April 30, 2004 / 11:38pm
napadala ko na yung email kay jax... i've sent my piece.
and now im hoping for the best...
and 2mrw morning ill be drving my parents to meet with their lawyer and hopefully fix or find a way to fix things... and, also, im hoping for the best too.
hope for the best for me and my family...
anyway, gotta sleep... and im thinking... maybe ill be able to sleep good enough now... im also hoping for that...
later... c",)
Friday, April 30, 2004
April 30, 2004 / 8:30pm
i just typed a letter that im planning to email it to jax later... yet im quite afraid to send it... even with nina's approval... anyway, im planning to send it asap...
so here's the letter iv typed...
-start-
ei jax,
musta ka na? hope that you're doin well. ewan ko kung bakit, but i think you should know... and so far, you are the one i could tell this problem im experiencing lately. the thing is, na-foreclose ng bank ang lote na kinatatayuan ng bahay namin. so that means, we might be force to move out. and i know it's my parent's problem to handle this but the thing is im experiencing their burdens as well, emotionally... lately im near your house eh, sa may imperial, doon kasi yung lower court house and the register of deeds... kaya there were times i can drop you cds... kaso pinagdra-drive ko parents ko dun... kaso seeing and reading the case ng parents ko really makes me cry every night
and it gives me a very hard time to sleep lately... and honestly im really having the hard time... with all things na hinanarap ko... also, the only thing to solve this ay mabenta yung loteng binebenta namin, yung 1 hectare... so much pressure, di lang sa kanila, pati ko, pressure...
pero, ang nakakatuwa dito, is when you txtd me, the one where you replied sa email ko regarding sa cds mo... na i should take my time with ur cds and "take it easy"... hindi mo alam kung gaano gumaan ang pakiramdam ko sa simpleng text message mo... and for the fact that im been trying to cope up with the bad/horrible things iv done to you... again, im so sorry for hurting you. and i know how much mad, angry, sad and betrayed you felt then...at hindi ko talaga mapatawad ang sarili ko sa nagawa ko... i was a very bad friend to my
best friend... and i realize how important our friendship is and im not giving up on that. as i said before, you are still my best friend... and yet i understand, very much, why we should not see each other for a while... anyway, you just don't know how overwhelmed i was when i received your text, i literally got down on my knees and cried... parang all the strings of hope na pingaha-hang on ko ay tumibay...TNX bro... you dnt know how much it meant to me...
by the way, my parents wants to ask ur mom or your aunt fely kung may kilala silang serious buyer ng lupa, yung mga naghahanap ng 1 hectare... pero dnt tell them na na-foreclose kami... kasi di pa final yung laban eh... di lng nila na-text ikaw kasi nahihiya sila.
tnx bro... hope to hear & see from ya soon.
always hoping the best for you! ingatz!!
-end-
so... what do i think of it... good enough, dba?
later...
i just typed a letter that im planning to email it to jax later... yet im quite afraid to send it... even with nina's approval... anyway, im planning to send it asap...
so here's the letter iv typed...
-start-
ei jax,
musta ka na? hope that you're doin well. ewan ko kung bakit, but i think you should know... and so far, you are the one i could tell this problem im experiencing lately. the thing is, na-foreclose ng bank ang lote na kinatatayuan ng bahay namin. so that means, we might be force to move out. and i know it's my parent's problem to handle this but the thing is im experiencing their burdens as well, emotionally... lately im near your house eh, sa may imperial, doon kasi yung lower court house and the register of deeds... kaya there were times i can drop you cds... kaso pinagdra-drive ko parents ko dun... kaso seeing and reading the case ng parents ko really makes me cry every night
and it gives me a very hard time to sleep lately... and honestly im really having the hard time... with all things na hinanarap ko... also, the only thing to solve this ay mabenta yung loteng binebenta namin, yung 1 hectare... so much pressure, di lang sa kanila, pati ko, pressure...
pero, ang nakakatuwa dito, is when you txtd me, the one where you replied sa email ko regarding sa cds mo... na i should take my time with ur cds and "take it easy"... hindi mo alam kung gaano gumaan ang pakiramdam ko sa simpleng text message mo... and for the fact that im been trying to cope up with the bad/horrible things iv done to you... again, im so sorry for hurting you. and i know how much mad, angry, sad and betrayed you felt then...at hindi ko talaga mapatawad ang sarili ko sa nagawa ko... i was a very bad friend to my
best friend... and i realize how important our friendship is and im not giving up on that. as i said before, you are still my best friend... and yet i understand, very much, why we should not see each other for a while... anyway, you just don't know how overwhelmed i was when i received your text, i literally got down on my knees and cried... parang all the strings of hope na pingaha-hang on ko ay tumibay...TNX bro... you dnt know how much it meant to me...
