disappointing RANT...

(start of RANT)




yes, I AM DISAPPOINTED right now. i was suppose to hang-out with my best friend today, samahan siya bumili ng bagong mobile phone (which in some way, tradition na rin kasi palagi ako ang kasama twing bibili siya ng phone or something for himself) and hopefully get to watch a movie (which i missed a lot, kasi the last time we watched a movie was June of last year)...

every thing was quite planned and ready since last week... then a while ago, he just texted me na di daw siya makakadaan dahil puno na raw yung sasakyan nila... though i understand na kasama yung mga pinsan niya and i'll be the odd-man-out... pero nakaka-BWISET nga lang ay it was planned before today...

for the fact na i re-sched a job interview today to another day... though, im not expecting them to call again, due to my sched (but if they are ethical, they will re-sched me)... NAKAKA-DISAPPOINT nga lang....

nalulungkot nga lang talaga ako... and i would really appreciate it if my best friend would call me than text me... (sori if im sounding senti-emo... ganito lang talaga ako).... but didn't, he just texted me...

nakaka-asar talaga siya!!!

and i hate to record things up... but this is not the 1st time he did this... there's the one noong he didn't wait for me and left me sa highway, when i was suppose to hitch a ride with him going home. thus making me walk from my school to RP... grrr!!!

NAAASAR talaga ako!!!!

GALIT ako, ASAR ako, NALULUNGKOT rin ako at DISAPPOINTED ako sa kanya...

(and somehow, im so stupid...)



...so stupid. (kasi best friend ko siya at mahal ko ang kaibigan ko... kaya extending a mile is what i've been doing for my friends... STUPID!!!)

anyways, im just RANTING out this just to blow-off some steam...

again... GALIT ako, ASAR ako, NALULUNGKOT rin ako at DISAPPOINTED ako sa kanya...




(end of RANT)

Wolverine VS. Sentinel (X3 movie clip)

well, here's a clip from the upcoming X3 flick... it's a scene in which the X-Men are having a Danger Room session against a Sentinel...

check it out...

it might a take a few minutes, but it's worth it to watch!! c",)

X-Men: The Last Stand (TV Spot)

i was just surfing around when i got to see one of the new TV Spots of X3... if you wanna see the other TV Spots, i have them on my Multiply.Com account... (just click on this LINK to see all three)

but this one... below is the newest one... just watch it... it may atke a few minutes to fully watch it... enjoy!! c",)

and it somehow begins...

officially, i am a BA Psych graduate. 'cuz last sunday was the graduation ceremonies and i was extatic about it... though i wasn't satisfied by the pictures my sister took during my graduation (to be honest, she really takes pictures very badly)... anyways, after the 1 & 1/2 ceremony, me & my family went out for a lunch at Max's @ Tiendesitas and after that i just slept the whole afternoon... then that night i went to kate's and celebrate our graduation.

it was fun... the graduation... though im also quite sad & disappointed 'cuz my best friend wasn't able to attend, even if i understood his situation & his reason why he wasn't able to attend... but to be honest i really needed him there... kasi best friend ko siya, and i put him as my guest on my list... pero anyways, nangyari na eh... ox rin naman sa 'kin... kaso yon lng, mdyo malungkot lang ako... pero alam ko babawi rin siya next time (hopefully sa bday ko).

then the following day... i started to spread my resumes online and got a copy for the civil service exam...

so basically that's it... after the celebration... i have to start looking for a decent & good-paying job... (sigh)

anyways, later at around 11-ish i have another interview, but it's a phone interview. so i'll be just chillin' out here at home... so wish me luck.

i think that's it for now...


laterz... c",)

can't wait for tomorrow...

well, i just got a copy of the Philippine Daily Inquirer a while ago... just to check if it's true, that graduating batch of kalay is printed on the newspaper... and in fact it is. on page A15, upper right corner... and i'm on 1st row, the 4th (from the left) picture... hehehe. :P

im on a newspaper... though it's just a small one, it's still big to me... c",)

anyways, 2mrw is the day... i'll be marching at around 9-ish in the morning and gonna be a graduate by 11-ish... yey!!

kaya later, i'll be buying some new clothes (just a long sleeve & a tie) for the march 2mrw... plus getting a hair-cut... and yeah, i'll shave in a little while...

hay... im graduating... i cnt believe it... i'm graduating on time!!!

anyways... just have to prep-up for today...

laterz... c",)

arrgggh...!

