July 18, 2005 / 9:32pm

brain-drain today... as in my brain is not working properly today... and i think it's shouting that it needs its rest...

well, tough luck... but anyways, i must have atleast have those bit-by-bit rest periods, just to control and avoid being sick due to stress-related work...

my day today was quite good na rin, kasi Isa waved at me first and i waved back... and seeing her makes my day happy... and i miss her... and im hoping i could hang-out with her na... and be friends talaga... i like her... and i wanna be friends with her.

anyways... my heart is shouting it all out right now... i think its the brain being off... hay naku.

i guess i have to sleep this out na muna and try to pin myself on the ground for a while... until this craziness is gone (i hope not... and i hope this turns out to be 'the one')...

o cya... papahinga na nga muna ako...

laterz...

July 17, 2005 / 9:52pm

well, this is my plan... I just computed what i needed to buy a PS2 after my defense this sept/oct... so far my aim is to have P11,320.00 by September 2005... anyways... have to SAVE. SAVE. & SAVE!!! para i cud really buy a PS2 as a reward for my thesis and all the i've been thru...

hay naku... now i have to work on some homeworks for psych 162... mdyo nahihirapan nga ako to what to do for the interview eh... anyways, i'll just read some hand-outs nlng... pressure (kinda lng...)

anyways, i have to save up na rin for my comics... may mga pending pa kasi dun sa market-market eh... anyways, i plan to get it... probably, worst case, next weekend...

Oh, yeah... pati na rin yung service-work ko sa school... hay naku... stress & pressure... but, hey... kakayanin ko 'to!!

anyways... give me strenght... and wish me luck.

laterz. c",)

July 15, 2005 / 10:26am

tinatamad akong mag-service kay baba ngayon... pero, i have to make really-good bawi sa kanya... hmmm... baka later ng hapon, yung 1 & 1/2 hr break ko, service ako... anyways... right now, i have the sniffles again... damn allergies!!!

anyways, maya naman ay wall-climbing kami ng hapon mga psych... yahoo!!! :P

hay naku... mdyo break muna ata ako sa thesis ko... but still, i have to do the possible methods for research... kasi in 2 weeks na yng due... anyways, break na muna ko dun for a day or two...

maya nlng ako papasok... di muna ako papakita sa skul... baka kasi maisip ng ibang tao dyan, may hidden agenda ako sa pag-interview ng ka-psych ko sa crush ko... hehehe (evil... hehehe!!)

anyways... have to chill out and rest na nga muna... if ever aalis ako... mayang mga 11, idadaan ko yung mga dvd na papapalit ko sa metrowalk...

o cya...

laterz!! :P

July 11, 2005 / 7:24pm

so far, im having a lot of things to fix up... these are the following:

-damage-control on the this that happens with the girl that im so falling...
-get some way to get added local references for rel.lit. ng thesis ko...
-revision of my review of related literature, which is due this thursday...

so far, yon lng... and right now, im quite sad... kasi, it happened again... i messed things up (again!)... even if i wanted to do some damage-control... wag muna... cool off na muna... and i hate this part...

i think iwas na muna ako... i think yon na muna...

o cya... BUT, i will try not to cry this out...

laterz.

July 8, 2005 / 5:31am

im having a hard time right now... hindi tungkol sa thesis or anything school-related. im having a hard time on what im feeling towards someone. to be honest, i wasn't expecting this to come... i always said to myself that i'll enjoy my single life and hopefully meet the 'one' after i graduate college... then it somehow changed... cuz i met someone that really hit me, made me fall and now i cnt take her out of my mind... anyways, i think the civil thing and the not-harmful way to approach this is to be friends with her first... or be friends with her . just to keep things in perspective muna.

i think this is the part that says, dnt quit... not just yet. anyways, i ever i see her today, or the coming days, i could just be with her more, not just saying 'hi' or 'musta'... my gulay!! im really hit hard this time with someone... sighs!!! really srtong feelings towards her... and not in a green way... more of love and liking...

anyways, i have to stop thinking of her always, it might distract some of my plans... but it's to keep a straight face (but i have no choice... i have to be this, for a while)...

wish me luck and keep me sane.


laterz.

July 7, 2005 / 7:24pm

well, i got a 2.0 for my 1st draft of my related literature... i think its good enough na rin... kasi mdyo good-good na rin daw yung lit ko, sabi ni mam myra... medyo add pa at revise pa ng konti... which is good na for a reward of watching FF this weekend, and also celebrate the bdays of my friends too.

anyways... im having a confused feelings right now... grabe... i think im really falling for her... kahit mdyo nahirapan ako to have a poker-face act... seeing her and saying 'hi' sa kanya, makes my day complete... but im looking for more.. and im really falling for her... BUT, im sobrang torpe... and i dnt know how to initiate it... and i hate coming too strong, like last week (it was really crazy-bad-slightly good week... believe me!!)

anyways... if ever things are good this week, kahit patapos na sya... i wanna ask Isa out next weekend... pseudo date (or something)... wala lng.. pero... im too torpe/afraid to ask...

hay buhay... if God want it for me... it will be for me... i wnt force it nlng.

o cya... gotta finish something muna...

laterz.

