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i want this one!!

well, im planning to buy this DVD when it comes out... im just thinking on whether or not buy the pirate one... anyways, it's still young to decide... make it next week or so...

anyways, so far, im half-done with my readings for Eng3... but i have to finish it by later so i cud type the critical essay 2mrw... and later on, i'll prep-up for my report for J.S.Mill's 2mrw at Soc.Sci.2...

anyways i think that's all for now, though slightly stressed out this weekend... but im good... just hope for the best for me...

laterz!!! c",)

wowow...eeek!!

well, this weekend was something. it started friday night with the 3-hr traffic going to quiapo church that night... man, i was sitting on the driver's chair for more than 3-hrs... very-VERY stressful and pissing!! yeah, cuz it's the 1st friday of the month and my parents always go there, so as a good-sports to them i try to drive them there most of the time... but last friday was terrible... anyways, i think it's out of my system na... im good.

then yesterday was quite 'so-good'... cuz i did my SA work for the morning and just drove my dad in the afternoon and went out for a dinner-date with an old friend... though the sad news (click on this LINK for the news report from Inquirer's site) for the metro was the almost hundred people who died at ultra for the 1st anniv of wowowee... tsk-tsk, people who really gamble a lot just to get money... anyways, nakakalungkot nga lang pero sana people would really think before they react...

and today, sunday morning... i'll just do my readings for english 3 and do an essay for it... then i'll try to watch Brokeback Mountain after; yesterday i got to watch Proof, it's quite a good movie... got a 'psych' essence too...

anyways, i think after the english3 and the dvd, i'll prep-up myself for the Soc.sci.2 report 2mrw... anyways i think that's a good plan for a sunday...

wish me luck nlng for 2mrws report...

laterz... c",)

an eye for art...

well, got to Ayala Museum yesterday afternoon... and i went there with some of my classmates from my Hum 2 class... and yeah, i took my car... cuz it's quite a hot-fuzzy weather. the place was good. after at the museum, we took a snack at GB in Libis... then there, went back to kalay... and i hanged-out with jobi, ambok & MR... then decided to hang-out at tepay at Katipunan... then after an hour... went to fecth my mom at RP...

well, iha-highlight ko na lang yung tambay with my friends from FA... wala lng... luv ko naman sila eh... kahit mdyo kups sila... :p

anyways... im cool... nothing to worry about. kahit seeing my name on their vandals... i dnt fucking care... u can't please everyone, right?

im good... anyways, have to go back and finish my paper... cuz by 1030, jax will fetch me here later... i'll hitch with him going to school..

laterz...

tag-along... please…

well, it's final (no turning back).... i'll be going to Ayala Museum in Makati this Wednesday, after my class @ kalay at 1130am... but im thinking, should i bring someone? kasi i'll going there alone eh, and parang naghahanap ako ng kasama to go there... i guess, im willing to cover his/her LRT-MRT expenses just for that person na samahan ako (para bang desperadong makahanap ng kasama... hehehe :P)

anyways, im thinking of some people who can tag-along with me...well there's...

- jax (but i think he's busy with a lot of archi stuff, kahit wala syang pasok twing wednesdays...)
- mr (i think may class rin sya pag-wednesday ata... plus baka kasama niya si kini)
- lloyd (sus... mangbababae lang yon... :P )
- nina (may class din ata siya)
- giselle (i doubt it... but im still hopeful na samahan nya ako... pero i have to be careful)
- mga ka-psychs (most of them ay nakapunta na... kaya malabo)
- FA pips (baka wala silang pera & i think may class ata rin sila by that time)

... i guess wala akong mayayaya akong samahan sa ayala museum. i guess it's gonna be another solo-mission for me... (whaaaa!)

pero i know wednesday is still 3 days from now... still raw to decide and to make alok... pero i just hope (not wish!!) that sana may mayaya akong mag-tag-along sa akin going to makati... :P

basta, wish me luck....

nyt-nyt!

laterz... c",)

catching up...

well, i'm one week in-advance done for the report i'll do for my Soc Sci 2 class. just finished doing my research and the hand-out 30 minutes ago... then, i just prepped-up the paper i'll be doing this wednesday night for my Humanidades 2 class, which is about my solo-trip this coming wednesday afternoon at Ayala Museum. i was planning to go there 2mrw, but i just found out that it's close during mondays, and the only free time i can go is on wednesday... so i'll be going there, solo and commuting... this would be fun for me, 'cuz it's gonna be a cheap-but-fun adventure for me... going around the urban jungle by foot... hay... :P

anyways, it's just 12 in the afternoon, and most of my works are done... hmmm... it's weird, but i think satisfying as well... maybe the next thing to do is catching up on the readings i've missed reading for my English 3 class...

oh men... i can't believe im in a good study-mode right now.

though right now, im thinking of giving myself an award for these stuffs i did... hmm... a movie? (well, i think aeon flux would be out this week...) a comic? (nah... im going on a one-time-big-time on that this march) ...what reward should i give to myself... bahala na..!! :P

nways, yesterday was quite a so-so day though, i hanged-out at my best friends house and did some of the readings for my soc sci2 report... while he was doing his archi stuff... basically it's a studious environment there, and it helped me focus on my work. but i hate to notice it, that lately, everyone around me are as busy as the flow of traffic at EDSA... di mo ma-approach. kahit yung bagong friend kong si MR, though i know he's just thinking deep about his problems towards someone he likes... wala lng... parang lahat lang ng tao na nakikita ko o nami-meet ako ay busy... hmmm... maybe it's the '2nd sem syndrome', in which the real start of the 2nd sem is on January and that students are cramming up to do their stuff as well as mix it with their angst and dilemmas in life... anyways, i think i'll just give them their spaces and not to disturb them for a while... ako rin naman, i need some space... :P

oh well... i think that's it na muna. i have to eat lunch na muna then after that catch-up with some of the readings, para 2mrw, focus ako sa Speech1 class requirement about the individual recitation-thing...

hope the best for me... though i know i'm still good. :P


laterz... c",)

it isn't a BIG deal but...

during my Kom 3 class, we shared the poems we wrote as part of our requirement for the subject... basically i just wrote what i'm feeling during the time when they left me last March 21 last year... yeah, the incident where they accidentally left me drunk at katipunan... anyways, some of my classmates in that class were familiar with the story and somehow tried to tease me... but i didn't care that much, somehow i just laughed with them too... after class, i just realized that it will be almost a year since that bad night and somehow i was able to laugh it out now... hmm...

im not really mad at them now... yeah, i still hang-out with most of them and still good friends with some... but i still wanna make them pay for the immaturity and irresponsibility they did... as i said before, i hope for their karma to come and hope that im on the audience seat. for me, it would be some kinda treasure... just like having them as my friends...

it's kinda weird, but so far that's what my mind is set after the said incident...

well, for the readers, click on this LINK to know what happened to me last March 21, 2005...

anyways, so far im cool with it... im good.


laterz...

weekend ender...

it's been a while since i've blogged... well i think a few days back would be considered as a "been-a-while". anyways, it's a so-so weekend, the usual weekend: class for the saturday morning, drive to accu-pressure therepy in the afternoon and chill after... then sunday would be just chillin out at home and try to finish whatever things to be done for the coming week...

the only thing that somehow made it into a not-that so-so day was watching the boxing fight a while ago on Paquiao vs. Morales, in which the Pac-man won... go manny!! (yey!!) watching the fight a while ago remind me of the time i've watched one of his fights live and for free... and it was really intense that time... cuz im just a few feet away from the ring... fascinating. Also, I got to finish a very good comicbook i borrowed from a friend at kalay… Batman: The Dark Knight Returns… it’s a Batman comics in which Frank Miller (Sin City, Daredevil) wrote it… and it’s where there’s a girl Robin (Carrie… something)… good story!! ANG LUPET!!!

anyhow, 2mrw my class would just be at 230 to 4pm... so i kinda have a lot of spare time, and that spare time i'll be going to DV to buy some stuff... and yeah, get the things my best friend is asking for there... then hopefully i'll be back in school by 1 or 2pm, just before classes starts.

oh well... i guess that's it for now... im still good (though the thing that bugs me is still there, but i think im still finding for the time to fix it... but time will tell when i'll fix it)


okay... laterz!! c",)

romantic-comedy for the morning...