well, summer is almost half-done... and i haven't accomplished anything on my 'to-do' list, well except graduating and the removal of my gallstone...

even the simple things like hanging-out with my best friend or my friends, di ko pa nagagawa... so far, i'm still adjusting on my diet, cuz of my operation...

but so far i haven't got my comix from my pull-out list... oh men... this quite sux. (grrr....!!) and i haven't have the dvds that i want... (huhuhu....)

anyways, today, well, this afternoon i'll going to my graduation rehearsal and later i'll be going home with my friends because they're going to scan some picutres for our yearbook... plus i'm planning to drop the invitation for my best friend to myy graduation this sunday...

but i wanna hang-out with him and my friends... it's been a while lang... and i miss them.

anyways, i hope by next month, my pick-up would be fix so i could start driving again and hang-out with my friends... plus sana matuloy ako (and makasama) sa planong pagpunta sa sagada sa north next month... i really need/want a summer-grad outing eh...

oh well, i think that's it na muna..

laterz... c",)

it's gone... at last!!

last monday afternoon, i was confined at the AFP Gen. Hospital for my scheduled lap-chole operation (gallstone removal), which is on tuesday morning. that night, i was shaved from my navel down to my private area and somehow given my last meal befroe i sleep... athe following morning, at around 4am i was woke up by the nurse, i took a quick bath and the intern nurse put a dextrox and the swero at my left hand and my parents & my sister came just in time for my scheduled operation.. my mom was quite nervous, she kept that very 'disturbing-worrying' look at me... though in my case, i am ready yet the night before i was texting my friends frequently just to get enough confidence from them, which really helped me face the small fear i have out when i took that quick bath. anyways, i was at the pre-opreation room at around 6am, i was just there... naked and waiting for the time of my operation... though im naked, i have a sheet above me...by 730am, the nurse injected me with some drug that made drozy and in a few more minutes grogy and a few more seconds pass-out... though my mind is still active, i tired to open my eyes, forcefully, just to check where am i... but the only thing i remember was the blue ceiling and the UFO-type lighting above me and the feeling the i'm being tied up on both my arm like christ... then after that i really left my active my and everything went dark & silent...

then i heard voices, my mom's voice... telling to move my legs... i'm still, i think, drugged or under the anesthesia, so i can't really open my eyes and see clearly. but i got to glimpse a clock at says it's 4pm... i know, i should react, becease from what i've reseached, the procedure of my operation would last upto 30-45 minutes only... anyways, i was really drugged down and can't think clearly...i felt that was moving to another room... a much more cooler one... then i really got to open my eyes and quite see clearly, i htink at around 6pm... so basically, that was more than 12 hours of my life not knowing whta happened to me... though i was exprience post-operational difficulties, like dizziness, puking and having a hard time to adjust... the days followed and the meds helped me adjust nicely.


it was only the next day that i got to see officially how big my gallstone was... and it's really big for my age... the doctor said it has to be pass throughout my navel, that big... wow!

right now, almost a week has passed from my operation... i still have my stitches, which will be removed this wednesday... and still taking my antibiotics and other meds, which is until a few days more... then i'll be able to go back to my regular diet, though i'm thinking to stick to this weight, 145lbs... which is healtier and i could get enough of it.

hay... what a relief... my gallstone is gone.

now all i have to do is just graduate, which is just exactly a week from now. c",)

that's it for now... :P


laterz c",)

one more day... mixed emotion arises

just one more day... isang araw na lang... at matatanggal na itong gallstone ko... yey!! :P

though there are really mixed emotions that are quite running around my head as the day comes closer... like the basic 'what-if...' and the 'what will happen after?' questions... but so far, i'll know when i get there...

so far, i did my research and it backed-up my confidence more. though i see it that it's normal to have this kinds of petty anxiety... but i just have to focus more on getting healthy and going back to normal again. c",)

...in another words, POSITIVE THINKING is a must for this...!

i think that's it for now... i might be able to post for the next following days, due to my operation & confinement... so hope the best for me in this one... wish me luck!! c",)


laterz... c",)

...

nuthing much... it was quite boring and quiet during the holy week... just stayed basically here at home and tried to kill boredom by having DVD marathons and lots of sleeping around. though resting is one thing i need, 'cuz two days from now i'll behaving my gall-stone remove, so far i think that's it for the whole week.

well, there's the meeting of the graduates 2mrw afternoon... but before that, i'm planning to hang-out at my best friends house and just chill there for a while, before going to school... i'll bring some dvds for him to watch and i guess pahiramin ko rin ng comics ko...anyways, bahala na..

after 2rmw... it's my confinement na for my opreation on tuesday... wish me luck. though i'm excited that i can eat regular foods a week after the operation... a big-YEY on that.

so ayon... nuhting much talaga...

keep you posted nlng later...


laterz.. c",)

At last... GRADUATION (and it's official)

it's OFFICIAL... i'll be marching for graduation this April 30, 2006 (@ 9am at the Balay Kalinaw in UP Diliman).