by the way, my parents wants to ask ur mom or your aunt fely kung may kilala silang serious buyer ng lupa, yung mga naghahanap ng 1 hectare... pero dnt tell them na na-foreclose kami... kasi di pa final yung laban eh... di lng nila na-text ikaw kasi nahihiya sila.
tnx bro... hope to hear & see from ya soon.
always hoping the best for you! ingatz!!
-end-
so... what do i think of it... good enough, dba?
later...
Thursday, April 29, 2004
April 29, 2004 / 7:49pm
maaga ako 2mrw... kasi ill drive my mo to makati, RCBC bldg... to meet someone, who will (hopefully) help us with the family crisis we are now facing (those assholes from the bank really think they can win... ano sila, sinuswerte!) anyways... after driving my mom to makati & to her office ill go home and go to makati my commuting (naks!!)...PPPPRRREEESSSUUURRREEE!!! but hey! atleast i get to commute and ride the trains again...
im still tired from badminton kanina... but it's a good stress reliever... believe me!! astig mag-badminton!! haaayyy!!! :P
ill just rest for a while and 2mrw is another day... SIGHS!! :D
later.
maaga ako 2mrw... kasi ill drive my mo to makati, RCBC bldg... to meet someone, who will (hopefully) help us with the family crisis we are now facing (those assholes from the bank really think they can win... ano sila, sinuswerte!) anyways... after driving my mom to makati & to her office ill go home and go to makati my commuting (naks!!)...PPPPRRREEESSSUUURRREEE!!! but hey! atleast i get to commute and ride the trains again...
im still tired from badminton kanina... but it's a good stress reliever... believe me!! astig mag-badminton!! haaayyy!!! :P
ill just rest for a while and 2mrw is another day... SIGHS!! :D
later.
April 29, 2004 / 7:13am
naiinis ako, kasi na-1st blood ako sa 1st exam ko... pero sobrang pagod na talaga ako nung night before at nakatulog ako, at hirap pala talagang i-cram yung mga lessons an hour before the exam... ayon tuloy 38/100 ang score ko (SIGHS!)
anyways, its thursday, my car isn't allowed to go roaming, except between 10am-3pm... kaya later at 930am ill drive my mo to her office and drop the strada to my kuya's house at makati and ill commute goin to school via lrt-mrt... whohoo!! :P
hay, miss ko pa rin best friend ko... but i know things will get better... yehey!!
later!! :P
naiinis ako, kasi na-1st blood ako sa 1st exam ko... pero sobrang pagod na talaga ako nung night before at nakatulog ako, at hirap pala talagang i-cram yung mga lessons an hour before the exam... ayon tuloy 38/100 ang score ko (SIGHS!)
anyways, its thursday, my car isn't allowed to go roaming, except between 10am-3pm... kaya later at 930am ill drive my mo to her office and drop the strada to my kuya's house at makati and ill commute goin to school via lrt-mrt... whohoo!! :P
hay, miss ko pa rin best friend ko... but i know things will get better... yehey!!
later!! :P
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
April 28, 2004 / 7:37pm
so, last night jax texted me, telling me that he read the email iv sent the day before... well the email is about his cds and the "difficulties" i am experiencing lately... he texted, "ok lng, take ur tym. take it easy." WHOA!! my reaction went up... i wasn't expecting him to reply, or even say those things "take it easy" to me... but i felt a relief and a big hope, that shows that the renovation is quite doing well. im happy... di ko nga ma-erase sa fone ko eh.
i miss him, still... but my hope is getting better & stronger. :D
im happy, kahit mdyo asar at bagsak ang exam ko kanina sa psych (first blood, took its toll!!)
hay... buhay nga naman!!
later! :P
so, last night jax texted me, telling me that he read the email iv sent the day before... well the email is about his cds and the "difficulties" i am experiencing lately... he texted, "ok lng, take ur tym. take it easy." WHOA!! my reaction went up... i wasn't expecting him to reply, or even say those things "take it easy" to me... but i felt a relief and a big hope, that shows that the renovation is quite doing well. im happy... di ko nga ma-erase sa fone ko eh.
i miss him, still... but my hope is getting better & stronger. :D
im happy, kahit mdyo asar at bagsak ang exam ko kanina sa psych (first blood, took its toll!!)