i woke up a while ago, around 5 in the morning... well, my eyes opened at around 4... but i woke up at 5... well, i woke up having quite a kinky dream... anyways... when i woke up at 5, i i tried to go back to sleep... but to no avail. so i decided to watch a movie... though i wanna watch something accelerating, i sat down and watch Must Love Dogs, a romantic-comedy... it was a fun-feel-good movie... but somehow i wasn't expecting it to really watch it.... (though in my head back then im hopiing by watching this flick would make me go back to 'lala' land...) anyways, it somehow made a good jump start for my brain cells to function properly today... it's kinda weird, but it's cool... at least i got to jump start on the right time... 'cuz later i'l be having my mid-term exam for Social Science 2... in which right now i'm trying to make some very last minute reviews (oh cramming... it never left my system... but hey, it helps too though)

anyways, while writing this blog, i trying to get to know martin luther and hopefully niccolo machiavelli... just to have something to answer for the exam later @ 1pm...

anyways, wish me luck... i'll be leaving home for school later at around 10-ish, i'll be riding along with my best friend... and hoping that i could catch a ride again in the afternoon... :p

wish me luck & hope for the best for me!!!


laterz!!! c",)

the shrink is IN...

hey hey hey... it's been quite not-that-long since i blogged... to many thing happened in those days... though i was planning to blog them, i just decided that it's time to keep somethings for myself... though, again, there are things thatare really something to share with...

anyways, i was suppose to blog last night... but i got home pass midnight and quite sleepy too... but last night, it was fun... cuz for its been a very long time... almost months that i have not been hanging out with my FA family... and last night, i hanged out with them... and it's the bonding that i missed the most!!! GRABE!!! na-miss to talaga sila... kahit na nakikita ko silasa kalay palagi, i wasn't able to hang-out with them regularly... puro "hi's" and "hello's"... and last night was awesome!!! though israel & seth weren't able to come... but being with ambok, joby, tepay, gato, denise, trisha, & dave (whose bday was the reason of the gathering...) i miss them a lot!!! plus there were new friends that i got to know,... like MR and kini (the jap girl), Ayah, angky... at iba pa...

oh memories!!! i damn!!!

kahit na i never able to drink with them last night... the bonding, the jokes, the talks... grabe!!! i would not trade them for anything!!! mahal na mahal ko sila!!! their my friends!!! c",)

anyways... im so happy right now...

hay naku... enjoy talaga... cant wait for the next... malamang sa bday ni seth sa february... pero mas enjoy 'to sa bday ko sa May 2006... hehehe!!! gang-bang ito!!! :P

(hitit ng hangin)... i guess i have to start na with some of my homeworks na rin... kasi this week, start na rin ng midterms namin... and there's exams, write-ups... and oh, i forgot... the grad plans... oh well, i thought that this sem would be worry-free... i just thought, but in reality it's not that quite free... but, the load is quite right, not that heavy naman...

oh well... anyways... have to start on something na muna... im happy. im good!! yeah!!


oh yeah... i forgot... just something i just wanna post... one of the reason i wasn't able to blog for some time was that of me, being a shrink for some love-sick patients... thought, i would like to blog in just a gist of the stories they shared... i can't, cuz i promised that i won't tell a soul... just to prove that somehow, i can really be trusted. and that 'di ako naglalaglag ng mga kaibigan ko... eh kasi mahal ko sila eh!!! :D (that's the reason fo the title... ehehe!)


o cya... maya na lang uli...

laterz... c",)

so-and-so...

the ever-ending journey of everyday lives is about to make a slight (really, just a slight) turn... uhm... to be honest, that slight turn doesn't make any difference right now... i think.

what an i talking about? well, it's about my upcoming graduation this April... yeah, somehow im feeling the pressure of graduating on time when i came to school a few days back. though there aren't talks or chit-chats about it, i know the air of graduation is upon us. (or am i just being paranoid that im still in that place that i really don't know what will happen to me after college...? oh men...)

anyways, it's been a while since i blog... so far, this is the thing in my mind right now...

oh yeah, right now, my head kinda aches, cuz of waking me up at 4 in the morning just to drive my parents to church... (grrrr!!) but anyways, i'll just try to rest for a few munites after this blog and im off to jax and help me out on my math problem.


...and 2mrw is just another day.



laterz... c",)

wanting some sugar-rushing...

i miss the times when i'm having those sugar-rush... though with being conscious with my diet lately makes me wish i could eat sweets again... cuz a while ago i was somehow craving for a peanut-butter & jelly sandwich... hmm... those were the times... (aahhh memories)... sana maulit muli.

anyways, a few days back, i was under the weather, thus makes me not able to attend school today... but so far, im quite good na rin... sana makapasok na ako 2mrw...

wish me luck!! :P

laterz!!! c",)

so it begins...

well, its the 1st day of 2006, my year.

so im thinking, it's a new year.. so i think it's a good time to list down the things i should have by the end of this year... it's sort of a resolution list in which i list down my goals for my life and also somethings i wanna experience with...

so here goes my desires and plan for this year... and yeah, i'll be as realistic as possible...

- really graduate this March 2006
- be physically fit (go back to boxing or just start running again)
- find a decent but FUN job by May-July 2006 (make it related to my interest or to my psych course)
- if possible, be in a relationship (though rushing it is bad, waiting is still the safest way)
- more new clothes (hey, im getting thinner, so might as well buy suitable clothes)
- try to make it a regular, bi-weekly or monthly, habit to collect comics.
- hang-out with friends more often (from my FA family, my best friend, close friends and to my ka-psychs and other potential friends in the near future)
- after graudation, there will be a lot of time to spend it with family.
- and if there's the suffcient money, try to enroll for a MA in Psych... (but i think this will be more 2007 than this year... neways, bahala na si batman)
- buy good colletion of books, action figures (Marvel Select, Statuettes, etc for displays)
- try to find my artistic side ('cuz i have lost it during the time when i was doin my thesis... have to refresh my sketching skills again)

so i guess that for the realistic plans for this year...

now let's go to my psuedo-possible, but can be attained things / desires i want for 2006...

- be more sexually active (hey!! 3-4 months of not having it kinda sux... have to play more around)
- get a flat screen TV (those 35' - up)
- home theater system
- collect good & original DVDs
- a better hi-end PC
- a new cellular phone
- Toyota Fortuner
- renovate my room (more display shelves & less closet cabinets...)
- keep in contact with my fu-bu now and then (i wish... she has a bf right now and just having SOPs with her isn't consider as fucking ur fu-bu... hehehe)

well, that's all i could think right now... but i guess it's good na rin for this year. hehehe :P


neways... it's the 1st day of 2006. though im in a lazy-mode right now... i wanna go out...but i can't. i have to catch up on my reading and finish some short papers for my class this tuesday... yeah i'll be coming back to school this tuesday... hay naku!

oh well... i think that's it for today...


laterz... c",)

the year that was... WOW!!

yeah, in a few hours from now, i say good-bye to 2005 and say hello to 2006 (which is also the year of the Dog, my YEAR!!!)

anyways, things were really unexpected this 2005... well, unexpected and expected... it's like i know it will happen, but i just don't know when it will happen... gets?

anyways... i wasn't expecting that i'll be having great friends, but the price of having them has an expiration date. though it's sad to know 'bout that, i still try to be close with some of them...

there's also the comeback of my best friend, yeah, it was May 25, 2005 that made me and my best friend (jax) friends again (yehey!!!)... and now, comparing it from the last time, i think our bonds are more stronger than ever... we trust each other and a lot more... (yeah, past is past, but still, in my head i still have some questions that i wanna asked him... but i guess the answers of those questions will come out when the right time comes... i really do not need it to push it... kusa din yang lalabas... right?)

and there's also the victory of my thesis... it was something challenging, yet i still got to kick-ass in my thesis... with the pressures and the gall-stone i have, it was a very tough time for me though... but with friends like jax, nina, my FA-family and mga ka-psychs... i was able to give my best... and thus, i gave my very best. yipee on that!! :P

oh yeah, before the whole me-&-my-best-friends-are-friends-again and the thesis-gig... there was the practicum i did during the summer... yeah it was something fun to experience.. it gave me the realization that i should look for a decent or good-paying job right after graduation... so a few months back, i tried-out for a call center job (but failed) and right now i tried-out also at starbucks (still waiting for the call from the store manager)... i guess, it's the time na rin to be more independent and be more on my own, financially and other aspects of living... to sum it up, nangangati na ako mag-trabaho. :P

... and my TV appearences... being a judge of the Philippine Lottery and a contestant at Pilipinas Game KNB?... it was a big fun to experience these things... :P

well, i guess that's for the positive-happy side of 2005... (oh yeah!! i forgot my Bday get-together... it was the best bday ever!!!)


the sad-negative part of 2005 were the following...