A big YEHEY on that!!

when i found out that all my subjects this sem and together with the otehr subjects for completion passed... it made my day really awesome!!! YEHEY!!!

now i'm really happy and excited for me!! :D

and now i have the right to celebrate... but i have to get operated first, so that i could really celebrate... hahaha! :P

oh well, i'm so happy today... and damn... i'm graduating... c",)


laterz... c",)

isang linggo na lang... yey!!

basically, it's exactly a week from my scheduled confinement for my gallstone removal surgery... and i'm so excited!! yippee!! :P

kaya konting tiis na lang... konting tiis na lang... pero kung tutuosin, kaya ko naman i-maintain 'tong way of eating eh... kaso, i can't wait to taste some foods that i'm so missing, like pizza and the variety bucket ng KFC... hay... excited na ako talaga! c",)

i can still stand it... hehehe

o cya.. yon lang... :P

laterz c",)

the heat is on...

summer season basically started around mid-March, which was just last month... but the heat then was quite tolerable, but lately it is really HOT!!! too hot that i can fry an egg on the floor... i can't even go out, so i'm just stuck here at home and spending hours online, thus wasting a lot of hours to my internet card. i'm guessing by this friday (or earlier pa) mauubos na agad eh...

though i know i can't reallly go out, cuz i have no money and i'm avoiding to eat something that can trigger my gallstone attack... it's just really hot outside.

sighs... sometime i wish there are really mutants in this reality... so there's a possibility that Storm is true... so that she can make the weather cool always. :P

anyways, today is Palm Sunday, the start of Holy Week... so basically a lot of people are going to either vacation outside the metro (like my best friend, going to HK... inggit!) or do some religious rituals (like my mom, having a church activity-gig... blah!) or just like me (bumming around at home & having a dvd marathon)...

and by the way, i still have 9 days to go before i get myself operated for the gallstone removal surgery... so i'm getting excited every day it gets nearer... yey!! :P

so ayon na muna... i'll try my best to post frequently...

laterz... c",)

summer plans...(if there's any)

yesterday, friday, i took the very last (and i really hope it's the last one) exam for college... and i hate it.

cuz it's fucking hard...!!!

i just really hope that i'll pass english 3 this time... cuz almost 2 years ago i failed the same subject cuz of my cuts & absences... the only thing i regret about this present subject, is that it's the same prof whom i had then... but i'm hoping that she has changed her heart (even in a little, subtle way). anyways, i jusr hope i pass this one and just graduate already.

but at least... it's officially summer time for me... (yey.)

but... yet still... im not sure what are my plans this summer...

though there are things that i want to do...

-like going to the beach...
-scattering my resumes to every job openings available...
-hanging-out more with my best friend and my barkadas...
-buying the stuffs that i love to have (check my previous blog entry)...
-read good books...
-do some adrenaline rush activities (like riding a rollercoaster or something similar to that)...
-watch movies with friends...

and so much more... though the only solid plan right now is the operation for my gallstone removal after holy week and (yeah) the graduation this end of April (which kinda ticks me off, cuz the office @ kalay made some changes again. we will still graduate @ UP, but it will no longer be at Bahay ng Alumni at 4pm. it will be more smaller than Alumni, it's at Balay Kalinaw @ 9am... oh men!)

so far that's it... i wish at least 2 or 3 things in the list would come true... i really wish & hope.

ayon.. yon na muna...

laterz c",)

wish list...