July 6, 2005 / 8:48pm

im bored.

i should somehow celebrate, kasi natapos ko yung 1st draft ng related lit ko... but now, im bored. by the way, may exam pa pala ako 2mrw for psych 162... i should be studying na... but somehow, i dnt know what to study... well i know, pero quite a mix-y one... sighs.

im bored...

anyways... yon lng... i think.

oh, im quiting some things (and some people) in my life too... some sort of a 'filtering' thing... it's gonna be painful, but i think i have to... but anythings not final yet... i love them, and they love me...

anyways... im bored... too many things in my mind right now...

o cya... maya nlng.


laterz.

July 6, 2005 / 3:09pm

IM DONE WITH MY 1ST DRAFT OF MY RELATED LITERATURE... WOOOHOOOO!!!

now, im happy.... yey!!! :P

wala lng, i wasn't expecting that ill be finishing at 3 in the afternoon... but hey!!! anyways, there were some casualties from my research... but for sure maidadagdag ko pa ang mga iyan on further furnishing my thesis...

hay... what a relief... enjoy!!

reward ko dito, movie gimik with jax sa saturday... yup... we'll watch fantastic four this saturday... at bibili ako ng mga dvd... hehehe!!! (** worst case scenario, kung di natuloy kami ni jax, ill still watch the movie, with or without him... it's my reward, walang hahadlang! hehehe.)

anyways, 2mrw early ill be submitting this paper... wish me luck... blood and sweat ito!!!

hay... rest muna ako... magsi-zips muna ako... hehehe... exercise!!

laterz... :P

July 6, 2005 / 12:31am

it's way pass midnight... well, so far i got the needed local readings from ateneo-makati... kahit dalawa lng ang mga ito... but hey, i also got some good court cases as well.

anyways, later the whole day, i'll be FULL RESEARCH MODE again... but i'll be finishing the draft for my related lit the whole day... and i'll force myself to finish it and NO ONE WILL INTERRUPT me!!! basta, i'll finish whatever i'll be finishing... so after this, i'll sleep na and when i dropped my mom to work, i start reading and adding more info for my paper... i hope this will be a work-of-art... cause it's my 'baby'.

anyways, i have to go to sleep na nga...

by the way, got to chat with Isa for a while... and napansin nya na wala ako sa kalay these pass two day (uy!!! napapansin nya pala ako... yehey!! :P) hehehe... wala lng...

o cya... maya nlng uli.


laterz c",)

July 4, 2005 / 6:56pm

it is official... i'll be going to ADMU Rockwell for research... and the good thing is i'll be commuting... tipid na rin sa gas and pera. tapos, i'll be meeting up with kuya 2mrw too for my CAP check... hay naku... i'm still on FULL RESEARCH MODE... and im hoping that i'll be finishing the draft by wednesday night...

anyways, i'll be going back to work in a little while...

laterz... c",)

July 4, 2005 / 11:15am

im not going to school 2day... so this is it... i'm in FULL RESEARCH MODE 2day until wednesday morning... yupyup. right now i got some more info about forensic psych... ill just add them to my related lit in a while.

then 2mrw ill be going to Ateneo Rockwell for research... the whole day... around 10am to around 4pm... i just pray and hope that i can get the sufficient article and data i needed for my related lit... para di na ako pupunta sa UP Law on wednesday... para focus nlng ako sa pagtapos ng 1st draft ko ng related lit, w/c is due on thursday morning...

hay buhay... wish me luck... and i pray for strenght, so i can endure this madugong sapalaran.

laterz. :)

July 3, 2005 / 6:25pm

just came home from driving my parents sa clinic for my dad's check-up... and somehow i got to see for the 1st time Gateway Mall... WOW!!!

and i saw the branch ng fully booked dun... grabe!! and i saw the illustraded version ng angels & demons... and i saw the both version of it... and i reserved the one that looks like the one i bought (the da vinci code illus version)... and it is a hundred pesos cheaper. anyways, im planning to get it nxt weekend... and i think it wont affect the saving i planned for the buying the PS2 after my thesis defense...

anyways, yon plng... and now i have to go back to work... and from 2mrw til wednesday ill be on FULL RESEARCH MODE...

wish me luck.

laterz c",)

July 3, 2005 / 12:29pm

i made up my decision, i wnt be attending school this week, except for thursday & friday. kasi from monday (2mrw) until wednesday i will rush to finish my reseacrh on getting local readings from either UP law library or ADMU-Rockwell library or both... so full-research mode ako until wednesday afternoon. then aside from that, i should added them up to my draft of Related Literature for my thesis which will be due this thursday. the pressure is too much, but as i said before (and coming from the Adidas ad, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE... IMPOSSIBLE is NOTHING!!)... and whoever stands on my way, will be hurt badly (even if they are my friends!)

then by friday... hopefully its back to normal and the adrenaline rush and all are back to its equilibrium... hay naku... it's like those missions on spys... hehehe... naks!! feeling Interpol / CIA agent uli ako.. hehehe :P

anyways... have to go back to my work on this thesis...

and by the way, im good... everything that happened lately was crazy... hehehe.

