Wednesday, June 30, 2004

June 30, 2004 / 8:13pm

well... GMA was inagurated today, being the 2nd female president, and giving her another term... i just wish things would change for the better...

so far, i played badminton kanina for PE... took my time to serve at Sir Abueva'a office as part of my require service for the office as thier scholar... it's quite cool actually... sorting out and havet the oppurtunity to read some good articles from the newspaper... good writing... and let me say that there is still hope for us... and more hope for me...

the few days were quite as tiring as ever... right now, or later, ill have to finish some readings for psych classes 2mrw, para di ako magmukhang timang... but im kinda digging the things im reading... im learning and im enjoying it... cool!!

lately, im having another i-miss-jax episodes... im hoping na mawala na ito uli... kasi ang hirap eh... kahit im getting strength from my anger at him, thinking about him won't make things easy for me too... hay naku!! stress!! THAT ASSHOLE!! grrrr...

anyways, i have to read na uli... my brain is hungry for psychological knowledge...

adios for now...

laterz!! c",)

Saturday, June 26, 2004

June 26, 2004 / 8:10am

my aches are gone... gutom lng ako ngayon... so, i think im a-ok (hopefully)

now can start my work... but ill worry later about my new assignment kay mam thes sa admin office ng KC... ill be doing office work... how nice... anyways, i think ill start with the report rheena and i will do on monday, then do the assignment paper about 3 controversial reseaches, and lastly read the readings for class... i think thats good... and to follow nlng yng muscles ni jax (the skinned frog)...

btw, about jax, my old friend, i miss him... kinda weird lng, but i ges it's those feelings... mawawala rin yan in few days... i have jax the frog naman to torture eh... eheheh

gotta eat breakfast na muna...


laterz... :P

Friday, June 25, 2004

June 25, 2004 / 10:56pm

grabe!! SAKIT NG ULO KO!! i have the aching of the stomach and the headache from the formalin... i hate it... it keeps me slow, and i cnt do the works i have to do (readings, report & frog study)...

i just really hate the aching feeling im feeling right now... aaarrrgggghhhh!!!!

i just hope that 2mrw ill be a-ok, so that i can start the plans for our report in psych 118 on monday... and also read the readings needed for monday's psych 155... also review for my frog's muscle for bio 11... to many works... but i cn stand the pressure... I CAN DO it!! as long as im ok... health wise... :D

anyways, pwede na yon!!


later...

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

June 23, 2004 / 9:42am

today is my lolo's centennial year... but he's dead... we are just celebrating for the heck of it (i think), but hey!! it's a good reason for the relatives to get together and have a good time. and im suppose to speak about my lolo, whom i didn't had the chance to meet up... anyways, ill try to make a speech later at school... yup, it's a wednesday, and i have a class from 1130 to 530 (str8!!)... no breaks!! i guess, that will a low batt thing after class... but hey! im perpy!! i can get the energy... :) anyways, im just gonna take a bath in a little while, it's been, what, 3 days since i wrote here... basically, im just too tired and TIRED from school... 10-530, everyday... it's somehow a stressful... and the thing is it's only the begining of class... im expecting a lot more workload when the mid of the sem comes and a very lot more load by the end of the sem... hay, kaya ko 'to!! i can to it... ako pa!! :P

anyways, have to finish things muna here before taking a bath...

laterz... c",)

Sunday, June 20, 2004

June 20, 2004 / 11:10pm

im suppose to be sleeping right now... but im not. kasi naman yung nanay ko... cnt blame her too... anyway, it's just too hard to adjust most of the time... and lately, i've been having a hardtime to adjuct and accept some things right now... but i do get to understand why i should embark on this and face the hardship, kasi it will surely have good benefits in the end... and magblo-blossom yung mga works of my labor... kaya tiisin ang pasakit, at siguradong kakayanin ko ito!! :D

tama si nina, i should really give jax the space, and it will really take a very looooooooong time (almost to an infity time) to get his forgiveness... but im still hoping... but i have more things than that to focus on... like my studies and graduating on time, also the career i want to have to get my own income and all... it's all the long term, and less of the short term things ako eh...

anyways, i think i have to get some ZZZzzzzzz's na rin, i have to be early 2mrw... drive my mom to her office and be at school for class... kaya ill needing the energy ill get from sleeping, a lot!!

charge up and ill be ready for the battle 2mrw...

nyt.

later.
June 20, 2004 / 5:25pm

hmm... headaches... i hate having my head spin... specially when i typed something with a very weird setting... plus my mom's hand wrting... PRRRREEEESSSSUUURRRREEE!!!