with my graduation getting nearer and also my bday nxt month... there are things that i really want as a gift/reward... but the problem is that i lack the enough finances to have it... so for those who knew me and got the chance to read this, i hope this would give you guys ideas on what to give me on either my graudation or my bday (or both)... :P

well here's my wish list for my grad & bday:
-Jessica Zafra's Twisted 7
-Jessica Zafra's Chicken Pox for the Soul
-Tuesdays with Morrie
-April issue ng Empire Magazine (X3 yung cover)
-10th Season ng FRIENDS (preferably the original copy)
-5th Season ng CSI (pirated or original copy)
-1st Season ng CSI: NY (pirated or original copy)
-TPB ng X-Men: Blood of Apocalypse
-TPB ng New Avengers (Volumes 2-3)
-HBC ng New X-Men Vol. 3-5 (basta kung san namatay si phoenix)
-TPB or HBC ng Marvels 1602
-at least isa sa mga pull-out list kong TPB na nasa CATS Market-Market (Avengers:Disassembled / X-Men & Black Panther / X-Men Dark Phoenix Saga)
-Marvel Select: Emma Frost
-Marvel Select: Dr. Octopus
-Bandai Marvel Heroes Gashapon series 1 or 4
-Sony Ericsson's K750i cellphone
-Starbucks Mug (yung tall, kulay green or blue)

anyways... am i asking too much? hehehe :P

wish list lang nman ito eh... kaya wish ko lang to have these things from my friends or from my pocket (pag may pera na ako...) :P

oh well, yon na muna...

laterz... c",)

i hope this is final...

well, this is my schedule, so far, for the make-up exam for english 3 and the operation fro my gallstone removal...

...i'll be taking the make-up exam this friday at 10am. after that i have the Holy Week for prepping up and resting for the operation. 'cuz i'll be admitting at the hospital on the 18th and hopefully i'll be operated on the 19th and i'll be confine for 5 to 7 days... so basically, i have two weeks more before i get operated... w/c kinda scares me, cuz who knows what can ahppen in this two weeks span, i hope not...

anyways, i hope for the best and that i also hope that i won't have any attacks too... and to do this, i'll have to be strict to my diet... so that means i have to starve for two weeks... i guess i'm strong enough to handle that... i just really hope that things will be smooth na rin...

wish me luck nlng on these things... cuz after all these... graduation time for me. c",)

laterz... c",)

i was almost there...BUT

yesterday was really quite a stressful day.

one... i had to wait for a long time for any updates on whether i'll be able to take the make-up Finals for English3... i was at kalay at around pass 9am, becuase i was informed (last friday) that i'll be taking the test at 10am... when i arrived at school, the office informed me that they haven't contacted my prof for any info about my test... well, at first it didn't bothered me, cuz i have a meeting for graduation at 1pm... but even after the meeting ended at 3pm, i waited for any news 'til 4pm... and the office said that i was gonna have to take the exam on the 11th (tuesday next week)... i was quite pissed off at the office for being inept...

two... during the graduation meeting, just found out that i have to raise at least 5k to graduate... not that stress, but later i realized that i have to raise 10K to really graduate... 5K for the graduation gigs & another 5K for the remaining tuition fee i haven't paid yet... oh men...

last... due to the re-schedule of my exam, my scheduled operation this week will be moved to next wednesday, after my exam... during the holy week... which kinda disrupted my schedule... cuz i still have to finish my remaining hours of SA after holy week... but then again, yesterday, i was quite tired and stressed that im having a hard time to think straight...

anyways, right now, im still fixing my sched for the whole month... with graduation and the opreation coming up... i need enough strength to do this...

ba't ganito palagi... when im almost there sa finish-line, smooth-sailing na, tapos... BAM!! anothe challenge... well, sa totoo, okay lang... kaso it's getting stressful na rin eh... though i love the challenge... i really need to lighten myself paminsan-minsan nman... can't i have a small amount of peace once in a while...? (sighs!)

anyways... gotta relax na muna...

laterz... c",)

know your friends...

i got this list while reading other peoples blogs (it kills the boredom...honest!)

...anyways, as trained by my prof, i'll put on the link from where i got this, to avoid plagiarizing... well here's the LINK...

and here's the list of the Types of Friends...