laterz. c",)

July 2, 2005 / 7:56pm

i made small error... i gave in that easily... and now, i somehow fell into the pit... and rigth now, i just got out and learned from that mistake na... now, things will fall into the places that i planned to fall on to. monday will be something...

anyways, yung amats from the drinking session kanina gave some clear perspectives and the things that seth told me gave me some plan... w/c means a plan is forming and again, it will be me, alone, again... sighs!!! (when will this be something new... going all renegade again... sana may ibang strat naman on the next mission...hehehe)

right now and 2mrw (sunday)... ill be starting to do my thesis... and i have to make a rush-rush on the research sa UP Law... kasi sa wednesday pa ako makakapunta and this coming thursday na ang due ng draft ng Related Literature... this only means one thing... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!

my mission / goal is set... and no one... NO ONE will ruin it... and whoever gets in my way... will suffer my wrath!!! (kahit kaibigan ko man sila... they'll not be exempted)

anyways...have to start na rin...

wish me luck...

for the time to take control is back...



laterz.

June 30, 2005 / 7:15pm

well, my day went well.

got to have a food trip with my psych-family (busog kaming lahat... PROMISE!!)

and saw the inspiration... yeah, i saw Isa... and made my day complete. :D

o cya... now im inspired to do my thesis na...

later. c",)

June 29, 2005 / 6:58pm

i didn't saw her kanina... DAGNAMIT!!! somehow, that made my later part of the day slow and somehow bored...

anyways, i cool na rin naman... there's always another day.

hay naku... i miss this feeling... but somehow im quite scared too... but i think there's a difference na rin from before... it's not as high school before... things changed.

right now, i'll just finish my statements for my thesis for 2mrw's class... yon lng then tulog na kasi maaga 2mrw.

sana makita ko siya...

oo nga pala, seth & his girlfriend, nina, ay ok na sila... mdyo kinabahan nga ako kagabi eh... but i think things are good na.

o cya...

laterz. ;p

June 28, 2005 / 10:01pm

just got home from the art gallery i attended with my FA friends... ganda. and its not just their ma'am amy, pati na rin yung mga art works na ginawa niya.

pero, our company would be much more fun if seth was with us... kaso i think he got into trouble (or something) with his girlfriend... but i just called him kanina, and so far... he's okay naman (i hope so)... kasi mahal ko yung mga kaibigan ko at nalulungkot rin ako pag-malungkot sila... i emphatized with them too.

anyways, generally my day was quite ok... kasi i saw Isa kanina... and said 'hi' and waved at them 'good-bye' before they went home... GRABE!! i never felt this way since... (cnt remember)... basta, im in love (and im proud to say it!)... and she's making me feel something i never have felt before... joy at times of turmoil, plus im attracted at her in a more respectful way. di nauna ang libog (which shows there's something to this...)

basta, seeing her... makes my surroundings good... birds are chirpping, sun is shining and there are the 'tra-lalas'... kahit umuulan kanina... c",)

anyways, gotta rest na muna... medyo nag-kicked in na yung jack daniels eh...

nyt-nyt...

laterz. c",)

June 26, 2005 / 1:06pm

WHOA!!! nsa friendster list ko na sya!! yahoo!!!

im so excited and happy... yipee!!

and now, ginaganahan uli ako mag-aral for my thesis... hay naku... adrenaline rush ba ito uli!??!

and also i got her full name too... (ill just keep it to myself na muna...hehehe)

o cya... i have to finish this crapy errand na pinapagawa ng parents ko...

im so happy!!! :P

laterz... c",)

June 25, 2005 / 9:36pm

well... im quite doing my thesis' related lit right now... medyo inspired ako ngayon eh (hehehe!)

ok-ok... the cliffhanger last blog was about someone na trip ko... si isa... the 1st time i saw her was during the summer time when she was inquiring in our college... then i thought then na, 'pwede... pero bahala na... pero sana...'

tpos, akala ko hanggang dun lng... until enrollment and when classes starts... ayon, i found out na pinsan siya ni eldon at close friend ni nina... and so far... tino-torpe na naman ako, but thanks to pimp-daddy-seth, things will be different (in a way)...

hay naku... in-love na naman ako... and this time, mdyo ginaganahan akong gawin 'tong thesis ko... hay naku!!!

hehehe...

anyways... im happy right now...

laterz... c",)

June 24, 2005 / 5:43pm

im quite pissed off with my dad... kasi he's not taking care of himself... kaya ayon, nagkakasakit sya... and ako dinadamay niya ako... he is somehow ruining my life and my plans... SIGHS!!!

anyways, on the lighter side of things... i am somehow getting the hang of practicing my zips... yeah, i'm getting good at it na... thanks to 2 people, aby & pao, who are somehow teaching me to use my zip lines... i'll just practice more on my turns more... hehehe... great exercise nga eh. :P

anyways... im dealing the things right now... im still gonna focus on my thesis more and plus on someone 'special' too (i'll make this a cliffhanger until it's official)... hehehe...

o cya... yon na muna... plus the thing with jax's txt messages kaninang madaling araw... hehehe... gago talaga yon... hehehe. :P

laterz.