September 24, 2004 / 8:34pm

it's not a feel-good friday... NOT a good friday!!! and i wasn't noticing it 'til the exam and when i saw jax. how bad it was... especially when i saw him... kinabahan ako... didn't stop me to smoke... kais ganun akong kinakabahan and i was shaking badly... hay naku!! sobra 'tong araw na 'to... bad day talaga!

i miss jax, that's true... but i wasn't expecting him to see him... parang i was torn apart from both sides... but i did what i always wanna do... said "hi" to him at kamustahin sya... that simple... and waved at him... he did to reply back... i think it's a good start... being civil na muna... but as i told rheena kanina, im still optimistic and still hoping that things will be patched-up and be good friends again... and also forgive too.

'di ko talaga na kakagahan ako ng ganito... kahit exams at papers sa psych eh di ako kinakabahan... eto lng... sighs!!! God is saying something... and im hoping it will start something good... haaaay naku...

grabe tong araw na to... i wanna colapse kanina... but i know im not that stupid, im good...

God is just testing me and making me see the better angle more... to the dude above... tnx!

anyways, im still good... kahit na ganoon man... it wont bring all the way down... im the blue-fire phoenix... hehehehehe!! ill rise up and be more better than before... :D

cge... gotta do some more papers and finalize the fgd for 2mrw...

hope the best for me and for jax too...


laterz!!! c",)