hay... buhay nga naman!!
later! :P
April 28, 2004 / 6:32am
its just 1 month before my bday... wala lang...
di pa ako nakaka-review for my exam later at 9am... and i have to drive my mom to her office... PPPPRRREEESSSSUUURRREEE!!!
at nag-text sa akin si jax... ill write nlng later pagbalik ko... aasikaso ko na muna yung exam ko....
later!
its just 1 month before my bday... wala lang...
di pa ako nakaka-review for my exam later at 9am... and i have to drive my mom to her office... PPPPRRREEESSSSUUURRREEE!!!
at nag-text sa akin si jax... ill write nlng later pagbalik ko... aasikaso ko na muna yung exam ko....
later!
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
April 27, 2004 / 7:34am
it's happening again, im having trouble sleeping right... it's like going back to square one (minus the crying and puking).
ganun na ba akong ka-depressed?!? SIGHS!
maybe i need some activity, like badminton games, kung saan napapagod ako and thus, i can get a good sleep.
hirap talaga nang ganito... even if sometimes i want to straighten things up, di pa pwede eh... hay naku!! ASAR!!
i miss my best friend... and im so sorry for what i did... i messed up, badly! but im not giving up on our friendship... NEVER!!
later...
it's happening again, im having trouble sleeping right... it's like going back to square one (minus the crying and puking).
ganun na ba akong ka-depressed?!? SIGHS!
maybe i need some activity, like badminton games, kung saan napapagod ako and thus, i can get a good sleep.
hirap talaga nang ganito... even if sometimes i want to straighten things up, di pa pwede eh... hay naku!! ASAR!!
i miss my best friend... and im so sorry for what i did... i messed up, badly! but im not giving up on our friendship... NEVER!!
later...
Monday, April 26, 2004
April 26, 2004 / 10:20pm
i love nina! not in that kind of way... the love a friend would give a fellow friend kind of love...gets? anyway, i jus saw her posting sa friendster, and all i wanted to say is "thank you" to her. kasi, atleats, i kinda gave her hope, or even a small peace of mind... THANK YOU!!
anyways, ill be getting the other cd for jax hopefully 2mrw, so i cud drop the 2 cds at his place within this week... and im hoping that we cud talk or something, iwa-one time, big time ko 'to... kahit alam ko it won't be a one-time, big-time thing... best friend ko pa rin sya, no matter what!!
1st exam ko na sa wedenesday, and somehow, im quite nervous... dunno why. im kinda feeling im gonna pass naman, pero medyo kinakabahan ako... sighs!! kaba lang 'to... :P
ill try to fix and help with the renovation this week, and i hope things would be cool (or better) for me and my best friend... :) wish me luck!!
later!! :P
i love nina! not in that kind of way... the love a friend would give a fellow friend kind of love...gets? anyway, i jus saw her posting sa friendster, and all i wanted to say is "thank you" to her. kasi, atleats, i kinda gave her hope, or even a small peace of mind... THANK YOU!!
anyways, ill be getting the other cd for jax hopefully 2mrw, so i cud drop the 2 cds at his place within this week... and im hoping that we cud talk or something, iwa-one time, big time ko 'to... kahit alam ko it won't be a one-time, big-time thing... best friend ko pa rin sya, no matter what!!
1st exam ko na sa wedenesday, and somehow, im quite nervous... dunno why. im kinda feeling im gonna pass naman, pero medyo kinakabahan ako... sighs!! kaba lang 'to... :P
ill try to fix and help with the renovation this week, and i hope things would be cool (or better) for me and my best friend... :) wish me luck!!
later!! :P
April 26, 2004 / 9:12am
i trully miss my best friend... si jax yon! and also, im afraid of him... kinda weird. but i miss him (so much!)... i know how mad he is, how angry he is and how sad he is, it really makes me feel low and down right guilty that i hurt and took advantage of my best friend... how bad of a friend am i?! but now im taking amends of all the things iv done to my best friend... and im hoping that there will come a time that all the things that happended in the past, would just be a laugh or nothing at all...
GOD i miss him so much!! and also, please guide me and also my family in this situation we are going through...
anyway... later.
i trully miss my best friend... si jax yon! and also, im afraid of him... kinda weird. but i miss him (so much!)... i know how mad he is, how angry he is and how sad he is, it really makes me feel low and down right guilty that i hurt and took advantage of my best friend... how bad of a friend am i?! but now im taking amends of all the things iv done to my best friend... and im hoping that there will come a time that all the things that happended in the past, would just be a laugh or nothing at all...