hay naku, plus 2mrw, again... 10 to 530 str8 uli ako.... pressure!! atleat, iv done my paper and fixed up the readings... and also ready for recitation... and somehow, ill make to manage my sked to read all the readings... and i want to have a good grade. yon!!

also headaches... ouch!!

anyways, have to recharge muna...

laterz

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

June 16, 2004 / 8:33pm

so far, im so tired and stressed out... 10-530 str8 sked is such a way way long hardship... kasi no breaks at all... but the brighter side, i myt get loose some weight and be not that fat again, whopee!! anyways, 2mrw ill be hanging out with lloyd, eat, sight-seeing, the works... hay naku, i got a good sleep kaninang hapon... best, or atleast a good sleep since a long time ago (panahon pa noong mag-kaibigan pa kami ni jax)... hay naku, what a life, im good yet still bitter... im angry at him, but hey! what the heck... i wanna kick his ass minsan, but hey! on that...

haaaay, i have to read the readings na uli for ma'am myra's class...

hope for the best for me...

laterz...

Sunday, June 13, 2004

June 13, 2004 / 8:22pm

ok, i got my plan for the CAP thing... ill meet my kuya on tuesday morning and give him the requirements to submit, then on wednesday afternoon (after my PE class), ill have lloyd to tag along with me to makati, and later at around 4pm... ill fetch my mom. good plan... yehey!!

that's all for now.

hope for the best for me 2mrw, kasi 1st day of classes 2mrw, and im so excited!! i cud get busy again!! whoopee!!

later. c",)
June 13, 2004 / 4:40pm

what a looong boring day, again!

hay naku, all i cud do was typing for my dad's paper work... it's kinda the only way not to get bored... im still bored by the way... the only thing good is that 2mrw classes will start (yipee!!) so i cud get busy and focus on other things, aside that thing... u know. but so far, i made my tentative plans on my CAP tuition and getting it w/o hurting my sked in school... i just hope my kuya would cooperate with me...

hmm... u know, im having a hard time sleeping, actually waking up... kasi my hormones are kinda up & down... its kinda weird, but i think ill manage it... i just hope something good will come out... but hey!! a little bit of jacking off won't hurt, no harm no foul... sarap pa... ehehehehehe... :P

anyways, i have to clean up some mess sa office... not that kinda of mess! :P

laterz... c",)

Saturday, June 12, 2004

June 12, 2004 / 8:34pm

looooong day today... quite a little bit boring nga eh. but the only thing that is quite ok is when someone got in to our property and started to steal some scrap metals... and good thing the neighbor informed my pops... and my dad brought out his .45 and started make a shoot out... cool and exciting, but also quite scary, kasi baka something bad might happen to my pops... but good thing nuthing happened to him, mdyo i saw a good presence of my dad shooting out his gun... i guess he'll be more "up" if ever the stealer was shot... hehehe :P anyways, that's all for 2day... the rest was quite a bore... ~YAWN~

i still cnt decide on what to do for my tuition fee... hmmm... i have to make a solid plan by 2mrw... kasi classes will start monday, and i haven't paid my tuition fee yet... quite a pressure, but i have to make solid decisions by 2mrw... hmm.... THINK, THINK...THINK!! well, in the plan, there's going to CAP office in makati (twice) and going to makati as well... THINK!!!

bahala na ako!! 2mrw ill make the plan...

later.
June 12, 2004 / 9:10am

MABUHAY ANG PILIPINAS!!
MABUHAY ANG KALAYAAN!!
MABUHAY ANG PILIPINO!!
MABUHAY ANG INDEPENDENCIA NG PILIPINAS!!

MABUHAY TAYONG LAHAT!!




...hehehe...

truly, Mabuhay tayong lahat!!

Happy Independence Day!! :)

Friday, June 11, 2004

June 11, 2004 / 6:22am

-----o0o-----
What's Another Day
(Maria Mena)

"You gave this way more thought then it deserved."
You say as I tell you about my fear of rejection.

I wouldn't know better then to get scared,
cause since we've met we've had this great connection.

"You know concrete colored buildings all grow stale,"
you say as I look up dreaming.

I know better than to include the both of us.
But I can't sleep when you're gone and you say,
"What's another day?"

This stage of oblivion I find comfortable
and prior to this I never spoke.
You say you understand my absence now,
and why I never tell jokes.

"You know concrete colored buildings all grow stale,"
you say as I look up dreaming.

I know better than to include the both of us.
But I can't sleep when you're gone and you say,

"What's another day?" when we're already getting use to gray.

"What's another day?" when inspiration grows out from this.

"What's another day?" when silence is the next best thing to this, and we're all getting used to hearing you say...

