas (for myself) are these one... (though it's still on planning stage on whether or not i'll really get these... but sana lang makuha ko ang kahit ilan sa mga ito... :P)






-Marvel Gashapon series 4... i saw one @ greenhills and it was priced at P1550... i want one for my figure collection...















- The 500 People You Meet in Hell by Jessica Zafra... yes she's back with a kick-ass book. and i want that one too!!! (somehow, badly want one..)



-these next items are the MARVEL SELECT figures that im sooo wanting to have since it was released last year... i still hope some of them are still in stock... (not shown are Spider-woman figure & the Cloak and Dagger figure)



















-lastly... a home gym equipment... it's been a month since i hadn't been going to the gym... and i miss it so badly... and when i got to see this one @ macro, i want one... 2 thing, it's a good investment and it's just 10K6 bucks!! i really want this one too (that's why i scratched off the TV)






















... i think that adds up the stuff i want for x'mas i really hope at least 3-4 stuff in my total list would be attainable by x'mas day... then again, there's always my bday wish list (hehehe!)




laterz c",)

getting what was lost...

circa 1991-1992... my uncle jim gave this to me... it's the first of my X-MEN comics... it's the #1 issues drawn by Jim Lee... and also one of the famous storyline of the X-Men...

then 1996 our house was burnt down... i lost every collection of comics i have since i was 11 years old... even the one i mentioned a while ago...

fast forward to 2006, October 13... Friday the 13th. more than 10 years since the fire and 14 years since i had that specific X-Men issue... i just bought an original print of X-Men #1... the same one by Jim Lee... at the new comic store near my office... and the best thing is i got it in a very affordable price of P180 bucks!! and it's in good condition... (tangina ASTIG!!)

it gave me a fulfillment in me that i can't understand... though i felt like a missing part was attached to me again... or something that was lost for a long time was back in my system and i'm so happy to have it back... knowing the value of that thing to me.

OMG!!!

anyways.. it made my day and made it everything go well... it kinda boost me up...

happy like a person who was given a 2nd chance on a lot of things... just to improve ones life for the better...


haaay... im just lovin' it! c",)

when darkness turns to light...

on the 8th day... there was light.

yes... kaninang hapon lang nagkaroon kami ng kuryente... good thing. when i got home a while ago i felt the coolness of myAC that i soo missed!!! oh whattafeelin'!!

anyways... training was good, but the thing i didn't like was the pseudo-homework... though, it's ok for me, but the essence of homeworks kinda creeps me out... but hey, i miss school work, i guess this is the powers-that-be of giving me one. c",)

then somehow, i went on to help my best friend look for an apartment for his thesis gig... though, again, it was kinda hot weather that afternoon... it was cool... just to, somehow, make myself busy and productive... which was good na rin...

oh yeah... i got a new comic na rin... but somehow i hate it na i get to finish it at ones... blah! :P

so what else is new... hmm... well officially i'll be working @ ortigas starting monday... new start, old job... hehehe :P

o cya... yon na muna...


though... i'm quite good... so far. (i still dnt know how to release these stresses in me)




Laterz... c",)

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blank thoughts...
(due to the boredom of darkness)

the 5th day...

5 days ago... that was a thursday. a super-typhoon reached the metro... bringin in very strong rains & waaay too strong winds... then at aroudn 1030am, we lost electricity... w/c is acceptable because of the situation...

but it's been FUCKING 5 days at wala pang kuryente dito... well, technically, half of our house has electricity since friday afternoon... but the sad part, walang electricity ang mga air-con... i might sound like a brat... but i can't live with out the coolness of the AC, especially during these hot nights...

since last night, well early morning kanina... i have been calling the damn meralco to follow-up the report i made... and as far as i know... wala pa rin... and somehow even the news at the radio is mocking me about the 95% recovery of meralco... grrr.... nakakabweset talaga!!

i just can't take this situation anymore!! it's too freaking hot!!!

and it's getting into my nerves na... and ayaw ko rin ma-stress just because of this... :S

HEROES

well, a few days back... i got to watch the 1st 30 mins of HEROES... it's the new show at the states that's basically about ordinary people who found themselves that they aren't that ordinary at all... they have powers!!

so here's the clip... well more of a promo of the show... I really hope it gets here at our shores asap... or in bootleg dvds (hehehe!) :P

crazy love (part 2)

hehehe... (i'm laughing because it's real...)

raff... raff!!

You Are: 90% Dog, 10% Cat

You're a dog at heart - and it's not a bad thing at all! You love unconditionally, and you're extremely loyal. And while you may act silly at times, you're really quite smart - and a good learner!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

ABove-NORMAL...