GOD i miss him so much!! and also, please guide me and also my family in this situation we are going through...
anyway... later.
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Friday, April 23, 2004
April 23, 2004 / 9:41pm
i hate the burdens i am carrying right now... and also, i hate being emotional, too emotional, on the things that are happening to me and around me... susmaryosep!! sighs!!
i pray for a miracle... that is all i am asking... a miracle for everything that is happening right now.
from my best friend (jax) and my parent's health to our financial difficulties... a miracle would be good. (kahit kina nina, isali na rin!)
hay naku...
later.
i hate the burdens i am carrying right now... and also, i hate being emotional, too emotional, on the things that are happening to me and around me... susmaryosep!! sighs!!
i pray for a miracle... that is all i am asking... a miracle for everything that is happening right now.
from my best friend (jax) and my parent's health to our financial difficulties... a miracle would be good. (kahit kina nina, isali na rin!)
hay naku...
later.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
April 21, 2004 / 8:00am
na-praning ako yesterday... but iv talked to lloyd for advice... and he said what jax told me before and that is to have more outlets... friends to be exact... kasi im so much focused on jax, my best friend, that i forgot my other friends... TIME really takes a long time to heal things... masakit talaga but im willing to face it, para maayos ang lahat... mahal ko kasi ang mga kaibigan ko, at willing ako to give time to heal things up.
later.
na-praning ako yesterday... but iv talked to lloyd for advice... and he said what jax told me before and that is to have more outlets... friends to be exact... kasi im so much focused on jax, my best friend, that i forgot my other friends... TIME really takes a long time to heal things... masakit talaga but im willing to face it, para maayos ang lahat... mahal ko kasi ang mga kaibigan ko, at willing ako to give time to heal things up.
later.
Sunday, April 18, 2004
April 18, 2004 / 6:35pm
hay... got too sleepy... didnt have the time to read the book for psych 2mrw... SIGHS!! but got to check nina, on how she is... she's quite ok, but still not yet off the woods...
anyways, i miss jax... i texted him kanina, still im not expecting him to reply (kahit there's a small expectation that he will reply)... sinabi ko lang na ill be dropping his cds this week... im hoping that i cud use his burner, ibu-burn ko ng cd si wendi eh... im just hoping... anyways im hoping for the best and also expecting the unexpected (hirap!!) but im strong... and try not to be affected by it. love ko yang best friend ko eh... ill give up my life for him, and for my friends that i do love so much!! :)
later.
hay... got too sleepy... didnt have the time to read the book for psych 2mrw... SIGHS!! but got to check nina, on how she is... she's quite ok, but still not yet off the woods...
anyways, i miss jax... i texted him kanina, still im not expecting him to reply (kahit there's a small expectation that he will reply)... sinabi ko lang na ill be dropping his cds this week... im hoping that i cud use his burner, ibu-burn ko ng cd si wendi eh... im just hoping... anyways im hoping for the best and also expecting the unexpected (hirap!!) but im strong... and try not to be affected by it. love ko yang best friend ko eh... ill give up my life for him, and for my friends that i do love so much!! :)
later.
April 18, 2004 / 9:04am
things aren't always what they are... sometimes you don't know someone that well... this the thing i've learned about my friend, nina... i feel so sorry for her... B & Nina broke up... and now she's in full bitch mode... shocking sa akin yon!! but im rooting for her, what ever happens... after listening to her kaninang madaling araw, it kinda hit me on what me & jax faced... i quite guilty nga eh, because im the bad guy in our situation, kaya through nina's side, i get to see and know jax's side better... i was an awful person and a bad friend to him... that i learned... and this time im really taking time seriously, kahit matagal ng konti at masakit sa akin... i won't loose my faith on him... mahal ko yung best friend ko eh.
later.
things aren't always what they are... sometimes you don't know someone that well... this the thing i've learned about my friend, nina... i feel so sorry for her... B & Nina broke up... and now she's in full bitch mode... shocking sa akin yon!! but im rooting for her, what ever happens... after listening to her kaninang madaling araw, it kinda hit me on what me & jax faced... i quite guilty nga eh, because im the bad guy in our situation, kaya through nina's side, i get to see and know jax's side better... i was an awful person and a bad friend to him... that i learned... and this time im really taking time seriously, kahit matagal ng konti at masakit sa akin... i won't loose my faith on him... mahal ko yung best friend ko eh.