1. Sort-of Friend -- A Sort-of Friend is more of an acquaintance. You know that person and he/she knows you. He/She might be someone from work whom you've talked with at a few office events. He/She could be someone from your Psychology class and both of you acknowledge each other's existence.
2. Ordinary Friend -- An ordinary friend is someone whom you spent some time with in the past. He/She could be in the same click group in High School or College. An ordinary friend is different from a sort-of friend, in that there is a little bit of communication between you and your ordinary friend. This communication is not on a consistent basis, but your ordinary friend is definitely in your "FRIENDSTER" list. An ordinary friend is someone you send birthday greetings to once you receive the birthday alert from FRIENDSTER. Occasionally, you say hi, hello and how's it going to your ordinary friend. The frequency of communication is at least once a year.
3. Hang-out Friend -- A hang-out friend is someone whom you spend time with currently. He/She is a member of your current click group whom you go out with on bars and clubs. You talk to your hang-out friend at least once a week, and see each other at least once in two weeks. You occasionally go to movies or go shopping with your hang-out friend. Your friendship with your hang-out friend can potentially lead to Friend with benefit, Best Friend or Best Friend Forever.
4. Friend with benefit -- He/She is your hang out-friend whom you can sleep with, no strings attached.
5. Best Friend -- A best friend is someone whom you are currently hanging out with, or whom you spent some time in the past. The difference between a hang-out friend and a best friend is that you completely trust your best friend with your personal problems. Your best friend is there to help you when you're having car-troubles, but he's definitely there to hang-out with you to have a good time also (e.g. movies, shopping).
6. Best Friend Forever -- A best friend forever (B.F.F.) is a higher lever of best friend, in that your B.F.F practically knows you inside and out. H/She is someone whom you can depend on regardless of any situation. A best friend is someone whom you can depend on, on most situations (not all). To illustrate the difference, a best friend is there to be your crying shoulder if you encounter a bad breakup. Your B.F.F. will confront your ex who dumped you!

almost there...

last night i had another gall-stone attack... and it's getting worst... and it's getting frequent... for just this month, i have 3 attacks already... well, last night was the 3rd attack... and i hate it cause im almost there to finish my finals... thou i think it was also a blessing the disguise cuz right now, i was able to finish the final paper for my Kom 3 and later i'll be able to study furthermore for my englsih3 finals, which i'll be taking it this monday, before the graduation meeting and a day before my hospitalization for my operation...

anyways, right now, im really gonna avoid all oily, fatty & salty foods... kasi even just a small piece can really trigger it and give me a hard time to stand still... this stone has really gotta go.

i'll be dropping this paper later before i fetch my mom...

anyways, wish me luck...

it's just too bad i wasn't able to go with my barkada to tagaytay for girard & mouses wedding... but anyways, there's always next time for some gimiks with them... but first have to finish the things needed to be done... like my finals & my gall-stone removal.

wish me luck...


laterz... c",)

have to force myself... just a little bit.

it's finals season at Kalayaan College.

normally i would just relax and just read-browse the notes or hand-outs i have a day before the exam... but with my status as graudating student, there the added factor of being nervous and somehow scared... though, in my mind i should not be scared, but somehow im having a tingling-feeling. especially when i took a completion exam a while ago...

anyways, i should let myself be stressed out by the pressure of doing right for the exams, just to graduate... i should be more relax and cool... hmmm... i should just chill-down a little, but with a little bit of force on the studying-and-doing-my-best part. :P

anyways, im done with my Broad Comm100 exam, which i took last saturday... i'm also done with completion test for Seminar, which i took last week... i'm also done with my removals in Math 100... and the Hum2 presentation, well, i did my best to perform the best zipping a while ago (i hope i do get credit for just zipping around...hehehe)... so that means three more exams (Speech1, SocSci2 & English3), one more completion exam (STS) and a paper (Kom3: script) to go and hopefully i could graduate this April... whohoo on that!!

oh yeah, i still have to pay the balance of P5,350.00 at school... but i guess, i can pay that during clearance... madali na rin nman i-raise yan eh...i hope.

oh well... i guess, that's it na muna... im quite tired na from the days tests and reviews... i know im not yet done reviewing for STS, but i think i can finish the review 2mrw at kalay... mdyo pagod na rin ako and i dnt want to force myself, mahirap ma-stress rin...

o cya... that's it na muna...

wish me luck this finals week.


laterz...

Lie Low

Lie Low

(by Plumb)

You didn't care about me

So I packed my bags

And left you to wonder

What you could've done better

To make our love stronger

We could have lasted forever and longer

But we'll never know how good it could be

This isn't how it should be

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

I couldn't laugh

I couldn't cry

I couldn't waste another day

I couldn't live

I couldn't lie low any longer

Did you ever care about me?

I remember the time

You looked in my eyes and promised

We'd stay together

Our love would grow stronger

The storms we had weathered

Wouldn't last any longer

It could've been so good

But there was something else for me