You Are 52% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

...hmm i think it does explains a lot of things that run inside my head... hehehe :P

the downfall of meeting someone... (crazy love)

blah!

why do i get the feeling that this week is not that progressive as the other weeks... one thing, this week runs quite slow... in other words, mabagal 'tong linggong ito... the other thing is that i'm getting weird vibes around my surroundings... weird in a sense that people i know are having the fun of thier lives and i'm just sitting on my cubicle making calls for 8-9hours a day.

...i need to get out and relax!

the problem is.. when is the right time to get out & relax?

anyways... there's nuthing quite to put in my blog right now... kasi mdyo chapsuey yung utak ko ngayon... irratic thougths...

and i'm blaming it for this slow progress of the week... i wish it was friday... so i could sleep thoroughly. :P

oh well... 2mrw is another day at work...



i wish i could be really happy... 'cuz so far im just not that happy...







laterz...

it ends tonight...

"It Ends Tonight"

(All American Rejects)

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all the wants

And all the needs

All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

You're finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Tonight

Insight

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight.

looooong day...

well, by thursday of this week, i'll be signing the new contract with TDS... though i'm still under project-based, which means if the project ends... so do i. and this sux!

another month... but somehow, i'm starting to have doubts with my boss, kurt. kasi i'm having those feelings na i should start looking for a decent job... and kinda makes me paranoid that i myt loss my job before x'mas... ngi!!!

anyways, i just cnt bliv it na it's just tuesday... it's a long day... and a long week so far... i hope things would be a-ok 2mrw... a little bit faster than today.

i guess that's it for now...

but i guess i have to be cool and be more positive than being a negativist about the situation... i must be strong and positive!! (ryt?)

cge... maya nlng uli...


laterz... c",)

make mine MARVEL!!!

now i'm really have to get a PS2 by x'mas... and not just have it on my x'mas wish list (re: my previous blog)

'cuz i just saw the trailer of the upcoming MARVEL ULTIMATE ALLIANCE videogame...

FUCKING AWESOME TRAILER man!!! ASTIG SOBRA!!!

and to know why i'm so crazy about this game... check the videos below...











...i cnt wait to buy this one!!! (buti na rin at malapit na ang pasko!!) c",)

thunder...thundercats...HOOOOO!

this is one of the perks of being an 80's kid... have to go home early to school just to watch thundercats on GMA-7... having to buy a replica of Lion-O's sword and those cool action figures... i remember i had a Lion-O & Mumrra where every time i stick a AAA battery on their backs their eyes glow...

and every time they show mumrra (the ever living) changes into a huge monster always gives me the ick-factor... even until now... gives me the freaks.

oh memories... those were the good cartoons... (tiger shark, he-man, silverhawks, visionaries... and many more)

now i'm the dvd collection of thunderdats to my x'mas wish list...

mamaw...

Waiting...

WAITING (Save your life)
by: Omnisoul

Haven’t you had enough of my brain
It’s on the table I’ve got no more to say
If I bore you get out of my way
This one’s for you
So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

There’s a line formed you can’t see
I’ve been waiting you give nothing for free
But there’s a yearning it’s deep and calm
And time has burnt me

So cut me a break cause I can’t wait
I’m the same I was when we first met
And now I feel you’re pulling away
So just give me the word
And I’ll leave today
Yes I’ll leave today

But if you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I can save your life
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

Don’t you know me
I’m helpless without you
I watched you sleep so I could dream of you

If you want me to I’ll be the one for you
Maybe I…
At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be
So just let me save your life

the calling...

after work, i was just hanging out with my colleagues... 'cuz one of them treated us to some donuts @ go-nuts...

with my stomach still quite full from the really heavy lunch kanina and the chips that i've been munching while making calls, i just went for the go-lite donut...

then after the donut gig, i went back to our building, 'cuz i'm gonna meet up with my barkada before she goes to work... kasi i'll be getting something from her to help my best friend's thesis.

anyways, while strolling the building (w/c is also a mall), i got to stop by at mini-stop... and somehow, i saw the fridge full of booze & beers... (see attached picture)

and for no apparent reason, i stared at it as if i was looking at a very interesting item... and the way i stare at them is the same way i look during visit at museums... there's the fascination and also the calling to buy them and drink them.

there was an amount of saliva that ran thru my mouth when i was quite staring at them...

then it ran thru my head the memories of me and my friends... the inuman we do during class (when we would cut classe to drink and return to class a little but tipsy) and after class (brickhouse, at jobi's place, at g & mouses house... my house)...

a whole lot of memories ran thru that 3 mins of staring at the fridge of booze...

then i later i got to meet up with my barkada... then went home.

right now, i made a small drink... just a small glass of pepsi & gin...

and i'm drinking this for the memories of my friends... and a realization that things are quite different from what we were during college...


...too bad, at wala akong load kanina... i should have texted them and had an inuman... but i think it isn't time yet. 'cuz one thing, i still have no enough money to buy even just a can of beer...

anyways, there's always a next time...


i think that it for now... i have to finish this drink first...

then sleep.

nyt! c",)