later.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
April 17, 2004 / 7:41pm
my body is still aching... OUCH!! having a hard time to walk...GRRRR!!!
but the Happy Tree Friends are making me happy!! :P even at this time of grief.
lalalalala..lalalala.lalalala.lalalalala...lalalalalala..lallalalalala.... :D
hehehe... astig talaga anf HTF!! :P they rule!!
hay naku... keeps me happy... :P
later.
my body is still aching... OUCH!! having a hard time to walk...GRRRR!!!
but the Happy Tree Friends are making me happy!! :P even at this time of grief.
lalalalala..lalalala.lalalala.lalalalala...lalalalalala..lallalalalala.... :D
hehehe... astig talaga anf HTF!! :P they rule!!
hay naku... keeps me happy... :P
later.
April 17, 2004 / 8:23am
my body hurts... a lot!! my thigh muscles are cramming, my legs are like beaten up and im having a hard time to walk straight... OUCH!! ='(
ang hirap pala talaga kung di mo nakakausap ang best friend ko... i miss him... so much, but i think it has to be this way until the right time comes for us to be cool... SIGHS!!
later.
my body hurts... a lot!! my thigh muscles are cramming, my legs are like beaten up and im having a hard time to walk straight... OUCH!! ='(
ang hirap pala talaga kung di mo nakakausap ang best friend ko... i miss him... so much, but i think it has to be this way until the right time comes for us to be cool... SIGHS!!
later.
Friday, April 16, 2004
April 16, 2004 / 9:10pm
BADMINTON is good!! believe me!! papayat ako dito sa sports na 'to!! grabe enjoy!! kaso i feel that parang bugbog ang mga muscles ko. :P
anyway, ill be going to a funeral right now... but the day (so far) went well!! :P
but im still miss my best friend, JAX... but i have to be patient and be confident and also, NEVER LOOSE HOPE... kasi all is for the betterment of our friendship, and a renovation is needed... I WONT GIVE UP!! love ko yang best friend ko eh...
later! :P
BADMINTON is good!! believe me!! papayat ako dito sa sports na 'to!! grabe enjoy!! kaso i feel that parang bugbog ang mga muscles ko. :P
anyway, ill be going to a funeral right now... but the day (so far) went well!! :P
but im still miss my best friend, JAX... but i have to be patient and be confident and also, NEVER LOOSE HOPE... kasi all is for the betterment of our friendship, and a renovation is needed... I WONT GIVE UP!! love ko yang best friend ko eh...
later! :P
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
April 14, 2004 / 12:47pm
may pasok pala si jax... i think he's taking the thing that replaces for the ROTC thing... anyways, im having the flu again!! KAASAR nga eh!! sinisipon nanaman uli ako... grrr!! i have to finish the draft pa of mama's paper... at sana i cud finish this today... with this condition, ill try my best... plus my papais quite annoying right now, daming drama!! SIGHS!! kakain na muna ako ng lunch, tapos steam up and type... and fetch mama...
later.
may pasok pala si jax... i think he's taking the thing that replaces for the ROTC thing... anyways, im having the flu again!! KAASAR nga eh!! sinisipon nanaman uli ako... grrr!! i have to finish the draft pa of mama's paper... at sana i cud finish this today... with this condition, ill try my best... plus my papais quite annoying right now, daming drama!! SIGHS!! kakain na muna ako ng lunch, tapos steam up and type... and fetch mama...
later.
April 14, 2004 / 6:02am
im having another episode of attacks, attacks of depression... because i miss my best friend so much. and it also involves the attack of the monster, but i have to keep myself on the ground... SIGHS!! it's hard to handle it, but i must do it, because i care for our friendship so much, that im will to fight for it. even if it cost my very own life. God, i miss him! but i know that time is making renovations to our friendship... and im taking the time, full-time.
minsan gusto ko siyang tawagan, pero natatakot na ako, pero im not also giving up... love him, like my brother... the brother i wish i had...
later...
im having another episode of attacks, attacks of depression... because i miss my best friend so much. and it also involves the attack of the monster, but i have to keep myself on the ground... SIGHS!! it's hard to handle it, but i must do it, because i care for our friendship so much, that im will to fight for it. even if it cost my very own life. God, i miss him! but i know that time is making renovations to our friendship... and im taking the time, full-time.
minsan gusto ko siyang tawagan, pero natatakot na ako, pero im not also giving up... love him, like my brother... the brother i wish i had...
later...