"You know concrete colored buildings all grow stale,"
you say as I look up dreaming.

I know better than to include the both of us.
But I can't sleep when you're gone and you say,

"You know concrete colored buildings all grow stale,"
you say as I look up dreaming.

I know better than to include the both of us.
But I can't sleep when you're gone and you say,

"What's another day?"
-----o0o-----

Thursday, June 10, 2004

June 10, 2004 / 9:17pm

well, just what i predicted... my day went well... I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP!!! yippeee!!! :D

add to that, i got to see melissa and neri of SCQ, very pretty girls, i can say... hehehe :P

50% is not that bad... it's like a sale sa mall... 50% off ur units!! hehehe...

and another 50 to add... just finished watching 50 first dates... sobrang kwela!! hehehehe... cnt stop laughing!!

hay wat a day!! ok naman, kahit mdyo pagod from driving and RA and driving...

btw, saw a xaverian sa KC, di sya nag-enrollm yung girlfriend nya... but i really know him... pero im good with faces eh... anyways, the thing on what that guy said, his right to say that nakaka-miss yung xavier... yeah thinking about that made me really miss my former alma-mater... much. kahit, i hate to say it, dun ko nakilala yung old friend ko... but the whole thing, i miss xavier... cnt wait sometime to visit and just hang-out sa roof top ng high school building. hay, memories... good or bad, they are all the same. :)

wat a day nga talaga!! im good... plus smiling. :)

laterz. c",)
June 10, 2004 / 7:11am

wow... i cnt believe it. i woke up good, without having the feeling of being chased or down... i woke up fine and kinda horny (hehehe). wala lng. ba't ganun? tuwing im ok and having a good time, bigla na lng siya sumusulpot. and the thing is, i get his attention, susundan ko sya... its kinda weird, maybe it's the small thing inside me that keeps on telling me "to not give up on our friendship, maaayos din yan"... yes the id inside me... but the ego and super ego keeps telling me to relax and be calm, and get over it... hay wat a dilemma im having... but the only thing im sure is that if im just calm and do my very best to move on and forget him muna...ill be ok. very ok... im good... i have friends who believes in me and who will stand beside me... and im glad to have them, i love them.

anyways, im predicting that this day and the days that follows will be fine and good... :)

anyways, im good... always.

laterz!

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

June 9, 2004 / 2:39pm

well, what a day!! (even if the day isn't over)

i was at RP kanina with my dad, then all of a sudden, i saw someone that looks familiar, kaya i checked out who was it... it's jax. with his new bag, new pants, new shirt and a new hair. it's kinda weird, i think he saw me too... anyways, first there was fear and nginig then there was rage & anger... i wanna kick him there and run... just to release my anger on him, for being such a jerk... i knw, in a way, i do also deserved to be kicked out... but i was just trying to tie up loose ends and finish up things... and he treated it like our friendship didnt exist at all... that asshole!!

btw, im still pissed off from yesterday, kaya ganito lng ang entry ko sa journal... very bitter and mad... wala lng... mawawala rin ito, in due time... but im still good. gusto ko nga kamustahin sya, but i hesitate doing it, kasi alam ko aawayin ko yng gagong yon. hehehe :P

hay buhay! it's really a not-so-good day for me lately... hmm... ok lng yan, lalampasan ko rin 'to... i have giselle & lloyd to back me up... yan yng mga taong i can truly consider as true friends (corny, but it's true!!)

gotta rest na muna, nood pa daw kami ng cine later with the folks...

later.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

June 8, 2004 / 11:34am

MGA PUTANG INA NILA!! LAHAT NG TAO DITO SA BAHAY!! pine-pressure nila ako... sobra!! akala kung sino silang pa-importante!! BWISET SILA!! they assume so many things, na pwedeng i-understand muna and think... lalong-lalo yung magulang ko!! grrr.... i know i somehow screwed up too, but atleast im bold enough to face the truth, kaso sila, they go histerical pa!! nakaka-inis na, palaging ganito... im making ways to help the situation that they started, tapos ganito pa nila ako tratratuhin... mga ASSHOLES!! i was just trying to help... nag-aaral na nga ako ng mabuti, para makatapos ng on-time sa college, kahit pagod na ako on driving them to places near and very far... and after classes i will still drive them... kahit pagod na ako... SIGHS!! for christsake! im being overload by them... and ayaw ko ma-burnout dahil dito lng... grrr... sunod-sunod talaga ang mga 'to 'no? well, if it's a plan to make me fall down, they're wrong... ill manage it, but ill attack back!! mga hindot sila!! sali ko na rin yung old friend ko sa murang 'to, he also deserves it!! sighs!! nasisira tuloy yung sked ko... pahamak!! and i though im moving ok, i was just being the good deeds act, and i get this crap!! tangina nila!!

grr....