...there's my Ate Kay going to australia for good... though im really happy for her there, i still miss her... she helped me a lot on moving-on in my life...

and there's also the thing that happened last March 21, 2005... in which the FA-family left me drunk at Katipunan... though i have forgiven them, that doesn't mean i have forgotten about their immature acts... but yeah, i still love them and all, but still... masakit yung ginawa nila sa akin eh... and they know me naman eh... but hey, somehow, i should leave all sad-negative things that happened in 2005 on that year, right? it's gonna be a new year hours from now... so it's just water under the bridge...

oh... i forgot, well it's just a petty thing... but i think i should include the battle i loss in winning the heart of Isa Crespo... though we're civil and yeah we would chat sometimes, i still have feelings towards her (but not that much na...) but hey, i'll just let my pride and ego speak and say that it's her loss not mine (hehehe... blog ko nman ito eh, kaya being narcissistic here is normal)



yeah, im cool na rin with all the things that happened to me this 2005... i still learned a lot from it... and still learning from it...

so cheers to 2005... it was fun doing it!!! WOW!!!! :P

and now... welcome 2006... the year of the dog!!! and soon on May 2006 (aside from Da Vinci Code and X3)... i'll be 24 years old and hopefully gradurated from college... :P



HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! c",)

something new this coming 2006...

well, i just opened another blog... and this time, it is more theme-oriented than this blog... but i'll be starting to post on the new blog next year, w/c wud be around 2-3 days from now...

anyways, i'll put the link next time... or just check my profile page to know about it... anyways, i think that's it for now...

btw, im quite cool and good na rin... medyo lie-low lang ako right now... di na muna ako mangkukulit sa best friend ko... kasi baka naasar na siya sa akin eh... ayaw ko naman magalit siya sa akin... mahal ko yon eh... hehehe :P

neways... still... happy holidays!! :D

Dedma... (a.k.a. the song about my feelings)

Lagi Mo Na Lang Akong Dinededma
by:Rocksteddy

Matagal ko nang gustong malaman mo
Matagal ko nangg itinatago-tago 'to
Nahihiyang magsalita
At umuurong aking dila
Pwede bang bukas na
Ipagpaliban muna natin 'to

Dahil kumukuha lang ng tiyempo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Matagal ko ng gustong sabihin 'to
Matagal ko ng gustong aminin sa'yo
Sandali, eto na
At sasabihin ko na
Ngayon na, mamaya
O baka pwedeng bukas na

Dahil kumukuha lang ng buwelo
Upang sabihin sa iyo

Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit 'di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, pero 'di mo lang alam, ohwoh..

Ngunit kumukuha lng ng tiyempo
Upang sbihin sa iyo

spoken:
Mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita WALA
Pero hindi ako TORPE
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan
Oo o hindi
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa

Mahal kita, pero di mo lang alam
Mahal kita, pero di mo lang ramdam
Mahal kita, kahit di mo na ako tinitignan
Mahal kita, kahit lagi mo na lang akong dinededma

STOP!!!

i guess i have to stop it for good. i think that's the only way to really move on...

though it will be a difficulty to do it, i really have no other choices. i must stop it before it can create more damage to myself and to the people i love... so far, it already has taken some toll from the people i love... and i was just too naive and too scared to face my own monster(/s).

and it's not just stopping it, i have to cut it off so it won't come back again...

shit.

i really love these people, and it's gonna be difficult to loose them and not be in my life anymore... but i have to sacrifice them... for their sake and for mine as well.

ang lungkot nga lang isipin na kung kailan patapos na yung taon, doon din magtatapos yung mga pinagsamahan ng mga mahal ko... masakit talaga sa akin, pero wala akong magagawa, ayaw ko madamay sila...

it's really gonna be a difficult one for me this time... i hope there's an alternative way soon.


...though i really love what this year has brought me... i have outwitted the challenges i have faced, got to reunite friendships and was able to surpass what college has given me... and this March 2006, i'll be graudting na rin... it's just the past that keeps on bugging me and i just can't let it just ruin it again...

oh men... this sucks... really!

anyways, have to think it more deep... i wish there's an alternative soon, cuz i'll be needing it... i just don't wanna loose the people that i love.


hope for the best...

...when i can go and shoot myself?

can't think of a theme/title for this blog... although, there are a lot of thing in my mind right now...

anyways, i'll just blog about what happened to me yesterday... though today is still quite young, and i think things can still happen.

i was suppose to blog last night, but the driving from here at antipolo to tagaytay and vise-versa was really somthing to get treally tire off... plus the supper heavy traffic when we were going home... i cn't bloody believe it that i would run our vehicle on 2nd gear on the south super highway last night... ganun ka-traffic... sighs!!

anyways, yesterday, i though it's just those 'visit-a-relative-and-minggle-with-them' old routine... but yeah, it's the same ol' routine... but luckily, i saw an old classmate from my high school... ayon, kwentuhan and kamustahan with my other ol' high school friends and about thier current status in their own live... (even though my high school life was something not memorable and happy, there are notable-positive things that i do treasure about them...) anyways, got to catch up naman, which is cool... and somehow, yeah, i miss them too... (honest! walang plastic ito!! though sometimes, there's the thought of getting back at them, but hey! i believe in karma... i just hope kung kakarmahin na sila, i'll be on the audience sit to watch... hehehe :P )

ayon... good day na rin naman yesterday, 'cept for the freaking cold weather there... i never imagined that it would be that freaking cold at tagaytay...

anyways... ayon na muna... i have to fix my sked for this week... have to catch up na rin with my readings and homewarks, before classes starts next week tuesday... wish me luck...

laterz... c",)

Kinky Christmas... (down boy!!)

something kinky for the holiday season... hehehe!!!

(watch out for the "fireworks" on the 31st... hehehe) :P

laterz dudes & dudettes!!! Happy Holidays again!! c",)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Just ate a quite early christmas dinner (aka. Noche Buena)... and im quite full, i just hope it won't give me pain... i just really pray that no pain would come to me this season...

anyways, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!!! c",)

Maligayang Pasko!!! Merry Christmas!!! Feliz Navidad!!!

How to survive this weekend (according to Zafra)

(December 24, 2005 /12:29pm)

anyways, it's Christmas eve right now... well, it's the afternoon of the Eve... and so far, i'm just surfing around... and yeah, i wanna put this link of Jessica Zafra's blog about what to do on this yuletide weekend... and i kinda like #3... though it fits my profile, cuz i cnt drink anything alcoholic right now..

3. If you don't feel like drinking, pretend to be drunk anyway. This gives you an excuse to tell people exactly what you think of them. (Unless you're already in the habit of telling people exactly what you think.) Afterwards, you can apologize and blame everything on the nefarious effects of alcohol.

anyways... i can say that christmas this year was a 'so-so' season... cuz there was the bad and the good... and the good over threw the bad... cuz yesterday, i got another cool gift from lloyd & nina... and it's a pinoy comix... it's Zsa-Zsa Zaturnah!!!

so far, i'm happy with the gifts i got from my closest friends (lloyd & nina) and from my best friend (jax)... i think im satisfied na rin with this season... c",)

oh well... MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!!!


laterz... :P

i don't feel christmas-y this year...

(December 22, 2005 / 8:50pm)

yeah, it's true... the spirit of christmas isn't working its mojos on me this year. though there are some times that i wanna feel the yuletide spirirt, but to no avail, it only last for a very short time. though i loved the gifts, well the gift i got from my best friend, and also the things i bought for myself... it's just different, very different from the past christmas i have before...

let me try and analyze it...

well, there's the not able to attend our ka-psychs x'mas get together... and there's the thing with my FA family (but i guess i really have to get myself out of that picture by now)... oh yeah, most of my friends sees me as a 'disability', due to my current health problem (RE: my gallstone)... and that 'disability' that they see on me makes them to decide not to invite me on their inumans and gimiks...

to be sarcastic... i am enjoying my new point of view about the yuletide season.

and to be frank about it... i sucks... and, yeah, i'm quite disappointed at them...

...good thing there's my best friend and my other close friends... thus to conclude, yeah, in a way there's the tiny bit of christmas spirit still inside me... thanks to them (RE: best friend & closest friends)


anyways, just on the brighter side... loosing weight gave me something to be proud of... got a new pair of pants, shoes... and some other stuff for myself... hehehe :P


i think that's it for the season... HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of ya...


'cuz it may take a while for me to blog something next... cuz have to deal with these feelings i have for a certain individual (RE: previous blog entry) for a while right now... assess myself if i should try it or not... 'cuz supressing it makes me experience more pain and it could lead to being clinically depress... have to fix it at once...

oh well...


laterz!!!

I'm so tired... but still the feeling i have is still there...

(December 21, 2005 / 7:58pm)

yes, the feelings i have for this certain individual is still there... though it really kills me to know that i still have that feelings... and i don't know how to deal with it. (help!)

i'm also afraid that if i submit myself to the feelings i have, it's will have a domino effect and surely it can end up into something painful to both parties... but more painful to myself.

anyways, i wish time would some that i can say the feelings i have to this specific individual and somehow we will both understand our sides... and somehow there would have a good and happy resolution after.

anyways, it really bugs me, these feelings i have... it's been for months now... though it wasn't a biggie issue to me a year ago, but now it's somehow what's to get notice and taken seriously... i just pray for the right time and oppurtunity to tell the person my feelings about the individual...

anyways, so far, i'm still good... nuthin to worry about, except that (and life after college...)

i guess time will come... but i hope i can handle it, 'cuz the last time was really painful that almost made me clinically depressed...

oh, i guess that's it so far...


laterz... c",)

Something new for me...
(December 17, 2005 / 9:23pm)


i just got myself my own DVD player!!! (yey!)

though, things still are quite shaky right now... with the sliffles too... i'm cool na rin. just need to stay calm, relax and just have a clear thought.

by the way, christmas na rin ako... so i have two weeks of from school... have to catch up with my readings and really start to prep-up for school... kasama na rin yung other 3 subjects ko na may kulang pa... para by March 2006, i'll be graduating on time.

im good... just really have to have a clear way of thinking way through things.

i guess, that's for now...wish me the best.

laterz...

what a F*%king boring day... (what's worst is today is the last day of school for the year)
(December 16, 2005 / 3:43pm)

im bored right now... cuz of my stupid mom's decision to let me wait...

wait for nothing!!!

and it made me decide not to go to our ka-psychs x'mas party... nakaka-asar talaga nanay ko!!

oh well, 2mrw i'll buy a new dvd player... and this time, it's MY dvd player.

o cya... maya nlng uli.

still bored... hope things will be good 2mrw.

laterz. :P

Clips from X3
(December 12, 2005 / 9:14am)


well, after a few days of being mad... im now cool and so far a-ok. right now i'm still at home, cuz my class is still at 1pm later... and i think my best friend will spend a night here, he'll be using my Pc for his research-thing for school-something... anyways, nuthin' new much... except that if ever things went good 2mrw, i'll be going to Market-Market to get some pending comics there...

anyways, here are some pics from X3...


I think this scene is where they (Storm, Wolverine, Colossus, Rogue, Iceman & Shadowcat) came from a Danger Room session... anyhow, it's good to know that there are new mutants that have joined the group...

here's the Brotherhood of Mutants led by Magneto... and surprisingly, Jean Grey (Dark Phoenix) is one of the new members of the group...

galit (in english, anger)
(December 9, 2005 / 8:49pm)


oo, ako'y galit... umaga pa lang hindi na masaya ang araw ako. ngunit nung pumasok ako sa kalay ay sinubukan kong maging masaya. naging masaya nga ako, pero hindi sapat upang matanggal ang aking galit sa aking isipan.

kung nagtataka kayo kung saan ako galit... hindi saan... kanino. galit ako sa nanay ko. dahil sa kanyang walang kwentang letanya kanina umaga. wala sa lugar ang kanyang mga sinasabi. gusto ko sana siya sagutin, ngunit ayaw ko mabwiset ang araw ko... sa totoo, gustong gusto ko siyang barahin sa mga sinasabi niya kanina... kaso pinilit ko na lang ang sarili ko... tinimpis ko na lang ito... ngunit, parang di ko ito papalampasin... kung humirit muli siya bukas ng umaga, bahala na... ano man ang mangyari, isusulat ko na lang muli sa blog na ito bukas (o sa makalawa).

kahit nung sinundo ko siya kanina sa opisina, di ko pinapansin... lalo pang kanina nung nagdadasal kami... talagang galit ako.

kasi naman talaga, wala siyang karapatan mag-drama sa mga pinagsasabi niya... at sana sinuri niya muna ang sitwasyon kanina... nakakabwiset lang talaga ang nanay ko!!

putang ina niya talaga.



...ayon, naibuhos ko na ata yung nasa loobin ko tungkol sa aking galit sa araw na ito. sarap talagang barahin o sagutin ang mga sinasabi ng nanay ko kanina...

grrr!!!

o, cya... ito na muna sa araw na ito.


(i think this is good enough to vent off my anger... and typing it in my native tongue feels good... i think i should type in filipino more often...)

laterz...

i so happy!!! (cuz i just got to download the X3 trailer!)
(December 8, 2005 / 7:28pm)


i just got a copy of the 1st trailer of X3... now i'll just try to open it with something...

pero im so happy & excited!!

anyways... the day was quite good na rin... kasi i got to woke-up early a while ago for my job interview for starbucks at makati. though it went good, i hope when i call them 2mrw it's a good-good news for me... so that i cud contact one of the co-applicants i met there and buy the toys i want for collection. :P

then after the interview at makati, i commuted towards kalayaan... it was fun... kasi i get to travel fast and light going to school... though i hated the pants im wearing, cuz it's raining and its getting wet... sira tuloy yung pagka-semi formal ko... hehehe :p

then going home, i took a ride with jax then i was dropped off at the front gate of our house... then now... i just got the trailer of X3... whopee!! :P

lupet!! :P

anyways... gotta rest na muna... so far i have just ran out of adrenaline... hehehe :P

laterz... c",)

X3: The Last Stand (opens May 2006)
(December 6, 2005 / 8:20pm)


well... here's the first look of Kelsey Grammer as the Beast for X3:The Last Stand... though the title seems a give way that it's gonna be the last x-men flick ever (but i hope it's not true!!!)


anyways... below naman is a clip from the trailer... and a first glimpse of Angel too... :P

here's a clip from the teaser trailer... it's where angel unfolds his wings... and he's in a sort-of-a laboratory... i think the lady on the right is Dr. Kavita Rao... and i dnt know who is the guy on the left... anyways... i haven't downloaded the trailer, think a lot of people are downloading it... so i guess i'll give a fews days before i can rip it. :P

my war against my gall-stone...(the pain that i can't take it anymore)
(December 5, 2005 / 7:01pm)


well, last night i had another gall-stone attack... and the pain is getting worst than before... it really made me weak... and scared too.

there were times that i would really just want to pass-out just to not feel the pain, but i can't... the pain is really something i can't just ignore it. around 10:30pm last night it started, then i took the medicine to kill the pain, but to no avail... it gets more painful.

then i started to shout, because of the pain... im wishing that it would just be gone... im willing to go under the knife just to remove this stone that has been bothering me since i was finishing my thesis two months ago...

anyways, at around 1:30am, i was sent to the ER... just inject me with good pain-killers... first hospital that i was brought to was Amamng Rodriguez at marikina... it was a not-so-friendly ER... then my mom decided to bring me to Medical City's ER, for sure the doctors there will surely assists me... and it's true, once i was there, this nice doctor assisted me and in a way give me some anti-puking injections and the same painkiller i ingested when the pain started to attack me (but what the doctor gave me was the injectable version, so that it can work faster)...

that was aournd past 2am... 10-15minnutes later the pain went from heavy to light... and i thought i was out of the woods... i was wrong.

then at around 3am, the pain was getting to gets its revenge... and it's worst than before... i was screaming again... then my mom ask the doctor if i could get another and better pain-killer... then they gave me the ultimate pain-killer, demerol... it's the same thing that made me woozy when i was rushed at Capitol two months ago... it's strong enough that it made me sleep soundly. and the pain was gone.

at around 6am.. i woke up and pain was gone... thank god for that!!

right now... im eating no solid food right now... i have to go back to my strict-fruits-only diet for a week... just to avoid the pain again. then im planning to get an ultrasound within a week, just to check on my stone... whether it reduced its size or worst... but i hope it would be good news for me.

and when our family is financially stable... im planning to remove this thing... but things can still change... we might look for another way in removing it.

painful day... but im happy i have survived it. and oh yeah, during those painful ordeal, i miss my friends... though i got my strenght from my mom and sister during those times, i miss my friends too, cuz from them also i get my strenght too...

anyways... im cool na... just hope i can be healed as soon as possible... hope for the best for me.

laterz...