...

Monday, June 07, 2004

June 7, 2004 / 8:09pm

im watching BUFFY right now... faith, the first evil, a lot of potential slayers and the slayerettes... wow!! plus i think the evil priest will show up na rin... Whoopeee!!!

anyways, ok yng RA kanina, mdyo na loose balance lng ako when i knew that she had the chance to read the "email"... she said that i should just walk away, walk away... that's quite a mouth full for a simple phrase. but i should walk away... tama sya, tama rin si lloyd. i love them... they are my friends. true friends. the friends iv been wishing for in life... thank God for them... i do appreciate them so much!

i think that's all for now, gotta watch buffy na...

later!! c",)

Sunday, June 06, 2004

June 6, 2004 / 10:40pm

good evening!

im about to finish my day by writing on my journal... well the day went quite dull, but ok... it was still raining (until now), kaya ang lamig... i finished the draft of the thing i typed for my mom's thing for her office... got to talked to my friends (ging, lloyd & nina)... btw, lloyd read jax's email... and he was quite shocked to read such a very angry email... but he's true enough to give me sufficient advise... true friend ko yang si lloyd eh!! he's my joey!! :P

hay buhay, im quite sleepy na rin... and i remember that i have to be early in waking up 2mrw... drive my mom, go school and be a RA and fetch my mom later that afternoon. add to that, it's the start of classes to some schools, kaya it will be a heavy traffic to face 2mrw... sighs!! what a life in the metro...

anyways, gotta sleep na rin...

laterz.
June 6, 2004 / 8:41am

good morning!! :P

what will i do today... hmm... pick up my parent's medicine's at antipolo and type some errands for my mom... what a sunday, boring sunday!! :-/

by the way, iv heard (or read) on what happened to someone i knew before... hehehehe.... buti nga sa kanya!! :P made a small tingling in the spine worth it, hehehe....

sobrang lamig ngayon... its raining... i wish i could do something ryt now, like watching xxx or meeting someone, and doing it... libog ata ako ngayon, maybe cuz its the cold weather... brrrr...

hay naku, 2mrw matrapik na uli sa kamaynilaan... pasukan na kasi ng ibang tao dyan... kaya i have to wake up early and take a bath early so i cud drive my mom early and be at school early for the RA... i jus pray i will get in the scholarship grant this time... what a buhay... :D

o sya, i have to warm up na and do the stuffs needed doing...

later.

Saturday, June 05, 2004

June 5, 2004 / 7:40pm

oo nga pla, bot the series finale of FRIENDS... ohh... i just wanna cry!!

"i got off the plane..." -rachel green

those lines really meant something to me... aaawww.... ang sweet nila ross and rachel!!! oh im so good!!

laterz :P
June 5, 2004 / 7:31pm

ok pla kung mag-RA ako sa KC... cool... not just for the free food, but also i cud get to know the new blood of KC students... hehehehe...

registration starts next week... and being an RA has its perks... una kang mag-reg, u cn pick the sked ahead of the others... kaso, iv got my sked for the majors... BLOODY HELL!! MTh - 11:30 to 5:30 (Str8!), while TF - 10:00 to 5:30 (with breaks)... whoa!! what a sked... im aiming for 22 to 24 units this sem, so i wont be delayed and graduate on time... what a week... whooo...

but im still good... 2mrw, sunday, ill be typing some errands for my mom... SIGHS!! a little pressure on that, but hey! kaya ko yan!!

sana pala, im really hoping the mouse will have a safe labor and a healthy baby... anyway, i txtd her, and she's fine, bed rest lng before labor... im really hoping she and the baby will be fine, pati na rin si daddy girard... i pray and hope things will be a-ok for them...

im good... hehehe... good... jus loaded my cell 300 bucks (whopee!!)

anyways, next time nlng uli...

laterz... im gooooood c",)

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

June 2, 2004 / 10:00am

i jus got home from driving my mom & sister... and now watching the miss universe live from quito, equador... wala lng...

hay, wala pa yung padala ng ate from LA... i kinda need the cash right now... as in i have now mulah in my wallet... and i have to watch a movie!!! WAAAHHH!!! :P

anyways, im doing good so far... moving is somewhat in the progress... and im doing good, as i said ago...

anyways, 2mrw is my orientation for applying as RA for the enrollement... and next week it will be my enrollment na... i hope ill get all the subjects i want at sana it will fit the sked...

anyways, gotta watch miss u. na muna... hehehe... :P

laterz...