It happened again... and it's painful (though i hope this won't happen again days from now)
(December 2, 2005 / 1:06pm)


yesterday was my parent's anniversary... and there was a small feast, just between the family... then i ate.

then came night time... my abdomen area is starting to feel pain again... thus i drank the medicine that was prescribe to drink if ever i feel pain... and drunk the last camomile teabag... then i went to sleep...

the following day, at around 2:30am... i woke up with the pain reoccuring again... and this time, i know it's the same pain i had 2 months ago, with a little bit more painful by a notch... so i took another prescirbed medicine i took a few hours back... but to no avail, it somehow it didn't work... the pain was really fucking painful... then my parents assisted me to take the natural way of healing... in way, i was relieved by around 5:30am...

then i went to sleep... woke-up at around 10-ish... with some feezing feeling... though the pain is gone, i hope it won't return in a long time... and i hope my gall-stone is back to it's rest-mode... anyways, right now im good.

i just didn't went to school today... and yeah, my best friend is going some bday treat of one of our friends from high school, and he tried to make me tag-along... but i just declined it, without telling the reason why... i think it's better he doesn't know what i went through in the wee hours of the morning... don't want him to be concern of anything...

anyways... that's it for now... have to go back to square one of my diet... soup.

laterz... c",)

Now back to being a normal human being... (though i'll be missing my life as a celebrity... i hope i can join again next month...)
(November 30, 2005 / 9:42pm)


i didn't made it to the final four... and it's because of being mental blocked by nicole kidman... i should have watched starwars a few days back... nanghinayan talaga ako dun... but that didn't ruin my day... in fact, i had FUN!! it was a good experience joining the game... and if ever given a chance, i'll join again... given a months time.

oh well... here are some pictures that i have taken with some celebs before i left the ABS-CBN compound...

--o0o--

before i left ABS-CBN... i got the chance to have a pic with the cute Nikki Gil... she's somehow has the gf material (i think)... :P

anyways... laterz... im cool about it naman eh. c",)

while this one was with another PBB housemate... Hot-Mama Jenny... she's pretty. :D

here's a pic that was taken a while ago... it's me and PBB's Chx... though i wish its her without the clothes... hehehe :P

picture... PICTURE!!! (my 1st day of taping...)
(November 29, 2005 / 11:29pm)


eto ang malupet!!! me & asia agcaoili... one hot steaming babe!!! and she's very nice and down-to-earth... oh yeah baby!!!

me and this time with mariel rodriguez... too bad that time she has a very red left eye (ewww!)... but she's cool. c",)

me and toni gonzaga... as long as she doesn't talk, pwede na!! :P

...and my TV debut was delayed (but the P500 isn't bad enough)
(November 29, 2005 / 5:08am)


yesterday was something... i was @ ABS-CBN at around 12:30pm (ang aga!!) and then, the briefing and all the necessary thing to be prep-up was around 3pm... talk about more than 3 hours of BLAH!! though the time of not-doing-anything wasn't something bad, in fact i was able to get some pictures with some notable and pretty celebs, with the likes of Toni Gonzaga, Mariel Rodriguez and the sex-goddess Asia Agcaoili... who wouldn't be bored?!

anyways...i'll post the picture once i have emailed it.

unluckily, i wasn't able to be as part of the game, which will shown December 9,10 and 12... that means, i have to be back on wednesday afternoon for the December 13, 14 and 15 episodes. i do hope i could get in this time...and also win.

anyways, i got to meet some people during the breaks.... some of them i've met the day before, during the screening examination, they're really nice and good people... so yeah, may pseudo-barkada na yung new batch of players... and i kinda enjoyed it... though, it's sad that most of them got to play for the December 12 episode, i won't see then anymore on wednesday... pero we'll be txtng just to keep in touch. :P

so far i think that's it for now... and wednesday will be the next taping for me... and i hope this time, i could get in & win. :D


laterz... c",)

May Tama Ka!!! (part 2...)
(November 27, 2005 / 9:08pm)


i got there early and so far it went well.

...cuz i got in for the taping of Game KNB.

it's gonna be 2mrw... at 2pm... so i'll be bring 2 extra polo shirts too (just in case i win the first taping... and i hope i win)

in a way, im quite nervous right now... but quite relaxed na rin.

i really hope i win... one reason is that the pressure the people here at home throws at me... though i'll try not to make this thinking bother me 2mrw.

oh well... just wish me luck for 2mrw...

and i promise i won't go crazy over the game setting and the host... i'll really concentrate on winning and listen to the questions (and giving the right answer.)

Hope for the best for me 2mrw.

nyt & laterz... c",)


*though i took some pictures a while ago, i'll post them once i get to send them...

May Tama ka!!! (KHOOORECT!!)
(November 26, 2005 / 4:47pm)


how can i say this without ruining the suspence... who cares!! (it's my blog... being anti-climactic is part of my life)

anyways, here it goes... i'm gonna try-out to be a studio contestant for a TV game show 2mrw (sunday) @ 1pm. and the said TV game show is Game KNB, which is hosted by the very eccentric Kris Aquino. so 2mrw i hope i cud get in and win (i pary & hope that i get in and win).

there, i guess the suspence is gone... now let's go a few hours ago before the adrenaline rush happened.

at around 9am i turned off my cel-phone to charge it... then 2 hrs later, i tunred it on then i received a message that someone tried to get in... so called the number. it was from the people from the said TVgame show... and to my surprised, i was chosen to try-out if i have the guts to be their studio contestant... but the sad news was i nevered answered the call (cuz it was off then...stupid me!!) so that meant i lost my chances of playing. after i dropped the phone, i felt as if i fell off from a 100th storey building... how can i so stupid to turn off my celphone!?!

anyways... then a few minutes after (after the whining and being regretful of the acts) i decided to call them back... and acted out as if i didn't made the previous call (in tagalog, nag patay-malisya ako). thank god it's a different person who answered. so anyway i inquired who they are and what's the reason for their call... then my bad luck turned a 180 degree turn and my good luck was back... in a nutshell, i was in for their screening exam 2mrw.

then it followed by an adrenaline rush and later on a terrible headache... which right now is quite gone.

im so excited!!! i really hope i cud get in and hopefully win...

anyways... hope for the best for me 2mrw... (may balato kayo kung nakapasok ako at nanalo!! promise!!!)

oh well... what a good way to start my long weekend... it isn't that bad at all... it's better than going to a beach!!! :P

laterz... c",)

im not thankful that it's friday... worst, it's another long weekend (oh men!!)
(November 25, 2005 / 9:02pm)


it's friday and i'm not in love. well it's the allergy that i have right now. my head kinda aches, my nose is dripping like a broken faucet and i can't trust my decision... just like what happened a while ago.

well, it started when my speech class started... the sniffles have began to give me a hard time on concentrate on copying and participating in class. then after that i went to fully booked to get a book, which will be a gift for one of my friends. but during the trip, i kept on sneezing and sneezing... it's getting quite worst... then after i got the book, i went crazy and decided to go to DV... well even for a few minutes. so i went there, walked around. well the a gridline-vicinity within the LRT station, just to keep me familiar of what the place is like when me and my best friend go there this coming wednesday (and i hope that i'll have the money to buy the bag that im eyeing since my best friend showed it to me then). anyhow, i was just there for around 15-20 minutes... basically i did a recon of the place. then i went back to kalay, just in time for the org meeting.

before going back to school, the sniffles kinda lie-low... maybe becuase of my enthusiasm or excitement of DV (or something)... neways, during the trip back, it started to come back... i kept on sneezing and sneezing again.

then around 20 minutes, i was back at kalay... i was quite surprised that it took minutes and not hours of the travel... it's too ALIAS. anyhow, back in the meeting of our fabulous KPA... well during the meeting i was starting to get drowzy... it's a common effect when i have the sniffles... hay... the meeting went well, i just hope the plans would materialize too.

after the meeting, i hitched with my friend and was dropped at RP... when i was about to go down, my dad called telling me that sta.lucia (one of the malls there) was bombed... as i took off, i saw a lot of people who have a weird look at the said mall... though i was curious to find out what really happened, but the drowzy and sleepiness was making me go home. so i took a jeep home, though the jeep was a crazy ride, it didn't even shaken my drowziness, it made me more sleepy. <oh yeah, later on i found out through the news that it was just a bombscarce... they just found a fake bomb in the mall>

then i got home, fell on my bed and BAM!!! slept... til it was dinner time... that was an hour ago.

sniffles kinda gone, but still there... drowziness is now lighter than before...

so now i think i have finished my blog for the day.

and yeah, got to watch the last episode of Darna (my guilty-pleasure show)... which ended badly... but i'll miss that show though.

so today is a 'so-so' day after all.

i guess that is all for now. oh yeah, it's a start of another long weekend... and as of now, i don't know what's my plan... i guess chillin' out is an option. :P

laterz... c",)

SABBATICAL... i desperately need it!
(November 25, 2005 / 7:33am)


rest...

rest...

rest...


...i wish that four letter word is easy to get.

but noooo!!

<i'm guess it goes the same with the other four letter word... like LOVE>


oh well... REST...



i need to go sabbatical on this...

I just realized... i'm not really alone (but i still HATE them!!)
(November 22, 2005 / 11:02pm)


in my previous blog... i have mentioned that i have no friends.

i made a BIG (and terrible) mistake.

i do have friends...

it's not as much as i wish, but sufficient enough to love them.

they are the friends who also loves me for what i am.

though right now i have realized i really have to cut some people out of lives, because of my naivete... 'cuz they're one of the factors that pulls me down.

anyways... the rest that i have mentioned on my previous blog stays the same...

which means, i still HATE them!!!

oh well, gotta sleep and 2mrws a challenge.

wish me luck.

laterz...


*yeah, im good... no need to worry about me... i'm cool. c",)

what good did i do today? (confessions of an eccentic person)
(November 22, 2005 / 9:02pm)


as i am trying to type this blog, i was trying to remember what happened during this day...

so far it's the regular routine that i do during a school day.

wake up.

prep-up for school.

drive my mom to her office (this includes chatting with my mom during the ride).

go to school (and attend my classes).

hang-out with friends...

... hanging-out with friends... the questions that is running in my mind right now is... who are my friends?

there's the famous quote saying that... "show me who are your friends, and i can tell you what kind of a person you are." if this were true, then why am i like this?

a push-over. uto-uto. easy to fool (and any words / phrases that can suit me).

am i destined to be just on the agreeing party? even though i want to say my part, kahit walang mag-suporta sa akin? i don't know what's worst, to be a push-over or to be alone with nothing damn to give to people...

so far, since i started college i was blinded by a lot of things. blinded by the fact that people, even the closes ones are, in fact, very deceptive. and this blindness has turned into plain stupidity later on in my college life (RE: March 21, 2005 with israel, seth, eldon, denise, gato, jobi, ambok, tepay and the rest of the FA 'family').

yes, i am so stupid enough to trust people whom i considered as a family. this isn't the 1st time, there was high school, the people from victory, the FA people and it's somehow starting with my ka-psych family. though i learned from my mistakes, i believe in chances (di lang 2nd chances... to the nth chances). but why do i do the same mistake on trusting people, whom i see as friends, over and over again.

on regards of my friends... i want to say i have a lot of friends, but to be honest, i think i have none.

(i think this is one of my depressing blogs i ever typed... but im just being honest on what the facts has given me)

there... i got no friends. and i am depressed too.


well after hanging-out with 'friends'...

fetch my mom.

go home.

do homeworks (if there's any) or...

...sleep all the negative (and even the positive) feelings away.

then dawn will come the next day and the same routine.

...again and again.

this stops after i graduate this March 2006.

...i guess it's about time to throw out what i'm feeling towards them, since March 21, 2005... 'cuz it's been bugging me all the time. though forgiveness has already happened, forgetting their actions (though it's very different from what they said) is something i won't forget and want to get back at them.

i really hate them... HATE THEM!!!

but there's this thing inside me that keeps me telling not to give up on them...

so far, i can't decide what to do.

help me.

help me.

help...

...and it ended with nothing to have. (why i hate mondays without cash...)
(November 21, 2005 / 8:48pm)


i just really hate it when i can't use my own money for my own purposes. though sharing is good, but hey! i need my stuff too!!! why does it always like this in this household... it's one of the main reason why i can't really save up for my wants.

it really pisses me off... i can't wait to get in a job and start spending my money for myself. not the other way around, spending my money of things i don't need (like paying up the debt of my parents... it's suppose to be their problem, not mine)... hay buhay!!

anyways... i just hate it kasi it's the start of the week and wala na akong pera... may lakad pa naman kami ni jax sa wednesday... pero makakagawa pa ako ng paraan... worst case scenario, sasamahan ko na lang best friend ko.

oh well... nangyari na eh... i gave my last money to my dad for his wrong doings.

anyways... yon lang na muna.

laterz.

nothing inside my mind right now... (though there are things that i have to do before i sleep)
(November 20, 2005 / 7:03pm)


just got home from a pseudo-family trip... yeah, i guess going out with the family for something can be considered as bonding time for us... anyways, i still have no money, except for the one i saved for wednesday's pseudo-shopping with my best friend at 168 mall at DV.

oo nga pala, i still have to finish the hand-out for my hum2 report 2mrw... sighs!

so right now... idle lang yung mind ko right now... while typing this blog and sipping some of my tea.

hmm... by the way, lately i'm having this 'wanting for something' gig... and i dnt know what it is... but the only thing i know is that it is something physical... like sex... cuz it's been a while since i had it (three months to be exact... im like ross!!! what a geek am i?!?!)

sighs. am i that pathetic (and desperate)?!

i need someone!?! (though i like someone right now... but it's a very complicated thing to tackle it right now and i don't wanna get depressed again)

oh well, this is the effect of having an 'idle mind' mode... my other system goes off, while others are going wacky... blah!!

i guess, i have to push myself to finish the thing before i go cramming around again...

nyt.

laterz...

Back to my regular routine-2 (and people said having a sequel sucks... try watching X2! :P)
(November 20, 2005 / 9:42am)


anyways, i woke up a while ago, around 5 in the morning. it's quite weird, waking up that early on a sunday morning. in my case, i woke cuz i need to do a #2 at the johns... which i see as a good sign of releasing those negative energies at the start of the day and start with a lot of positive things.

anyhow, im doing my research for my group's report and after doing the research (w/c is cut-paste over the net), i'll start reading for my soc sci2 class about plato & aristotle...

yeah, im really back to my regular school routine... though in the future (5 or more years from now) i'll miss it, but in the distant-future (months from now) i won't...

anyways... im on light load this last sem of mine. kaya kakayanin ko ito. :P

oh well... have to go back to my research...

by the way, i've already submitted my resume at starbucks... i hope those guys from starbucks would give me a call na for an interview, ASAP sana... para maka-part time work na ako and start earning money for my own. (wish me luck!)

got to go back to research-mode...

laterz... c",)

It wasn't that "BAD" after all... (except for the baho-people who didn't showed up in the first day of that class... yipee for me!!)
(November 19, 2005 / 7:14pm)


yeah, today, saturday... i have class. my very last sem before i graduate (hopefully) i still have saturday morning class. and of all my classes, it's the elective one that goes to a saturday. though at first i didn't really liked the class that my adviser gave me during enrollment, the 1st meeting wasn't that bad (at all!!). the only thing that made that specific class not-so-good to me was some of my classmates there... particularly two of them. thank the higher powers that they didn't came and attended the 1st day... it would really have ruined my weekend. these two people whom im talking about are one of the baho-people whom we really hate. because their attutudes are really have a bad stench...

anyways... nuthin' bad really happened naman this day...

good thing nga eh... i got a new CD for free... got it at a radio station... galing nga yung complilation... im quite listening to it while typing this blog.

oh well... i guess that's my day... good-good.

laterz... c",)

What a day...!! (i wished that i had superpowers a while ago, just to get home)
(November 17, 2005 / 7:56pm)


it's so tiring... it's not the commuting part (well, yeah it can be considered too, but it ain't the issue) but more of having not able to go home properly becuase i didn't have the enough money to go home... yes, im broke in a way.

then while thinking a good strategy on going home, i wished im a mutant with superpowers like my favorite heroes, the X-Men (see picture below)...



then, i was quite lucky to see some coins while i was roaming around the mall (how desperate am i? but hey, im just trying to survive... who cares!!) thus i was able to go to RP to try my luck.

luckily, my best friend was going there and was going to be fetched at RP... well, my bad luck on going home turned out to be lucky at all. so i got to hitch with him going home. what a relief.

then, i guess that's my day for now.

this not include 2mrw's early drive of my parents to quiapo... but that's 2mrw's problem. not today.

anyways, im good and cool...

oh yeah... my blog yesterday... 'bout the dilemma... didn't bother me that much today... i'll just keep a positive perspective and i hope all things around me will fall into the right probable places.

think positive is the key... i think (but who cares!?!) :P

laterz... c",)

the downside of graduation... (and it makes me crazy every time i think of it!!)
(November 16, 2005 / 10:06pm)


this has been my dilemma since i got to spill-out what im feeling when i was given the PTAT projective test last sem... What will i do after i graudate? and Where will i go after i graduate?

yeah, i got good grade in my thesis and an option to continue is still there... and there are also the jobs im trying to get in if ever i want to start saving up for myself... but there's no solid plan yet...

now, it's really different from what i've been through since i was a student.

the routine is very different from before... and it kills me every time i think about it and even if im not thinking about it. 'cuz lately it just pops out unexpectedly on my face.

oh men... this sucks!! (totally!)

i hate this feeling.

and i don't know who to talk to with this... even when i texted my best friend about this a while ago, im not expecting anything from him (even if im wishing that he would give me some advice).

this really sucks... sighs!!

oh well... i guess time is still young (i think?)

bahala na si batman.

i just really HATE this fucking feeling!!!

parang im gonna loose a lot of my life... kasi di ko talaga alam kung ano ang mangyayari sa akin... oh men!!! ahhh!!! this is very stressful to me...

oh men... damn. i just really wish / hope for something good for me.

anyways, have to sleep for the night (this may help me get rid of this dilemma / feelings i have)

g'nyt.

laterz...


*who ever is listening, from above, or reading this... i need ur support. wish me luck.

Another allergy attack... (which is quite equivalent on having a bad day)
(November 16, 2005 / 5:41pm)


damn this allergy attack... my nose is dripping a lot of liquids, plus the sneezing are frequent. good thing i only had one subject a while ago...

then when i went to metrowalk to look for some dvds... though i didn't get any, cuz there aren't new pirated versions of good flicks... malas nga eh... nabahingan ko yung isang tindera dun... kakahiya nga eh.

anyways, when i got home... i slept... then after an hour i went out to fetch my mom... still my allergy is still giving me a tough time...but i got used to it naman... kaya i got home na rin safe and sound.

right now, ill just rest for a while and try to get some steam-inhalation just get this allergy out of my system... so 2mrw it won't be a hassle for me.

...it's really a bad day for when i get an allergy attack... it's hard to concentrate and do the stuff needed... but, oh well, there's always 2mrw.

o cya... pahinga na muna ko.

laterz... c",)

why can't i just graduate and have something to start on? (too much of an old routine can really make me wish i have something new in my life...)
(November 15, 2005 / 8:16pm)


the 2nd day of the sem... and somehow i want out... and it's not the subjects or even the classmates i have.

it's more on ME... i want out of all these things... just leave and start a new life (again)... it's not that i hate the situation... i just want a different perspective in life... like getting a job and start really earning money for my own.

i guess this is some-what of a dilema i had when i was given a PTAT during assessment classes in psych a sem ago... sighs.

plus the friendship between me and my best friend... i hope it's stronger and that we can withstand any turmoils that we face... i just really value and respect my best friend a lot. (i was a wreck then... and have learned to move-on... and i don't want things to repeat again)

anyways... that's it for now... the ZZZzz's are catching up to me... have to get some rest.

laterz... (but hey!! im ok... im good... i can survive it)

Back to my regular routine... (and somehow i won't miss this after i graduate)
(November 14, 2005 / 8:07pm)


it's the start of my classes after a month's break... it's another sem, and this time, it's gonna be my last sem of college life... yes, there's a big possibility that i'll be graduating by March 2006; thus graduating on time.

this sem, i have no more majors to take... all of the subjects i'm taking right now are just mere GE Subjects... though i know they're not that important anymore... but it's required by the higher council of education to finish all required GE Subjects in order to graduate, legally.

anyways, im back to my regular & stressful routine... wake-up -> drive my mom to her office -> go to school -> fetch my mom at her office -> go home and feel stressed out -> sleep. hay... i won't miss this when i graduate... for sure.

kanina nga lang, pauwi... mdyo masaya ako kasi i got to see my best friend again, though it's weird, kasi it was just last saturday na nagkita kami... mdyo kinakabahan nga lang ako... kasi i sent him something sa email... i hope he doesn't get mad and just understand it... and have a more stronger friendship... i just really hope for the best.

<yawn!> medyo pagod nga lang talaga ako... i guess... i have to take some ZZZzzz's na rin...

nyt!!

laterz...

to be a kid again, just for a moment can be so satisfying!! (this is not connected to experiencing the "second childhood" phenomenon...i'm not that desperate...yet)
(November 13, 2005 / 12:57pm)


i was suppose to blog these pix last night, kaso when i got home at around 6:30pm... i changed to my pambahay attire, then.... BAM!! i fell asleep on my bed... and i woke-up a while ago at 6:30am... talk about 12 hours of staying at la-la land. :P

anyways... yesterday, my best friend and i went to a pseudo-road trippin at different tiangges... and on our 2nd place, which was the new tiangge somewhere in Ortigas Center... i got to bump into some vintage stuff... very old yet cool stuff as i may say it.

and among those stuff are old Marvel trading cards... so me and best friend went on a frenzy and tried to choose the cool ones... as for me... i got the x-men cards... hehehe!!!

the one above are from the series 2 of X-Men trading card-set (The Sentinel card, the one on the left) and the other two card came from, what i can recall, the 4th or 5th series of Marvel Trading card-set (The Inferno and X-Men, the two from the middle to the right).

nostalgia ito men!!! WHOA!!!

it felt good to have those... "im a kid" moments... shows that you can still have those adrenaline rush. (hehehe!!)

anyways... yon na muna...

there's another set of cards i got... they are on the lower blog...(just the enrty-blog after this)

to be a kid again... (part 2)
(November 13, 2005 / 12:47pm)

well my all time favorite mutants are here... retro-style!!!

here's the other set i got from that said tiangge somewhere at the Ortigas Center (i'm not gonna do those shameless plugs)...

these cards came from the 2nd series of Marvel Trading card-set...



GRABE na ito!!

Nostalgia... anyways... maya na lang uli...


laterz... c",)

i know what i did last monday... (what was i thinking!?!)
(November 11, 2005 / 1:48pm)


well, here are some pix that i took last monday... during my job interview at convergys, commonwealth, QC.

well... this pic was taken after all the exams i've taken... this was time that i'm so drained... cuz i started the exam at around mid-11am and ended almost 3pm. that long... im just wondering if their HR department has any ideas that people tend to have stress or be drained if given a long time for the examination... i can't remember what's the term... basta, mapapagod yung tao, and it can affect the thinking of the person.

anyways... i didn't got in. cuz i failed the final test, the ordinate test, in which they test your pronouciation and accent of your english... i guess im still too indigenious for them. though i passed their Technical exam, which is one of the qualification to be their tech support.

oh well... but it's a good experience... it's like a sort of a-welcome-to-the- real-world-ur-rejected-to-a-job kinda thing.

kaso nga lang, ang tagal talaga... and for the money i guess people would give their time and try it out...

anyways... yon na muna... tonight, my best friend will stay here at home... kasi 2mrw gagala kami at magka-canvas ng mga x'mas gifts.

o cya... maya na lang uli.

laterz... c",)

this was during their Call Center Representative Simulation exam... it was really dragging... nakaka-windang... i just made a random clickings on the choices... but it was fun, though. :P

but seeing this pic... makes me see that i dnt fit in the call center rep business... it would just make me go BLAH!!!

luck isn't just your ally... it can also be your enemy (tough luck isn't it?)
(November 9, 2005 / 10:57pm)


today is quite something... well every day is something... there might be a common thing, being 'something'... but it's so different from each day i experience.

well, cut the deep mind set and back to what happened to me. (yes, this is my blog... so being narcissistic isn't a personality disorder in this blog)

today went with a yikes to a ye-ya-yey and to a sighs and lastly to a haaay... all of these came along with a moment. anyways... it started with a rush of worriness, with driving my mom to makati to settle with the bank people... then followed by driving her to her office at lunch time. i was suppose to go back home after i drove my mom to her office...

then i changed my mind.

went to my college to try to talk to the people at the office if i can cross-reg at UP for my elective. 'cuz to be honest, im having those 'gut-feeling' thing about the elective i took here at my college... kasi ang panget ko magsulat eh... trip ko na nga sana yung mga suggestions ng best friend ko eh... then my luck turned against me. di talaga ako pinayagan magcross-reg sa UP...

oh men... it sux! but in a way, my good-professor myra let me see the brigther side of things... though it wasn't that bright... it's more of a dim side of things. anyhow... i'll continue with what i took here at kalay... i just pray that this, or the even the other subjects, wouldn't be that much of a burden.

anyways... i wish that luck would be on my side this sem, 'til i graduate this march '06.

oh well... have to face it and kick its ass... then i survive. no buts. no excuses. just plain 'ol surviving. anyways, i think kakayanin ko 'to... ako pa! :P

o cya... maya na lang uli.

laterz... c",)

graduation awaits... (and somehow it feels weird to me... really weird)
(November 9, 2005 / 7:23am)


yesterday i got to go back to Kalayaan College for the registration for the upcoming 2nd sem. when i got in and went to the 1st procedure of the reg was check a list... and im on the graduating list.

graduating list... it's kinda weird... 'cuz somehow it tells me that im graduating on time.

anyways... just to give a more theme-able to this day's blog... i've attached my high school grad pic. (and during those times, high school, i thought i was fat...)

oh yeah... this barong that im wearing in the pic... it still actually fits on me... so i guess when graduation march starts next year (March or April 2006) i'll be able to save money for a formal attire.

oh well... i guess that's it for a while.

laterz... c",)

*i can't believe it that im really graduating na!!! (though im not sure if i got the right elective subject... it's Broad Comm 100... journalism subject... well, i guess there's no harm on trying it.)

and now... the double-chin is somehow gone... (yes, pumayat na ako)
(November 8, 2005 / 7:02am)




this was taken last month when the Psych-batch (or better known to me as the Ka-psych barkada) went to hang-out at Tiendesitas @ C-5... and somehow, we went to a trip and rode on a kalesa...

and look at me... no more double-chin and i lost almost 10 pounds... hehehe!! :P

again... the days when i was fat.




this was almost 2 years ago... it was during our Psych Dev't class in which we try and went back to our oral stage (freud's point of view)... and look at my chin... it's fat. those were the days when i was slobby and lazy to realize that i should be watchful on my health and be fit... hehehe :P

those were the fat days...

Those were the days... (when i was quite fat)




this was also 2 years ago... it was the first gig @ kalay... and the main attraction was having razorback playing there... this is me when i was fat... and this was the time when i'm trying to get to know better my not-so-friends ka-psych yet... which resulted on a very strong bonding right now...

those were the times... :P

LAUGH Trip (HA-Ha-ha!! ...deep down in my mind i was laughing out loud)
(November 7, 2005 / 7:31pm)


watta day it is for me...

the laugh trip basically started when i applied for a job at a call center somewhere at commonwealth, qc... i was a walk-in applicant... i wasn't really into this call center-fiasco... but i guess there's no harm in trying it.

then again, the laughter started with some of the people i saw, who were also trying to get their big break on landing a job there... i could sense and see their desperate attempt to get a job. <im not being a negativist or being harsh to them... i guess being there and seeing and experiencing it personally can give me justice and understand in someways the situation im in...>

anyways... i was there at around 9am and i ended there at around 3pm... nakaka-ngarag to be honest but i see it as just a laugh trip... kasi i tend to see the negative and laugh it na lang.

though i wasn't able to get the job... it's no biggie for me... yeah, the experience was something... something to laugh at and learn from it too.

basta... enjoy na rin 'tong araw ko.

i-add pa yung pseudo-hang out ng best friend ko dito sa house ko... i miss those days... sana maulit muli... pati yung mga sleep-overs namin... enjoy eh.

oh well... anyways, great-laughing day it was.

laterz... c",)

Tra-la-la (and again... my mind wants to be crazy and just do it!!)
(November 6, 2005 / 4:42pm)


i guess a lot in my head runs wildly lately... but it's hard to share it here in my blog. (one thing is that it's too many to put it in just one blog and some people in my life kinda knows my blog at baka ma-miss understand nila yung utak ko...)

anyways... my head runs very wildly right now... or it's been, what?, it's been running wild since sem break started... maybe it's those things that my body wants, an adrenaline rush... kaso magastos to go somewhere and do somewhere wild... like bungee-jump or jump off a cliff... sighs... i want some adventure... i miss my old days in which nag-bungee jump ako, road a rollercoaster... i need an adrenaline rush!!!

hay buhay... anyways, this week naman is gonna be my last week of my last sembreak... and yeah, registration na rin namin... plus i'll try-out to apply as a tech-support for a call center @ somewhere in QC... anyways, wish me luck.

i guess dito na muna... maya nlng uli.

laterz... c",)

truth about life... and somehow it kinda stinks!!
(November 5, 2005 / 11:24pm)


i was suppose to blog the thing i've done for the past two days (yesterday & today)... about how much fun i had during my chillin'-out session at the beach we, the family, stayed... but i guess it's true what i've learned from my life's unfair concept... that there's always ups and there's always downs... yeah, i was having a blast at the beach, but somewhere others are having a tough time on their lives...

life stinks... though there are moments that the 'ups' can outwit the 'downs'... but reality check will somehow be there to show how life really stinks... (napaka-negetivist ko ba about life, hey... i'm just being realistic... sometimes, we have to step out of our fantasies to move on and realize that we are in shit-pit...)

anyways, the brighter side of all things... it is somehow related to Darwin's theory, in which survival is a key. yeah, if we manage to survive the stench of what life gives everyday, i can give us the advantage to survive and be more immune to what we can face in the future (and yeah.. it's weird, but somehow it's a learning processed day-by-day...)

anyways, just something to remind me too... just take one step at a time... di sa nagmamayabang, i have survived a lot of turmoils... but sometimes, i have to check on my stat now & then... baka kasi ma-back to sqaure one ako eh...

oh well... life's lessons really aren't that hard... complicated nga lang paminsan-minsan.

laterz...

it's weird... but it felt so good.
(November 3, 2005 / 8:51am)


hay naku, there really are things that i wasn't to expect to happen... but come to think about it, it's good it happened. i think it's part of my-so-called-life (my gulay! am i having those claire danes moment... it has been a while since i have those moments... now im thinking, when will my dawson creek or felicity moments be coming back to me... too much teen drama, have to get rid of it sometime)

anyways, 2mrw is the day that i'll be chillin' out sa beach... Woothoo!!! i can't wait for it.

it's kinda weird, kasi it's a family affair...'cuz it's been a while na lumabas kami... yeah, i know it will be something good na rin... family bond stuff... anyways... basta this weekend, forget the stresses of life and just relax and rest and just be with the ocean and the wind... that's the life. (and if u add a little bit of achieving nirvana... my life's work is done and i could die happy.)

neways... yon na muna...

yeah, if you're thinkin'... i'm cool and good about the things that happens to me kahit it's weird... cuz it felt good. :P life's something nga... :D

laterz... c",)

Beach-mode is in the air... (I can't f*&king wait to go for some R & R this weekend!)
(November 1, 2005 / 11:24pm)


yeah, i'm going to the BEACH (and it's not the BITCH...hehehe) this coming weekend!! kahit may kasamang kaibigan o wala, i'll spend it to relax and rest... plus try to bring a good (but not that big) book to read sa tabing-dagat...

oh paradise... here i come.

i cnt wait na... anyways, i'll try to swim, but i'll avoid getting some sunburns or darken my skin (arte ba? hehehe!!) basta... i'll enjoy this short rest mode before i go back to reality on the days that will follow, kasama na yung finishing the remaining SA hours and the enrollment.

beach... baby!!! :D

oh well... yon na muna... cge, tutlog na muna ako.

nyt.

laterz... c",)